by John Irving
Dean Bodger became one of the few people at the Steering School to endear himself to Jenny. He beckoned her aside and confided to her that, if she thought it useful, he would be glad to reprimand the boy--if Jenny thought that, coming from Bodger, it would make a more lasting impression than any reprimand she could deliver. Jenny was grateful for the offer, and she and Bodger agreed upon a threat that would impress the boy. Bodger then brushed the feathers off his chest and tucked in his shirt, which was escaping, like a cream filling, from under his tight vest. He announced rather suddenly to the chattering admittance room that he would appreciate a moment alone with young Garp. There was a hush. Garp tried to leave with Jenny, who said, "No. The dean would like to speak to you." Then they were alone. Garp didn't know what a dean was.
"Your mother runs a tight ship over here, doesn't she, boy?" Bodger asked. Garp didn't understand, but he nodded. "She runs things very well, if you ask me," Dean Bodger said. "She should have a son whom she can trust. Do you know what trust means, boy?"
"No," Garp said.
"It means: Can she believe you'll be where you say you'll be? Can she believe you'll never do what you're not supposed to do? That's trust, boy," Bodger said. "Do you believe your mother can trust you?"
"Yes," Garp said.
"Do you like living here?" Bodger asked him. He knew perfectly well that the boy loved it; Jenny had suggested that this be the point Bodger touch.
"Yes," Garp said.
"What do you hear the boys call me?" the dean asked.
"'Mad Dog'?" asked Garp. He had heard the boys in the infirmary call someone "Mad Dog," and Dean Bodger looked like a mad dog to Garp. But the dean was surprised; he had many nicknames, but he had never heard that one.
"I meant that the boys call me sir," Bodger said, and was grateful that Garp was a sensitive child--he caught the injured tone in the dean's voice.
"Yes, sir," Garp said.
"And you do like living here?" the dean repeated.
"Yes, sir," Garp said.
"Well, if you ever go out on that fire escape, or anywhere near that roof again," Bodger said, "you won't be allowed to live here anymore. Do you understand?"
"Yes, sir," Garp said.
"Then be a good boy for your mother," Bodger told him, "or you'll have to move to some place strange and far away."
Garp felt a darkness surround him, akin to the darkness and sense of being far away that he must have felt while lying in the rain gutter, four stories above where the world was safe. He started to cry, but Bodger took his chin between one stumpish, deanly thumb and forefinger; he waggled the boy's head. "Don't ever disappoint your mother, boy," Bodger told him. "If you do, you'll feel as bad as this all your life."
"Poor Bodger meant well," Garp wrote. "I have felt bad most of my life, and I did disappoint my mother. But Bodger's sense of what really happens in the world is as suspect as anyone's sense of that."
Garp was referring to the illusion poor Bodger embraced in his later life: that it had been little Garp he caught falling from the annex roof, and not a pigeon. No doubt, in his advancing years, the moment of catching the bird had meant as much to the good-hearted Bodger as if he had caught Garp.
Dean Bodger's grasp of reality was often warped. Upon leaving the infirmary, the dean discovered that someone had removed the spotlight from his car. He went raging through every patient's room--even the contagious cases. "That light will one day shine on him who took it!" Bodger claimed, but no one came forward. Jenny was sure it had been Meckler, but she couldn't prove it. Dean Bodger drove home without his light. Two days later he came down with someone's flu and was treated as an outpatient at the infirmary. Jenny was especially sympathetic.
It was another four days before Bodger had reason to look in his glove compartment. The sneezing dean was out cruising the nighttime campus, with a new spotlight mounted on his car, when he was halted by a freshly recruited patrolman from campus security.
"For God's sake, I'm the dean," Bodger told the trembling youth.
"I don't know that for sure, sir," the patrolman said. "They told me not to let anyone drive on the footpaths."
"They should have told you not to tangle with Dean Bodger!" Bodger said.
"They told me that, too, sir," the patrolman said, "but I don't know that you're Dean Bodger."
"Well," said Bodger, who was secretly very pleased with the young patrolman's humorless devotion to his duty, "I can certainly prove who I am." Dean Bodger then remembered that his driver's license had expired, and he decided to show the patrolman his automobile registration instead. When Bodger opened the glove compartment, there was the deceased pigeon.
Meckler had struck again; and, again, there was no proof. The pigeon was not excessively ripe, not writhing with maggots (yet), but Dean Bodger's glove compartment was infested with lice. The pigeon was so dead that the lice were looking for a new home. The dean found his automobile registration as quickly as possible, but the young patrolman could not take his eyes off the pigeon.
"They told me they were a real problem around here," the patrolman said. "They told me how they got into everything."
"The boys get into everything," Bodger crooned. "The pigeons are relatively harmless, but the boys bear watching."
For what seemed to Garp like a long and unfair time, Jenny kept a very close watch on him. She really had always watched him closely, but she had learned to trust him, too. Now she made Garp prove to her that he could be trusted again.
In a community as small as Steering, news spread more easily than ringworm. The story of how little Garp climbed to the roof of the infirmary annex, and how his mother didn't know he was there, cast suspicion on them both--on Garp as a child who could ill influence other children, on Jenny as a mother who did not look after her son. Of course, Garp sensed no discrimination for a while, but Jenny, who was quick to recognize discrimination (and quick to anticipate it, too), felt once again that people were making unfair assumptions. Her five-year-old had gotten loose on the roof; therefore, she never looked after him properly. And, therefore, he was clearly an odd child.
A boy without a father, some said, has dangerous mischief forever on his mind.
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"It's odd," Garp wrote, "that the family who would convince me of my own uniqueness was never close to my mother's heart. Mother was practical, she believed in evidence and in results. She believed in Bodger, for example, for what a dean did was at least clear. She believed in specific jobs: teachers of history, coaches of wrestling--nurses, of course. But the family who convinced me of my own uniqueness was never a family my mother respected. Mother believed that the Percy family did nothing."
Jenny Fields was not entirely alone in her belief. Stewart Percy, although he did have a title, did not have a real job. He was called the Secretary of Steering School, but no one ever saw him typing. In fact, he had his own secretary, and no one was very sure what she could have to type. For a while Stewart Percy appeared to have some connection with the Steering Alumni Association, a body of Steering graduates so powerful with wealth and sentimental with nostalgia that they were highly esteemed by the administration of the school. But the Director of Alumni Affairs claimed that Stewart Percy was too unpopular with the young alumni to be of use. The young alumni remembered Percy from the days when they had been students.
Stewart Percy was not popular with students, who themselves suspected Percy of doing nothing.
He was a large, florid man with the kind of false barrel chest that at any moment can reveal itself to be merely a stomach--the kind of bravely upheld chest that can drop suddenly and forcefully burst open the tweed jacket containing it, lifting the regimental-striped tie with the Steering School colors. "Blood and blue," Garp always called them.
Stewart Percy, whom his wife called Stewie--although a generation of Steering schoolboys called him Paunch--had a flat-top head of hair the color of Distinguished Silver. The boys said that Stewart's flat-top was
meant to resemble an aircraft carrier, because Stewart had been in the Navy in World War II. His contribution to the curriculum at Steering was a single course he taught for fifteen years--which was as long as it took the History Department to develop the nerve and necessary disrespect to forbid him to teach it. For fifteen years it was an embarrassment to them all. Only the most unsuspecting freshmen at Steering were ever suckered into taking it. The course was called "My Part of the Pacific," and it concerned only those naval battles of World War II which Stewart Percy had personally fought in. There had been two. There were no texts for the course; there were only Stewart's lectures and Stewart's personal slide collection. The slides had been created from old black and white photographs--an interestingly blurred process. At least one memorable class week of slides concerned Stewart's shore leave in Hawaii, where he met and married his wife, Midge.
"Mind you, boys, she was not a native," he would faithfully tell his class (although, in the gray slide, it was hard to tell what she was). "She was just visiting there, she didn't come from there," Stewart would say. And there would follow an endless number of slides of Midge's gray-blond hair.
All the Percy children were blond, too, and one suspected they would one day become Distinguished Silver, like Stewie, whom the Steering students of Garp's day named after a dish served them in the school dining halls at least once every week: Fat Stew. Fat Stew was made from another of the weekly Steering dining-hall dishes: Mystery Meat. But Jenny Fields used to say that Stewart Percy was made entirely of Distinguished Silver hair.
And whether they called him Paunch or Fat Stew, the boys who took Stewart Percy's "My Part of the Pacific" course were supposed to know already that Midge was not a Hawaiian native, though some of them really did have to be told. What the smarter boys knew, and what every member of the Steering community was nearly born knowing--and committed thereafter to silent scorn--was that Stewart Percy had married Midge Steering. She was the last Steering. The unclaimed princess of the Steering School--no headmaster had yet come her way. Stewart Percy married into so much money that he didn't have to be able to do anything, except stay married.
Jenny Fields' father, the footwear king, used to think of Midge Steering's money and shake in his shoes.
"Midge was such a dingbat," Jenny Fields wrote in her autobiography, "that she went to Hawaii for a vacation during World War II. And she was such a total dingbat," Jenny wrote, "that she actually fell in love with Stewart Percy, and she began to have his empty, Distinguished Silver children almost immediately--even before the war was over. And when the war was over, she brought him and her growing family back to the Steering School. And she told the school to give her Stewie a job."
"When I was a boy," Garp wrote, "there were already three or four little Percys, and more--seemingly always more--on the way."
Of Midge Percy's many pregnancies, Jenny Fields made up a nasty rhyme.
What lies in Midge Percy's belly,
so round and exceedingly fair?
In fact, it is really nothing
but a ball of Distinguished Silver hair.
"My mother was a bad writer," Garp wrote, referring to Jenny's autobiography. "But she was an even worse poet." When Garp was five, however, he was too young to be told such poems. And what made Jenny Fields so unkind concerning Stewart and Midge?
Jenny knew that Fat Stew looked down on her. But Jenny said nothing, she was just wary of the situation. Garp was a playmate of the Percy children, who were not allowed to visit Garp in the infirmary annex. "Our house is really better for children," Midge told Jenny once, on the phone. "I mean"--she laughed--"I don't think there's anything they can catch."
Except a little stupidity, Jenny thought, but all she said was, "I know who's contagious and who isn't. And nobody plays on the roof."
To be fair: Jenny knew that the Percy house, which had been the Steering family house, was a comforting house to children. It was carpeted and spacious and full of generations of tasteful toys. It was rich. And because it was cared for by servants, it was also casual. Jenny resented the casualness that the Percy family could afford. Jenny thought that neither Midge nor Stewie had the brains to worry about their children as much as they should; they also had so many children. Maybe when you have a lot of children, Jenny pondered, you aren't so anxious about each of them?
Jenny was actually worried for her Garp when he was off playing with the Percy children. Jenny had grown up in an upperclass home, too, and she knew perfectly well that upperclass children were not magically protected from danger just because they were somehow born safer, with hardier metabolisms and charmed genes. Around the Steering School, however, there were many who seemed to believe this--because, superficially, it often looked true. There was something special about the aristocratic children of those families: their hair seemed to stay in place, their skin did not break out. Perhaps they did not appear to be under any stress because there was nothing they wanted, Jenny thought. But then she wondered how she'd escaped being like them.
Her concern for Garp was truly based on her specific observations of the Percys. The children ran free, as if their own mother believed them to be charmed. Almost albino-like, almost translucent-skinned, the Percy kids really did seem more magical, if not actually healthier, than other children. And despite the feeling most faculty families had toward Fat Stew, they felt that the Percy children, and even Midge, had obvious "class." Strong, protective genes were at work, they thought.
"My mother," Garp wrote, "was at war with people who took genes this seriously."
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And one day Jenny watched her small, dark Garp go running across the infirmary lawn, off toward the more elegant faculty houses, white and green-shuttered, where the Percy house sat like the oldest church in a town full of churches. Jenny watched this tribe of children running across the safe, charted footpaths of the school--Garp the fleetest. A string of clumsy, flopping Percys was in pursuit of him--and the other children who ran with this mob.
There was Clarence DuGard, whose father taught French and smelled as if he never washed; he never opened a window all winter. There was Talbot Mayer-Jones, whose father knew more about all of America's history than Stewart Percy knew about his small part of the Pacific. There was Emily Hamilton, who had eight brothers and would graduate from an inferior all-girls' school just a year before Steering would vote to admit women; her mother would commit suicide, not necessarily as a result of this vote but simultaneously with its announcement (causing Stewart Percy to remark that this was what would come of admitting girls to Steering: more suicide). And there were the Grove brothers, Ira and Buddy, "from the town"; their father was with the maintenance department of the school, and it was a delicate case--whether the boys should even be encouraged to attend Steering, and how well it could be expected they would do.
Down through the quadrangles of bright green grass and fresh tar paths, boxed in by buildings of a brick so worn and soft it resembled pink marble, Jenny watched the children run. With them, she was sorry to note, ran the Percy family dog--to Jenny's mind, a mindless oaf of an animal who for years would defy the town leash law the way the Percys would flaunt their casualness. The dog, a giant Newfoundland, had grown from a puppy who spilled garbage cans, and the witless thief of baseballs, to being mean.
One day when the kids had been playing, the dog had mangled a volleyball--not an act of viciousness, usually. A mere bumble. But when the boy who owned the deflated ball had tried to remove it from the great dog's mouth, the dog bit him--deep puncture wounds in the forearm: not the type of bite, a nurse knew, that was only an accident, a case of "Bonkers getting a little excited, because he loves playing with the children so much." Or so said Midge Percy, who had named the dog Bonkers. She told Jenny that she'd gotten the dog shortly after the birth of her fourth child. The word bonkers meant "a little crazy," she told Jenny, and that's how Midge said she still felt about Stewie after their first four children together. "I was
just bonkers about him," Midge said to Jenny, "so I named the poor dog Bonkers to prove my feelings for Stew."
"Midge Percy was bonkers, all right," wrote Jenny Fields. "That dog was a killer, protected by one of the many thin and senseless bits of logic that the upper classes in America are famous for: namely, that the children and pets of the aristocracy couldn't possibly be too free, or hurt anybody. That other people should not overpopulate the world, or be allowed to release their dogs, but that the dogs and children of rich people have a right to run free."
"The curs of the upper class," Garp would call them, always--both the dogs and the children.
He would have agreed with his mother that the Percy's dog, Bonkers, the Newfoundland retriever, was dangerous. A Newfoundland is a breed of oily-coated dog resembling an all-black Saint Bernard with webbed feet; they are generally slothful and friendly. But on the Percy's lawn, Bonkers broke up a touch football game by hurling his one hundred and seventy pounds on five-year-old Garp's back and biting off the child's left earlobe--and part of the rest of Garp's ear, as well. Bonkers would probably have taken all the ear, but he was a dog notably lacking concentration. The other children fled in all directions.
"Bonkie bit someone," said a younger Percy, pulling Midge away from the phone. It was a Percy family habit to put a -y or an -ie at the end of almost every family member's name. Thus the children--Stewart (Jr.), Randolph, William, Cushman (a girl), and Bainbridge (another girl)--were called, within the family, Stewie Two, Dopey, Shrill Willy, Cushie, and Pooh. Poor Bainbridge, whose name did not convert easily to a -y or an -ie ending, was also the last in the family to be in diapers; thus, in a cute attempt to be both descriptive and literary, she was Pooh.
It was Cushie at Midge's arm, telling her mother that "Bonkie bit someone."
"Who'd he get this time?" said Fat Stew; he seized a squash racket, as if he were going to take charge of the matter, but he was completely undressed; it was Midge who drew her dressing gown together and prepared to be the first grownup to run outside to inspect the damage.