The Ballad of HMS Belfast

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by Ciaran Carson


  That someone else had snuffed it: a name drifting like an afterthought,

  A scribbled wisp of smoke you try and grasp, as it becomes diminuendo, then

  Vanishes. For fál is also frontier, boundary, as in the undiscovered country

  From whose bourne no traveller returns, the illegible, thorny hedge of time itself —

  Heartstopping moments, measured not by the pulse of a wrist-watch, nor

  The archaic anarchists’ alarm-clock, but a mercury tilt device

  Which ‘only connects’ on any given bump on the road. So, by this wingèd messenger

  The promise ‘to pay the bearer’ is fulfilled:

  As someone buys another round, an Allied Irish Banks £10 note drowns in

  The slops of the counter; a Guinness stain blooms on the artist’s impression

  Of the sinking of The Girona; a tiny foam hisses round the salamander brooch

  Dredged up to show how love and money endure, beyond death and the Armada,

  Like the bomb-disposal expert in his suit of salamander-cloth.

  Shielded against the blast of time by a strangely-mediaeval visor,

  He’s been outmoded by this jerky robot whose various attachments include

  A large hook for turning over corpses that may be booby-trapped;

  But I still have this picture of his hands held up to avert the future

  In a final act of No surrender, as, twisting through the murky fathoms

  Of what might have been, he is washed ashore as pearl and coral.

  This strange eruption to our state is seen in other versions of the Falls:

  A no-go area, a ghetto, a demolition zone. For the ghost, as it turns out —

  All this according to your man, and I can well believe it — this tin ghost,

  Since the streets it haunted were abolished, was never heard again.

  The sleeve of Raglan Street has been unravelled; the helmet of Balaclava

  Is torn away from the mouth. The dim glow of Garnet has gone out,

  And with it, all but the memory of where I lived. I, too, heard the ghost:

  A roulette trickle, or the hesitant annunciation of a downpour, ricochetting

  Off the window; a goods train shunting distantly into a siding,

  Then groaning to a halt; the rainy cries of children after dusk.

  For the voice from the grave reverberates in others’ mouths, as the sails

  Of the whitethorn hedge swell up in a little breeze, and tremble

  Like the spiral blossom of Andromeda: so suddenly are shrouds and branches

  Hung with street-lights, celebrating all that’s lost, as fields are reclaimed

  By the Starry Plough. So we name the constellations, to put a shape

  On what was there; so, the storyteller picks his way between the isolated stars.

  But, Was it really like that? And, Is the story true?

  You might as well tear off the iron mask, and find that no one, after all,

  Is there: nothing but a cry, a summons, clanking out from the smoke

  Of demolition. Like some son looking for his father, or the father for his son,

  We try to piece together the exploded fragments. Let these broken spars

  Stand for the Armada and its proud full sails, for even if

  The clock is put to rights, everyone will still believe it’s fast:

  The barman’s shouts of time will be ignored in any case, since time

  Is conversation; it is the hedge that flits incessantly into the present,

  As words blossom from the drinkers’ mouths, and the flotilla returns to harbour,

  Long after hours.

  Second Language

  English not being yet a language, I wrapped my lubber-lips around my thumb;

  Brain-deaf as an embryo, I was snuggled in my comfort-blanket dumb.

  Growling figures campaniled above me, and twanged their carillons of bronze

  Sienna consonants embedded with the vowels alexandrite, emerald and topaz.

  The topos of their discourse seemed to do with me and convoluted genealogy;

  Wordy whorls and braids and skeins and spiral helices, unskeletoned from laminate geology —

  How this one’s slate-blue gaze is correspondent to another’s new-born eyes;

  Gentians, forget-me-nots, and cornflowers, diurnal in a heliotrope surmise.

  Alexandrine tropes came gowling out like beagles, loped and unroped

  On a snuffly Autumn. Nimrod followed after with his bold Arapahoes,

  Who whooped and hollered in their unforked tongue. The trail was starred with

  Myrrh and frankincense of Anno Domini; the Wise Men wisely paid their tariff.

  A single star blazed at my window. Crepuscular, its acoustic perfume dims

  And swells like flowers on the stanzaic-papered wall. Shipyard hymns

  Then echoed from the East: gantry-clank and rivet-ranks, Six-County hexametric

  Brackets, bulkheads, girders, beams, and stanchions; convocated and Titanic.

  Leviathans of rope snarled out from ropeworks: disgorged hawsers, unkinkable lay,

  Ratlines, S-twists, plaited halyards, Z-twists, catlines; all had their say.

  Tobacco-scent and snuff breathed out in gouts of factory smoke like aromatic camomile;

  Sheaves of brick-built mill-stacks glowered in the sulphur-mustard fog like campaniles.

  The dim bronze noise of midnight-noon and Angelus then boomed and clinked in Latin

  Conjugations; statues wore their shrouds of amaranth; the thurible chinked out its smoky patina.

  I inhaled amo, amas, amat in quids of pros and versus and Introibos

  Ad altare Dei; incomprehensibly to others, spoke in Irish. I slept through the Introit.

  The enormous Monastery surrounded me with nave and architrave. Its ornate pulpit

  Spoke to me in fleurs-de-lys of Purgatory. Its sacerdotal gaze became my pupil.

  My pupil’s nose was bathed in Pharaonic unguents of dope and glue.

  Flimsy tissue-paper plans of aeroplanes unfolded whimsical ideas of the blue,

  Where, unwound, the prop’s elastic is unpropped and balsa-wood extends its wings

  Into the hazardous azure of April. It whirrs into the realm of things.

  Things are kinks that came in tubes; like glue or paint extruded, that became

  A hieroglyphic alphabet. Incestuous in pyramids, Egyptians were becalmed.

  I climbed into it, delved its passageways, its sepulchral interior, its things of kings

  Embalmed; sarcophagi, whose perfume I exhumed in chancy versions of the I-Ching.

  A chink of dawn was revelated by the window. Far-off cocks crowed crowingly

  And I woke up, verbed and tensed with speaking English; I lisped the words so knowingly.

  I love the as-yet morning, when no one’s abroad, and I am like a postman on his walk,

  Distributing strange messages and bills, and arbitrations with the world of talk:

  I foot the snow and almost-dark. My shoes are crisp, and bite into the blue-

  White firmament of pavement. My father holds my hand and goes blah-

  Blah with me into the ceremonial dawn. I’m wearing tweed. The universe is Lent

  And Easter is an unspun cerement, the gritty, knitty, tickly cloth of unspent

  Time. I feel its warp and weft. Bobbins pirn and shuttle in Imperial

  Typewriterspeak. I hit the keys. The ribbon-black clunks out the words in serial.

  What comes next is next, and no one knows the che sarà of it, but must allow

  The Tipp-Ex present at the fingertips. Listen now: an angel whispers of the here-and-now.

  The future looms into the mouth incessantly, gulped-at and unspoken;

  Its guardian is intangible, but gives you hints and winks and nudges as its broken token.

  I woke up blabbering and dumb with too much sleep. I rubbed my eyes and ears.

  I closed my eyes again and
flittingly, forgetfully, I glimpsed the noise of years.

  Eesti

  I wandered homesick-lonely through that Saturday of silent Tallinn

  When a carillon impinged a thousand raining quavers on my ear, tumbling

  Dimly from immeasurable heights into imaginary brazen gong-space, trembling

  Dimpled in their puddled, rain-drop halo-pools, concentrically assembling.

  I glimpsed the far-off, weeping onion-domes. I was inveigled towards the church

  Through an aural labyrinth of streets until I sheltered in its porch.

  I thumbed the warm brass worn thumb-scoop of the latch. Tock. I entered into bronze-

  Dark, shrines and niches lit by beeswax tapers and the sheen of ikons.

  Their eyes and the holes in their hands were nailed into my gaze, quod erat demonstrandum:

  Digits poised and pointed towards their hearts. They are beautiful Panjandrums

  Invoked by murmuring and incense, hymns that father passes on to father,

  The patina of faces under painted faces. They evoke another

  Time, where I am going with you, father, to first Mass. We walked

  The starry frozen pavement, holding hands to stop ourselves from falling. There was no talk,

  Nor need for it. Our incense-breath was words enough as we approached the Gothic,

  Shivering in top-coats, on the verge of sliding off the metronomic

  Azure-gradual dawn, as nave and transept summoned us with beaded, thumbed

  And fingered whispering. Silk-tasselled missals. Rosaries. Statues stricken dumb

  Beneath their rustling purple shrouds, as candles wavered in the holy smoke.

  The mosaic chapel echoed with a clinking, chinking censer-music.

  This red-letter day would not be written, had I not wandered through the land of Eesti.

  I asked my father how he thought it went. He said to me in Irish, Listen: Éist.

  Apparat

  Unparalysed, the robot bomb-disposal expert inched and tacked across the mezzanine

  As casually as someone to be barbered sits relaxing with a magazine.

  It was using ‘deep creep’ and ‘infinite hair’, conversing in its base-of-two conundrum.

  Its chips were bugged like all the toasters in the apparatchniks’ condominium.

  Turnbull twiddled with the radio controls. He twitched his robot’s claws.

  He felt the Mobile Ordinance Disposal Unit index through its dictionary of clues.

  Umbilical, he was in the waiting room. Barberlike, he opened up his case of instruments.

  He was beckoned by the realms of Nod. He entered in with incense and Byzantine vestments.

  The smart bomb got the message and intoned the right liturgical analysis.

  Latinate, they swapped explosive bits and pieces; they re-emerged in Nemesis.

  The Brain of Edward Carson

  They cracked the skull and watched its two halves creak apart, like the decks

  Of some Byzantine trireme. The herringboned, zipped oars, the chains and shackles.

  The bronze circuitry. The locks. The Titanic, legal depositions of the cells.

  The hammered rivets. The rivetted, internal gaze. The screws. The nails.

  The caulked bulwarks. The slaves, embalmed in honeycomb prismatic.

  Barbaric instruments inserted there, like hook and razor, iron picks

  By which they will extrapolate its history: the bronze, eternal static

  Of his right, uplifted hand. The left hand like a shield. The bolted-on, external

  Eyes. The seraphic frown. The borders and the chains contained therein. The fraternal

  Gaze of the Exclusive Brethren: orange and bruised purple, cataleptic.

  The map of Ulster opened up, hexagonal and intricate, tectonic:

  Its shifting plates were clunked and welded into place by laws Masonic.

  The ladder and the rope. The codicils. The compasses by which they sail

  Uncharted futures. The outstretched hand. The crown. The sash. The secret nail.

  And then disintegration intervened, the brain eluded them: Sphinxlike, catatonic.

  Opus 14

  Hole Blown in Baroque Splendour of Opera House (designed by Frank Matcham):

  The Security Forces were specifically looking for terrorists but spectacularly failed to catch them.

  Newly-appointed innumerate Chancellor of the Exchequer What-Do-You-Call-Him Clarke

  Was counting his stars in twos like the innumerable animals in Noah’s Ark.

  Did you know that ‘the set of all objects describable in exactly eleven English words’

  Is called an ‘R-Set’? I didn’t. It was dreamed up by the people who put the ‘surd’ in ‘absurd’.

  Spokesman for censored political party spoke in someone else’s lip-synch

  So perfectly, you’d think it was the man himself, though much of this is double-think.

  So I woke up this morning with yet another wrong solution to Fermat’s Last

  Theorem, which bore about the same relationship to global X as does the world to Atlas.

  He had a pocketful of pocket calculators, palindromes, and anagrams. The Name

  Of Names eluded him as yet, but he was working on it and had found the Name of the Game.

  The idea was that one and one made three, like in the Holy Family

  Or Trinity, where ‘three’ is pronounced ‘tree’, as in the Irish Christian Brother’s homily.

  I think this goes to show that Cajori’s study of mathematical symbols

  Is in part, like not to see the wood for trees, a graveyard for dead symbols.

  For you can deconstruct all sorts of words from ‘England’: angel, gland and dangle;

  It’s the way the Germans have captured the Gaolainn-speaking industry in Dingle.

  Sums are funny. Wars 2. Legs 1. Wives 2. Children 4. Wounds 2. Total 11. You know?

  Which reminds me to go and check out Nik Cohn’s book Yes, We Have No.

  Bananas is understood. It’s not known by many, or maybe it is, that Cohn’s from Londonderry or Derry,

  Which might account for the ambivalence of the fact of the Foyle’s not having a ferry.

  Of course, it has this double-decker bridge, at which you’re doubly checked.

  The soldier looks at you and then he looks at your picture. It’s pronounced echt.

  At the previous Chancellor’s Last Supper, he was seized by a sudden triskaidecaphobia

  Which took him to the fourteenth floor, where he became immersed in a conference of bankers from the Bank of Wachovia.

  It likes to do that. Wachovia. Which brings me back to baroque Opera House designed by Frank.

  The googolplex security net had been full of innumerable holes held together by string, to be frank.

  All Souls

  The unWalkman headphones stick out awkwardly, because they are receiving

  Not the packaged record of a song, but real-time input, a form of blah

  Alive with intimations of mortality, the loud and unclear garbled static.

  It’s the peripatetic buzz of static, like it was a Hallowe’en-like weather

  That you rarely get at Hallowe’en. The mushrooms mushroomed as per

  Usual, that is to say, in subterfuge, slowly dawning through on Instamatic.

  Like putting on spectacles, when what it was was blurred, then swims

  Into your focus. You can see they come from the Planet X, with their walkie-

  Talkies, the heavy warbling of their heavy Heaney tyres and automatic,

  Gyroscope-type-tank-surveillance technique, their faces blacked like

  Boots. Their antennae quivered on that Hallowe’en encountered just beyond Sans

  Souci. It was, in fact, outside the Fire Station, and the firemen, with Platonic

  Abandon, were going through their exercises, rehearsing for the Fire,

  The Bomb, the Incident, some routine dot on the dial, where the wireless

/>   Lights with intimations of Hilversum or Moscow, and the Radio Symphonic

  Orchestra is playing someone’s Dead March through the whistles and the static

  Of the dark you listen to. To which you listen, like routine intimations

  Of the precinct where the oblique Mandarins decreed antique

  Examinations. Then the sound was turned up suddenly, anorectic candidates

  Blew their fuses; they had failed to comprehend their hierophantic elders, who

  Laid the rubric down so many yonks ago in ancient mnemonic.

  Demonic intimations went on daily; routine, undercover orchestrations

  Of the nominated discipline of alphabetic, proscribed areas

  That ended, as they always do, in tragic, tired recriminations; rhetoric.

  It then occurred the Firemen had a Ball, it was at Hallowe’en. Ecstatically, they

  Didn’t have false faces on. They were plastic, not explosively, but faces. Then

  They tore their faces off. UnWalkmanlike. Laconic. Workmanlike.

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  They’d rehearsed the usual Heinz variety of condoms, clocks, fertilizer, and electrical flex,

 

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