SOME CLEANING UP
It is past the middle of the morning by the time they get to the truck and start back up the hill. As they approach the entrance to the Coulter lane, Mat says, “I’m going out to Roger’s. But there’s no use in your going, unless you want to.”
“Well, I ain’t got anything better to do.”
At Roger’s, as they expected, there is no one in sight. The only sound, after Mat shuts the motor off, is a loose sheet of tin on the barn roof grating in the wind. As they come up the slope of the yard a groundhog, sitting erect on his dirt mound at the corner of the front porch, tumbles into his hole.
As they turn the corner of the house and come in sight of the back porch, Roger’s half-dozen old Dominecker hens come running toward them.
“Hungry,” Mat says.
They go on to the back door. They shoo the hens out of the way, and the ragged old birds trot out to the limits of their fear and then come back like so many yo-yos.
Mat knocks, and they listen, and he knocks again, louder.
“Roger!”
No answer. They stand there a moment, the hens watching them, the flap of loose tin grating on the eave of the barn.
Mat turns the knob and gives the door a shove, expecting it to be locked; but it flies open, banging against a chair. The hens rush in and begin pecking at the corn piled against the chimney.
Roger is lying in the big four-poster bed, wearing shirt and tie and coat and hat, generously covered with quilts, his head propped against the bare headboard—sound asleep, his bottle propped beside him, a large briar pipe lying extinguished on his chest. That he has escaped burning himself up is owed, according to some, only to the Lord’s noted solicitude for drunkards and fools.
Mat and Burley stand outside the door, looking in, a little startled by the sight of what they had expected to see. And then, as if by a sudden exhalation of the old room, they are hit by the stench of it.
“Pew!” Burley says, “Good God!”
“I reckon you can see now where you made your mistake,” Mat tells him. “You’d have found things smelling a good deal better at your place.”
“I will admit,” Burley says, “them old hens have got a good deal better stomach than I do.”
Breathing as little as they can, they go into the cluttered room. They plunge through the wrangle of furniture and tools to the windows—which come open with considerable difficulty, and once opened won’t stay. Through all the rattling and banging Roger sleeps with the composure of a funeral effigy, emitting a series of remarkably lively snores. Having breathed the corrupted air as long as possible, they hurry back outside. Searching the yard, they pick up sticks to prop the sashes and plunge in again.
They come out this time ahead of the wind, which comes pouring through the opened windows behind them, and they stand in the yard to let it work.
“Let her blow. Let her breathe.”
They stand a while and let her breathe, and then Mat says, “Well, do you want to see if we can wake him up?”
They drive the chickens out and toss several ears of corn into the yard to keep them busy, and go over to the bed. Mat leans and taps the old man on the shoulder.
“Roger.”
Not a stir.
“Wake up, Roger!” He shakes him. “Oh Roger!” He shakes him hard, and the old man’s eyes open.
“Roger, wake up! You’ve fouled yourself like a baby. Are you sick?”
“There’s none here, sir,” Roger says in a weak thin voice, raising a hand. “None here. In the bank, in the bank. There’s not any here. It’s in the bank.”
“Roger, it’s Mat and Burley. You’ve stunk the place up till a normal man can’t breathe in here.”
“Cousin Mat, I’ve lost control of my unavoidables.”
Roger, remembering the bottle then, feels along the headboard for it, and slips it under the covers.
“What we want to know, Roger—are you sick?”
“I’ve—ah—been slightly under the weather. You might say. Yes.”
“Or are you just drunk?”
“No, Cousin Mat. Indeed not.”
“You’ve been here all night without a fire, Roger. How long has it been since you got up out of that bed?”
Roger’s voice chirps with righteous sarcasm. “Why, I would imagine, not since about Washington’s birthday.”
Mat walks away. When he speaks again he speaks to Burley. “Let’s build a fire.”
They soon have the little stove roaring and crackling with as much fire as it will hold. They find a washtub and fill it and set it on the stove. While they wait for it to heat they set the room to rights. They carry out and pile up and rearrange and sweep until it is possible to cross the room in a fairly straight line without climbing. While they work Roger lies as they found him—asleep or awake, they cannot tell.
When the water is warm they set the tub on the floor in front of the stove.
They find a piece of soap, a scrap of a rag, an old towel, and put them on a chair beside the tub.
Mat goes back to the bed.
“We want you to take a bath, Roger. Can you get up?”
“If you please, Cousin Mat, I wish to sleep. Your visit, and Mr. Coulter’s too, is appreciated, I want you to know. But now, perhaps, you will be so kind as to leave.”
Mat jerks the quilts back and takes a handful of Roger’s shirt.
“Get up! Stand up!”
And he brings him up, and stands him upright on the floor beside the bed.
Roger stands there in hat and coat and shirt and soiled underwear, sagging a little, but standing up, surprised—for once, silenced—by Mat’s anger.
The two cousins stand face-to-face. They seem to balance a moment across Mat’s pointing forefinger, which then buries itself up to the first knuckle in Roger’s coatfront.
“Roger, I want you to clean yourself up. I want you to wash yourself. And when you get those clothes off, put them in the stove, you hear?”
And Roger turns, obedient as a child, and gets started on his buttons.
“Have you got other clothes to put on, Roger?”
“I should think so, cousin.”
“Clean?”
After looking in the wardrobe, Mat takes the cleanest of the quilts from the bed and folds it and puts it down beside the washtub. “You just wrap up in that, Roger, when you get clean. And keep close to the fire.” And to Burley: “Let’s just carry that mattress and the bedclothes out and burn them.”
And they do, each of them taking two corners of the mattress and doubling it, lugging it off the springs and out into the yard. They pile the debris of their earlier cleaning on top of it, soak the whole mess with coal oil, and set a match to it. A big fire stands almost instantly over the pile, the flame-end cracking like a whip.
“There’s nothing here fit for a human to wear or sleep on or eat,” Mat says. “If you don’t mind staying with Roger, I’ll go to town and see what I can find. We’ll need to eat before long. And I’ll have to stay here, I reckon, until I can get Roger straightened out.”
“You go ahead. If Mr. Merchant lives through that bath, I’ll see to him.”
A PLEASING SHADOW
Margaret has taken off her hat, and put on an apron over the clothes she wore to church. She looks around at Mat and smiles as he comes into the kitchen, and turns back to the stove. She is wearing her grey dress that so becomes her—a pretty woman. He takes that in. He comes into her presence as he would come into the pleasing shadow of a tree—drawn to her, comforted by her as he has been, usually, all his life. And in spite of all that he has to do, he pulls a chair out from the table and sits down.
“Widow woman, you look mighty nice.”
“I was wondering when you’d be back. Did you all get down to the Crops’?”
He nods. “They lost their little girl, Margaret. Annie. She drowned in the flood. And Gideon’s gone.”
“Ah!” Margaret turns toward him, and tho
ugh he does not look up he feels her looking at him while he tells her.
“We saw Ida,” he says, finishing, “and she seems to be doing as well as you could expect. Better.” He utters a kind of laugh, a sound of amazement and pity. “She’s farming that old place like there never was anybody there but her.”
“Mat, she oughtn’t to be there by herself.”
“I know. And I told her to come up here, but she wouldn’t hear of it. ‘I got this stock here to look after, and these chickens, and them old cows to milk.’ ”
“Well, I must go down there.”
“Yes. You must. The next time I go. But now I’ve got to do a family duty.”
She looks at him.
“Roger. He’s been down drunk, and got in awful shape. I suppose we’re going to have to arrange to take care of him, whether he wants it arranged or not. I’m going to call Wheeler and see what can be done.”
“What are you going to do now? Today, I mean?”
“Well, Burley’s out there with him. And I guess I’ll have to stay a night or two until he’s straightened up, and by that time maybe we can find somebody to live with him. First thing, though, we’ve got to have something to eat, and Roger’s got to have something fit to wear. And since Burley and I burned up his old mattress and his bedclothes, I’d better get some bedding out of the attic.
“So”—he goes to the door, stops, and looks back—“why don’t you see what you can scrape us up in the way of vittles? And I’ll get the bedding.”
“Lord, Mat, things are happening here, aren’t they?”
“Yes. They are—and have and will.” He comes back and kisses her. “Maybe you can find one of my old suits for Roger. He’s particular what he wears, you know.”
Half an hour or so later Mat finds Roger sitting by the stove in his hat, wrapped in the quilt. And Burley, having further simplified the order of the room, is finishing a second sweeping of the floor. The room smells of burning locust wood and the fresh wind.
Mat sets his load down on the table. “Well, did he get washed?”
“All but his hat, I think.”
Mat hangs the fresh clothes over a chair beside Roger. “How’re you feeling, Roger?”
“Somewhat refreshed, thank you, cousin.”
“Good. Put these clothes on, then. And we’ll fix a bite to eat.”
He and Burley finish unloading the truck, and make up Roger’s bed and a cot for Mat, and prepare a meal.
Roger sits across from them at the table, as bodiless-looking as a coat hanger in Mat’s suit, his frail old face and hands sticking unaccountably out of the collar and sleeves. There is a certain exaggerated delicacy in his handling of the knife and fork—a certain tilt to the face, as if he is balancing an invisible straw on the bridge of his nose. He looks, Burley thinks, like a cross between King Louie the Fourteenth and a turtle. When he finishes eating he leans his head against the chair back and goes to sleep.
FOR SOMEONE WHO WILL COME LATER
That night, after dark has fallen and the supper dishes have been put away, Mat sits in the small light of a lamp in a corner of Roger’s kitchen, reading the Sunday paper that he brought back from town when he went in the late afternoon to do his feeding. In the bed on the opposite side of the room Roger lies asleep.
Mat is more than a little lonely, more than a little depressed at having to be away from home at such a time. Once or twice he has had to fight off the temptation to get in the truck, along with this fruitless dying branch of the family, and go back to Margaret and his own house. But he has plenty of reasons not to do that—not to be fetching in the worst to be served by the best. But still his own house tugs at his mind.
In this alien house, troubled only by its slow weathering and going down, Mat is aware of other houses: Gideon Crop’s, the Coulters’, his own—and others, at all distances, in all times of day and night, troubled by deaths and absences.
He sits alone with the brutal history of his time, reading bad news and bad good news, as if there is nothing else to read, believing that probably there is not. Once, in Port William, they might not hear of a death in Hargrave until after the burial. Now they know the outcome of a battle on the other side of the world before the dying are dead.
He sits, making his mind be led by the words, under the fall of light from the lamp. The narrowly opened window above the table breathes the freshening of the year, the moist night, the shrilling of frogs. And across the room continue the audible entrances and exits of Roger’s breath.
In the left-hand pocket of his shirt since the middle of the afternoon has been his copy of a contract—drafted by Roger’s lawyer in longhand on yellow paper, signed by Roger and by Mat—by which Mat is employed as overseer of Roger’s property at an annual wage of something less than he imagines will pay for his trouble. That afternoon’s meeting between Mat and Roger and the lawyer bore no resemblance at all to their earlier ones. Mat controlled it deliberately from the beginning, deferring neither to Roger’s wish to speak nor to his own consideration, which once constrained him, of Roger’s right of say-so. They sat at the kitchen table and made the agreement to Mat’s specifications, the old lawyer writing on his pad below Mat’s pointed forefinger. For Mat was angry enough, and he had told himself: “If anybody besides him is responsible, it’s me, and I’ve sat and watched as long as I’m ready to.” Before it was over, while the lawyer was still there, he said to Roger: “There’ll be a man coming here, as soon as I can get hold of one, to live with you, and look after you, and keep this old house. You can’t go on living here by yourself. Do you understand?”
And Roger said he did.
Mat takes no pride in that—it is only patchwork—but he is glad, relieved. And he has made some plans. Coming and going in the latter part of the afternoon, he has looked newly at Roger’s land. Some of it, the steep ground of the hillsides, is worn out; it will have to be owned by its thickets longer than Mat will live. That part of it he has put to rest in his mind, turning to what can be kept and used and made better. While he was at home in the afternoon he hired Ernest Finley to work on the barn at Gideon Crop’s.
Although he has increased his worries, he has no regret, no feeling that he has done less or more than he had to do. But a few days ago, if he had considered expending time and bother on this land, he would have considered also the possibility that he might later be able to buy it. But now Virgil is missing, and Mat needs no more land for himself. He is too old now to need it—if he ever did. This new work must be done for the sake of the land itself—and for the sake of no one he can foresee, someone who will come later, who will depend then on what is done now.
A SPRING NIGHT
Tuesday and Wednesday it turned cold again. The wind blustered all day both days. But sometime Wednesday night the weather quieted, and Thursday morning the spring seemed to have gained back all it had lost, and more.
On Tuesday morning Wheeler Catlett phoned and left word for Mat that he had found a man who might do to stay with Roger, and that the two of them would drive up to look at the place and talk wages that afternoon.
An arrangement was made, and the man—a hearty, loud-talking fellow named Bailey—promised to gather his belongings and return on Friday. Now, Thursday night, supper finished and Roger gone sober to bed for the fourth night in a row, Mat is sitting alone on the well top behind the house, smoking a cigar. Just the pale last minutes of the twilight are left. The sun’s heat rises out of the ground, and the air is still and warm—summer air. During the day, taking Roger with him here and there in the truck, he has made the beginnings of his spring work, and he is tired with a familiar tiredness that now, near rest, comforts him. In spite of the bothering with Roger, it has been a good day, and the night is good. Tomorrow night he will be at home.
Behind him, in the old kitchen, he hears Roger cough and stir. And he becomes aware of a sadness, too, that he has been feeling, staying there those nights. Roger is old with his was
ting of himself and with age—coming down to the end of the line, for him, and for the line too. Mat has been thinking of that. Roger is the last remnant of a history of which he is the only admirer. After him, there will be no sign that the Merchants ever existed, except for a diminishment of the earth and of human possibility. They have gone, and are going, leaving nothing behind but thicket growing back over the slopes they destroyed, and a remnant of usable soil on the ridges and in the bottoms that they would have destroyed if they had lived long enough.
Around Mat, the country throbs with the singing of frogs. Too high in the dusk to be seen, a flock of wild geese passes, a kind of conversation muttering among them. They will go talking and talking that way all night, flying into new daylight far off. That they do not think of him, that they go on, comforts Mat. He thinks of those wild things feeding along weedy lake edges way to the north with a stockman’s pleasure in the feeding of anything, and with something more.
And now Burley Coulter steps over the sagged yard fence without breaking stride and comes on down the slope of the yard through the dead weeds, carrying an unlit lantern in his hand. He comes over to the well and sits down beside Mat and lights a cigarette. They sit smoking for a while.
Finally Burley says: “Spring night sure enough, ain’t it? Frogs singing.”
“Yes.”
“And I heard a flock of geese go over just before I got here.”
“I heard them.”
There is another silence, and again Burley is the one who breaks it: “Well, Mat, since I saw you—when was it I saw you? Day before yesterday evening?”
“I think so.”
“Well, after we talked I went and talked to Jarrat, and we did some telephoning to various ones about Ida’s troubles. If everybody does like he says, we ought to be able to give her all the help she’ll need. We went down this afternoon and broke some plant-bed ground on top of the ridge. Some of the others are going down tomorrow to haul wood to burn on the beds when we get them ready. And I reckon that’s about the way it’s going to go.”
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