by Akaku Red
My eyes searched for Tyler, and as I found him, my thoughts couldn’t be controlled and my heartbeat started to speed up.
He looked so fine, his suit was perfectly fitted, let alone his handsome face! Even though he looked mad, he still appeared to be like an angel.
Dean couldn’t resist anymore, he started laughing about something I didn’t understand.
He came closer again and placed a kiss on my cheek, which made Charlotte screech, but it was muffled, since she covered her mouth with her hands.
Tyler was not pleased at all.
He eyed Dean with a scary glare, which made me feel unwell, but Dean didn’t show any interest… he only shrugged his shoulders.
“Well, I guess you already have someone, who is going to guide you home.“
He said.
“And I don’t have anybody.”
Charlotte sighed.
I was still confused over the fact that Dean gave me a kiss again— and I was also confused that Tyler got out of his car to get me, normally he would wait for me there.
“Dean just promised to escort you. Didn’t he?” I muttered.
Surprised by my own words, Dean started laughing.
“So, you can talk after all!”
I shook my head and tried to push him away, but he grabbed my arm and smiled.
“You need to stop playing around.”
Charlotte meddled in and helped me out, freeing me from Dean, then she shoved me over to Tyler.
“You have your escort already.”
The next thing she did, was banding over to me, and whispering the next words into my ear.
“I told you, he wants you.”
I felt the heat creeping up to me.
Charlotte was smiling, before she turned and grabbed Dean.
“See you tomorrow! I have a special escort today.”
Dean had a heart stealing smile on his face.
“She is a freaky girl, I like that. See you tomorrow, Jenny.”
Chapter 10
Tyler didn’t talk at all, even as we got in his car.
That’s so I was silent too.
But I broke the silence, as we arrived and he followed me into my house.
“I thought you had something to do.”
He let himself sink on the couch and sighed loudly.
“Yeah … but I didn’t take a break, so I have time to relax now.”
I remembered Peter’s speech about Tyler, who wouldn’t rest and who did his work properly.
He was overworking.
And I am sure that he didn’t even drink while doing his work.
He even looked tired… without thinking much, I walked to the kitchen just to get him a glass of juice.
After I did that, I went back to the living room and sat down next to him. He took the glass gladly and started drinking out of it.
“Thank you.”
I smiled and leaned back on the couch.
“No problem! I’m sorry, because of me you’re stressed. If you didn’t need to fetch me, then you would have one thing less in mind.”
Tyler placed the empty glass on the table, and sighed again.
“First of all, you aren’t a thing. Second of all, my day was great until I saw that jerk again.”
I stayed silent for a moment, but his facial expression and his words made me giggle.
“And there I thought you had a bad day!”
Tyler stared at me, his blue eyes gleamed like silver.
“You think this isn’t a serious matter?”
His voice sounded deeper than usual.
“Getting tense over a ‘Jerk’? Yeah … this is a serious matter.”
I folded my hands over my stomach, as I made my sarcastic remark.
“He touched you again, he even kissed you. I don’t like that!”
The heat crept up to my cheeks, his words made it sound like I was making out with Dean, but it wasn’t the case! And I also didn’t know why Dean even kissed my cheek.
I usually never let a strange guy touch me, so how could I explain this situation?
Somehow I didn’t want to tell Tyler, that he seemingly … was somebody I knew as a child … And I also didn’t wanted to ask him if it was true that he was involved in a meet up.
“So as an apology, I will take your lap.”
“What?”
Before I could react, he already laid down on the couch on his back, placing his head on my lap.
Seeing his face like this, made me blush.
His soft hair was tickling my hands, which were still placed on my stomach, his eyes were closed.
“If you don’t mind, I will take a little nap now.”
It was obvious that I didn’t have a say in his decision.
And I wasn’t mad about it.
I thought that he needed it, he seemed tired anyway.
My hand moved to his head and brushed over his soft hair, while I placed my other one on his shoulder.
“When should I wake you up?”
He sighed, eyes still closed.
“I ordered a pizza for us, so … till the delivery man comes over.”
“When did you do that?”
He gave me a quite smile.
“As I was at work, but I forgot which time! Anyway he will come.”
“Okay, then rest well…”
His smile faded slowly, and we stopped talking.
I stared at the table for a while, before my eyes moved back to look at Tyler’s chest; it was raising and lowering in a calm rhythm, his regular breathing, made me think that he had fallen asleep.
My gaze followed his stature up to his full lips, his straight nose, up to his closed lids. His skin tone seemed golden, it made me want to touch it, but I resisted the urge to do it, so I admired him silently.
On a digital clock, which was placed over the TV on the other side of the living room, I saw that more than thirty minutes had already passed.
For me it didn’t seem long, but I was sure my legs would feel otherwise, since right now they felt numb.
I liked having him near me, that was why I endured it.
After a while, I started thinking about what Dean had told me.
I still couldn’t believe it … because this man in front of me was different from all the others I had ever met, He was caring, loving, kind and protective. In these months, he never once made me feel bad, he never did something to upset me.—In fact, he made me feel alive. I only had him and Elise.
My new friends just recently came into my life.
And even though I only knew Tyler this year…
I still trusted him.
Moving my head down, I placed my forehead on his.
My hand which laid on his shoulder, went closer to his neck.
I breathed in, his manly scent, letting it captivate my mind.
“Please, don’t betray my trust.”
I whispered.
“Because I trust you… with all my heart.”
Ending my quiet speech, I lifted my head, so my lips were on his forehead.
I kissed it softly, my eyes closed.
I am so terrified… and I couldn’t even explain, why I felt this way.
But please, I don’t think I can endure another … loss.
I suddenly felt like crying, even though nothing bad had happened. — But I felt sad.
I opened my eyes, just to find deep blue ones looking straight into mine, Tyler was staring at me with a carving hunger, as if he would make me his any second, but there was just something deep in his gaze, that stopped him, it showed regret and suffering— Suffering from something, that kept him from his greed to touch me.
“S-Sorry … I didn’t want to wake you up.”
I moved my hands away and leaned back on the couch, at the same time, the doorbell started ringing. Tyler lifted himself up, I thought that he was doing so, so he could open the door, but it wasn’t the case. As he got up, his face was on my eye level, he placed his arms beside me, right and l
eft. I was surrounded by him, making it impossible to move away.
“I would never betray your trust. You have no clue… how much you mean to me.”
His nose touched mine.
“You don’t know.”
The words made me sigh slightly.
This man was driving me crazy, my feelings were going crazy. My heart was beating too fast, my head felt dizzy — while he kept coming closer with his face.
He looked at my mouth, as if he was in trance.
I parted my lips to say something, but I just ended up licking my lower lip and closing it again.
“You shouldn’t have done that.”
His words made me shiver again, he felt my body reaction, which made him growl deeply. I could already taste his breath, he was so close. But, as the bell kept on ringing, he stopped before his lips could touch mine.
He let out a deep breath before he got up and headed in the direction of the door.
In the meantime, I tried hard to control my feelings and my heavy heart beat.
I felt disappointed.
Yet, glad that the delivery man stopped Tyler from doing something, I was not really ready for.
Yes, even though my body liked his touches and my feelings were overwhelmed, it still was too much for me.
He couldn’t possibly like someone like me.
“Jenny, the pizza is getting cold. You need to come over here!”
I tried to get up, but my legs had gone dead, I couldn’t move them at all.
“Do you have a problem with getting up?”
Tyler was standing behind the couch and smiled.
“I-I just need a moment.”
Damn my stutter.
All of sudden, he was standing right in front of me.
In on go, he lifted me up and carried me to the dinning room.
“I-I told you that I needed a moment!”
Covering my face with my hair, I heard him laughing.
“This is the least I could do, since you had let me sleep in the most comfortable place ever.”
He let me down on the chair and took the seat next to me.
The embarrassing situation wanted to take control over me, but as soon as I smelled the delicious smell of the pizza, I stopped thinking about it.
I was hungry, and now I felt it even more! We both started eating silently and as we finished, I was the one who cleared the table. Tyler leaned back on the chair and stared at the ceiling.
I watched him silently from behind, admiring him from afar….
After I finished cleaning, I washed my hands and joined him again.
“Thank you.”
I muttered after a while.
“I didn’t do anything.”
He said, his gaze was searching for mine.
“You stayed with me, even though you had something to do.”
I reminded him.
“This is not something worthy of mention… For me, this is the most precious time!”
Placing his hand on mine, he closed it tightly.
“Same for me…”
I whispered.
“Thank you for the beautiful kiss.”
He pointed at his forehead.
“Your words were beautiful too, but … Did this jerk say something, that made you worry?”
My brows rose, my hand tightened.
“What could he have said to me?”
Tyler tensed again.
“I don’t know… Anna told you that I was a womaniser, maybe he told you something like that, too!“
My grip loosened up.
Oh … he thought like this.
And I was afraid, that he would …
But what was I afraid of?
Was I afraid, that he knew Dean from the past, and that he really was involved in the meet up?— Or was I afraid, that he … was not the person he seemed to be?
“No, he didn’t say something like that. In fact we didn’t talk about you. He talked more about himself. I just said those words, because … I wanted to.”
Tyler breathed out from his nose.
“I don’t like him. He is a little brat.”
“He is a bit arrogant but … he seems nice.”
I muttered.
“Still, I don’t like him!”
He crossed his arms over his chest, his brow twitched, as if he imagined Dean in front of him.
His reaction made me smile, and my body just made me touch him again.
Cute!
I got up from the chair and brushed over his soft hair with my hand.
“You shouldn’t talk like this about people you don’t know.”
His brows rose up.
“Don’t tell me, you are attracted to him!”
My hand stopped moving, I lifted it up and touched my chin, I started thinking hard.
What kind of answer should I give him?
“Well, he is good looking…”
Tyler made a sound of repulsion, and before I could even react, he grabbed my hips and made me sit on his lap.
His nose brushed over my cheek, my breath stopped.
I felt his warm body, as his grip on my waist tightened.
“Don’t make me jealous.”
I stiffened as his hand moved over my stomach.
The heat was rising, my heart felt like my heart would jump out of my chest.
I liked his touch, I really did.
Even though I had clothes on, I still felt his warmth coming from his hands, making me yearn for more. —But, as he brushed over my scar, I felt … sad. I got the feeling of being not good enough for him.
His lips touched my neck; soft and sweet.
“S-Stop it!”“
With all my might I freed myself from his dangerous touch, got up and made a big distance between us.
I placed myself on the other side of the table.
Tyler also got up and looked at me, as if he was a hunter and I was his pray.
His muscles flexed as he was putting his hands on the table.
“Why should I stop? You attacked me first, while I was asleep.”
My cheeks started burning up from the heat.
“Y-You should stop!”
I didn’t know why, but he started laughing. Maybe at my reaction, or at my red face, yet still it was too much!
His smile made me weak.
Damn it!
He moved to the side, trying to come closer, but I moved to the other direction, so the distance was still given.
“You don’t know how much I am suffering by holding back.”
My heart was dying today; his words, his acting, his whole being was driving me crazy.
“I-I don’t understand.”
I muttered, trying to keep my body from moving towards him.
Tyler laughed softly, which made me feel more irritated.
“I know that! You are different, but I won’t treat you differently. I want you Jenny, more than you know.”
I was left speechless for a few moments, but as he started moving again, my body froze.
“W-What?”
Progressing his words, was hard.
Even though he made it clear, I just couldn't understand … why?
With little steps he came closer, yet I turned to go again. We circled around the table.
“I know …You wouldn’t want a serious relationship, you are still young and inexperienced, and I am old and serious.”
I shook my head.
“You are twenty-three, you aren’t old! And of course, I would want a serious relationship. I am not the type to play around, even though I am ‘young’ as you said.”
My voice wasn’t shaking anymore and the stuttering had stopped too.
Before he could respond, I stopped him again.
“Listen. I have various reasons why I am not in a relationship. I hate myself. I hate my body. I can’t imagine myself with anybody. And I don’t know about these feelings… I can’t differentiate feelings at all.”
I felt ashamed of m
yself.
“And my past wasn’t really good … I am still recovering … I am afraid to remember … bad things.”
Afraid to remember the disgusting touches from Daniel.
My body started to shiver.
I lifted my hands, holding them against my ears, the mad voices and the loud noises from the past crept up back into my mind. I heard them clearly, as if I was pulled back to the time, back in this dark … where I was getting tortured, but before I could sink in those memories, strong arms wrapped around me.
“I am right here.”
Tyler’s gentle voice brought me back to reality.
“I wish you could see, what I see.”
He hugged me tight kissing around my neck, which made me sigh with pleasure.
Tyler’s grip got tighter, as he heard me, his rough and elegant scent was making me dizzy, a dense fog was building up, covering my mind.
“Sorry, I almost forgot. You need time.”
His apology made me flinch, he backed away.
“A rose … you need time to bloom. I promise, I won’t do anything to make you feel bad.”
The situation got a little awkward. After he apologised, he went away and I was left speechless.
I didn’t know how I should face him anymore, nor did I know how I could survive the week with him.
I liked Tyler, I liked him very much but … I wasn’t ready … for all these feelings.
I trusted him, but I still wasn’t ready to open up to him.
I wasn’t ready at all.
With mixed feelings, I went up to my room.
I changed my clothes and looked at my reflection in front of the mirror on my desk.
My cheeks were flushed, still deep red, my amber eyes sparkled.
As I looked at my neck, I imagined Tyler in front of me.
Still feeling his touch.
His lingering scent, his hot breath.
My heart didn’t stop ponding hard.
Am I having a fever?
Was I okay?
Suddenly Charlotte came into my mind, she seemed to be experienced in this field.
But I felt ashamed to ask.
I looked away.
“I need fresh air!”
With heavy steps, I grabbed my phone and moved to the garden, I sat on the rocking chair and breathed in the mild air.
Today wasn’t a rainy day, it was clouded, yet not cold.
It was typical Monday weather.
I looked around the garden for a while, getting relaxed from the pleasant view.
The meadow was freshly mowed by the gardener, and the flowers had started blooming.