Diary of a True Alpha

by C Y Jones

  As soon as mum takes her place, the music starts and we walk in tune to the beat towards the open parlor doors. The closer we get, the more I can hear the murmurs of the crowd, but I’m not afraid. I’m exactly where I need to be.

  Ethan

  I stand up front proudly with my brothers. I‘ve always knew this day would come. Even when I left the pack with my father and brother with nothing but hatred for Aspen, somewhere deep down I knew she would be mine. Having to share her with my brothers makes it so much better. If I were being truthful with myself, I would admit I never hated her. I was pissed, but mostly hurt. I have loved her ever since I laid eyes on her when were were nothing but toddlers. They say love at first sight doesn’t exist, but I have to disagree. It’s real, just like soul bound mates are real. Aspen is my myth made into reality, and I thank whatever divine creation that deemed me worthy to be with her.

  Logan

  As I stand here, I wonder if I’d be considered a pussy if I start crying. I’m sure once I see Aspen in all her glory walking towards me a few tears will definitely slip out. I’m going to be mated to my dream girl, a female I’ve known would be mine all my life. As kids, she would come to my brother and I when she was frightened or her parents were arguing, I’d hold her tight in my arms swearing to protect her from anything and anyone, and still to this day I hold myself to that promise. Aspen is my everything. If she stopped breathing then I would no longer want to live. Life would not be worth living without her by my side. I could go on without my twin, but not without her, and I know my brother feels the same way. With all three of us, our only weakness is her, but she also makes us stronger. I’m the wolf I’m meant to be because of her, and I will continue to love her, cherish her, and worship the ground she walks on until the end of my days.

  Mekka

  I thought I would be nervous, but as I stand here beside my brothers all I feel is pure love for the female I’m about to make mine. Many females have come and gone. I’m not going to lie and say I was a saint, because I haven’t been. Anyone who got involved with me knew the score, but as soon as I laid eyes on Aspen at work, I knew I was a goner. No female I have ever been with could hold a candle to her. With one look, she stole my soul, and my heart gladly tagged along after her. Even the knowledge that she was the wolf that treated my brothers so badly, I still couldn’t stay away from her. If the twins couldn’t have reconciled their differences, I would have left them, the two people I am closest with in the world, for her. Besides my mother, I have never loved a female, but with her, it was game over. I will cherish her for the ends of my days and even through death, I would haunt her until we’re reunited again in the afterlife. There is no me without her. She is it, the end game we all live our lives to find, but most never do. I’m lucky enough to find it early, and I will never let her go. Have mercy on the soul who ever tries to take her away from me again because I’ll rain down hell on them like something they have never seen before.

  18

  Aspen

  As soon as I walk down the aisle covered in red roses everything fades to white noise. I don’t hear the attending guest’s murmurs, I don’t smell the strong fragrance of flowers, or see the lit torches lining my journey. All I see are my three mates, standing proud as they watch my descent down the aisle. When I get close enough, I study their gazes, looking for anything that says they don’t want to be here, but I don’t see it. The emotions hidden in their irises could move mountains with the power behind them. The love there, you don’t just feel it, but it consumes all your senses until it takes over your very fiber, your very being of who you thought you were. They call to me like a siren to sea, but they’re not delivering me to my death, but a future of everlasting love. If I thought I was making a mistake or had any fears, they have all been wiped away in this journey to the rest of my life. A life I claim. This is my future, they are my forever.

  We finally make it to the front and Tyler releases me to my mates as he says loudly for all to hear , “I, Tyler Greywolf, Alpha of pack Greywolf, give my blessing for Aspen Wolfhaven, Alpha of pack Wolfhaven, to formally mate Ethan Greywolf, Logan Greywolf, and Mekka Greywolf of pack Greywolf.” At the end of his words, he hands the jewel encrusted ceremonial dagger to council member Maxon and then steps back and stands next to the twins' father.

  Councilman Maxon goes through the ceremony, but I barely hear it, and I doubt my mates do either. Instead, we’re caught up in each other as we stand here wishing this was over so we could be with one another privately. I barely miss Maxon opening The Book of Wolves, the exact same book where my mum’s and Tyler’s blood are dripped on their page. With three mates, this ceremony is a bit different than my mother’s. Instead, we will all slice our own palm and then together drip our blood on the page. Maxon hands the dagger over to Ethan, he slices his palm and then hands the dagger to Logan, who does the same, and then Mekka. When it’s my turn, I look them each in the eyes as I open my flesh. It doesn’t hurt or sting. Like them, it just feels right. Once done, we all hold our palms above the book and let our blood drip free from our palms. As if by magic the drops merge in the air and fall onto the page in one big drop. As soon as it hits the page, the lit torches around us surge high in the air in a vibrant blue. It was nothing like anything I’ve ever seen. Far more impressive than at my mother’s ceremony. The blue grabs my attention and holds it as tears leave my eyes, trailing down my cheeks. We were blessed. Blessed by the Gods, blessed by the Fates. If anyone doubted we were meant to be, they sure as hell don’t anymore. Even council member Maxon was staring at the flames in awe. With a few more ceremonial words, Maxon blesses our union and declares Ethan, Logan, and Mekka the pack’s Alpha Mates, and lays a crown wreath of vibrant green leaves on top of their heads. Gathering me in their arms, they all kiss me deeply one by one. We are mated, we are one. They are officially mine, and I am theirs. Nothing could ruin this moment, or so I thought, because as the crowd claps rejoicing in our union, the last person I ever wanted to see is standing at the end of the aisle with an emotionless look on her face. It’s that lack of emotion that makes me wary. I knew exactly when my mates spot Kassie as well as her father with the animosity coming off them and the look of fury on his face.

  With my shoulders back and head held high, I go to her. If she’s here, then Axil isn’t far behind. I feel my mates at my back, but I pay them no mind, nor do I say anything to my gathering Betas when they realize something is wrong. Through the pack link I order them to search the area, and signal for the guards to be on high alert. It’s time to put in effect what we have been planning for the last month. I’ve always known Axil would bring the fight here. In a way, he’s predictable. It started here, so he expects to end it here and wipe Wolfhaven off the map.

  I don’t want to send anyone into a panic, so I don’t alert the guests or the hundreds of wolves gathered out in the fields for the reception. As long as they stay clear and well away from the main house, they should be fine out there, but still I make sure there are guards in place to protect them, just in case.

  “What are you doing here?” I growl right in her face. Close up, I have to admit she looks like crap. He blonde hair is a tangled mess, her blue eyes have lost their brightness and look lackluster, and they have deep dark circles under them like she hasn’t slept in days, her lips are chapped, and she has these deep scratches all over her arms, I suspect from her own doing. I remember seeing those same scratches on my uncle’s arms as he dug in his skin the whole ride to the treatment center. Just like him, she’s going through withdrawls. She doesn’t answer, she just walks away leaving us with no choice but to follow. She could be leading us to our deaths, but we still trail after her. Finally, when her father has had enough he grabs her roughly by the arm, halting her.

  “Enough Kassie, what’s going on?” He growls.

  “I came to warn you,” she answers, snatching her arm back.

  “Warn us about what?” I question.

  “Axil, he’s coming for
you. He found out you were having your mating ceremony and went batshit crazy. He’s hell bent on getting you back, and plans on razing this whole pack to the ground to do so.”

  “Found out how? Only the Council and our parents knew about our ceremony. The pack didn’t even know until late evening yesterday,” I reply.

  “He found out from two of the council members he has in his pocket, Brannon and Ebert, I think are their names.”

  Well fuck, I knew the Council was in his pocket, but it’s another thing to have it actually confirmed. This is bad, really bad.

  “Do you know when he’s coming?” I ask.

  “Hold up,” Ethan says, holding his hand out. “How do we even know she’s telling the truth? How the fuck did you get here?”

  “I know you don’t trust me, and I don’t blame you after all I’ve done, but I’m telling you the truth,” she says, looking directly in my eyes. If she’s lying, she’s a very good actress, but I strongly feel like she’s telling the truth.

  “How did you even escape? I’ve been there, that place is a freaking fortress,” I question.

  “Like I said, Axil has gone batshit crazy over you. He and everyone else have been busy readying themselves for war. It was too easy to distract a guard and sneak out. Once I was clear from the pack lands, I hitchhiked all the way here.”

  “So how did you get here, as in on Wolfhaven property, without anyone seeing you?” Logan asks.

  “When I was here before I noticed a sunk in hole under the fence. I crawled in it and snuck under the fence.”

  That explains the dried mud on her clothes if that's what you want to call what she’s wearing, but she’s covered up more than I’ve seen of her lately. Her skirt is way to short for our winter weather, but at least she has a sweater on. Remind me to get that hole patched up. I send through the link to my mates, and they nod their heads.

  “We need to split up and make sure everything is secure. Tyler, make sure my mom is escorted safely to the reception and she stays well away from here and have your wolves fan out, mine have already been alerted,” I say, jumping right into Alpha mode. I wouldn’t forgive myself if anything happened to my mum or her pups, and I’m sure he wouldn’t either.

  “Will do Alpha,” he agrees without complaint, and with a sad parting glance at Kassie, he turns and leaves.

  I turn to my mates, but all three of them give me a ‘don’t even think about it’ look.

  “We’re not leaving you,” Mekka voices and the twins nod in agreement. Stupid stubborn males.

  “You’re the pack’s Alpha Mates now, your duty is to protect the pack,” I huff, placing my hands on my hips.

  “Our first duty is to protect you and our pups, then the pack,” Ethan counters.

  “Well as Alpha, my first duty is to protect the pack,” I inject, refusing to back down, but I know it’s useless and we’re just wasting time. With the knowledge I’m pregnant, they’ll never leave me alone, especially knowing Axil is coming for me. I could order them with an Alpha command, but I’ll never make them do anything against their will. I am not my father. “Fine,” I relent before turning back to Kassie.

  “You’re pregnant,” she says in a soft voice. So soft I barely heard her. I nod and when I look up in her eyes I don’t know what I see. Something dies inside her. A small glimmer of hope, but something else also forms. Regardless of how delusional it was, she really loved the twins. I doubt I could ever forgive her for what she’s done to me or her pack, but by risking her neck to come here to warn us, I do respect her a little.

  “How much of a head start did you have?” I ask, but it’s not Kassie who answers, but the devil himself.

  “Not long,” he growls, staring death at me and my mates. His Betas are nowhere to be found, but I know they’re close. I can feel the panic in the air and the adrenaline running through the pack link from Axil’s wolves attacking mine.

  “You treacherous snake. As soon as I deal with my mate, I’ll give you over to my pack for a little victory fun then I’ll rip you apart limb from limb myself,” he threatens, staring death at Kassie. She sinks in herself a bit, and her wolf whines. I move in front of her blocking her from his view. My mates, having my back, move to my side and Axil laughs insanely. Kassie is right, Axil has lost the plot.

  “Always the protector. Too stupid to see that not everyone can be saved. Redemption is overrated. I bet when you were fighting your father, you hesitated. Naive to think he could change. That forgiveness is what makes you weak. The reason why you’ll never be a strong leader. Kassie isn’t a wolf, she’s a snake, and as soon as you turn your back she’ll strike. In a way, she’s stronger than you. She’ll do whatever she needs to do to survive.”

  “That’s not true,” I state. At least not the part where I think everyone is redeemable. I’m sure he’s absolutely right about Kassie. “I don’t think you can be saved, in fact I won’t hesitate and will take great pleasure in killing you.”

  “Is that so? Do you really think you can take me? You couldn’t back at the compound. Your power,” he spits out, “was useless against me. You couldn’t save yourself when I sunk in that sweet pussy of yours or pounded in that tight ass as my pack watched on. You didn’t stop me from fucking your throat. You just swallowed my seed like the good little whore you are. All your pathetic attempts to escape were useless. You are useless,” he taunts. The wanker is good, I give him that. At each truth he reveals, my mates ire boiled, burning my insides, but they’re not furious at me, it’s Axil they want to kill, but their anger is also blinding, and we all react too late when Axil makes his move.

  With inhuman speed, he gets past us and grabs Kassie, knocking her in a tree so hard it splinters and breaks, and she falls unconscious to the ground. Along with his speed, he must have strength power as well.

  “Well one slut out the way, on to the next,” Axil says cruelly.

  His speed revealed, my mates circle around me so that we have each other’s backs. Axil's moves are sporadic, his insanity making him unpredictable. He could have easily grabbed me or my mates, but he went for Kassie, the weakest thread. Why?

  “I can practically see the wheels turning in your pretty head. You're wondering why go for Kassie? Why not you or your mates?” He spits out the mates part. “I have my reasons. I want you to see them suffer, see how hard they’ll try to save you, but in the end, it’ll all be a wasted effort. The outcome will still be the same. They’ll still die, and tonight you will be under me as I fuck you all night long, filling you with my seed until you grow plump with my child.” The madness dance in his eyes, and he’s so sure of every word he speaks as he goes on like a villain relaying their plans before they attack. “My sweet Aspen, do you want to know what will happen next?”

  I ignore his question as my mates and I looked for opportunities to attack. We were all on guard, our wolves rising to the surface. I could shift, but I need all my abilities available for use and I have not been able to use my other powers in wolf form since the fight with my father. I can’t take that chance. With the strength behind his hits, he could easily kill us.

  “I already know.” I answer, finally acknowledging his question. “You’ll kill me. You’ve already said as much.”

  “Hmm,” he hums. “That was the plan, but as I look at you in that dress, I think that killing you may be a little hasty. With a little more time you would have fallen in line. I’m sure I can get you back to that point. Actually, I’m certain of it. You’ll live your life chained to my bed, ready and available to serve my needs when I want you. You’ll care for my pups, and be who you were always destined to be.”

  “What? Your mate,” I spit out.

  “No, you lost that privilege. You’ll be my pup’s mother and my slave.”

  Having heard enough all three of my mates rush him at once. Axil is able to counter their attacks, using his speed to move within them, delivering his own blows. They’re all a fury of limbs and it’s hard to keep track with who is who as they
all move quickly around each other. Fists fly and and their grunts could be heard echoing in the forest as their hits hit home. I see a flash of red, and a fireball leaves Ethan’s hand. Too late to block, or maybe he didn’t expect the move, Axil isn’t able to block it in time and the fireball hits him square in the chest. His shirt burns and he rips it from his body tossing it on the ground.

  “You’ll pay for that,” he growls already recovered. He goes after Ethan, and Logan steps in the way, taking a firm punch to the gut for his brother. I hear the crunch of bone, and I know he’s broken a couple of Logan’s ribs. I cry out when he falls to the ground holding his middle, his face contorted in pain. Mekka, having shifted while I was distracted, goes after Axil and clamps his sharp teeth down on his arm. Axil swings his arm around wildly trying to shake Mekka off, finally lifting the two hundred and fifty pound wolf like he weighs nothing, and tosses him into a tree. The side of his head hits the bark hard and just like Kassie, Mekka sags to the ground. I run to him examining him to make sure he’s still alive. He’s still shifted, but I catch the rise and fall of his fur so I know he’s still breathing. He’ll heal faster in wolf form, so I don’t force him to change back.

  Axil is holding Ethan up by his neck high in the air and I rise to my feet yelling, “enough.” I could feel my mate’s pain. Through the pack link, I can feel the pain of my pack’s injuries of the wolves who are fighting Axil’s army while we duel here. The pain from the wolves who have already fallen, the misery of their mates knowing they are dead and I hurt over their loss.