by Skye Warren
Table of Contents
Cover
Title Page
Prologue: Plus Interest
1. Real Estate
2. Deep Pockets
3. Pile of Rubble
4. Gold Rush
5. Blackballed
6. Worth Doing Well
7. Business Partners
8. Natural Part of Life
9. Self Destruct
10. One Percenter
11. For the Best
12. Milk and Cookies
13. Death Wish
14. The Common Man
15. The Dangers of Corporate Excess
16. The Suit
17. Totally My Business
18. For Your Entertainment
19. Honest to a Fault
20. Death Plan
21. Vital Signs
22. The Girl Code
23. Protesting
24. Inevitable
25. Trophy
26. Destruction
Books by Skye Warren
About the Author
Copyright
Dear Christopher,
Enclosed you’ll find a formal offer to purchase the land and building of Bardot and Mayfair Development Parcel A, formerly known as the Tanglewood Library. Enclosed you will find terms equal to the last sale price plus interest. I hope you find this more than reasonable for a property that’s currently sitting unused and half turned to rubble.
PS. And you know a library will help the community and revitalize the west side of the city.
Dear Harper,
I regret to inform you that the asking price of the property has increased significantly, due to recent media interest. A famous artist sparked a citywide protest that had its own hashtag. In fact looters were able to sell pieces of painted concrete for up to five thousand dollars online. As such Bardot and Mayfair cannot accept less than two billion dollars.
PS. I wonder how much concrete you’d have to sell to fill the library with new books?
Dear Christopher,
Twenty times what you paid for it? I hardly think the presence of some random painter with an Instagram account can possibly raise the value that much. Besides the fact that anyone will have to pay to reconstruct the entire front of the building, due to your wrecking ball.
PS. You are the most self-centered, arrogant bastard I’ve ever met.
Dear Harper,
Enclosed you’ll find copies of the purchase offers this company has received in the months since we stopped development on the property. As you can plainly see, the presence and painting of a world-renowned, extremely talented artist has made the property invaluable.
PS. Don’t sell yourself short.
“What do you think?” the real estate agent asks, smiling bright-white teeth with a smudge of red lipstick. I can’t blame her for being a little faded. We’ve been all over Tanglewood looking for the perfect house. There are Victorians and chateaus and three-story high-rise condominiums. There was a beautiful mid-century modern that I probably would have chosen.
This decision isn’t up to me, though. Mom’s the one who chooses.
She’s the one who has to live here. And she’s the one who has to die here.
I wander up the steps toward the white columns that line the front. “It’s definitely big.”
That’s an understatement. Most of the houses in our price range are mansions, because we need the privacy more than the space. Large houses mean large grounds.
“Twelve bedrooms,” the real estate agent assures me.
Mom leans to smell a wide, blooming hydrangea. “What are you going to do with all that space?”
“They’ll be useful when we throw wild sex parties,” I say lightly, because it’s easier to pretend everything’s fine than falling apart. “When people want privacy, they can go upstairs and leave a sock on the doorknob.”
The real estate agent can’t seem to figure out whether we’re joking. She fumbles with the lock for a moment, trying to juggle her phone and a folder with notes about the house. “Five acres,” she tells us. “And you saw the gate when we entered. The security system is completely updated.”
She finally gets the door open, and we step inside.
Mom sucks in a breath. “Oh my God.”
A large staircase covered in an antique rug curves up to a wide balcony. A chandelier made of crystal drops shimmers from the sunlight we’re letting in. Elaborate wood paneling covers the wall, made especially intricate around an archway.
The real estate agent nods. “It’s like the plantation house from Gone with the Wind. You can almost imagine that Scarlett will come running down the stairs with her sisters.”
The movie was actually filmed near where we lived, in the backyard of the filming studios, the house left to rot away once it had served its purpose. In contrast this house seems vibrant. It’s fitting that we would come from somewhere pretend to the real thing.
“Could you give us a minute?” I ask the agent.
When we’re alone, my mother lets out a blissful sigh. “It’s perfect.”
“Will you be comfortable here?” I ask because that’s all there is right now. Not time. Sand whips through the funnel at an alarming rate. There’s only comfort, and how much my trust fund can buy.
She gives me a rueful smile. “Now that I’ve seen this, I can’t imagine being comfortable anywhere else.”
I look at the staircase dubiously. It’s beautiful but not really practical, especially for someone who has stage four cancer. “Maybe we can have an elevator put in. Or one of those chairs that zooms along the balcony.”
A horrified look. “Don’t even think about it. You will not do anything to destroy these stairs. It would be a travesty. They’re so beautiful, Harper.”
“Oh fine, I’m sure we can rig some kind of pulley system.”
She laughs a little. “There won’t be enough time to worry about it.”
How can she laugh about this? It’s one thing to be flippant in front of the real estate agent, but when we’re like this, being honest, all I want to do is break down. My stomach flips over, and I have to look away through the arched doorway. “God.”
“I’m sorry,” she says, immediately contrite. “I know this is hard for you.”
“No,” I tell her, because hard is a test on calculus. Hard is knowing I’ll inevitably see Sutton or Christopher again. This is more than hard; it’s unbearable. “I’m the one who’s sorry. We can buy this house, stairs or elevator or pulley system. Or hell, we can buy the original set back in LA, if that’s what you want. We’ll still be able to get fresh wheatgrass delivered every morning.”
She smiles. “We should be here.”
My throat tightens up, because no matter how hard I try, I seem to mess this up. She could have asked me for every cent in the damn trust fund. I’d have climbed the highest mountain or crawled into the deepest cave to find a cure. Instead she asked for something else—acceptance.
“Why Tanglewood? You never even visited here before this week.”
“Because this city has what you need.”
I scrunch my nose. “The library? I don’t need to oversee the reconstruction personally.”
“Nonsense. This is your project. You should be here for it. And besides, it’s not only the library. Tanglewood has the people you love.”
“Mom, I told you—”
“You do love Avery, don’t you?” she asks, sounding completely innocent. “She’s your best friend, and she’s taking the semester off to work on her thesis. That means she’ll be in town.”
My throat feels tight. “I’m not going to suddenly get married and have a baby.”
My mom has never pushed me to settle down, because she knows the
dangers of that more than anyone. And now she’ll never see me walk down the aisle. Never meet any grandchildren. The doctors have given her three to six months to live. Three to six months. How do they even calculate that?
There might have been three more months if she’d been willing to try their grueling treatment—or ironically, the treatment could have killed her faster.
She’s asked me to accept her decision, and mostly I have. There isn’t a protest I can stage that will change her mind. I’ve accepted it, but that doesn’t make it any less painful to bear.
“And Bea,” she murmurs, still pretending to be clueless. We’re staying with Bea and Hugo in their comfy penthouse until we find our own place. “You love her and Hugo. They’re a darling couple.”
I give her a droll look. “Is that the end of the list?”
“For now. I’m sure you’ll learn to love more people once you’ve lived in Tanglewood longer.”
The banister shakes a little when I touch it, and I think we’ll have to get a carpenter in here before it’s safe enough to move in. If my mother wants a grand staircase to descend every morning, then that’s what she’ll get. I can’t give her relief from the pain, but my God, I can give her stairs.
“I messed it up,” I whisper because she needs to understand.
I don’t know how to love someone without the taint of money. I don’t know how to have a relationship with a man where I’m not waiting for him to leave. There’s something dangerous inside me; it grows and grows, eating away at everything good and hopeful and trusting. I don’t know if I ever loved Sutton, if I ever could have loved him, but we didn’t get that far.
And as for Christopher? I’m not sure he’s capable of loving anyone.
Her hand covers mine on the gleaming banister. “Harper.”
The softness of her voice reaches deep inside me. We’ve lived in a hundred different houses. None of them were ever ours. They belonged to one of her husbands. Some of those men were upfront about not wanting a little stepdaughter underfoot. Others pretended to be interested in me. They bought me Barbie doll limos and stuffed dogs with puppies inside them, but eventually they were all the same.
They all kicked us out in the end.
“You don’t have to make my mistakes,” she says, except her eyes are the same hazel gold as my own. It’s like looking in a mirror. She’s somehow more beautiful with age, but it doesn’t make her happy.
“Don’t I?” I didn’t get left behind by one man, but two. She only knows about Sutton, but when I close my eyes there’s two men walking away from me. I have enough distance from what happened six months ago to know it was Christopher who I really wanted. Enough distance to know that Sutton is the closest I’ve ever come to really having love, the kind that is given and received and untarnished by money. I had him, and I let him go.
“Love isn’t supposed to be painful.”
“Then why does it hurt?” Christopher never did anything so mundane, so hopeful as ask me on a date. He never offered himself to me, so why did I keep choosing him?
Her small smile tears my heart in two. “I’m hoping you figure that out the way that I never could. I fell in love with the wrong man, hard enough that there was never any real chance with me and someone else after that. There’s still time for you, Harper.”
“I’m not here to date anyone. And definitely not Sutton.”
She makes a noncommittal sound. “Everything will work out.”
Except my mother has stage four cancer and refuses treatment. The library is broken beyond repair. Everything in my life is falling apart, so how will it work out? I touch a carved wood finial that’s part of the railing. It’s easier to lie when I’m not looking at her. “Okay.”
“Harper. Look at me.”
It takes me five seconds. I count down in my head. I can’t take anything for granted these days—not the ability to stand up straight or hold my head high. Not the ability to look at my mother without incriminating tears burning my eyes.
She gives me a gentle smile. “I talked to a hospice in the city.”
My heart does a strange pitter-patter, like it’s beating enough times for a year but all at once and uneven. Heat and cold courses through me, one after the other. It’s like my body’s electrical system is shorting out. “I thought you didn’t want that.”
“I don’t want to live there, but they have a home-based program.”
“What does that mean?”
“Well, they have nurses who come help me.”
“I can do that.” Even though helping means watching my mom lose her functionality, piece by piece. Two weeks ago I had to help her open a jar of unsweetened organic peanut butter. And then I hid in the pantry and cried for two hours.
“You’re not here to wait on me,” she says with a laugh. “Anyway, I spoke to the care transition counselor on the phone. She’s coming to the house later this week so we can work on the Death Plan. That’s what they call it. Isn’t that funny?”
All the crazy electrical voltage disappears. There’s a flat line where my heartbeat had been. I might as well be made of stone, that’s how numb I feel suddenly. “What?”
“It’s just a name, Harper.”
“I’m not—No—”
“This is something that will help all of us. Especially you.”
“I will buy this house and I will live here and I will do anything you want, but I’m not going to make a Death Plan.” Even the library is a kind of tribute, whether she knows it or not—fixing the unfixable, bringing it back from the brink. I had to accept my mother’s decision to stop treatment, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to embrace her death. I’m not going to plan for it.
There are very few things in my control right now. I make only a single demand in the purchase of the library—that Christopher Bardot meet with me personally. I want him to look me in the eye when he signs these documents. Part of me is afraid of what I’ll find, but I need to know. Did he ever care about me? He manipulated me to save the library, only to hold it hostage for a hefty chunk of my trust fund. The same trust fund he fought so hard to protect. He’s an enigma wrapped in a mystery, and I’m determined to peel away at least a few layers at our meeting.
His acceptance comes back in the form of a hand-couriered, notarized letter. He agrees to the meeting, it says, as long as it happens at a restaurant of his choosing.
It raises the stakes, taking a business meeting and making it happen like a date.
I should be immune to that kind of manipulation, but there’s still hope inside me, buried deep with barely any sunlight. He might hold my hand across the table and tell me that he loves me. That he wants to develop the library together. Those kinds of fantasies are ridiculous. If that’s what he wanted he would have said so from the start instead of making me pay so much.
A limo arrives at seven pm on the dot, its back seat empty. I hide my disappointment from the driver as I step inside. Streetlights flash over my face as we cross Tanglewood.
Koi is the hottest restaurant in Tanglewood with a waiting list six months long for a reservation. Naturally that is where we end up. Is this some kind of power play? I’m not sure why he would need more power in a negotiation where he already set the terms.
He’s taking you here because he secretly loves you, my heart helpfully supplies.
If he loves you why hasn’t he said so? my brain fires back.
Every muscle in my body is strung tight like strings in a violin, being strummed with every step I take. A crowd gathers outside the restaurant, all of them trying to fit into the small bar area that doesn’t require reservations. The air smells like wine and cheese and sex, a decadent combination.
A slender blond hostess gives me a rather harsh once over. Maybe my black suit isn’t what women usually wear here, but this is a business dinner. If the setting is a power move by Christopher, then the suit is my response. And on the one percent chance he’s here to declare his love for me?
Don’t sell
yourself short, he wrote in that letter.
If that’s what happens at least my legs looks pretty hot in this pencil skirt, if I do say so myself.
The hostess leads me deep into the restaurant, closer and closer to the kitchen, until I’m wondering if she’s going to push me out the back door. She pushes through the sleek swinging doors that reveal bustling men and women wearing white, steam rising from cast iron pots, delicious scents swirling through the air. A small table is set up only a few feet away from the bustle, a pristine white tablecloth on it, a bottle of Dom chilling in an ice bucket.
Christopher stands, impeccable in a black suit that neatly mirrors mine.
Without the cleavage, of course.
“Good evening,” he says, as casually as if he saw me last week instead of six months ago.
“Christopher,” I say, in case he hasn’t noticed. A table like this is reserved for VIPs or very special guests. Or ones with deep pockets. “This is the chef’s table. We’re sitting at the chef’s table in Koi.”
“Is that good? I thought they just ran out of regular tables.”
“Did you just make a joke. Oh my God. You did.”
The chef chooses that moment to introduce himself, a rather effusive man with a comforting smile and a thick Japanese accent. He says he’ll forgive that we drink champagne as long as we try the sake pairing he sends with every course. And he personally serves the amuse bouche, a tuna sashimi lollie on a fennel cilantro salad with ponzu dressing that makes me moan despite myself.
“Dear God,” I say when we’re alone again, my eyes still closed with the wonder of that single bite. There’s salt and citrus, and basically this is what heaven tastes like. “Did you spend all two billion dollars to get this table? Because it’s worth it.”
When I open my eyes Christopher is watching me, a strange expression on his face. He hasn’t touched the plate in front of him. He seems more interested in the way that I dip my finger in the ponzu dressing and lime foam to savor the last drops. I’m not sure that love is on the table, but if the glitter in his eyes is anything to go by, sex is definitely an option.
“One billion,” he says, almost absently.