The Druid Chronicles: Mystical Historical Romance

by Christina Phillips

  “I refuse to listen to any more of your lies.” Antonia infused her voice with all the contempt she could, but her feet refused to move. She remained rooted to the spot, staring at the queen with rising dread.

  She didn’t believe a word. Of course she didn’t. But a tiny kernel of doubt wormed through her breast, rendering her immobile. Forcing her to listen as the queen spewed more of her insanity.

  “I knew this day would come when his daughter of Rome met his daughter of Cymru.” The queen paused for a moment, lost in the past. Lost in the web of her lies. But why would she lie about such a thing? What could she gain by it? “He told me Cassia’s daughter would unite our fractured land.”

  “You are mad.” Antonia retreated another step and glanced wildly around for her slave. She had to get out of here. “I’m leaving.”

  “Leaving to marry the praetor.” The queen gave a soft, scornful laugh. “How like your weak-minded Roman mother you are.”

  Antonia froze. “Do not speak ill of my noble mother.”

  “Your father begged her to go with him. She may have loved him but she didn’t possess the courage to face an uncertain future with her lover.” The queen raised one eyebrow in condemnation. “In what way are you different?”

  But she wanted nothing more than to share her future with Gawain. The queen didn’t know everything. The queen would never know everything.

  “My mother was scarcely fifteen when I was born. She was just a girl. You have no right to presume to know what she may or may not have done. Just as you have no right to presume you know the reasons for my actions.”

  Silence screamed in her ears. Both the queen and Carys stared at her with identical expressions on their faces. As though they had never truly seen her before.

  Heat washed through her. Had she said too much? What had she said?

  “Then perhaps you should rethink your strategy,” the queen said and Antonia glared at her. She had no strategy. All she could hope to do was save Gawain’s life. “The strength is within you. After all, no Druid gives their heart lightly.”

  She might have meant Gawain. But Antonia knew the queen was referring to the man she insisted was Antonia’s father.

  The panic reared again, searing her breast and flooding her veins with a wild frenzy. Before she could stop herself the words spilled from her lips.

  “I’m not a Druid.”

  The queen’s lip curled. “You may possess the blood of one of the greatest Druids of our Age, but unless you are also chosen by the gods then no. You are not a Druid.”

  Her heart hammered in her breast. Her palms were sweaty, breath restricted. She’d not been chosen by the gods, because the queen referred to her heathen, Celtic gods.

  But Juno’s blessed me with visions ever since I was a small child. Visions that had terrified her. Delivered by a goddess who looked nothing like Juno was depicted in the temples. A goddess who spoke to her in an unknown language. A language that made perfect sense to her until she awoke.

  Terror gripped her and she turned and fled from the courtyard.

  Back at her father’s townhouse, she found Elpis in her room, sewing. She tore off her palla and flung it onto the bed. Elpis’ eyes widened and she leaped to her feet.

  “Domina, what has happened? Are you all right?”

  Antonia whirled on her. “I’m no longer your domina.”

  Elpis held her hands and Antonia drew in a deep breath, but it failed to calm her shredded nerves. Could it be true? Had her father lied to her all these years?

  “You need to bathe, my lady.” Elpis was so calm, so serene. For some reason that fueled Antonia’s agitation.

  “Tell me.” She snatched her hands free and twisted her fingers together. “The first time you heard me speak in the language of the gods. How did you know, Elpis?”

  Elpis swallowed and refused to meet Antonia’s eyes. “I don’t understand, my lady.”

  “Please, Elpis.” Antonia took the other woman’s hands. “This is so important. How did you know, all those years ago, that it was Juno speaking to me?”

  Elpis shifted uncomfortably. “Your father was so panicked, my lady. He feared you had been possessed by evil shades of Tartarus. I told him what I thought would calm him. And…it did.”

  Antonia stared at her in disbelief. “You lied to him?”

  “Not exactly.” Elpis finally stopped fidgeting. “I’d heard the language before. In the temples of Athens. But it was not the voice of Juno I heard speaking through you. It was the voice of Hera.”

  Chapter 31

  Gawain entered the massage room in the public bathhouse and saw the praetor sprawled face down on one of the benches. He closed the door and shoved a small stone table in front of it. He wanted no interruptions.

  “Finally.” The praetor, his head turned toward the opposite wall, sounded irritated. “I’ve been waiting far too long. This standard of service would never be tolerated in Rome.”

  Gawain flexed his fingers. The image of plunging his dagger through the Roman’s throat flashed through his mind. But no matter how much he desired the praetor’s death, there was no honor by killing him in such a manner.

  Instead, he wrapped his hands around the man’s neck, his fingers jabbing into his windpipe, his forearms across the Roman’s shoulder blades, pinning him in place. The praetor gagged, struggled and then clearly realized the futility.

  “Just so you know.” Gawain leaned over the man and spoke by his ear. “You’re at my mercy.” He increased the pressure around the praetor’s throat to underscore the Roman’s vulnerability before relaxing his grip. “Get up.”

  As the praetor struggled to sit up, Gawain unsheathed his dagger and pressed the blade against his thigh. It was an unsubtle reminder that the Roman remained weaponless.

  “In Rome you would never have got through the security.”

  “We’re not in Rome.” Gawain twisted the hilt of his dagger and didn’t miss the way the praetor glanced at it. It had been easy enough to bribe his way in. Loyalty to the invaders only extended so far. “I heard a rumor that you intend to coerce Lady Antonia into wedlock.”

  The praetor stiffened. “You would be wise not to speak Lady Antonia’s name in my presence, Celt.”

  Gawain tightened his grip on his dagger. “She’ll never belong to you.”

  “You think she would choose you above me?” Despite being at a grave disadvantage, the praetor showed no outward fear of Gawain, and it irked. Another man would be sweating, stuttering, glancing around for a means to escape. But the praetor looked him in the eye, and his bearing was proud.

  “At least I don’t have to resort to base threats against an innocent child to secure a woman’s favor.” All he needed to do was ensure Antonia didn’t wed this man before her daughter arrived. Then, no matter what protest she might raise, she was accompanying him north.

  “An innocent child?” The praetor stood, his face mottled with affront. “Your sources are misinformed, Celt. Your obsession with Lady Antonia is addling your brain. She makes her own decisions in such matters.”

  Gawain narrowed his eyes. He wanted to believe the praetor was lying but his gut told him otherwise. Yet if the man hadn’t threatened Antonia’s daughter then why was she going to marry him?

  “Whatever misbegotten tactics you’ve used won’t work. Your men won’t surprise me a second time, Roman. And be assured that I can outmaneuver any security detail you assign to protect yourself. If I decide to have your blood on my hands there’s nothing you can do to prevent it.”

  “You believe that murdering me will gain you favor in Lady Antonia’s eyes?” Contempt dripped from every word.

  “No.” He knew Antonia far better than to believe that of her. “But at least it will stop you from having her.”

  The praetor’s nostrils flared and he bared his teeth. “The way you have had her?”

  Gawain’s grip tightened around his dagger as the inviting image of ripping the praetor’s tongue from his thr
oat filled his mind.

  “One day she will belong to me, Roman.” Barely leashed rage thudded through every word. “And I will have her in every sense.”

  The praetor gave a harsh laugh. “You delude yourself, Celt. She is of Rome. Even if she returned your infatuation do you really think she would give up everything for you and live like a barbarian?”

  Infatuation. The word pounded in his head, fury mounting with every thud of his heart. Raw boys suffered from infatuation. It was a calculated insult, intended to distract him, to give the Roman an advantage.

  Antonia’s faced flooded his mind. The memory of her soft voice calmed his temper. Control balanced. He curled his lip at the Roman.

  “It is not I who is the barbarian in this room, Praetor.” He gave the man’s official title the contempt it deserved. “Lady Antonia is more than the sum of her blood heritage.”

  “You’re wrong.” The praetor sounded as arrogant and assured as though he were wearing his full patrician regalia instead of standing naked before his dagger-wielding enemy. Gawain slaughtered the flicker of respect that attempted to ignite for the other man’s courage. “We are all the sum of our blood heritage. There’s no denying or escaping the call of our forefathers. Do you deny yours, Celt, simply because of current circumstances?”

  “I’m not ashamed of my heritage.” They both knew what he was. But Gawain would never give the praetor the satisfaction of hearing him say the words.

  “And you would willingly drag Lady Antonia into your world, knowing your heritage would taint her as surely as it taints yourself? That a death sentence would hover over her head because of her association with you?”

  Denial roared through Gawain. He could protect Antonia. She would never know he was a Druid, and he would never do anything to let such a suspicion arise in her mind. The Romans didn’t rule in the land of the Picts. The Picts would not betray him the way the queen of the Brigantes had betrayed Caratacus.

  But suppose they did? Suppose Antonia was captured and her protests of innocence ignored because he had knowingly forced her into danger?

  The praetor gave a low, scornful laugh. “I see your lustful plans had not extended that far ahead.”

  His plan had extended as far as taking Antonia and her daughter away from Camulodunon, to where his heritage didn’t have to be concealed.

  But he’d always intended concealing it from Antonia. Just as he’d always planned on looking after her and ensuring she wanted for nothing.

  It was a grand, noble plan. Except it was hollow. Because he couldn’t promise to give Antonia every luxury she deserved. He couldn’t even promise to protect her from tenacious, vindictive Romans should they come hunting in the far north.

  And how could he expect her devotion when he kept such a vital element of who—what—he was a secret from her?

  Yet that wasn’t the reason why his lungs burned and chest ached. It was because Antonia hadn’t even wanted to accompany him. It had nothing to do with the praetor coercing her. She had chosen a life of comfort with a man she didn’t love over a life fraught with uncertainty with Gawain.

  There was nothing to prevent him from abducting her and taking her north by force. But what would that gain him?

  He stepped back. Victory gleamed in the praetor’s eyes. He knew he had won.

  But there was something the Roman had to know. “Everything your precious empire believes of those who are descended from the ancient gods is but a shallow glimmer of the truth.” He sheathed his dagger. Maintained eye contact. Because by all the gods that existed in the Otherworld, he would avenge Antonia if this bastard failed to respect her as she deserved. “If you ever harm Lady Antonia I will find you. And unleash the wrath of my ancestors on your bloodline.”

  “I must speak with my father.” Antonia turned from Elpis and then realized the other woman wasn’t following her. She swung back. She hadn’t told Elpis the reason why she needed to find her father. The thought of repeating the queen’s words caused her stomach to cramp. It would be hard enough saying them once, to her father. “Elpis, I need you. Please come with me.” Elpis had been by her side since they were both young girls. Antonia couldn’t confront her father on her own with such a shocking accusation.

  “Of course.” Elpis obediently went to her side. Antonia stared at her and tried to smother the panic that threatened to overwhelm her at any moment.

  Who am I? She was the daughter of a patrician woman who had disgraced her noble family by marrying far beneath her status. Up until this afternoon, she had also been the beloved daughter of a wealthy merchant from Gallia.

  Quicksand sucked at the roots of who she was, at everything she had ever believed. If she allowed herself to think about everything the Celtic queen had said, she would go mad.

  She had to find her father. She had to hear him tell her it was all lies. There had to be a perfectly logical explanation for why the queen would say such a scandalous thing.

  But first she had to ensure that Elpis understood. It was of vital importance. She wasn’t even sure why, only that it was.

  “No.” She hitched in a ragged breath. “You don’t have to come with me. I want you to come with me. You don’t have to do anything I ask anymore, Elpis. You can go home to Athens if you wish. But—but it is my dearest hope that you choose to stay with Cassia and me.”

  Elpis looked down at the floor. “What would I do in Athens?” Her voice was quiet. “I lost my blood kin the day I was enslaved.” She raised her head and looked into Antonia’s eyes. “When you freed me, I thought you wanted me to leave.”

  How could Elpis have imagined that? Didn’t she know how much Antonia cared for her?

  But why would she know? It was only over the last year or so that Antonia had finally acknowledged that Elpis was so much more to her than merely a slave.

  Tentatively she wrapped her arms around Elpis. They had often held hands, but had never hugged. That was reserved for women of her own social standing. Women like those patricians in Rome.

  “I would like you to stay,” she whispered. “You’re like a sister to me, Elpis.” If the queen speaks the truth, then Carys is my half sister. A shiver rocked through her, tipping her further into a maelstrom of confusion as Elpis returned her embrace.

  She needed to speak to her father. To put to rest once and for all the queen’s lies that were eating through her heart. She changed her gown and Elpis rearranged her hair. And all the while Antonia tried to work out how she could raise the subject of her true parentage with her beloved father without offending his honor.

  As Antonia and Elpis hurried through the forum, she caught sight of the praetor leaving the bathhouse. She quickly pulled her palla over her head and hoped he hadn’t seen her. She was in no mood to confront him and his demands.

  Her father was in the back room of the luxury merchant shop he owned near the forum and didn’t appear especially delighted to see her.

  “What is wrong?” He came toward her and held her shoulders. “Has something happened?”

  He had always been so concerned for her comfort and well-being. Not all fathers cared so dearly for a daughter. Surely he wouldn’t care for her at all, if the queen was right and Antonia was the product of an illicit liaison between her mother and a Druid.

  A tiny voice in the back of her mind urged caution. What could be gained by raking up the past? She should let it go. Push it to the back of her mind and try to forget the accusation.

  But she knew she would never be able to forget it. Because a part of her feared the queen spoke only the truth.

  She stared into her father’s eyes and her courage wavered. Perhaps she should take the time to think this through, to choose her words with care and practice what she needed to ask.

  But there was no easy way to say it. She could have a year to prepare the words, and still she wouldn’t know what to say.

  “Is it true that I’m the daughter of a Druid?”

  Chapter 32

  Her father
’s swarthy complexion paled, as though she had struck a mortal blow to his heart. Antonia stared, appalled. There was no need for him to confirm or deny. The stricken look in his eyes told her everything.

  “No.” His voice was hoarse and he gave her a small shake. “You’re my daughter, Antonia. You have always been my daughter.”

  She pulled free of his grasp. Panic writhed deep in her gut, a malevolent serpent seething with poison, corroding everything she had ever believed of her life. My father is a Druid.

  It made a distorted sense. She’d often wondered if her mother would have married a merchant if she had not been pregnant. Now she knew the truth beyond any doubt.

  “What did my mother’s esteemed family give you for taking her off their hands?” Her voice was bitter and she scarcely acknowledged how Elpis gripped her hand. How foolish she had been to imagine her parents had been so blindly, completely in love that it had crossed all social boundaries.

  “Antonia.” Was it her imagination or did her father sound shocked? Why did he sound shocked? Should she remain ignorant of her roots, now they’d been wrenched from the false bed she had lain in for the last twenty-five years?

  “Why? Why did you marry her?”

  “Because I loved her.” Her father let out a pained breath and Antonia’s heart ached at the look of desolation on his face. “I loved her. She was intelligent, beautiful and always had time to speak to me whenever our paths crossed. I always knew I never stood a chance with her.”

  “Until she disgraced her father’s name.”

  The look of desolation vanished and her father’s eyes gleamed with rage. “She disgraced no one, Antonia. The filthy dog raped her. I was honored to be chosen for her husband. Cassia deserved a life in Rome as befit her noble birth, but instead she was destined to die in Gallia. Because of the barbarism of a Druid.”