Beautifully Torn

by Charity Parkerson

  Spencer’s eyebrows somehow got higher.

  Zayn’s expression snapped closed.

  Everyone looked at everyone else, as if no one dared to be the first to say anything. Rocky looked a bit pale, and it occurred to Hudson he might be jeopardizing Rocky's job.

  “I got your wedding invitation,” Hudson said to break the tension. “Consider me RSVP’d.”

  A smile exploded across Spencer’s face. He looked away, as if trying to hide it.

  Zayn looked as if he’d run through a list of responses in his head before choosing to attack things head on. “So, are the three of you...” It was obvious he didn’t know how to finish that question.

  “Yes,” Hudson, Rocky, and Jinx said simultaneously. They shared a smile.

  “Okay.” Zayn straightened away from the counter where Spencer had him pinned only moments ago. “We were just headed back to bed. If you’re all still around in a few hours, maybe we can have breakfast together.”

  “Sounds great,” Jinx answered for them. “We’re in my room, if you’re ready and don’t see us.”

  With a nod, Spencer linked fingers with Zayn and disappeared through a hidden panel in the kitchen. The moment they were gone, Rocky covered his face with both hands.

  Jinx rushed to soothe him. He rubbed Rocky’s back. “Don’t worry. I’ve known Spencer a long time. He won’t care about this.”

  “Also, I won’t let you be homeless if this ends up becoming an issue,” Hudson added, because he would not let anyone toss Rocky into the street.

  Rocky dropped his hands. He looked defeated. “Sorry. Even though Zayn and I haven’t really had the normal boss and employee relationship over the years, that was still brutal. He gave me a job when he could’ve had my ass tossed in jail.” Rocky scrubbed his fingers through his hair. Hudson’s thoughts scattered as he watched Rocky’s muscles flex.

  Jinx looked every bit as fascinated.

  Hudson tried pulling his thoughts back on track. “Like I said, I won’t let this relationship hurt you. I don’t think Spencer or Zayn seemed bothered, but if you find out differently, you can come live with me. My house isn’t quite this massive, and I don’t have any secret passageways, but you’d be comfortable.”

  Rocky chuckled. His sexy green eyes flashed with humor. “Did you see their faces?” He snorted. “I think we shocked them a little.”

  Jinx walked around them and opened the fridge. “Considering they are absolute freaks, I don’t think we have to worry about any judgment from that pair.” Jinx pulled three bottles of water from the fridge before turning back their way. “But I still imagine we should be prepared to get side-eyed by some people. Are you two ready to go back to bed?”

  Hudson was so fucking proud of how calm Jinx sounded because he was right. There would be some people who judged them. Right now, though, there was nothing Hudson wanted more than to go back to bed.

  It was a tiny bit possible Jinx was nowhere near as calm on the inside as he pretended to be. The thing was, though, he was too happy to let that fear ruin what they were starting. He swore he felt Rocky’s and Hudson’s hungry stares following him to the bedroom. Jinx expected they would pounce any second. He couldn’t wait.

  Inside the bedroom, Jinx set his water aside, tossed the sheet back onto the bed, and calmly climbed back into bed. Since he was nude, he might have made a bit of a show of it, but he could still feel their eyes. When he settled onto his back, Jinx fought a smile. Hudson and Rocky were staring at him like starving wolves. Side by side, they peeled their underwear off, letting their erections spring free. Jinx’s hand automatically went for his cock. It hardened as his fingers encircled his shaft. He stroked as he eyed the men that he hoped would soon be inside him. Jinx didn’t care which one fucked him as long as someone did. He felt empty.

  Hudson climbed over him, licking Jinx’s crown as he went. Jinx’s eyes fell closed. His skin felt like it was too tight. He needed release.

  “Please tell me you have condoms in here.”

  Jinx stared at Rocky’s huge cock as he responded. “I’m sorry. I don’t. There has to be some somewhere in this house.” Damn. He hoped so because Jinx wanted that dick.

  Rocky stroked himself, making Jinx’s hunger grow. Hudson kissed Jinx’s neck. Jinx’s hips automatically rolled.

  Rocky’s eyes seemed to glaze over while watching them. “Um. Damn. Give me a minute. I’ll cut through the walls to my bedroom and grab what we need.” Rocky disappeared in a hurry.

  Jinx might have laughed at his enthusiasm if he wasn’t so goddamn turned on. He needed Rocky to get back as fast as possible.

  Hudson hovered over Jinx, stealing kisses. He pulled away just enough to hold Jinx’s stare. “Are you sure about this? I don’t want you to resent me.”

  Without thought, Jinx’s finger slid up the bridge of Hudson’s nose. From there, he traced one of Hudson’s perfectly shaped eyebrows. He was such a beautiful man. “I can’t tell you how much you live in my thoughts. Why are you so flawless?”

  “I can afford to be.”

  A smile pulled at Jinx’s lips as he stroked Hudson’s nose again before lightly fingering Hudson’s lip piercing. “I don’t mean on the outside, even though you are incredibly hot. It’s your heart. You’re so beautiful on the inside, I knew right away one time with you would never be enough.” Jinx pushed at Hudson’s chest, urging him onto his back. He kissed the lip ring he had been toying with. Hudson had a lot of sexy piercings. There were a few in places meant to bring the most pleasure. Jinx kissed Hudson’s chin before moving lower. He licked Hudson’s pierced nipples. “Damn. I miss you when you’re too busy for me.”

  Jinx slithered lower, tonguing Hudson’s ribs, counting each one on the way down. “Do you ever think about me?”

  “All the goddamn time.” Hudson sounded breathless. Jinx hoped to make it worse.

  He licked Hudson’s crown, teasing him by toying with his Prince Albert piercing. Hudson moaned and Jinx took Hudson’s length. As his lips closed around Hudson’s cock, Hudson’s body bowed like he had never felt anything better. Warm lips touched the small of Jinx’s back as the bed dipped beside them. Jinx’s eyes rolled back in pleasure.

  “You two are so damn sexy together.” Wet fingers probed at Jinx’s ass. “Fuck. You have no idea how many nights I’ve jacked off while imagining pushing my way inside this tight asshole.”

  Between the taste of Hudson’s cock, Hudson acting like he was getting the blow job of a lifetime, and Rocky’s words, Jinx was already ready to explode. He was mindless on Hudson’s dick, giving him everything.

  Rocky spread Jinx’s ass cheeks wide. “Mhmm. Look at that greedy hole, begging for me. You are everything I want.” Rocky’s wide crown pushed against Jinx’s asshole. Jinx sucked in a ragged breath around Hudson’s cock. While Jinx owned some big toys, Rocky was bigger than Jinx usually took. Luckily, he was too horny and distracted to tense. Rocky took advantage and thrust. A cry tore from Jinx as Rocky’s dick punched his prostate at just the right spot and angle. He had never come so hard and fast in his life. Jinx sucked and bobbed on Hudson’s cock, going wild as Rocky ruined him for anyone else.

  “Oh, fuck. Goddamn. I’ve never... holy shit.” A loud cry vibrated against his spine as Rocky bit his back.

  Hudson grabbed Jinx’s hair and pulled. “Suck it. Yes. You’re fucking amazing. Yes.” A guttural-sounding groan assaulted Jinx’s ears as hot cum filled his mouth. Jinx let the mixture of cum and saliva roll down Hudson’s cock as he pumped at Hudson’s shaft, finishing him. Hudson’s muscles relaxed like he turned to gelatin beneath Jinx. He panted like he had run a marathon.

  Rocky’s fingers encircled Jinx’s jaw. He pulled Jinx up and back, twisting until he could claim Jinx’s mouth—like he hunted for Hudson’s cum.

  Jinx could barely cling to a single thought as they collapsed into a heap of sweaty bodies in Jinx’s bed. They kissed and petted one another. Time passed as they lingered in the passion of the moment. At some p
oint, Rocky cleaned them—like the caretaker he was. When Jinx finally drifted off to sleep, a smile still lingered on his lips. For the first time in ages, he was truly happy. It was possible it was only for one night. They might wake up in a few hours and realize this wouldn’t work. For now, Jinx was at peace. They were three men looking for a loving forever home. It felt like they had found it.

  Four

  Hudson: I think I’ll go pink with the hair today.

  Jinx: I like pink.

  Rocky: I could see you in pink.

  Hudson: May I take you both to dinner tonight afterward?

  Rocky: I’m working.

  Jinx: Sure.

  Rocky: You two should definitely go and have fun. I’ll come to you when I get off.

  Hudson: Damn right, you’ll come.

  Rocky: Looking forward to it.

  Rocky: Where are you? I’ve looked everywhere.

  Jinx: Mom wanted part of her ashes scattered on the beach. I finally worked up the strength to do it.

  Rocky: Why didn’t you wait on me? You shouldn’t do that alone.

  Jinx: I wanted to do it alone, but thank you. Will you be home when I get back?

  Rocky: Definitely.

  Jinx: Good. I need you.

  Rocky: You’ve got me, baby.

  Jinx: Are you home?

  Hudson: Yep.

  Jinx: Is it okay if I come by? Rocky is working and I’m bored.

  Hudson: Absolutely. I’m in my studio. I’d love your help to improve some sounds.

  Jinx: I’m always your man.

  Hudson: Damn right, you are.

  Rocky: How do you feel about kidnapping Jinx and the three of us going camping?

  Hudson: Like in a tent?

  Rocky: Yep. Old school roughing it.

  Hudson: In the middle of nowhere?

  Rocky: Exactly. Out where no one can hear you scream.

  Hudson: I’m in.

  Spencer: I expect all three of you to be here on time for the rehearsal tomorrow night.

  Hudson: Tito knows. He’s the one who keeps me on schedule, so I’ll be there.

  Rocky: Jinx and I live here, so no problem on our end.

  Jinx: I was just typing the same thing.

  Spencer: Good. You three are really important to us. We want you with us.

  Hudson: Awww.

  Rocky: You got it.

  Jinx: We love you both and wouldn’t miss it.

  While watching Jinx and Rocky stand at the altar together, side by side, standing up for their friends, Hudson felt something. They looked beautiful. The flowered arch. A man of God. Hudson fully believed Jinx and Rocky should have that. He felt a swell of pride and relief when he imagined them married.

  Now that the wedding and reception were over, they were slightly drunk and hanging out in the game room. That feeling of needing Jinx and Rocky settled hadn’t faded. No matter how hard Hudson tried, he couldn’t stop watching Rocky and Jinx on the sly. At six-foot four, Rocky almost had a full foot on Jinx’s five-foot six status. He was solid and hard-looking. Rocky rarely smiled, and his dark green eyes always held an ounce of rage. Hudson shouldn’t have been intrigued by him. Rocky should have never caught his eye. God knew he was opposite of Hudson in every way. But Rocky had Hudson’s attention, and Hudson couldn’t stop craving him. He was thankful for that.

  Rocky had touched him a lot today. Hudson had been aware of every single instance. While Rocky always let Jinx and Hudson touch him as much as they dared, today, Rocky had initiated a majority of the contact. Hudson needed more. He longed for human touch. Hudson fought the urge to beg Rocky and Jinx to give him the attention he needed. After all, he had them now. For a long time, Hudson had danced around Jinx, only tasting him occasionally. Now, for four months, he’d had Rocky and Jinx. It felt like a miracle. Hudson had to find a way to keep them forever.

  “You two looked perfect together at that altar today.”

  Jinx flashed him a smile and went back to battling Rocky in their video game. He spoke over his shoulder. “It felt good to stand up there with Spencer. I like knowing he’s settled with someone who loves him the way he deserves.”

  Even though neither man faced him, Hudson still nodded. “I’m sure, but that’s not what I meant. You two should get married.”

  Rocky laughed. “Um. No. Now is probably a good time to say that I don’t plan to marry. I get that we fought really hard for the right to do so, but it’s not for me.”

  That was not what Hudson hoped to hear. It also hadn’t escaped his attention that Jinx hadn’t responded. “What about you, Jinx?”

  Jinx kept his gaze locked on the TV. “What about me?”

  Hudson fought an eye roll. “Do you see yourself as someone’s husband someday?”

  “I’d always hoped so, yes.”

  Rocky tossed a quick and uncomfortable-looking glance Jinx’s way. Jinx kept his stare glued to the TV like his life depended upon it. Rocky’s character died and Jinx flashed him a bright smile. “Ha. You owe me a kiss.”

  Rocky immediately snagged the back of Jinx’s neck and claimed his mouth. Hudson watched the entire scene with two parts pride and one part sadness. It was obvious Jinx wanted something out of life that Rocky would never give. Hudson was gone a lot. He wished they could be settled.

  Rocky pulled away and stood. “Well, guys. I think I’ll run upstairs, grab a shower, and find something comfortable to wear. Then maybe we can find some of that leftover reception food.”

  Jinx nodded. “Sounds good.”

  Rocky gave Hudson a quick kiss before leaving them alone. Hudson watched as Jinx put away their game controllers. There was a hint of unhappiness in Jinx’s features—like his shoulders sagged. Hudson couldn’t take it.

  “I could see you happily married. You’d make a great husband.”

  A small smile touched Jinx’s lips. “I always kind of liked the thought of being settled. My mom used to talk about planning the perfect wedding for me. She wanted to know I would be happy after she was gone. I guess it’s hard to top today’s wedding, though. It was pretty perfect.” Jinx released a tired-sounding breath. “Would you like to join me for a shower?”

  The muscles in Hudson’s stomach automatically clenched in anticipation of touching Jinx. There was nothing he loved more. “That sounds amazing. Come here first.” Even Hudson heard the hunger in his voice.

  Jinx’s gaze locked on Hudson. He held Hudson’s stare as he crossed the room. As he reached Hudson’s side, Hudson snagged Jinx’s waist and towed him forward until Jinx straddled his lap. They never looked away from staring into each other’s eyes. Hudson wouldn’t let Jinx be sad. He couldn’t. Jinx’s pain made his chest ache.

  “I have something to say.”

  Jinx nodded. “I’m listening.”

  Hudson took a breath. He loved the way Jinx smelled—like something sweet Hudson could eat. “It’s something you already know.”

  “That’s okay. There’s nothing I’d rather be doing than listening to you telling me the same stories for the rest of our lives.”

  Fuck. Hudson wanted that so badly. “Good, because I love you.”

  Jinx went still, as if he held his breath.

  Hudson wasn’t finished. “I think you know I do and that I have for a long time. You also know I’m not very good at dealing with my emotions. They’re there, though. I’m completely in love with you.”

  Jinx visibly swallowed. He looked ready to cry. When he spoke, his voice broke, proving Hudson’s thoughts true. “I love you too.”

  Hudson urged Jinx’s mouth down to his. When their lips met, Hudson’s heart skipped a beat. He had known when they spent their first night together that Jinx was special. Jinx had let Hudson kiss him because he wanted to kiss. It had nothing to do with Hudson’s fame. They had come together like two men who wanted each other on a higher level. Jinx was every love song Hudson had written since. He felt all those words again as their tongues stroked.

  Hudson pulled away just e
nough to keep whispering everything in his heart. “I swear you’ll make your mom’s dreams come true. If you’ll still have me when all the touring is done, I’d marry you in a heartbeat.”

  “There’s nothing you could do to drive me away. I’ll be here when you’re ready.”

  The backs of Hudson’s eyes burned as he claimed Jinx’s mouth once more. Before tonight, he had never once considered marriage, but he would marry Jinx one day. That was a vow. He felt in his soul that was his destiny. Hudson couldn’t wait to embrace it. They were meant to be.