Faded Sun Trilogy Omnibus

by C. J. Cherryh

  It was a moment before bodies stirred, before any had the temerity to move . . . and in a thick silence the Kel stood, the kath’anth withdrawing first in the precedence of leaving. Kel’ein waited. Niun moved, realizing it was on him, and walked out into the forechamber of the tent where the Shrine was, paid shaken homage to the Holy, wishing to gather up the threads of all that had been cast him, that drank up reason and made madmen of them all.

  But others swarmed about him, a dark and fearsome presence, the blackness of Kel, his own and others’, crowding the Shrine and the door out of which Sen must come. It was chaos, and he stifled in it, moved for the door and daylight, to disperse them by his leaving, but a hand caught his arm, familiarity none of them ventured with him.

  “Kel’anth,” said Hlil.

  He resisted, but Hlil was determined. “Kel’ein?” he asked, without moving or looking particularly at any of them. “Kel’anthein?”

  The hand tightened with force. “Aye,” Hlil said. “You never give us your face, even when the veil is down. You have your secrets. But what the she’pan has finally said, kel’anth, we have waited to hear, and others have. She has the Seeing, is it not so?”

  “That may be so,” Niun said hoarsely. “I have sometimes thought so.”

  “You are kin to her.”

  “Was.”

  “They are here, other kel’anthein, other tribes; you are kel’anth to us, and we know your manner. You go out of the fingers like sand, Niun: s’Intel; you have no face, even to us, as the wind has none. We have watched you, silent with the strangers when you ought to speak, brooding over that tsi’mri, apart. We understand the she’pan. Perhaps we even understand, you . . . but how can they? You are her Hand. And what she gains, you bid fair, to cash away.”

  “That may be,” he said, finding breath difficult. He no more looked at them than before. “If that is so, then I deserve blame for it.”

  “What is in you, kel’anth?”

  “Let go of me, Hlil.”

  “Once, reach out your hand and take up this Kel. Or what will they go back and say? That the kel’anth preferred other company?”

  He understood the gist of it then, set his face and glared at Hlil. “Ah. My orthodoxy. That I defended kel Duncan. That is at issue.”

  “Answer.”

  “I was taught kel-law; we kept it strictly in my House. I cannot read or write and I never knew the Mysteries. Two thousand years bounded all I knew. But my House fell. My Kel died. I have carried the pan’en of the Voyagers in my own hands and crossed in my life all the Darks that ever were. Shall I shed this on you all? One kel’en was with me throughout; one kel’en knows the law that I knew and the songs as my Kel sang them, and saw what I have seen. I am arrogant, yes. I have all the faults you think I have. And you pick a poor time to quarrel with me, Hlil, kel-second.”

  He would have torn away; Hlil’s hand clenched tighter still. “I hear you,” Hlil said. “Long since, I have heard you. Now someone else does.”

  Heat crept to his face, resentment toward Hlil, toward witnesses of this humiliation. Then he thought before my own Kel it would not shame me to say. And secondly: my own Kel. This was.

  They were.

  “Forgive me,” he said. He let the restraint from his face, even to Rhian of the hao’nath, and the others, and it was worse to him than stripping naked. “Forgive me for offense.” He recited apology docilely, like a child . . . knew that there would be murmuring when they were out of hearing. That too was just. He pressed Hlil’s shoulder, felt the hand drop from his arm, turned from that quieted company to the outside, his eyes nictitating from the sudden sunlight. They cleared, and he saw the gathering by the tent of the Kel, the whole mass of them there, shoulder to shoulder.

  His heart constricted.

  “Duncan,” he breathed aloud, and hastened, strode across the sand with strides which left the others who had followed him, met the mass of kel’ein about the tent and parted them, his and theirs, thrust his way ungently through their midst, foreseeing everything in shambles, bloodfeud, all ties unraveled.

  And stopped, seeing most seated about the center, the whole mingled Kel, and Duncan in the midst of all, sitting with Ras against his dus’s broad shoulder and talking peaceably to all of them.

  He shut his eyes an instant and caught what the beast held, that was the essence of Duncan, a quiet thing, and strong, with the stubbornness of the dusei themselves.

  And love, and profound desire for those about him.

  Duncan felt his presence and looked up, rose anxiously and stood there staring at him, casting question, question, question like the beating of a panicked heart.

  Niun came to him, kel’ein moving aside to give place to him and the kel’ein who came after him.

  “Sov-kela,” Niun said, catching him by the arm and drawing him aside from those centermost. “I was worried for you and I find you entertaining the whole Kel.”

  “Is it all right?” Duncan asked him. “Did it go all right?”

  The question stopped him cold. What Duncan asked and what they had arrived at in Council were two different matters. The dus came between, forcing its way. Niun recoiled in his thoughts, blank to it, quickly enough, he hoped. Then the second dus made its appearance, unfelt until it came within sight around the tent corner. And all about them were listening. He set his hand on Duncan’s shoulder. “Get in out of the wind, sov-kela.”

  Duncan went, unquestioning. Niun looked about at the others, the faces that expected answer of him, wondering the same things. “Ask of your own,” he said. “We move in the morning. It would be presumption of me to wish that you will all be with us. But I do. And for my own Kel . . . give me a very little time—I ask this.”

  There was a murmuring. He walked through them, and into the tent, and no one followed, only the dusei. There was no one inside, but only Duncan, in the dim light of the wind vents overhead.

  “I should not have asked you in public,” Duncan said.

  “Do not fret for it. It was all right.”

  “I know,” said Duncan in that same faint voice, “that something is wrong. Something went wrong. But not with them and you. Am I mistaken?”

  O gods, Niun thought how much did you feel? The dusei were there; Duncan had a talent with them . . . let them have too much, received back more than mri had ever gotten. His nature, he thought, that he reserves nothing.

  “Where is your service?” he asked of Duncan.

  “With the she’pan.”

  “And if we fight?”

  “You cannot fight!” Duncan lowered his voice in mid-breath at Niun’s warning, made a gesture of helpless appeal. “You know the odds; you know, if they do not You have no hope at all. Do you want another Kesrith?”

  “If we fight—are you mri?”

  “Yes,” Duncan said after a moment.

  “You could not be mistaken.”

  “No.”

  Niun opened his arms, embraced him, set him back at arm’s-length, staring into his anguished eyes. “Sov-kela—if you are wrong, we will break your heart.”

  “What did they decide?”

  “It was always decided. A mri way. Do you hear me? The she’pan has already determined what way she will lead; and perhaps she will use what you have given her . . . but not—not as you gave it.”

  “I hear you.” The dusei crowded near, moaning, shied off again. Duncan caught a breath and, made a gesture as he would when he was without a word, let the breath go and the gesture fall, helpless. His dus came to him and he caressed its thick neck as if that were the most absorbing task in the world. “You choose your own way,” he said finally. “If I have interfered, it was because I hoped there was a way the mri could survive and keep their own way. If I was wrong, it was tsi’mri taint, perhaps, a fondness for survival.”

  “No. You do not understand. I am not asking whether you can die with us. I am talking about the she’pan’s order. Your honor . . . is it mri?”

  Duncan stared
at him, his face stark in the dim light, and for a moment frightened. The fear passed. “I warned them. I told them.”

  “If they are as you once were . . . can they have believed a plain warning?”

  “Some likely not. But I gave it, all the same.”

  There was a stirring next the walls, the soft murmur of voices, diminishing; the stranger-kel’ein were departing the patchwork tent. Niun walked to the outside doorway, looked on the ja’anom who waited, solemn and quiet, Hlil foremost among them. He beckoned, and they came, settling into council in absolute quiet. Duncan would have sought last rank, but Niun signed to him and cleared a place near him, not by rank, but in a place where those concerned in council business might be set out of their order.

  “Is there any matter,” he asked, “that passed but there . . . that was not resolved?”

  No one spoke. But after a moment there was a stir from the second rank, and heads turned as Ras stood up. She excused herself through first rank and came to center, and in disquiet Niun stood up, and Duncan. Ras came to Duncan and embraced him, and after that to Niun, as one would with an unscarred on his first day in Kel. “I swore to be first,” she said.

  Others came, Peras and Desai and Hlil and Merin; Dias and Seras and all of them from first rank to last, first Duncan and then himself, in strange and quiet courtesy; to the first he was numb, and toward the last, beginning to comprehend it not as irony, but as something given from the heart. They all settled in their places, even Duncan, and the dusei by him; and he was left staring at them with heat risen to his face and a dazed lack of grace.

  After a moment he sat down, hands in lap, stared at them for some moments more before he could recover his wits or reason the tautness from his throat.

  “The matter before council,” he managed finally in a voice which sounded distant in his own ears. “You asked to know it.”

  Chapter Fifteen

  No life existed here either. Boaz stared at the city from wind-sore eyes—the damaged streets, the sand-choked alleys, and hope began to ebb. Her heart pounded in her ears with the steady strain; joints ached as from long fever, and popped with sharp little pains when the sand made the going hard. The boys wanted to carry the necessary pack; she refused that stubbornly, for they had their own. Her breath rasped in her throat and came too short through the hissing mask: if she could have shed anything, irrationally, it would be that rattling tank at her shoulder, and the mask that seemed more restraint on breathing than aid, but it was life. She turned the valve from time to time, shot a little oxygen in; it made her light-headed and her throat hurt. She blamed that and not the air and the cold.

  There were at least no dead; they were spared that, at least. There was no sign that mri had visited here since the seas fled. But there had been fire from this place: regul and human fire had pinpointed to areas which had fired, finding their targets by that means. Something was alive here, but not—she began to be sure—not flesh and blood. Not the mri: they had needed to find.

  Galey stopped ahead of her, slung his pack off and sat down on a fallen stone, arms slack between his knees; rest stop: Boaz was glad of it, and sat down, Kadarin next to her. There were three; by Galey’s decision, since Lane’s death—they sat themselves on strict schedule, and left Shibo with the ship, to monitor com . . . and, Boaz suspected, to get word back if they met trouble. They were out of room for recklessness. Shibo was the other pilot . . . capable of leaving them. Had those orders in certain contingencies, she suspected. Galey had not said. It was, perhaps, salve for a soldier’s conscience—that truth might get back if they did not.

  “Got to be close to the central square,” Galey said. “Or my direction’s off.”

  She nodded. Galey and Kadarin looked terrible, faces lined with Kutath’s cruel dryness, red-marked with the masks . . . cracked lips, eyes red like sick animals’. Nails broken to the quick and skin at joints galled and cracked and crusted. Mri robes made sense, she reckoned: no way she could have persuaded the military, but mri who wore loose robes and exposed scarcely their eyes to this torment . . . had more sense than they. She would have given much for the thickness of those coarse robes between her and the wind, which buried their feet in sand even while they sat. She thought of Duncan, who had walked this land on mri terms . . . and come in strangely more whole than they: recalled the face, gaunt and changed, and narrow-eyed, smooth, as if humankind were burned out of it, and wrung out with the moisture; and placid, as if expressions were waste.

  There had been a touch of the mri. Here—save for the edunei—things did not agree together. She looked about her, at stones, which had a touch of lavenders amid the apricot dust of afternoon . . . at streets and buildings. What it might have been in its prime, this great city . . . her expert eye filled in, missing angles, shaping with the remembered fragments of the saffron-hued city of so many dead: alien arches, bizarre geometries, delicate symmetry of threes.

  Threes, she thought, a preponderance of triangles. Three castes. The silhouette of the edunei. The three-way intersection of streets. Buildings of slanting wails and ground-plans which made sensible geometry if the wings were divided triangularly. She shivered, recognizing an underlying geometry of alien perceptions, another thing than underlay the dualities that underlay human architecture, human relationships, human sex, either-or, up and down, black and white, duality of alternatives. The minds which built this had thought otherwise, had seen differently.

  Never the right questions, she thought with a tightness at her stomach.

  In any situation . . . were there three alternatives?

  And the great edunei: always the edunei, where mri had lived in human/regul space . . . never such streets, such buildings, asprawl in triangular multiplications. Mri had used the edunei: huge ones, by report, far greater than Kesrith . . . and those were dimmest echoes of the edun of the saffron city: mud-walled echoes. Residences, presumably here as there.

  And what were these outer buildings, this disorderly sprawl centering about the edun?

  The triangularity was the same. The flavor was not. The logic was not. The life within the self-contained edunei . . . and in this sprawl . . . could not be the same.

  “Not mri,” she said aloud. “The makers of this . . . were not mri.” And when Galey and Kadarin gazed at her as if she had lost her reason: “It’s not the ruins; we need. Duncan was right all the way in the other city; and in this one . . . no dead. Deserted, as he said. I advise we get back to that shuttle. Out in the land. There are the ship’s lights . . . by night they’d be quite visible.”

  “Boz,” Galey said, “what are you talking about, not mri?”

  “Didn’t Duncan tell us the truth once? And again . . . here: these cities are not where we find the mri. What is mri is in those machines, and we can’t get at it; and what’s out here in these streets is of no use to us. These buildings—are no use. We’re already taking one chance, staying out here. Take a further. Go all the way. Find the mri; there may be something here we can’t afford to find, whoever made the outer city. A logic we can’t deal with. A language we know nothing of.”

  Galey stared at her, and cast a glance about the buildings, his masked face contracting in a grimace of distress. Perhaps even to his eyes things fell into new order; he had that kind of look, that of a man seeing something he had not.

  “What are we into?” he asked. “Boz are you sure?”

  “I’m sure of nothing. But I suggest we take our chances on the known quantity. That if we go looking long enough . . . we might turn up something that doesn’t follow the rules we know, even what little we know. And what do we do then?”

  “What do we do with the mri?”

  “We get a contact. We try the names we know. We get back into the range of Duncan’s mri and we turn on the lights.”

  Galey’s eyes slid aside to Kadarin, back again. “That totally breaks with the orders I have.”

  “I know that.”

  “We rest here the night; we’ll go ba
ck tomorrow morning, if that’s what we’re going to do.”

  “Now.” She shivered with the thought. “My old bones don’t like the thought of a night walk; but how much time can we have? If we delay here, then we’re giving up time; and if it comes to waiting—on the mri . . . then time is the only thing we have to use, isn’t it?”

  Galey sat still a long moment, staring at nothing in particular. Finally he looked at Kadarin. “You have a word in this.”

  “What works,” Kadarin said. “What works and gets us home with it done.”

  “It’s on my head,” Galey said. “Say that I ordered you, all the way.”

  * * *

  “Kel’anth,” Dias whispered. “Watch says they are coming.”

  Niun sprang up from morning meal and excused himself through the Kel which scattered for their weapons. He walked along beside kel Dias, out into the dark before dawn and a stiff wind out of the south; his kel-sword he had with him, and his dus determined to follow, inanimate and living accouterments. He tucked his veil into place and felt somewhere not far from him the other dus, and Duncan, heard running steps this way and that through the camp, messengers dispatched to the other tents, to advise them of outsider approach. Hlil came up beside him, matched his pace. Ahead of him the watch stirred out, from the seeming of a rock on the crest of the eastward dune, a robed kel’en unfolding to stand and point mutely toward the east, to the dim showing of dunes in the starlight.

  The Kel spread out along the crest facing that darkness, where the hint of shadow moved far, far off. Niun found himself, as he ought to be, the center of the line, with Hlil at his right hand and the dus at his left. Duncan was not far from him . . . he and his dus had no right to stand so near center, he turned his head to see, and found him by Ras, in second-rank, orderly and with second-rank distributed evenly as they ought, accepting of that presence . . . second-rank’s business, he reckoned, disturbed—turned his face again to the dark and waited, the dus which touched him beginning a vibrating song, incongruous here, this overconfidence. It sang against him, such that only those nearest might hear at all, so deeply that it shuddered into bone and flesh, numbing, soothing. For a moment there was awareness of the mate a few paces behind; of Duncan, anxious; and Ras, a bleeding shadow; of Melein awake in another tent and an exultation so fierce it pulsed in the ears; of sen’ein calm, kath’ein love, the sleeping peace of children . . . camps and kel’ein scattered around about them, far across the dunes. Farther still, dus-sense, contact with others . . .