Crusader's Cross

by James Lee Burke

  “Wake you up?” the voice said, one that sounded like that of a man with infected membrane on his vocal cords.

  “Jericho?” I said.

  “I know it’s early, but I let Jigger Babineau sleep it off in the back of my saloon. Then he goes crazy about an hour ago and starts breaking out my windows with pool balls. Remember Jigger? He used to wash money for the Giacanos? So I’m sticking his head in a bucket of ice water when he tells me he saw you coming out of my saloon and you’re gonna get clipped by a cop. I say, ‘Why tell me, Jigger?’ He goes, ‘Because Robicheaux is a prick and so are you.’

  “So I ask him if the hitter is a guy name of Billy Joe Pitts, since Pitts ain’t a player anymore. He says no, that ain’t the name, it’s a cop on a pad who’s also a gash-hound and likes to nail young girls but he don’t know the name. In fact, he don’t know nothing except that Dave Robicheaux, who he called a self-righteous lush, is about to get his wick snuffed. So I thought I ought to pass it on.”

  “Anything about Purcel?” I said.

  “You’re the hit, my man. You know a dirty cop who’d go so far he’d smoke another cop?”

  “Pitts’s partner, a dude named J. W. Shockly,” I replied.

  “If I was you, I’d start hanging around with a better class of people,” he said.

  CLETE AND I FISHED for speckled trout and gafftop catfish in Atchafalaya Bay, just south of Point au Fer. The trout were not running, but we loaded the ice chest with big, hard-bodied gafftop and that evening put ashore at a camp built on stilts in the sawgrass that Clete leased by the year. We cleaned and filleted the fish on the dock and deep-fried them in a huge skillet, while the sun went down like a red wafer in the Gulf of Mexico.

  That night the wind came up and blew the mosquitoes back into the marsh. Then at sunrise it rained hard for thirty minutes and the air was sweet and cool as we headed south through groundswells that burst on the bow in ropes of green and white foam. Clete had not had any alcohol in two days, and his face looked youthful and handsome inside the boat cabin, where he was tying fresh leaders and feathered spoons onto the rods we were about to set in the outriggers. The mist-covered Louisiana coastline fell away behind us, and we left the westward alluvial flow of the Mississippi and entered the smoky green, rain-dimpled roll of the Gulf, flying fish sailing across our bow like sleek, salmon-colored birds.

  I could have stayed on that stretch of water the rest of my life.

  But a storm broke in the early afternoon, and we headed back for land, eating fried-oyster po’boys, our skin stiff with salt and sunburn, a good thirty pounds of gutted fish in the ice chest.

  The problems of the workweek had completely disappeared from my mind. We winched the boat up on the trailer and washed it down, then started to clean up the cabin. The rain was hitting hard on the tin roof now, and the gum trees and sawgrass in the marsh were turning gray inside the mist. Without explanation, Clete seemed to be growing agitated, faintly irritable, looking at his watch as though he were late for an appointment.

  “Give me the keys and I’ll gas up and buy some groceries to replace what we used,” he said.

  “We can buy gas on the way out,” I said.

  “I know that. But I want to restock my canned goods. That’s why I just said I wanted to buy groceries,” he replied.

  Clete’s duration of abstinence from booze was always short-lived. After a maximum of forty-eight hours, a physiological change would take place in him. He would perspire and constantly clear his throat, as though his mouth had turned to cotton, then light up a cigarette and take a deep hit on it, holding it inside, just as if he were toking on a joint. In a short while he would be back on the dirty boogie, tossing back Beam with the happy abandon of a hog rolling in slop.

  But who was I to be the expert on somebody else’s alcoholic chemistry? I tossed him the truck keys and watched through the back window as he drove down the road through the sawgrass and sheets of rain, the northern sky forked with lightning.

  He should have been gone no longer than a half hour. I finished washing the dishes and making our beds, but still no Clete. I tried his cell phone and got no answer. I lay down on top of one of the bunks and by the light of a Coleman lantern read a fine novel titled The Black Echo by Michael Connelly. The wind outside made a humming sound in the sawgrass, and when I glanced through the window I could see whitecaps on the bay, like tiny bird wings, all the way out to the horizon.

  Where was Clete?

  I fell asleep briefly and had a troubling dream that later I couldn’t remember. When I woke I heard my truck coming up the shell road, the boat trailer bouncing through the depressions. I sat on the side of the bunk and rubbed the sleep out on my face, resolving not to be angry or impatient with Cletus. The side window of the cabin had fogged in the rain, and I wiped it clean and looked out at the parking spot by the boat ramp. Clete had somebody with him and they were both drunk.

  I opened the door onto the small gallery and watched them gather up two bags of groceries and a case of beer and head through the rain. The man with Clete was dressed western—in tight jeans, cowboy boots, chrome belt buckle the size of a car tag, a snap-button shirt that glittered like tin, and a short-brim Stetson tilted on the side of his head. His teeth were long, his face as lined as a tobacco leaf.

  “Hey, Streak, look who I ran into—Bob Cobb. Remember Stomp-ass Bad Texas Bob?” Clete said.

  They clomped inside the cabin, shaking off the rain, blowing out their breath, sorting out the beer and snacks on the kitchen table. Bad Texas Bob sat down in a chair, removed his hat, and wiped the water out of his hair onto the floor. “You guys got any chippies down here?” he said.

  “Not a good question, Bob,” Clete said.

  “I was pulling Dave’s joint,” Bob said. “How’s it danglin’, Streak?”

  “We’re just about to head out,” I said, giving Clete a look.

  Bob’s face wrinkled with hundreds of little lines when he grinned, but his eyes contained a steady, forced brightness, the kind you see in people who claim to be born again or wish to sell you something. I had not shaken hands with him, although I wasn’t sure why not. In fact, I had stepped backward, toward my rucksack, which lay against the wall, the flap open.

  “I didn’t know you were a fisherman,” I said.

  “It beats spending your days at the OTB parlor,” he replied. He bent over and began slipping off his boots. “Y’all got a towel? I’m soaked to my socks.”

  His back was to us as he worked the sock off his right foot with his fingers. I could see the whiteness of his ankle, the hair along the bone, the dark yellow, shell-like thickness of his toe-nails. But more than anything else I could see the liquid glimmer in the corner of his eye.

  “Sorry about this, boys,” he said.

  But even before Bad Texas Bob spoke or turned toward us, I was reaching down into the pouch of my rucksack.

  “What the hell you doing, Bob?” Clete said, lowering a can of beer he was about to drink from.

  Bob had pulled a blue-black .25 auto from a Velcro ankle holster. But Clete kicked the table against him, knocking off his aim, and his first shot went wild and broke out the window behind me.

  I pointed my .45 in front of me with both hands, pulling back the hammer to full cock. When I fired, the room roared with sound and a hollow-point round cored through the top of Bob’s left shoulder. He should have gone down, but he didn’t, perhaps because he was standing up against the wall now, shooting wildly, one palm held up in front of his face, as though it could protect him from the impact of a .45 fired at close range.

  I think it was my second or third round that punched through his hand and sheared off three of his fingers and part of his palm, but I cannot be sure. My ears were ringing, my heart pounding with fear, my wrists bucking upwards with the recoil of my weapon. Then I saw Bad Texas-Bob’s face come apart, jaw and teeth and brain matter dissolving like wax held too close to a flame.

  Bob crashed across the table
and rolled dead-up in the center of the floor, while Clete stared at him, openmouthed, his beer splattered on his pants leg.

  I kicked open the front door and walked outside, my weapon hanging from my hand, the rain driving into my eyes. I could smell ozone and fish spawn and the salty odor of dead animals in the marsh, but I could hear no sound, as though both earth and sky had been struck dumb. Clete was shaking me, lifting my weapon from my hand, saying words that were lost in the wind. The marsh was flat and long and green in the mist, and it made me think of elephant grass in a distant country, denting and swirling under helicopters that were painted with shark’s teeth and flown by boys who only last season had played American Legion baseball.

  CHAPTER

  12

  I WAS ON THE DESK a week while Internal Affairs investigated the shooting death of Robert Cobb. During that time my colleagues stopped by to shake hands and chat, perhaps about baseball or fishing, or they’d inquire about Alafair and her life in Portland, then they’d go away.

  The same was true at Victor’s Cafeteria and at the Winn-Dixie store up the street, the golf course where I sometimes bought a bucket of balls and hacked them into trees, and at my church down the bayou in Jeanerette. People went out of their way to show both respect and goodwill toward me. They shook hands and patted me on the shoulder or back, as they would do to a family member of the deceased at a funeral.

  But if you have ever been seriously ill or have received life-threatening injuries in a war, you know what I am about to say is true. People may be kind to you, but they also fear you because you remind them of their own mortality. The insularity they seem to create around themselves is not in your imagination. We have an atavistic sense about death, and we can smell it on others as surely as a carrion bird can.

  The same applies to those who shed blood on our behalf. We collectively absolve them and, if they wear uniforms, we may even give them medals, because, after all, they took human life while defending us, didn’t they? But we do not, under any circumstances, want to know the details of what they did or how they did it; nor do we want to know about the images that will come aborning forever in their dreams.

  ON A WEDNESDAY IN JULY I was cleared by I.A. But I could not shake a pall of depression that seemed to have descended upon me. There were too many shootings and too many dead people in my jacket. With age I had come to believe that each of us is diminished by the death of another. No one is God and no one should have the power of life or death over his brother. Those who say otherwise may have their point of view, but I just don’t share it anymore.

  But I also knew enough about depression and Sigmund Freud to understand that insomnia, guilt, and night sweats are forms of impotent rage aimed at the self.

  Time to change the target, I thought.

  Somebody had contracted Bad Texas Bob Cobb to take me and, if necessary, Clete Purcel off the board. Why should I carry Cain’s mark because of what others had wrought? There was no mystery about where all this started. One way or another, the Chalonses were connected with the story of Ida Durbin, and that connection was one they did not want the world to know about.

  On the day I.A. cleared me I checked out a cruiser and headed to Lafayette and the television station and offices of Valentine Chalons. I kept it at eighty all the way up the four-lane, my flasher on, my chest and arms pumped with an adrenal-like energy, a martial band playing in my head. In AA it’s called a dry drunk. Some just call it terminal assholeitis. The bottom line is, it bodes well for no one.

  I hung my badge holder on my belt and went past Valentine’s secretary into his office, thrusting back the door without knocking. His office was huge, done with white furniture and a lustrous black floor and a full glass wall that looked onto an atrium containing a live oak tree circled by a bed of pink and gray caladiums. Several men and women in business suits were sitting in plastic chairs, listening to Valentine Chalons speak to them from behind his desk. Their faces made me think of ceramic that had been painted with flesh tones.

  “I’ve got a story you can put your investigative reporters on, Val,” I said. “The guy I dusted, Robert Cobb? He was a disgraced state police officer who killed eight escaped convicts and used to get free blow jobs at Vicki Rochon’s cathouse in Baton Rouge. Then he ended up doing security work at a casino your family has money in. Is that just coincidence? What do you think about doing a human interest story on ole Bob?”

  “I think you’re out of your mind, is what I think,” he replied.

  “All your news stories featured my name as the shooter. The stories also mentioned I’d shot several suspects in the past. I think you also worked in the fact I’d been canned by NOPD. Is that standard procedure with you guys?”

  “Excuse me,” Val said to his friends. He picked up his telephone and called for security.

  “This is about Ida Durbin, Val,” I said. “Get used to hearing that name. She was a decent country girl who fell into the hands of white slavers. Ida Durbin was her name. Your family had money in Galveston whorehouses. She tried to get out of the life, then something happened to her. Ida Durbin, Val. You recognize the name. I can see it in your eyes. Ida Durbin and I are going to take you and your father down, partner. You’re going to see Ida Durbin’s name on your bedroom ceiling.”

  He rose from his chair and faced me. He wore a pink tie and a pale blue shirt with white cuffs. His hair was styled so that it was long on top and trim on the sides, which accentuated both his height and the leanness of his face. “Under that veneer of the blue-collar knight errant, you’re a vulgarian and a bully, Robicheaux. You’re tolerated around New Iberia because you’ve overcome some serious difficulties in your life, but in truth most people consider you an object of pity.”

  Two uniformed security men had entered Val’s office and were now standing behind me. “On the job, fellows,” I said.

  “No, not on the job. You have no jurisdiction here,” Val said. “You either walk out of here like a gentleman or you’ll be escorted to the front door. Why not make a reasonable choice and stop degrading yourself?”

  “Before I shot Bad Texas Bob, some guy in the Florida Keys called me and tried to warn me off an investigation into Ida Durbin’s disappearance. I couldn’t figure out who that guy was. But the voice was of a kind that sticks in your memory, like a dirty moment in your life you can never scrub out of your head. I think the guy was a Galveston pimp named Lou Kale. The name Lou Kale clang any bells for you, Val?”

  He tried to hold his eyes impassively on mine, but I saw an indentation in his cheek, a twitch, as though an invisible fish hook had pricked his skin and pulled at it. Got you, you bastard, I thought.

  “Take this man out of here,” he said, lifting his chin.

  But this time Val wasn’t speaking to his security personnel. Three uniformed street cops had just walked through the door. They were Cajuns like myself, basically decent men who pumped iron at Red Lorille’s Gym and had families and worked extra jobs to make ends meet. Their hands rested awkwardly at their sides, their eyes avoiding mine. Val Chalons waited for my removal from his office, as though it were a foregone conclusion. In the silence I was sure I heard my watch ticking. “Hey, Robicheaux, come have coffee wit’ us,” one of cops said.

  “Sounds great,” I said.

  “Yeah?” he said.

  “I wouldn’t have it any other way,” I said.

  He and his two colleagues were relaxed and confident as we left the building. A potentially embarrassing moment had come and gone, they had not had to arrest one of their own, and their world had become a comfortable place again. They told me they were glad my “I.A. beef” had not jammed me up.

  “’Cause that was a righteous shoot, huh? That old dude tried to cap you and you smoked his sausage. You done what you had to do, wasn’t no choice about it?” one of them said. His eyes searched mine as he waited for my answer.

  THAT EVENING the sky was full of birds, the oaks deep in shade, and out on the bayou white ducks were w
impling the water among the reeds. I could smell meat fires in City Park and hear kids playing softball. I thought I was through with Valentine Chalons for the day. But I should have known you don’t publicly challenge a man whose ego is as tender as an infected gland and simply walk away from it. When the phone rang, I picked it up without glancing at the caller ID. Val began speaking as soon as he heard my voice. “You scum-sucking cretin, if it wasn’t for your age, I’d break your jaw.”

  “Really?” I said.

  “Honoria told me about your tryst and the handcuffs and a few other sickening details about your behavior. You don’t seem to have any boundaries, do you?”

  “Run that by me again?”

  “You screwed my sister, you sorry sack of shit. She’s an impaired person.”

  “You listen—”

  “You’re white trash, Robicheaux, the village fraud constantly presenting himself as suffering victim. You latch on to causes that give your life a legitimacy it doesn’t rightfully possess. Now you’re trying to drag my family through the mud. People like you should be bars of soap.”

  My hand was clenched tightly on the telephone receiver, my temples throbbing with a level of anger I was not ready for. I tried to disconnect from his words and speak in a dispassionate tone, but at the moment my only impulse was to hang up the phone and find Valentine Chalons.

  “Ida Durbin and Lou Kale,” I said.

  “Good try, asshole,” he said. The line went dead.

  THE REST OF THE EVENING I tried to free myself from my anger. I had already missed the 7:00 p.m. AA meeting at the Episcopalian cottage across from old New Iberia High, and now, left to my own resources, I could not sort through my own thoughts or get Valentine Chalons’s words out of my head.

  Was there a degree of truth in them? Was that why I was so bothered? The unarguable fact was I had blood on my hands and during most of my adult life I had placed myself in situations that allowed me to do enormous physical injury to others, even taking their lives, without being held legally accountable for my deeds.