Manticore

by Robertson Davies

  “How much in a day?”

  “Call it a bottle, more or less. More at present, because as I keep telling you, I have been under stress.”

  “What made you think you needed an analyst, instead of a cure for alcoholics?”

  “Because I do not think of myself as an alcoholic. To be an alcoholic is a middle-class predicament. My reputation in the country where I live is such that I would cut an absurd figure in Alcoholics Anonymous; if a couple of the brethren came to minister to me, they would be afraid of me; anyhow I don’t go on the rampage or pass out or make a notable jackass of myself—I just drink a good deal and talk rather frankly. If I were to go out with another A.A. to cope with some fellow who was on the bottle, the sight of me would terrify him; he would think he had done something dreadful in his cups, and that I was his lawyer and the police were coming with the wagon. Nor would I be any good in group therapy; I took a look at that, once; I am not an intellectual snob, Doctor—at least, that is my story at present—but group therapy is too chummy for me. I lack the confessional spirit; I prefer to encourage it in others, preferably when they are in the witness-box. No, I am not an alcoholic, for alcoholism is not my disease, but my symptom.”

  “Then what do you call your disease?”

  “If I knew, I would tell you. Instead, I hope you can tell me.”

  “Such a definition might not help us much at present. Let us call it stress following your father’s death. Shall we begin talking about that?”

  “Don’t we start with childhood? Don’t you want to hear about my toilet-training?”

  “I want to hear about your trouble now. Suppose we begin with the moment you heard of your father’s death.”

  “It was about three o’clock in the morning on November 4 last. I was wakened by my housekeeper, who said the police wanted to talk to me on the telephone. It was an inspector I knew who said I should come to the dock area at once as there had been an accident involving my father’s car. He didn’t want to say much, and I didn’t want to say anything that would arouse the interest of my housekeeper, who was hovering to hear whatever she could, so I called a taxi and went to the docks. Everything there seemed to be in confusion, but in fact it was all as orderly as the situation permitted. There was a diver in a frog-man outfit, who had been down to the car first; the Fire Department had brought a crane mounted on a truck, which was raising the car; there were police cars and a truck with floodlights. I found the inspector, and he said it was my father’s car for a certainty and there was a body at the wheel. So far as they could determine, the car had been driven off the end of a pier at a speed of about forty miles an hour; it had carried on some distance after getting into the water. A watchman put in an alarm as soon as he heard the splash, but by the time the police arrived it was difficult to find exactly where it was, and then all the diving, and getting the crane, and putting a chain on the front part of the frame, had taken over two hours, so that they had seen the licence plate only a matter of minutes before I was called; it was a car the police knew well. My father had a low, distinctive licence number.

  “It was one of those wretched situations when you hope that something isn’t true which common sense tells you is a certainty. Nobody else drove that car except my father. At last they got it on the pier, filthy and dripping. A couple of firemen opened the doors as slowly as the weight of water inside would allow, because the police didn’t want anything to be washed out that might be of evidence. But it was quickly emptied, and there he sat, at the wheel.

  “I think what shocked me most was the terrible dishevelment of his body. He was always such an elegant man. He was covered with mud and oil and harbour filth, but his eyes were wide open, and he was gripping the wheel. The firemen tried to get him out, and it was then we found that his grip was so tight nothing ordinary would dislodge it. Probably you know what emergencies are like; things are done that nobody would think of under ordinary circumstances; finally they got him free of the wheel, but his hands had been terribly distorted and afterward we found that most of the fingers had been broken in doing it. I didn’t blame the firemen; they did what had to be done. They laid him on a tarpaulin and then everybody held back, and I knew they were waiting for me to do something. I knelt beside him and wiped his face with a handkerchief, and it was then we saw that there was something amiss about his mouth. The police surgeon came to help me, and when my father’s jaws were pried open we found the stone I showed you. The stone you tried yourself because you doubted what I told you.”

  “I am sorry if I shocked you. But patients come with such strange stories. Go on, please.”

  “I know police procedure. They were as kind as possible, but they had to take the body to the morgue, make reports, and do all the routine things that follow the most bizarre accidents. They strained a point by letting me get away with the stone, though it was material evidence; they knew I would not withhold it if it should be necessary, I suppose. Even as it was, some reporter saw me do it, or tricked the doctor into an admission, and the stone played a big part in the news. But they all had work to do, and so had I, but I had nobody to help me with my work.

  “So I did what had to be done. I went at once to my father’s house and wakened Denyse (that’s my stepmother) and told what had happened. I don’t know what I expected. Hysterics, I suppose. But she took it with an icy self-control for which I was grateful, because if she had broken down I think I would have had some sort of collapse myself. But she was extremely wilful. ‘I must go to him,’ she said. I knew the police would be making their examination and tried to persuade her to wait till morning. Not a chance. Go she would, and at once. I didn’t want her to drive, and it is years since I have driven a car myself, so that meant rousing the chauffeur and giving some sort of partial explanation to him. Oh, for the good old days—if there ever were such days—when you could tell servants to do something without offering a lot of reasons and explanations! But at last we were at the central police station, and in the morgue, and then we had another hold-up because the police, out of sheer decency, wouldn’t let her see the body until the doctor had finished and some not very efficient cleaning-up had been done. As a result, when she saw him he looked like a drunk who has been dragged in out of the rain. Then she did break down, and that was appalling for me, because you might as well know now that I heartily dislike the woman, and having to hold her and soothe her and speak comfort to her was torture, and it was then I began to taste the full horror of what had happened. The police doctor and everybody else who might have given me a hand were too respectful to intrude; wealth again, Dr von Haller—even your grief takes on a special quality, and nobody quite likes to dry your golden tears. After a while I took her home, and called Netty to come and look after her.

  “Netty is my housekeeper. My old nurse, really, and she has kept my apartment for me since my father’s second marriage. Netty doesn’t like my stepmother either, but she seemed the logical person to call, because she has unshakable character and authority.

  “Or rather, that is what I thought. But when Netty got over to my father’s house and I told her what had happened, she flew right off the handle. That is her own expression for being utterly unstrung, ‘flying right off the handle.’ She whooped and bellowed and made awful feminine roaring noises until I was extremely frightened. But I had to hold her and comfort her. I still don’t know what ailed her. Of course my father was a very big figure in her life—as he was in the life of anybody who knew him well—but she was no kin, you know. The upshot of it was that very soon my stepmother was attending to Netty, instead of the other way round, and as the chauffeur had roused all the other servants there was a spooky gathering of half-clad people in the drawing-room, staring and wondering as Netty made a holy show of herself. I got somebody to call my sister, Caroline, and quite soon afterward she and Beesty Bastable appeared, and I have never been so glad to see them in my life.

  “Caroline was terribly shocked, but she behaved well. Rather a
cold woman, but not a fool. And Beesty Bastable—her husband—is one of those puffing, goggle-eyed, fattish fellows who don’t seem worth their keep, but who have sometimes a surprising touch with people. It was he, really, who got the servants busy making hot drinks—and got Netty to stop moaning, and kept Caroline and my stepmother from having a fight about nothing at all, or really because Caroline started in much too soon assuming that proprietorial attitude people take toward the recently bereaved, and my stepmother didn’t like being told to go and lie down in her own house.

  “I was grateful to Beesty because when things were sorted out he said, ‘Now for one good drink, and then nothing until we’ve had some sleep, what?’ Beesty says ‘what?’ a great deal, as a lot of Old Ontario people with money tend to do. I think it’s an Edwardian affectation and they haven’t found out yet that it’s out of fashion. But Beesty kept me from drinking too much then, and he stuck to me like a burr for hours afterward, I suppose for the same reason. Anyhow, I went home at last to my apartment, which was blessedly free of Netty, and though I didn’t sleep and Beesty very tactfully kept me away from the decanters, I did get a bath, and had two hours of quiet before Beesty stuck his head into my room at eight o’clock and said he’d fried some eggs. I didn’t think I wanted fried eggs; I wanted an egg whipped up in brandy, but it was astonishing how good the fried eggs tasted. Don’t you think it’s rather humbling how hungry calamity makes one?

  “As we ate, Beesty told me what had to be done. Odd, perhaps, because he’s only a stockbroker and my father and I had always tended to write him off as a fool, though decent enough. But his family is prominent, and he’d managed quite a few funerals and knew the ropes. He even knew of a good undertaker. I wouldn’t have known where to look for one. I mean, who’s ever met an undertaker? It’s like what people say about dead donkeys: who’s ever seen one? He got on the telephone and arranged with his favourite undertaker to collect the body whenever the police were ready to release it. Then he said we must talk with Denyse to arrange details of the burial. He seemed to think she wouldn’t want to see us until late in the morning, but when he called she was on the line at once and said she would see us at nine o’clock and not to be late because she had a lot to do.

  “That was exactly like Denyse, whom as I told you I have never liked because of this very spirit she showed when Beesty called. Denyse is all business, and nobody can help her or do anything for her without being made a subordinate: she must always be the boss. Certainly she bossed my father far more than he knew, and he was not a man to subject himself to anybody. But women are like that. Aren’t they?”

  “Some women, certainly.”

  “In my experience, women are either bosses or leaners.”

  “Isn’t that your experience of men, too?”

  “Perhaps. But I can talk to men. I can’t talk to my stepmother. From nine o’clock till ten, Denyse talked to us, and would probably have talked longer if the hairdresser had not been coming. She knew she would have to see a lot of people, and it was necessary for her hair to be dressed as she would have no opportunity later.

  “And what she said! My hair almost stood on end. Denyse hadn’t slept either: she had been planning. And I think this is the point, Doctor, when you will admit that I have cause to be nervous. I’ve told you my father was a very important man. Not just rich. Not just a philanthropist. He had been in politics, and during the greater part of the Second World War he had been our Minister of Food, and an extraordinarily able one. Then he had left active politics. It was the old story, not unlike Churchill’s; the public hate a really capable man except when they can’t get along without him. The decisive, red-tape-cutting qualities that made my father necessary in war got him into trouble with the little men as soon as the war was over and they hounded him out of public life. But he was too big to be ignored and his public service entitled him to recognition, and he was to be the next Lieutenant-Governor of our Province. Do you know what a Lieutenant-Governor is?”

  “Some sort of ceremonial personage, I suppose.”

  “Yes: a representative of the Crown in a Canadian province.”

  “A high honour?”

  “Yes, but there are ten of them. My father might suitably have been Governor-General, which is top of the heap.”

  “Ah yes; very grand, I see.”

  “Silly people smile at these ceremonial offices because they don’t understand them. You can’t have a parliamentary system without these official figures who represent the state, the Crown, the whole body of government, as well as the elected fellows who represent their voters.

  “He had not taken office. But he had received the official notice of his appointment from the Secretary of State, and the Queen’s charge would have come at the proper time, which would have been in about a month. But Denyse wanted him to be given a state funeral, as if he were already in office.

  “Well! As a lawyer, I knew that was absurd. There was a perfectly valid Lieutenant-Governor at the time we were discussing this crazy scheme. There was no way in the world my father could be given an official funeral. But that was what she wanted—soldiers in dress uniform, a cushion with his D.S.O. and his C.B.E. on it, a firing-party, a flag on the coffin, as many officials and politicians as could be mustered. I was flabbergasted. But whatever I said, she simply replied, ‘I know what was owing to Boy even if you don’t.’

  “We had a blazing row. Things were said that had poor Beesty white with misery, and he kept mumbling, ‘Oh come on, Denyse, come on, Davey; let’s try to get along’—which was idiotic, but poor Beesty has no vocabulary suitable to large situations. Denyse dropped any presence of liking me and let it rip. I was a cheap mouthpiece for crooks of the worst kind, I was a known drunk, I had always resented my father’s superiority and tried to thwart him whenever I could, I had said inexcusable things about her and spied on her, but on this one occasion, by the living God, I would toe the line or she would expose me to unimaginable humiliations and disgraces. I said she had made a fool of my father since first she met him, reduced his stature before the public with her ridiculous, ignorant pretensions and stupidities, and wanted to turn his funeral into a circus in which she would ride the biggest elephant. It was plain speaking for a while, I can tell you. It was only when Beesty was near to tears—and I don’t mean that metaphorically; he was sucking air noisily and mopping his eyes—and when Caroline turned up that we became a little quieter. Caroline has a scornful manner that exacts good behaviour from the humbler creation, even Denyse.

  “So in the end Beesty and I were given our orders to go to the undertaker and choose a splendid coffin. Bronze would be the thing, she thought, because it would be possible to engrave directly upon it.

  “ ‘Engrave what?’ I asked. I will say for her that she had the grace to colour a little under her skilful make-up. ‘The Staunton arms,’ she said. ‘But there aren’t any—’ I began, when Beesty pulled me away. ‘Let her have it,’ he whispered. ‘But it’s crooked,’ I shouted. ‘It’s pretentious and absurd and crooked.’ Caroline helped him to bustle me out of the room. ‘Davey, you do it and shut up,’ she said, and when I protested, ‘Carol, you know as well as I do that it’s illegal,’ she said, ‘Oh, legal!’ with terrible feminine scorn.”

  (5)

  At my next appointment, feeling rather like Scheherazade unfolding one of her never-ending, telescopic tales to King Schahriar, I took up where I had left off. Dr von Haller had said nothing during my account of my father’s death and what followed, except to check a point here and there, and she made no notes, which surprised me. Did she truly hold all the varied stories told by her patients in her head, and change from one to another every hour? Well, I did no less with the tales my clients told me.

  We exchanged a few words of greeting, and I continued.

  “After we had finished with the undertaker, Beesty and I had a great many details to attend to, some of them legal and some arising from the arrangement of funeral detail. I had to get in tou
ch with Bishop Woodiwiss, who had known my father for over forty years, and listen to his well-meant condolences and go over the whole funeral routine. I went to the Diocesan House, and was a little surprised, I can’t really say why, that it was so businesslike, with secretaries drinking coffee, and air-conditioning and all the atmosphere of business premises. I think I had expected crucifixes on the walls and heavy carpets. There was one door that said ‘Diocesan Chancellery: Mortgages’ that really astonished me. But the Bishop knew how to do funerals, and there wasn’t really much to it. There were technicalities: our parish church was St Simon’s, but Denyse wanted a cathedral ceremony, as more in keeping with her notions of grandeur, and as well as the Bishop’s, the Dean’s consent had to be sought. Woodiwiss said he would take care of that. I still don’t know why I was so touchy about the good man’s words of comfort; after all, he had known my father before I was born, and had christened and confirmed me, and he had his rights both as a friend and a priest. But I felt very personally about the whole matter—”

  “Possessively, would you say?”

  “I suppose so. Certainly I was angry that Denyse was determined to take over and have everything her own way, especially when it was such a foolish, showy way. I was still furious about that matter of engraving the coffin with heraldic doodads that weren’t ours, and couldn’t ever be so, and which my father had rejected himself, after a lot of heart-searching. I want that to be perfectly clear to you; I have no quarrel with heraldry, and people who legitimately possess it can use it as they like, but the Staunton arms weren’t ours. Do you want to know why?”