Cause Celeb

by Helen Fielding

  “I understand,” he said. “I understand.” Tears were starting to form in his eyes. “As far as the West is concerned, if they cannot see our children starve on their television sets, in their homes, if they cannot see them trying to stand on their skeletal limbs, and failing, if they cannot see them reaching out to the camera and crying for pity, if they cannot see them writhing, as the walls of their stomachs begin to digest themselves, then there is no problem. And for us, when we see our children starving to death in our homes, then it is too late.”

  Muhammad gave the assembled group a terrible look, then turned and limped slowly out of the shelter, leaving silence behind him.

  “I wish we’d had the camera running,” said Oliver angrily, and rubbed at one of his eyes.

  I went out after Muhammad. He was standing with his back to me, looking over the camp. I did not know what I could say to him. I did not know how to explain, how to say sorry. I reached out nervously, touched his arm.

  Muhammad turned. He smiled wickedly. “How did I do?” he said.

  *

  By nine o’clock the next morning, lines of thick cabling were running all over the camp, along the path to the feeding center, up to the food depot on the hill. The TV mobile control room was parked outside the hospital with the technical crew climbing in and out, fiddling with switches. The dish was working, but seven hours from transmission the Charitable Acts team were still up in the cabana, arguing about what they were going to do. Thanks to Muhammad’s outburst, Vernon was now putting the full force of his personality behind the broadcast, which was precisely the problem.

  Oliver was attempting to take control. “Each of us, Kate, Julian, Corinna, me, does a different insert from a different location, the hospital, the cholera clinic, the feeding center, explaining how it all works, and why they need help.”

  “What about Muhammad?” I said. “We have to let him speak.”

  “Now, wait a minute, wait a minute,” said Vernon, getting to his feet. “Don’t start talking bloody daft. I’ve said we’ll go ahead but we’re not going to go all silly. The public want people on that screen who they know and who they trust. We’re not having every Abdul Doodah in the camp doing his party piece. And we’re not doing this by bloody committee. I’m in charge. You do and say what I tell you to.”

  “Well?” said Oliver after a moment. “Go on, then.”

  “We stick that camera in the hospital with those sick kiddies and it stays there and we play some sad music over those shots and there won’t be a dry eye in the house.”

  “What music?” said Corinna.

  “‘Hello,’ by Lionel Ritchie,” said Vernon. “It’s a cracker. Beautiful song. Fabulous.” He cleared his throat and began to sing it.

  “Jesus Christ,” said O’Rourke.

  “Oh, puh-lease,” said Corinna.

  “We don’t mention the EEC food,” Vernon continued, ignoring us. “We show a shot of our lorries and we tell ’em this whole camp was starving to death before we arrived. Comprende?”

  *

  “Listen, old boy.” It was eleven o’clock, we were down in the camp and Henry was trying to reassure O’Rourke. “Bit on the Tania Tasteless side, no two ways about it, but all in a good cause, end justifies the means, etcetera, etcetera. No point getting in a stew about it.”

  “I WILL NOT HAVE IT.” O’Rourke was in an uncompromising mood. I respected him hugely when he got like this, but it also made me want to laugh.

  “Is there no such thing as a gift anymore? Banners for Capital Television, logos for Circle Line Cargo, the jeep company. This isn’t giving, this is using the misery of the disadvantaged world to make commercials.”

  “BE QUIET.” Vernon was shouting at the crowd of kids he had assembled, and banging with a thick stick on an oil drum. They stared at him now, wide-eyed and silent.

  “Now, hold it up,” he said, gesturing with his hands. “Hold it up.”

  In the center of the crowd a long red roll of fabric appeared.

  “Hold it up,” he yelled, raising his arms above his head to reveal two oversized rounds of sweat.

  The long red roll unfurled into a banner which read, “THANK YOU CAPITAL DAILY TELEVISION.”

  “Oh, my bloody God and fuck,” said O’Rourke.

  “Now, cheer,” Vernon shouted. “Come on, hip, hip, hurray, hip, hip—”

  “Hurray,” went the kids uncertainly.

  “This is gross,” said O’Rourke. “This is obscene.”

  “I say, steady on, old boy,” said Henry. “It may be a bit Christabel Crass, but it’s not obscene.”

  “Come on, hip, hip . . .” went Vernon.

  “Hurray,” the kids said again.

  At that moment Muhammad appeared.

  “I have news,” he said, dramatically.

  “Gauuuurgh! What is it now?” said Vernon, angry at his little tableau being interrupted.

  “If you do not wish to hear the news there is no necessity for it,” said Muhammad, petulantly.

  “Oh, come on, Muhammad,” said Henry.

  “Spit it out, lad,” said Vernon.

  “It seems that your problems may be over and ours just beginning. I have had word that the refugees from Kefti have been gathering within the Dowit mountains.”

  Dowit was about ten miles from the border with Kefti. The mountains there were the same red sculpted shapes that jutted out of the desert at Sidra and on the road to El Daman, but at Dowit, rock walls formed a ring round a sheltered area in the center. It was used sometimes by the nomadic tribes during sandstorms.

  “Why there?” said O’Rourke.

  “It was agreed. It is a landmark. It is safe from the air raids, it is hidden, and there are springs in the mountains. They are in a very severe state having walked for many days and nights with no food. They are assembling at Dowit hoping to receive help there but they have nothing. Their condition is very bad.”

  My first reaction was rage at the UN. What had they been doing when we were away? We had warned them. They had seen the photographs. Why hadn’t they been monitoring the border? Supplies in Nambula were low but plainly not finished. There was no excuse for people being ten miles inside the country with no food.

  “So,” Muhammad continued matter-of-factly, “it seems that you will have your starving babies, after all.” He was very controlled. I knew what he must be feeling. After all this, after all we had tried to do, the worst had happened anyway.

  “Thank God for that,” said Vernon excitedly, looking at his watch. “How long’s it take to get there?”

  “Two hours,” said Muhammad.

  “And they’re really starving like in Ethiopia? Fanbloodytastic. Well done, lad. Right, let’s get this banner rolled up and we’ll set up the shot in Dowit. Can’t you just see it? With the food being doled out in the background. Get those cables packed up and that dish on its way. All hands to the pump. Change of plan. Fanbloodytastic.”

  I was suddenly terrified. This program was our only chance now. It was already eleven-fifteen. How could they get all the equipment moved to Dowit and working before four o’clock? It had taken them two days to set it all up.

  “Are you sure we have time to do this?” I said. “Won’t you have to reset the satellite if you move it?”

  “Eh, eh. Don’t start. You’ll get a slap in a minute, my girl,” said Vernon.

  At this O’Rourke suddenly turned and strode off furiously towards the hospital.

  “We’ll set off straight away. Get this banner rolled up. Get the girls ready in their safari suits and those food lorries. We can have Kate Fortune at the head of the convoy, breaking through with the first food for the starving.”

  O’Rourke reappeared now carrying three bottles of American beer.

  “I think this calls for a celebration, don’t you?” he said.

  “Where did you get that?” I said.

  “Never you mind,” he said, smiling at me strangely. “Why don’t you go up to the compound and tell
everyone what’s happened?”

  “What . . . ?”

  “Just go,” he hissed.

  I did as he said, leaving him, Henry, Muhammad and Vernon behind. It worried me. Something was up. But I trusted O’Rourke. At least, I thought I trusted him.

  I drove up the hill to the compound, trying to imagine what we were going to find at Dowit. The thought of Vernon getting his hands on real hunger and despair had a unique horror of its own. The first person I saw at the compound was Oliver. Oliver had always seemed like two people but out here it was more pronounced than ever. He wandered around looking pale and shrunken with no presence whatsoever, and then suddenly he would click back into his old authoritative, charming professional self. He took the news about Dowit in his authoritative persona.

  “Do you think we’ll be able to get all the equipment working in time if we go?” I said.

  “Possibly, sweetheart. I’ll check it out with the crew. Don’t worry about it. Get everyone into the cabana as quickly as you can.”

  At half past eleven we were trying to get everyone assembled around the table. I went off to look for Kate.

  I found her lying face down on the bed in her hut, sobbing.

  “It’s all right,” I said, sitting down on the bed beside her. “It might not be as bad as we all think in the end. It’s all right.” I had lived in Africa for four years, and seen starvation many times before and still I was scared. How must she feel?

  “It is not all right,” she said, sitting up, staring at me furiously. “It is not all right,” she repeated, pulling at her hair, fluffing it out then pulling at it again. “Look at it! How can I go on screen like this? It’s not all right at all. It’s ugly. Ugly, ugly, ugly,” and she flung herself back on the bed and sobbed.

  I got up and walked to the door without a word.

  “Rosie,” she wailed. I turned. “Could I borrow that hat you’re wearing? Just to see if it looks—”

  I opened the door, walked out, and stood breathing deeply for a few moments. Then I came back in. It wasn’t as simple as vanity. Her whole sense of herself had been whisked away by the hotel hairdresser.

  I took off the hat and gave it to her, watching as she tried it on. “It looks great,” I said. “Really good.”

  “Does it?” she said. “Does it really? Do you have a full-length mirror anywhere?”

  As I walked back to the cabana Henry and O’Rourke were unloading a sack of grain from the back of the truck. When I looked more closely I realized that it wasn’t a sack of grain. It was Vernon.

  “What happened?” I said, hurrying towards them. They were unsteady under his weight. O’Rourke was holding him by the shoulders, Henry had a chubby leg under each arm.

  “I think it must have been the beer,” O’Rourke said shiftily.

  “Doesn’t seem to be able to take his liquor,” said Henry, grinning delightedly.

  “What did you put in it?” I said, feeling rapidly growing elation. “Come on, what have you done?”

  “I don’t think he’ll give you any trouble for twelve hours or so,” said O’Rourke sheepishly.

  It was now eleven forty-five. We had just over four hours to go before transmission and we were still sitting in the cabana, deciding, now Vernon was knocked out, whether we should go or stay.

  “So, as long as nothing breaks or comes unstuck, you don’t have to reset anything, you just park up and turn it on?” said Oliver. He was perched on the edge of the table looking cool and in control. The sight of Vernon knocked out and snoring with his mouth open had done wonders for Oliver’s confidence.

  “That is correct,” said the chief satellite engineer, Clive, who always talked as if he was on the radio, and not allowed to say yes or no.

  “But if something breaks on the way, we’re fucked?” said Oliver.

  “If there was a malfunctioning or, indeed, an actual breakage of one of the components of the earth station during transformation, then it would be technically impossible to regain satellite contact.”

  “And is that likely to happen?”

  “Well, as I said previously, given the erratic nature of the terrain—”

  “Come on, Clive,” Oliver interrupted impatiently. “You drove over here. What’re the odds? Shall we risk it or shall we stay here?”

  There was an expectant pause with all eyes on the beard and wire glasses of Clive. Only Clive could point us to a decision. Clive made no move to speak.

  “Did anything break when you drove up from Nairobi?” I asked.

  “There were no breakages or severe malfunctionings as such on the journey in question,” said Clive.

  “Don’t you think we should just stay here?” the cameraman said. “If the satellite won’t work after we’ve moved, we can’t transmit anything. And if we get to Dowit and find there’s nothing there then we’ve nothing to transmit. We’ve got to broadcast something this afternoon or the whole thing will be wasted. Why can’t we just stay here and let the refugees say what’s happening at Dowit?”

  “Look,” said O’Rourke, “we are now four hours and ten minutes away from transmission. We must make a decision.”

  “I’ve just got a feeling that we should go,” said Oliver. “I know it’s living dangerously, but I say we risk it.”

  *

  The technical crew were organizing the satellite dish. We decided to take two food lorries with us, and another loaded with water and medical supplies. O’Rourke, Henry and Debbie were going to come with us. Betty was supposed to stay behind and look after the hospital with Sian and Linda, but this was not a plan that pleased her.

  “Oliver, dear, I know you’re in charge and what you say goes,” she flapped at him, “but I do think I should be there too. If this is a serious medical emergency, then we really do need all the doctors we have, don’t you think? Besides, you know, although it’s only silly old me, I have worked in Africa for many, many years, and you just might find you need that seasoned old voice of experience somewhere along the line.”

  “I think she’s right,” said Roy the soundman. Everyone looked at him in surprise. He was a funny, helpful little man, who had never been heard to express an opinion before. “Betty knows what she’s talking about better than all these kids put together. She should be in the program.”

  “Ooof, no, it’s only silly old me,” said Betty, rolling her eyes.

  “It is now twelve fifty-five,” said Oliver. “I don’t give a flying fuck who comes, but will everyone who is coming just get in the vehicles and on the road.”

  CHAPTER

  Twenty-nine

  It was cloudy again, and out in the open desert the wind was getting up, carrying a lot of dust with it. Kate and Corinna were side by side in the front of the Land Cruiser. O’Rourke was driving. I was in the back with Oliver. The rest of the convoy were behind.

  “Shit,” said O’Rourke, braking. A small goat trotted away ahead of us. “Where did that come from?” It was getting increasingly difficult to see anything—it was like looking through a yellow fog.

  “This weather isn’t doing us any favors, is it?” said Oliver.

  “That depends. Sometimes it looks rather striking when the sun shines through this stuff,” said O’Rourke. He and Oliver seemed to get on quite well at times. Maybe it was sleeping together that did it. “I’m not happy about rolling up straight away with these food lorries,” he went on.

  “Neither am I,” I said.

  “Why not?” said Corinna. “What’s the matter with you now? You can’t turn up to a famine without bringing something to eat.”

  “Frightfully bad form” murmured O’Rourke.

  “It depends how many Keftians there are,” I said. “We don’t want to start a settlement there.”

  “Isn’t that better than them coming to Safila?” said Oliver.

  O’Rourke let out a tsking noise.

  “No,” I said. “The water supply’s not up to it, and it’s too close to the border.”

  “But
you can give them some food to keep them going?” said Oliver.

  “Yeah, but we have to do it right. We don’t want a riot,” said O’Rourke.

  “Anyway, let’s wait and see what we find,” I said. “There might only be a couple of dozen. It might be a false alarm.”

  “Jesus, it had better not be,” said Oliver.

  “What’s that?” said O’Rourke, starting to slow down.

  “Oh, my God,” said Kate Fortune, straightening up and looking ahead. “Oh, my God.”

  What she was looking at was a group of corpses, lying at the side of the track.

  There wasn’t anything we could do except cover them up. They were young men who had starved to death, which suggested that they might have been sent ahead to warn us that the refugees were coming. The place was about a quarter of an hour’s drive from Dowit. We left the two food trucks there. We knew now we were going to find a very bad situation and we needed to assess it first, and make a plan for the food. As we drove away, I glanced back and winced at the sight of trucks of food from England parked beside the people who had already died of hunger.

  The red shapes of the Dowit mountains loomed ahead. I wondered whether, if I had just been driving past them as usual, I would have been able to tell that something terrible was happening there, or if they only seemed so forbidding now because of what I knew. The dust was growing heavier in the air, as if there would be a sandstorm soon. The sun was trying to break through, but it was with a weak, watery light.

  A track led off the road to the left towards the mountains, and passed by means of a short corridor through the rock into the plain in the center. The convoy stopped where the track met the road. The sound of a drum was coming from the mountains. It was a slow, single, hollow beat.

  Clive said that he thought they should keep the satellite dish and equipment here as they would not be able to get a signal inside the mountains. Then I saw figures appearing through the dust. They looked as though they were moving in slow motion because they were trying to run towards us but their legs, which were as thin as the bones beneath the skin, were not strong enough to carry the weight of their bodies.