by Jamie Knight
Chapter 14 - Lorelai
I'm in the back of the store, the first place I could think of to run to. No one saw me, so no one knows I'm back here. I'm trying to pull myself together, but it's so difficult. Of course I was hoping that I would see Gabriel, a small part of me kind of was sure that I would once I agreed to host the auction.
It was just the shock of seeing him in that way. I know he wasn't here on a date, but the way that woman was touching all over him makes it pretty clear that there is some history there. At least I don't think she is the one that broke his heart.
I’ve never felt so crushed. I'm used to getting my heart broken, but somehow this one hurts worse than the others. Maybe it's because of how strong my feelings for him were, and how fast.
Well, those are gone now. I guess he got what he wanted.
I suppose I knew that he was all about fun when he never called me back. I guess I was just hoping that I was wrong, or that he would turn out different. What hurt the most was to have it presented in front of me like that just now. It hurt to watch him standing there, with her hands all over him. To watch him just look at me and let me leave.
I take a deep breath in, and I slowly let it out. I don't want to cry, not over him. I also don't want people to know that something is wrong with me. That would be bad for business, I think. I mean, I decided to hold the auction here. I knew he attended these types of things, so seeing him was a definite possibility. I was prepared to run into him, but not like this.
All I asked for was at least a phone call, a little acknowledgement or even a polite refusal. What I didn't ask for was to be treated this way. To be ignored or cast aside. He didn't call me, yet he initiated that kiss and then turned cold on me. I'm surprised that my sadness is suddenly turning to anger. I wipe my face.
"You are a strong and beautiful woman. The only reason you agreed to this auction was to raise money for your business. It has nothing to do with him." I remind myself, feeling rage replacing sorrow in every ounce of my body.
I turn suddenly and look at the photo of my grandmother. I get up, walk over to the wall and softly put my fingertips on her cheek. It's like she gives me strength or comfort. I can't tell which. I know what I have to do. This should have been my goal or my plan all along.
I can't believe I allowed myself to be distracted by a player like Gabriel. He's handsome, he's wealthy, I should have known what type of a person that he was all along.
Spurred on by my ideas and my anger at Gabriel, a sudden thought pops into my head. "How dare he think he can just show up at my shop with someone else, after the night that we shared?" I think angrily.
I'm too much of a lady to say or do anything else. I'm not going to cause a scene or disrupt the auction. That's not the type of person that I am. If he can play the field and move on, then I can too. I check over my outfit and stalk angrily out of the backroom. I'm in such a hurry I almost bump into several people standing nearby. I know I need to calm down, but I can't.
I hurriedly look over the crowd of people. I don't see Gabriel or his woman, but he's not who I am looking for right now.
Finally, I spot the auction director. Before I can lose my nerve or change my mind, I walk over to her. Without hesitation I tap her on the shoulder. She turns to look at me, "Yes?"
"I would like to go up on stage," I demand, my heart pounding.
Her eyes widen in surprise. She stammers for a few seconds. "You mean to make an announcement?" She asks, trying to comprehend what I'm saying.
I shake my head no. "I mean to participate in the auction. I…I would like to auction off my virginity, " I say. I feel so brave, angry and confident right now that nothing can stop me.
I need to keep this up. It's the way to get what I want and make tonight a big success. I just need to forget about him and focus on my plan. That's what I keep telling myself.
She excuses herself from her group of people and walks with me. "Well, this is quite the development since you were so vehement denied before. What brought this on?" She asks after a few moments of shocked silence.
I don't want anyone to know, so I tell her half of the truth by saying, "I could use the extra money."
She gives me a long hard look before asking me, "You are absolutely sure about this, because there is no backing out from this."
I nod yes in response. She smiles and writes something on a piece of paper. "All right. As you wish. You will go on next, this girl is almost finished up there. If you need time to freshen up or anything go now, I can brief you on the rules when you get back." She explains.
I nod and hurry away to the bathroom. I feel excited and terrified as I walk inside. I hope tonight is a good night
I’ve never given much thought to my appearance before, but I guess tonight it’s important. I bring my purse in with me and add some more makeup to my face. I tie my long red hair up in a bun to make my neck more appealing and also keep it out of my face. Extra mascara highlights my large hazel eyes and makes them appear luminous.
I wish I could do something to cover my freckles, but I guess you can't fix everything. I'm dressed in a simple dress and panty hose. I have a light sweater draped over my shoulders to fight the chill of the air conditioner.
After one last look in the mirror, I sigh. I guess this will have to do. I hurry to put my purse away and search for the auction director again. She nods when she sees me, and I walk over to her. "Ok, it's your turn, are you sure ready?" She asks one last time.
"Yes". I assure her.
I really am. I no longer feel scared or nervous. I still have the anger inside of me. It's brought on by Gabriel and his treatment of me, as well as my own repression. I'm not going to lie, a larger amount of money is very tempting. I guess I'm just tired of waiting to lose my virginity. I'm not getting any younger. I'm tired of guys passing me over for women who are easier, or don't have feelings or emotions.
I want my dream shop. Nothing is going to stop me from having that. If it means selling my own virginity to accomplish that then I will have to go through with that. I realize that I am ok with that and willing to go through with it. One way or another I am going to get what I want.
Not only do I want something different to happen in life and I want to have fun, I want my plans and dreams to come true. I want things to finally work out for me. "Ok, it works like this. We go on stage, I announce you and your auction. Bids will be placed. You can accept or request certain things be done but only after I confirm that you agree to accept the bid, understand?" She asks me. I nod my head in agreement to show that I understand. "Good, have fun and good luck! I'll be standing nearby. " she replies.
She gives my shoulder a gentle squeeze and I go to find a place to wait, watching with anticipation as the other auction ends. I see the director take the stage. Strangely, I still don't feel nervous at all, even though I know I should. Honestly I feel kind of excited and a little turned on.
This is going to be my first time, it's finally going to happen. As I look back out at the crowd I realize that there are a lot of handsome men here. Why did I never realize that before? Maybe because I was so fixated on Gabriel. Whatever the case may be, this is finally going to happen to me. I turn my attention back to the director as she starts speaking.
"Attention ladies and gentlemen. We have a new addition to our auction. Let's give a warm round of applause to our hostess, and congratulate her on her first time participating."
I quickly fuss with my appearance and smile and wave. Everyone applauds and looks my way. The hostess waves me forward. I take a deep breath and walk up to the makeshift stage as she continues speaking. "This is our hostess, the lovely miss Lorelai. Tonight is her first auction, and it's going to be a special one …" she pauses here for effect.
I look at her as I take center stage. I don't know what to do, so I smile and wave. I do a little turn then smile at the crowd again
The director continues speaking, "Miss Lorelai is auct
ioning off her virginity…" several loud cheers and whistles interrupt her speech.
She pauses until the crowd quiets down. I giggle and blush at their response. I wasn't expecting to get that type of a reaction. "We will begin the bids shortly, please enjoy yourselves." she announces.
She stands nearby and looks at the papers she carries with her. I assume that she is waiting a few moments to give the people time to get a good look at me again. I smile some more and do a few more turns. Somehow, I'm actually kind of enjoying the attention that I’m getting right now.
I spot Gabriel in the crowd, but I quickly ignore him. He tries to look me in the eyes, but I give him an angry glare and look away, feeling a small surge of satisfaction. I'm ready to do what I want and make things happen for me, just like everyone else.
The hostess comes back out. I step a little closer to the edge of the stage. "We will now start the bidding on Lorelai," she says.
I'm surprised as several small bids pop up. I start to feel a little overwhelmed. I look at the director wondering what to do. How do you know which bids to accept? I'm about to open my mouth to say something to her when a loud angry voice calls out:
“Ten million!”
Everyone turns in shock to look. I'm shocked as well, but my anger crowds that out. I avoid looking at the bidder, even though I know it’s Gabriel.. No one dares to challenge him. I huff impatiently and cross my arms. After a few moments of silence, he’s declared the winner.
I'm too angry to care about the amount of money. All I can do is glare at him. Who does he think he is? Like he can just bid on me and have his way with me after the way he treated me earlier? He doesn't have a chance, no matter how much money he pays. I'm fuming as I walk off the stage.
Chapter 15 - Gabriel
I'm getting more frustrated by the second. I keep walking through this crowd of people, but I still can't find Lorelai. I don't want to leave here without talking to her, but I don't know what to do. If I don't find her, then how will I be able to convince her to listen to my side of the story?
I know this is a lot of work to go through for one woman, but she’s worth it. So I keep saying to myself, yet I can't let myself admit that I have feelings. I'm just going around in circles in my head.
I spin around in physical circles in the middle of the crowd and sigh. I'm completely frustrated by all of this. How hard can it be to find one person in this small of a room? I'm tempted to just walk out of here, I could use the fresh air, but I know that wouldn't be right. That's just my anger and emotions getting the better of me. It's hard to stay rational in a situation like this.
The crowd parts some, because another auction has ended. Some people pair off. Thankfully, everyone is ignoring me right now. This actually helps me some because I'm able to get a better view of the people around me. I quickly scan the faces, disappointed over and over again.
Still no sign of Lorelai. I sigh and scratch my head in frustration. I don't think she left, this is her auction, so she has to be here, right? Fuck, I can't stand feeling all these emotions. It's too damn frustrating. Life was so much easier before I met her. I wish I could go back to that, but the question is do I really want to? The fact that I'm spending all this time and effort to find her and explain sort of says it all.
Maybe I should just stand against the wall and wait. Maybe visit the bathroom again? I mean I know she's still here, she has to be. I'll probably have a better chance of seeing her after the auction, when the night is over and everyone is leaving. That won’t be for a while, though. We haven't even reached the halfway point. I have no clue what to do, so I just stand there looking around.
The crowd moves forward again. I'm not really paying attention but I think another auction is about to start. It doesn't hold my interest. Nothing does, only her. The hostess starts speaking, but I turn away from the stage, I can't give up. I frown as I look in the opposite direction. I'm searching the faces in the crowd for her.
Suddenly, I hear her name being called out. I look around wildly, but I don't see her. I hear her name mentioned again. I turn around just in time to see her walk out on the stage. My jaw opens in shock. What the hell does she think she’s doing up there? I watch her smile and wave at everyone. She does a cute little spin for the crowd. I can feel anger building inside of me.
"Now everyone, the lovely Ms. Lorelai will be auctioning off her virginity. The bidding will start momentarily." The hostess announces.
What is happening?! This is the angriest I have ever been. There is no way in hell I am letting her auction that off. At least not to anyone but me. I catch her eye, she glares at me and looks away.
"Oh really? Is that how we’re going to play, little girl?" I think.
The rage burns inside of me. I'm infuriated. The thought of someone else winning this auction, of some slob putting his hands all over her. I'm not going to lose, I'm not going to let someone else take what's mine.
A few smaller bids pop up. Lorelai actually looks shocked, and if I weren’t so pissed, I’d be amused. If I'm not mistaken she also looks a little bit flattered.
“Ten million!”
The words fly out of my mouth before I can stop them, a massive jump in the numbers. Everyone is shocked into silence. Several people turn to look at me, but I only have eyes for Lorelai. She crosses her arms and avoids my gaze. I'm just as pissed as she is. I'm done playing games. If she's selling, then I'm buying.
room is absolutely silent. Lorelai finally looks at me. We glare at each for a few seconds. There are no other bids. The hostess clears her throat. "Well, it appears you are the winner. Congratulations!" She says to me, before walking off the stage. There is light applause from some people. The shock of my extravagant bid has worn off. People go back to their own conversations. I may have won, but I'm still pissed at Lorelai. I can't get over what she was auctioning off up there.
I try to remain calm, but its damn near impossible. I want to march up to the stage, yank her off there and give her a piece of my mind. In fact that's what I start to do. She is still glaring at me, so I match her gaze. There’s only a short distance between us ,so I close it in a few angry strides.
I reach the edge of the stage, Lorelai walks right up to my face. She opens her mouth to tell me off, but what happens next takes us both by surprise. Before she can even get one word out, my lips are on hers. I'm kissing her hard, rough, full of lust, passion and anger. Like there is a fire in me that can't be put out.
We are still waiting for the start of the next auction. Several people standing nearby have stopped to look at us. I regain control of myself and pull away from her. I don't like nosy people, and don't want anyone to hear what I have to say. She still looks angry with me, but I lean forward and whisper in her ear "I should just go ahead and fuck you right here. That way everyone will see who you belong to."
It’s taking a lot of effort to keep my emotions under control. I don't know what is happening to me right now.
Her jaw drops. Her lovely face is still full of anger, but I notice a new twinkle in her eyes. "Well, you sure as hell didn't give a shit about it or me these past few weeks." She snaps back.
I'm surprised and a little turned on by her fire right now. I'm sure that had been building up for a while. I can't control myself any longer. I need to deal with this matter in private. She gives an angry sigh, but I can hear her breath tremble a little at the end. There is no mistaking the sound of desire. The one little noise was all I needed to hear to make my decision.
I reach for her and pull her off the stage. She groans in anger and pulls her hand away from me. We stand there, eyes locked for a few seconds, and then I grab her and toss her over my shoulder. I walk off in the direction of the back of the store.
"Stop! Put me down!" She protests.
I ignore her, and step through the curtain that separates the back of the store.
"You are not allowed back here. This isn't part of the auction space," she snaps w
hen I put her down.
I grab her and kiss her hard again. She resists me and pulls away.
I have her pinned against the wall now. I lean one hand against the wall and lean in closer to her. She tries to speak again, but I stop her with another kiss. This time my free hand slides under the hem of her dress. I rub her slit through the soft silk of her panties, and to my delight, I can already feel how wet she is through the fabric.
I can feel her body shudder as she gives in to me. She pushes forward against me, her arms wrapping around my shoulders. She tastes so good. Her soft lips, so inviting.
My finger slides around gently. I take it a step further by moving my hand higher, towards her clit. My fingers trace it ever so gently. She shakes more, and a slight moan escapes her. I wrap my arm around her, holding her up.
"Oh, Gabriel!" She moans.
I trail kisses down her neck. She's wearing a light sweater, which I yank open. The neckline of her dress exposes her cleavage nicely. I kiss her nipples through the fabric, then kiss her neck again.
My fingers work their magic on her, moving rhythmically. Her silk panties are quickly soaked. She holds me tighter, and soon she is panting. My earlier anger is gone, replaced now by desire. I love seeing her react this way. I love knowing that I am the one to make feel this way. This has never happened before, but I am actually enjoying giving her pleasure.
Usually it's the other way around. I can't wrap my head around this. How can this woman be making me feel all these different things? Even though playing with her is hot, I can feel myself tensing up again at the thought of feelings and emotions.
. This is what ruined everything in the first place. I can't let that happen again. But what can I do to stop feeling this way?