Love Grows In The Dark

by Eli Lowe

  Still, I wanted to run, so what I got marked.

  But no matter how much I tried to get out from his grasp, I just could not, even now when he was busy licking and caressing me ever so lovingly.

  And seeing me struggling underneath him, he stopped at last only to lift up his huge wolf head and to look at me with those captivating blue eyes which were hidden behind his jet black far.

  It seemed that he had realised something, but what exactly, I did not know.

  Cause, he shifted back to his naked human form right after, without losing his grip on me even for a little bit.

  Yes, Kazan was indeed strong in both his human and wolf form. He was even stronger than me, cause I was really struggling to make myself free. Even when he had already shifted back.

  “Shift.” His deep yet loud voice made me tremble, anticipating the worst. But the only thing I knew at this moment was that, no matter what, I just can not shift back. Not now.

  But seeing me with no sign to listen to him at all, he shouted again,

  “Shift back. Dammit. Or else we will stay here like this forever, but don't you dare to think ever again that I am going to let you leave like before.

  You broke your promise.

  So what if I break it too?”

  Episode 30

  Kazan's P.O.V

  I was sitting in the canteen area of our school with others but as if I was not at all there with them. My mind kept running here and there with no intention to rest, no matter how hard I try, as I just could not figure out the reasons for all those things that had been happening to me recently.

  I just could not get what wrong did I do to my mate that she does not even want to be with me, neither she intends to reject me herself?

  Why did she keep asking me to reject her instead?

  It is not that I would let her go even if she takes the initiative to reject me but still, what was she thinking? And why?

  In this life, I want no one but her only.

  And she must understand that. She must understand my heart. But how could I make her understand all those feelings that I feel for her, when she always does nothing but runs away from me, giving me not a single chance to make her believe how much I love her.

  I do not even care who she is actually, but how could I make her rely on me just for a little bit?

  And the main thing was, she knew me all the time when I was totally unaware who she was. And I am, even now.

  Who could my mate be?

  I just wanted to find her out, so that she could never leave me just like the last time and even before the last time.

  I was really struggling inside, thinking about what should I do? It seemed like nothing works out when it comes to her. No matter what, it seemed that I just could not convince my mate even for a little bit.

  Why is she so stubborn?

  I kept thinking while not a single word came to my ears whatever others were talking about.

  “What is bothering you, Kazan?” Markus interrupted my thoughts in between, causing me to turn my eyes to him. It seemed that he was concerned about me as well, but even if he was, I just could not tell him what I was thinking.

  “Nothing.” I replied as I had nothing to say to him.

  Even if I wanted to tell, then what should I say? That my mate doesn't want me? That I had found my mate at last but lost her again? That I was so naive to promise her to stay unknown to each other just because she asked me to? Just because I wanted to love her only in whatever way she wanted me to? What was even there to tell him? That I had never seen my mate whom I met a few times already? That I do not even know her name?

  So, I had decided to keep it inside me, as always, cause it was the only thing I am best at.

  Yes, keeping everything inside me.

  “Are you sure?” Even when I answered him already, still he wanted to ensure.

  “Yes.” I just nodded.

  But the truth was that I was not at all okay. My heart kept shattering ever so slowly and quietly, letting me feel the pain bit by bit ever so menacingly, so that I could suffer for long.

  Fate is indeed cruel to me.

  And I was completely sure of that, at least now, when I had already experienced what happened to me a few days back.

  Yes, it's been a few days now since I last held my mate in-between my arms. But still, I could not get to see her face that day, still, I do not know who she is.

  ****Flashback****

  The shining rays of the morning sun fell on my skin while the bright daylight kept disturbing me in my sleep, ever so playfully.

  I tossed and turned but nothing could save me from the sudden annoyance. And at last, the sun rays had succeeded indeed, in their own act of awakening me in no time, forcing my eyes to open unwillingly.

  Last night, it was the best sleep ever in my life till now, as I had always gone through the innumerable sleepless nights before, no matter how much I tried not to.

  But last night was different.

  The hard, dirty and cold ground of the wood could not even bother me enough as my mate's warm body helped me enough to doze off to sleep even though I did not want to. Last night, as far as I remember, her soft wolf body covered with the fluffy fur was all I kept holding in between my arms all night, while I was lying naked against her, under the cold night sky.

  I felt a lot of sparks all over my body which kept enhancing all the desire inside me to have her all at once as mine.

  Yes, she did not shift back no matter how many times I had asked her to, last night. She struggled for long, to get herself out of my hold but I made sure that she could never run from me, ever again. I marked her, hoping that she might change her thoughts. I kept holding her tight into my arms all night and did not let go even for once.

  But for what?

  When all my efforts proved to be all for nothing, at last.

  Yes, she left me again.

  When I opened my eyes this morning, I found out that it was only me who was lying on the ground naked, while there was no trace of my mate anywhere near me.

  It seemed that she had left me ever so cruelly when I was sleeping peacefully, keeping my mate close to my bare body for the first time in my life.

  It seemed that she chose to leave my heart empty once again when my heart was becoming whole for one more time after that night, days ago.

  She was cruel indeed.

  Why could she not see how much I wanted her...how much I needed her?

  But still, nothing could ever make me lose any hope to be with my mate, no matter what.

  I stood up from the ground and walked back naked on the tracks through the deserted wood to find my clothes. And even though I found them, I realised that they were all tattered due to my unplanned shifting. So, I searched for my phone instead.

  I dialled Jeremy's number as soon as I found my phone and he picked up in no time.

  “Where the hell are you?” His panicked voice came from the other end of the call, but I was bothered the least to answer him back right now, neither did I need to.

  “Bring me a change of clothes right now.” With that, I told him the address of the place where he needed to come.

  And, except for sighing, I had nothing left to do.

  Cause, I failed again, to make my mate stay with me, forever.

  ****End of flashback****

  “Have Summer ever tried to talk to you since then? Did you get to see her in the past few days?” Markus asked again, pulling me out of my thoughts suddenly. I realised that I had some unfinished business with her too. But strangely, I could never see her ever since, so that I could ask for my due punishment because of whatever wrong I did to her before.

  I could not look for her either that persistently, cause I was so involved to wait for my mate in the past few days.

  “No” I answered. But little did I know what was coming next.

  Cause, the ever so irritating Lizzie came to cling on Markus again saying,

  “Oh, you guys don't k
now. Do you? That slut, Summer could not come to school, cause that bitch is totally in the heat for the past few days.” Lizzie's nasally voice appeared quite irritating, as I was well aware of all the nonsense she usually dares to say. And I just tolerate her barely, only for Markus.

  “What?” Markus even cared to respond to her bull shit, for no reason at all. But little did I care about a gossip right now, as I was in no such mood.

  “Yeah, she got marked strangely over one night and that is why she is in heat now. I knew this will happen one day. Cause she is a bitch, you know... And if she keeps sleeping around with some random guys, what else could I expect to happen? Who knows, how did she got marked? Maybe by one of his sex mates.” Lizzie replied but it appeared to me as if a slut herself was accusing some innocent with all those nasty deeds which Lizzie kept doing, not Summer. And I believed that.

  But, suddenly, a thought passed through my mind and changed everything for me. As if something clicked...as if two pieces of a puzzle perfectly fitted in no time just like a coincidence, only to mess up each and every opinion that I kept tossing in my mind till now and made me think all over again.

  And this time, I found the reason which I was trying to look for long, but failed every time.

  Why?

  Why did I not think of this possibility even before?

  She was always before my sight but how could I not realise that it was always her?

  But still, I should confirm first, even if my heart was saying that I was right at last. My wolf started to become all anxious back in my mind, confirming the fact that Summer could be her.

  She could be my one and only unknown mate.

  And if I think properly, she had each and every reason to behave in such a way that she did.

  If it was really her, I did a terrible sin indeed, for which I could never forgive myself.

  I got up from my seat and rushed out of the school without bothering to inform anyone what I was up to or where I was going?

  Cause for me, my mate was everything to be concerned about right now.

  I just can not believe that Summer was in heat.

  Maybe because of me, cause I bit her a few days back impulsively and she needed me now.

  I sped up the bike like never before and reached in front of her place in no time. So, without letting my anxiety grow even more I headed towards her door to knock, but strangely it was open.

  I let myself in effortlessly and then everything started to become all clear, as the most familiar and captivating smell of my mate did not fail to come to me, just when I hurried to the very source and pushed open the door with a loud thud.

  And there she was.

  My mate, my Summer.

  Episode 31

  Summer's P.O.V

  “Kaith! Do something. Make the pain go away, please. I just can not endure it any more. Help me! Please.” I cried out loud while the pain had already started to overtake my entire body bit by a bit, making it beyond difficult for me to tolerate any longer, not even for the slightest second.

  No, I was never that weak, neither any kind of pain could ever bother me that much. I did get hurt and bled innumerable times before but no physical pain was great enough to make me beg for help, not even once in my entire life till now.

  I was born and grown up to be strong. No pain could ever break me in the past, no matter how immense it was.

  But this time, fate had slapped me so hard once again and showed me how weak I could be at certain times. Fate had turned me into some helpless one indeed. And I was suffering.

  “What do I do Sam? What happened to you?” Kaith panicked seeing me in such a condition, as the sight of me begging him to make the pain fade away, was new to him as well.

  “I...umm.. Kazan... Kazan bit me. No, he marked me actually.” I struggled to form a single word out of my mouth as the tremendous pain kept increasing even further. I was almost balled up on my bed due to the menacing pain. I kept my knees bent and held them together close to my chest, attempting to cease the pain, but it seemed that all was for nothing.

  “Don't tell me you are in heat, are you?” His completely shocking voice confirmed to me that this time I did something stupid indeed.

  It took just one mistake. Or maybe two.

  And I had to pay like this way.

  “Maybe, yes.” I could not think anymore about what would Kaith say for my stupidity as such...for letting Kazan mark me that easily without thinking what it was going to cost me later. But little did he know that it was not me but Kazan who chose to mark me without knowing what consequences I would have to go through within just a few days. Or is it exactly what Kazan wanted to happen?

  “Does he know? I mean did you let him know who you are actually? Does he even know that you are in heat for him? Sam, tell me.” Kaith asked with a lot of worries while he made sure to stroke my hairs and my back, attempting to help me through the pain. But how do I tell him that his touch was making it even more difficult and harder to endure.

  “No... No, he does not know who I am yet, and he does not even know that I am in heat. And he should never know.” I barely said in-between my heavy breaths as the pain was even making it difficult for me to breathe properly.

  My whole body was like being pierced with sharp needles for a million times over and over again, with no intention to cease ever.

  No, the pain was not like this much intense before. As after I got marked, it was only a bit of irritation was all that I started to feel. But little did I know that the slightest bit of irritation would turn into such terrible pain in no time. It was like the pain kept increasing with each passing second announcing that it was not at all going to go away unless a certain need was fulfilled.

  Yes, mating.

  Which I could never do.

  So, except enduring the pain, I had nothing left to do right now. But it was becoming harder for me to hold myself strong with each passing second while I was feeling like I was about to die with such pain due to my heat.

  “Why are you being so stubborn, Sam? You know very well that the pain is never going to stop tormenting you unless Kazan comes to help you out. And you even know that in the next moment the pain will not lessen but become even greater than before and you will suffer more and more. So, what do you want, Sam? As a friend, I just can not watch you in such pain like this, while I can clearly see that telling Kazan about everything and letting him help you is the best way out right now.” Kaith started to yell with a lot of frustration and he was no wrong as I knew what else was coming up next.

  But it was just that I could never afford to face Kazan as Summer.

  “No. Please.” It was all that I could say for now as I had no strength left at all to form any more words in order to argue with Kaith.

  I kept my eyes closed but tears did not stop at all to fall down, soaking the bed underneath.

  I was in no condition to know what Kaith was thinking or what he was feeling right now, as the pain was becoming almost intolerable to me.

  But little did I know that fate had other plans which were going to flip my entire world completely in no time.

  I was lying on my bed all curled up while Kaith kept stroking my back with no idea how he could make me feel better for at least a little bit.

  “Should I call Jenny here?” He asked even when he knew that she was still at school and was attending the classes which she just could not afford to miss. But Kaith did stay back and skipped his school today for me, only to stay beside all the time.

  “No. Don't bother her. No one could do anything now.” I asked Kaith not to disturb Jenny's schedule when I already knew that no one was of any help to me right now. I even asked Kaith not to miss his classes but as if he ever listens to me.

  “But...” He wanted to say something else to protest my decision but he just did not, and kept stroking my back without stopping even for once.

  Neither did I ask him to.

  But something else was about to happen, which I faile
d to assume way before, eliminating myself of the chances to do anything in order to make things right.

  Cause, a certain special scent had already started to increase slowly without much of my will, which I failed to realise before time, depriving me of each and every chance to escape once again.

  I was totally oblivious about the very thing which was about to happen in no time, until a ferocious deep voice was heard from the doorway,

  “Get your hands off my mate.” I saw Kazan, and he was standing just a few steps away from me, quite unexpectedly.

  In an instant, I became alert.

  Sudden fears started to jolt up inside my body altogether, as I saw the very thing was happening before my eyes which I never wanted...for which I went through each and everything, so that this day could never come to my life ever.

  But no.

  It seemed that nothing was meant to happen according to my wish.

  And I realised that it was not just me who was stunned but Kaith too, due to Kazan's sudden appearance. But even when he was shocked, he did not waste any time to move away from me, just what Kazan had asked him to.

  Maybe that was what Kaith always wanted. He wanted Kazan to come, so that I could be free from my pain.

  Still, I just could not believe that Kazan came to me...to the very same Summer whom he hates.

  I did not have much time to think of all those reasons any further. All I could think of was that I needed to run, once again.

  Even though I was in tremendous pain, I jumped out of the bed to run towards the open window of my room, cause I had already planned to jump down, even when I did not know if I could reach the ground harmless or not, as I became weak due to the pain for no doubt at all.

  But my plan stayed just as a plan which was never meant to be executed.

  Cause, just when Kazan had assumed that I was about to flee once again, he rushed towards me like a flash of light only to hold me tight in-between his arms, with no intention to let go.

  “Get out.” While I was still struggling to get myself free from his grip with the last bit of strength which was left on my body, Kazan shouted at Kaith ordering him to go out of our sight, leaving me alone behind with Kazan only to become his prey.