by Eli Lowe
And she closed her eyes tight, but said nothing. Neither did she make any sound.
I just could not understand what was happening...what was she thinking right now?
What did I say that made her this much sad all of a sudden?
Was I that bad as a mate?
Would she never accept me in her life?
What about my dreams?
What about my wife and pups?
What about my desire to make my own family?
I badly wanted a home to get back to after every long and tiring day in my coming life.
But I want no home where I can not find my Summer.
I need her badly.
I love her.
Mate?
At this moment, a sudden thought came across my mind, shaking me from head to toe.
What if I am doing injustice to her?
What if all this time I was only seeing my dreams and desires and kept confining my mate without much of my awareness?
What if she always desired for freedom and I am coming in between her dreams and was holding her back without knowing what exactly I was doing?
At this moment, a lot of conflicting thoughts had already started to make a mess out of my mind, as I was slowly losing my mind.
I felt like I was drowning bit by bit and there was no one to save me and to get out of the water which kept snatching all the air away from me, leaving me breathless to die soon.
“Mate?” I called out for her as I was becoming desperate to hear her say just one word.
Whether she says yes or no, I was ready to accept any of her decision at this moment as I was feeling really weak this time.
The realisation of the fact that I can neither keep her by my side nor I can let her go, started breaking my heart already.
But I had to make it easier for Summer at least...for the sake of love if not for anything else.
“If you really do not want to live with me, then you can always reject me, you know.” Even though each and every single word was hard to say, still I said it out loud, to let Summer know that she was always free to make her own decisions, no matter how much I wished to be with her.
“But you need to answer, whatever it is.” I could not even finish my words properly, just when Summer opened her eyes at last and screamed all of a sudden.
“Nooo!!!!...” Just when our eyes met I saw her eyes went all red as tears flooded out of there and fell down on her cheeks in no time.
What?
What kind of answer was that?
She was saying no to me, yet she was crying as if...as if she was in a lot of pain.
I just did not get it.
“Hey!! Summer. Do not cry. I understand...” Even though my mind was in no state to solve the puzzle named Summer, still I could not see her crying for me. So I wanted to coax her, but little did I know what she was actually facing right at this moment.
“No no no. You, dumbass!!! Do not ever dare to ask me to reject you. Or else I will kill you right away.” She kept screaming like insane while tears never stopped falling from her eyes even for once.
I got relieved, thinking that she was not going to reject me at least.
Even so, I can clearly tell that something was definitely wrong with her. It seemed that she was really in pain, but what could it be?
Her forehead soon covered up with a lot of dots of sweats even when the night was a bit cold, as we were still near the lake. And she became restless all of a sudden and kept screaming, holding on to my arms ever so tightly that it was even hard for me not to feel the pain from her strong grip.
“What is wrong with you, Summer? What happened?” I asked being all clueless about Summer's such weird behaviour.
But she did not care to listen to my words at all and kept screaming, with her eyes tightly closed.
I held her tight in my arms in no time and tried to make her comfortable but nothing worked.
“What is happening. Answer me, Summer?” I had to yell at her, as she was really scaring the hell out of me, right at this moment.
“I...I do not know. It is painful. My...my belly is...” She did not have to say further as everything started to become all clear to me now, and it did not take much time for me to realise that we need to go back now, as fast as possible.
“Okay. We need to go to the hospital now.” With that, I stood up in an instant and scooped her up into my arms, so that we could reach the car, first.
But something even worse happened at that moment.
Summer screamed in pain once again and in no time I felt the rush of some kind of liquid which came out of her all of a sudden and soaked both our clothes.
“What is it? Are you alright, Summer? Talk to me, please.” I shouted, as everything which was happening to us right now, was absolutely new to us, or at least to me.
And all I know was that she was in pain and our pup was going to come out any time soon. Except that I knew nothing.
So, it was obvious that I was scared as hell.
“My...my water just broke. We...we do not have much time to go to the hospital now. I am...already in pain.” Summer said in her exhausted voice in between her painful screams, and kept clenching her swollen belly with both her hands tightly.
“So, what do we do now? What do you want me to do? Let me ask for help first.” I asked hurriedly, as the situation was not at all helping me to think of a way out.
“Put me down first. I need to push now.” She yelled at me and I had no other choice than listening to her words right at this instant.
I put her down on the soft grass-land just as she asked me to do, and kept holding her hand while she tried to push the pup out of her belly as if a mother knows the best what to do and when to do.
At this moment, I thought I should call for some help. So, I took out my phone and texted both Kaith and Markus, explaining the situation in short, so that they could bring with them, whatever they will think would be necessary.
“Kazan!!! See if it is coming out or not.” She screamed all of a sudden, making me even more scared.
“Wh-what?” I stuttered. I thought I might have misheard her for something else.
“I. Said... Look. If. Your. Bastard. Is. Coming. Out. Or. Not. You. Dumbass.” For the slightest moment, she became absolutely scary, and I could not become even more paler.
But I had to do, whatever she asks even when I was scared.
Cause I just can not let her be in pain for a longer time, so I need to be quick.
This brat is surely giving my mate troubles.
I heard how Summer kept screaming in pain, and the pathetic thing was that I could not even do anything to help her out, this time.
I did not even realise how time passed by, until the whole surrounding which was filled with Summer's painful screams till now, was soon replaced with the continuous cries of our tiny little pup.
“It is a boy, baby.” I shouted in excitement, holding his tiny little body in my inexperienced hands. I just could not explain how happy I was to hold my son in my arms for the first time.
He was pink and the most beautiful pup I have ever seen.
His hands, legs, fingers, and everything else was so tiny that I was indeed afraid to hold him in my large hands, thinking what if I end up hurting my pup?
So, I went to Summer's side carefully, holding my son in my arms.
“It is a boy, baby.” I said again, seeing that Summer did not respond earlier.
“You are saying it wrong. It is a baby boy.” She said in her exhausted voice as she was looking really tired after giving birth to my son.
“No. I said it right. It is a boy. And you are my baby.” I planted a kiss on her forehead and handed her our son.
And getting back his mom, this naughty boy went all silent in no time, who was creating a tantrum till now.
Seeing my mate and my pup together, at last, I felt like I could even die after this with peace.
Cause I have never felt this happy before.
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“I love you, Summer.” I could not say more as my heart was indeed overflowing with a lot of emotions right at this instant.
I kissed her lips quickly, realising that now I need to take her to the hospital.
And those useless fellows could not even reach here in time.
Tsk.
“Hold our son tightly, baby. I am going to carry you both to the car. Will you be okay?” I asked without wasting any further time.
“Yes.” She nodded and held our pup carefully and close to her best, while I scooped her up from the ground into my arms and rushed to the place where I parked the car earlier.
And just when I was about to pull the car out after settling Summer with our pup in the passenger seat comfortably, those useless fellows arrived.
Markus, Kaith and Jenny too.
And yes, Jacob arrived as well.
What a perfect timing!!!
“To the hospital.” I informed them and in the flash of a second, I drove the car away from them, as I had no time to wait cause Summer needed to be treated as soon as possible.
It was obvious that we reached the pack-hospital before them, and Summer was immediately taken to the afterbirth care, and I was left with the tiny little fellow in my hand, who seemed to be sleeping in my arms ever so peacefully now, after giving both of his mom and dad panic attacks just a while ago, and that too for what? Only because he was in some kind of hurry to get out of his mom's womb so that he could sleep on me now?
Episode 88
Summer's P.O.V
Slowly, I opened my eyes for the slightest bit but the bright light made it quite difficult for me to keep them opened at first, and I was compelled to close them once again, until my eyes get used to the brightness of the outside world.
It took me some while to wake up fully, as my entire body was feeling sore and I could clearly feel the faint pain and the exhaustion which was still lingering on every inch of my body even after I woke up from the sleep.
For some moment I could not even realise that whatever happened yesterday was a dream or it happened. But soon, the tiredness that I kept feeling, proved that it was not.
Still, I just could not believe that I have become a mother now.
I rubbed my hand against my belly unconsciously, only to find that the place was no more huge and swollen. In an instant, I felt the urge to see my son, as I figured that I did not see him or hear his soft cries or anything else about my boy, since I woke up.
So, I needed to see my pup, I wanted to hold him in my arms once again, but I did not know how I was going to do that without any one's help, when it was very clear that he was not in this room, at all.
The room was absolutely silent, for the time being, when I woke up.
I tried to move my other hand to lift up the cover from my body, so that I could get down from the bed, but something was stopping me to move my hand, strangely.
Till now, when I was so involved to recollect all the precious memories, I just could not realise that I was not alone in this room even when it was all quiet in here, as someone was holding my hand with a strong grip all this while, and I realised his presence only when I wished to get up, just a while ago.
I turned to the other side very carefully to take a quick glance at the one who chose to stay by my side since when I did not know either. But it was sure that he might have not wanted to make me feel alone when I wake up.
And I did not even have to guess who it could be.
Cause I was very much sure now.
Yes, it was Kazan.
He was sitting beside my bed with his head down while his hands were holding mine with no intention to loosen its tight grip even when he fell asleep out of tiredness due to all the hard work he had to do since yesterday for the ceremony. And even after the ceremony, I know how he had to go through all the troubles because of me. I gave him a real hard time, for sure.
But, why was he here with me?
Was he not supposed to be his newly born pup? Was he not the one who was waiting for this day ever so eagerly? Then what was he doing here?
I kept thinking about so many things out of the blue without realising that I was already staring at his sleeping face for such a long time. And I did not know what came to my mind at all, that I moved my other hand to run my fingers through his soft hairs which were already in some kind of mess an was left without any care.
At this moment, I could not help but wonder if I have ever spared any time to observe his unique features which were indeed admirable and were enough to arouse me while warming my heart at the same time.
Sure enough, we had wasted so much time to fight with each other, before.
But what now?
When I have fallen for him once again?
By then, my mind, my heart, my soul had already started to fill with the one and only name of my mate... Kazan, ... and I did not even realise when I had started to touch each and every single inch of his face with the tip of my fingers.
As if, I just could not get enough of him only by looking, as if my hands were compelled to touch him already to feel his warm skin. And his soft breaths were like the reason of the sensations that I already started to have all over my body for some unknown reason.
All of a sudden, I wanted to kiss him, I did not know why.
But little did I know that even before I could accomplish my little plan, Kazan will open his eyes in no time, as I had totally forgotten about the fact that my hand kept touching his warm skin which was enough to wake him up from his nap, without any effort.
I was caught.
I was caught red-handed by my mate, when I was about to go for the kiss.
His ocean blue eyes stared deep into mine with all the warmth in his heart, while I could not hide my flustered face any more from his sight, which was already turned red due to the sudden embarrassment.
“H..Hi.” I greeted Kazan and moved my face away from him in an instant, so that I could hide away my intentions of attacking his lips while he was asleep, and also to come up with something else in my mind only to cover up the sudden awkwardness in this kind of situation.
“Who allowed you to stop?” His deep voice made me shiver while my cheeks became even more flustered with whatever Kazan just said.
“W...what? I was not doing anything at all.” I lied awkwardly as I just did not want myself to get exposed, but little did I know that it was never going to happen when Kazan was there to watch every single of my moves.
“Right. You were not doing anything. But why? Why were you not doing anything when you should? You have every right to. And...
And, sometimes I too want to get kisses from you.” His voice became low at the last as if he was only whispering to himself or was he trying to hide his wishes, even when he very much wanted to fulfil each one of them.
“Eh???” Without being able to properly hear what Kazan just said, I got confused thinking if he said exactly what I thought, or was it something else.
But even before I could ask him, he stood up from the chair and jumped in the bed to lie down together beside me, even when the bed was small for us two.
“I want a kiss.” He demanded like a child, holding me tightly in between his sturdy arms, and I was caged into his chest with no way to escape from him any more.
“We have a son now. Why are you acting like a child when you should behave like a father? And also who is going to consider you as the alpha of your pack when you act in such a childish way, Kazan?” I asked seeing that Kazan had no intention to let me go this time.
“I am aware of everything else. But I am like this with you only. Cause you are my Summer with whom I do not need to worry about the fact that I must stay as the strong and frightening alpha that I am, like every other time. And do not ever try to make me forget about the kiss with all these excuses.
I am waiting.
Kiss me, mate.” Kazan whispered into my ears, letting his warm breaths torture me to the point where I lose my mind absolutely,
and end up giving myself to him at last.
And it happened, exactly what he intended.
Cause I could not hold myself back any longer, when his hands were already touching me clumsily, making it hard for me to avoid giving in to his pull.
I licked my lips unconsciously just before I moved closer to Kazan and enclosed his parted lips with mine. And then it did not take much time for him to make a mess out of me with his intense kisses.
How time passed, we did not realise, as both of us were busy with each other, totally forgetting about the fact that now we have a little pup of our own, who needed to be looked after by us. But where is he?
“Umm...Kazan, where is our son?” I asked all of a sudden, pulling my lips back from Kazan's warm ones, just when the thought of our pup came to my mind.
“He is fine. Do not worry. I handed our son to Jenny last night, since I had to stay by your side and I could not keep him with me cause if I did so, he would have surely disturbed your sleep with his constant cries.” Kazan said while he was still trying to continue the kiss but I moved right away, which made Kazan frown for a bit, indeed.
“How is he?” I could not help but ask, as I was becoming impatient enough to see our son cuddling in between my arms. But it seemed that my words stirred something in Kazan as his eyes became warm and moist all of a sudden while he buried his head on the crook of my neck, right away, in order to hide all those feelings that he was feeling at this moment.
“He...he is so tiny. He got two little arms and two little legs, and ten tiny fingers that you can not even hold them properly. He also got a tiny nose like yours and his lips are like your too, red and cute, but he has no teeth. His skin is softer than feathers and his head is full of soft hairs.” Kazan kept saying into my ears and I could not help but chuckle, cause he literally described his son part by part as if others pup looks different than ours.
“And his eyes? You did not say anything about them.” I asked again, as I was wondering whom he really took after.
“Yes. He got two big eyes.” Kazan said softly while his warm breath caressed my skin once again, as he pulled me into a tight hug once again and started rubbing his body on me, showing how he wanted me to hold him back as well.