The Gift

by Julie Garwood

  She felt as if she’d been hit with hot lightning when he finally took her nipple into his mouth. She arched up, demanding more. He began to suckle.

  A warm knot formed in the pit of her stomach. “Nathan, please,” she moaned. She didn’t have any idea what she was begging him for, only knew the incredible heat was driving her beyond reason.

  He turned to her other breast even as his hand slid down between her thighs. She didn’t clench against him but let out another ragged groan.

  He leaned up on one elbow so he could watch her expression. She tried to hide her face in the crook of his shoulder. He reached out and caught hold of her hair.

  “I like the way you respond to me,” he whispered. “Do you like the way I’m touching you?”

  He already knew the answer. He could feel how ready she was for him. How hot. His fingers rubbed against the nub hidden between her folds until she was slick with moisture. His finger slowly eased up inside her.

  Her hands had been fisted at her sides until that minute. She came apart then. She stroked his shoulders, his back. Her nails scraped his backside. “Nathan,” she whispered. “Don’t do that. It hurts. Oh, God, don’t stop.”

  She continued to contradict herself by arching up against his hand. Nathan could barely understand what she was saying to him. He shook with raw desire to have her.

  He silenced her weak protest with a kiss and moved to cover her. She didn’t try to lock her legs together but moved to cuddle his hardness between her thighs.

  He twisted her hair in his hand to hold her steady for his kiss. The way she rubbed her pelvis against him drove him crazy. He wasn’t being gentle. She wouldn’t let him. Her nails stung. He liked that. She was moaning, too. He liked that even more.

  He slowly eased into her but stopped when he felt the thin shield of her resistance. He lifted his head up enough so that he could look into her eyes.

  “Put your legs around me,” he ordered, his voice harsh with determination.

  When she did as he commanded he let out a low growl. And still he hesitated.

  “Look at me, Sara.”

  She opened her eyes and stared into his.

  “You’re going to belong to me. Now and forever.”

  Her eyes were misty with passion. She reached up to clasp the sides of his face. “I have always belonged to you, Nathan. Always.”

  His mouth covered hers again. He thrust deep inside her in one swift motion, thinking to get the pain he knew she’d feel over and done with as quickly as possible.

  “Hush, baby,” he whispered when she cried out. He was fully embedded in her. Her tight heat surrounded him, squeezed him. “God, that feels good,” he said with a groan.

  “No, it doesn’t feel good,” she cried out. She tried to shift positions to ease the throbbing pain, but he held her hips and wouldn’t let her move.

  “It will feel better in a minute,” he told her. His breathing was labored. He sounded out of breath to her. His face rested in the hollow of her shoulder. He nipped at her skin with his teeth, tickled her at the same time with his tongue. The sweet torture made her forget some of the pain.

  “Don’t push against me like that, Sara,” he ordered. His voice was harsh, strained. “I’m not stopping now. I can’t.”

  His tongue rubbed her earlobe. She quit struggling and let out a sigh of pleasure.

  “The pain won’t last long,” he whispered then. “I promise.”

  She reacted more to the tenderness, the caring in his voice than to the promise he’d just given her. She hoped he was right, though. She still hurt. The throbbing was insistent, but after a minute it did begin to lessen. Yet when he started to move again the pain immediately returned.

  “If you don’t move, it isn’t so terrible,” she whispered.

  His groan was harsh.

  “All right, Nathan?” she pleaded.

  “All right,” he answered, responding to the worry in her voice. It was a lie, of course, but she was too innocent to understand how much he needed to move. “I won’t move.”

  Her hands began to stroke his hair, the back of his neck. His fever was burning out of control, and the pain of having to hold back was demanding to be appeased.

  She couldn’t seem to quit touching him. “Nathan, kiss me.”

  “The pain’s gone now?”

  “Almost.”

  He deliberately withdrew just a little when he moved to kiss her again, then just as slowly eased back inside her.

  “You moved,” she cried out.

  Instead of agreeing with her he kissed her. When he tried to withdraw again her nails dug into his hard thighs. She was trying to keep him still against her. He ignored her protests and sought to make her burn the way he was burning. His hand slipped down between their joined bodies, and his thumb slowly stoked the fire inside her.

  Her head fell back on the pillows, and her grip on his thighs relaxed.

  And then she began to move. Her hips pushed up against his. Her actions were instinctive, primal, uncontrollable.

  She soon became demanding, too. He responded to her by slowly pulling back and thrusting more powerfully inside.

  She squeezed him tight and arched up against him just as forcefully. The mating ritual took over. The bed creaked from the rocking motion. Their bodies glistened with perspiration in the candlelight. Her sweet moans blended with his raw growls.

  They were both wild to find fulfillment. He couldn’t stop his own climax, nor the near shout he gave when he spilled his hot seed inside her.

  His head dropped against her shoulder in complete surrender to the blazing orgasm that overtook him.

  He knew she was close to finding her own release. His thrusts continued to be just as forceful, and when he felt her tense against him, he forced her orgasm by driving hard into her again.

  She screamed: His name.

  His ears rang from the noise. He collapsed on top of her, giving her his full weight in an attempt to stop her trembling.

  Neither one of them moved for a long, long while. Nathan was too content. She was too exhausted.

  She felt a trickle of moisture near her ear, reached up to touch it, and only then realized she’d been crying. Lord, she’d really lost her composure, hadn’t she? She was too pleased to worry about that, though. And too satisfied. Why hadn’t anyone ever told her how wonderful making love would be?

  Her husband’s heartbeat pounded in unison with her own. She let out a happy sigh. She was his wife now.

  “You can’t call me bride anymore,” she whispered against his neck. On impulse she tickled his skin with the tip of her tongue. The taste of him was salty, male, wonderful.

  “Am I too heavy for you?”

  He sounded weary to her. She answered him, yes, he was getting heavy, and he immediately rolled onto his back.

  She didn’t want him to leave her just yet. She wanted him to hold her, to tell her what a fine woman she was, to give her the words of praise and love all new wives longed to hear. She wanted him to kiss her again, too.

  She didn’t get anything. Nathan’s eyes were closed. He looked peaceful and sleepy.

  She didn’t have any idea of the war Nathan was waging with himself. He was desperately trying to understand what had just happened to him. He’d never lost control so completely. She’d bewitched him. Confused him, too. He was feeling vulnerable, and damn, that feeling scared the hell out of him.

  Sara rolled onto her side. “Nathan?”

  “What?”

  “Kiss me again.”

  “Go to sleep.”

  “Kiss me goodnight.”

  “No.”

  “Why not?”

  “I’ll want you again if I kiss you,” he finally explained. He didn’t bother to look at her but stared at the ceiling. “You’re too tender.”

  She sat up in bed, flinching over the discomfort she felt between her thighs. He was right. She was tender. It didn’t seem to matter, though. She still wanted him to kiss her.
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br />   “You’re the one who made me tender,” she muttered. She poked him in his shoulder. “I specifically remember telling you not to move.”

  “You moved first, Sara. Remember that?” he drawled.

  She blushed. She took heart. He wasn’t sounding too surly. She cuddled up against him, wishing he’d put his arms around her. “Nathan, isn’t the after as important as the during?”

  He didn’t know what she was talking about. “Go to sleep,” he ordered for the second time. He jerked the covers up over the two of them, then closed his eyes again.

  She threw her arm over him. She was exhausted. Frustrated, too. She told him so.

  He laughed. “Sara, I know you found fulfillment.”

  “That isn’t what I’m talking about,” she whispered.

  She waited for him to ask her to explain what she’d meant, then gave up when he kept silent. “Nathan?”

  “Hell, what now?”

  “Please don’t take that mean tone with me.”

  “Sara ...” he began in a warning tone of voice.

  “After you took those other women to your bed, well, after . . . what did you do?”

  What in God’s name was she getting at? “I left,” he snapped.

  “Are you going to leave me?”

  “Sara, this is my bed. I’m going to sleep.”

  Her patience was at an end. “Not before I explain proper etiquette to you,” she announced. “After a man finishes . . . that, he should tell his wife what a fine woman she is. Then he should kiss her and hold her close. They fall asleep in each other’s arms.”

  He couldn’t stop himself from smiling. She said the damnedest things. Sounded like a general, too. “It’s called lovemaking, Sara, and how would you know what’s proper and what isn’t? You were a virgin, remember?”

  “I just know what’s proper,” she countered.

  “Sara?”

  “Yes?”

  “Don’t shout at me.”

  He turned to look at her. Hell, she looked as if she was going to cry. He didn’t have the patience to deal with her tears. God, she was vulnerable . . . and beautiful. Her mouth was all rosy and swollen from his kisses.

  He reached over and hauled her into his arms. After giving her a quick kiss on the top of her head he pushed her face down into the crook of his shoulder and muttered, “You’re a fine woman. Now go to sleep.”

  He didn’t sound like he meant what he said, but she didn’t care. He was holding her close. He was stroking her back. She thought that was a little telling. She snuggled up against him and closed her eyes.

  His chin rested on the top of her head. Each time the memory of their lovemaking came into his thoughts he blocked it. He wasn’t ready to let his emotions get the upper hand. He was simply too disciplined to let a woman get that close.

  He was just drifting off to sleep when she whispered his name again. He squeezed her to let her know he wanted her to keep quiet. She whispered his name again.

  “Yes?” he answered with a deliberate yawn.

  “Do you know what this holding and hugging each other is called?”

  She wasn’t going to let up on him until she told him what was on her mind. Nathan squeezed her again, then gave in. “No, Sara, what’s it called?”

  “Cherishing.”

  He groaned. She smiled. “It’s a good start, isn’t it?”

  His snore was her only answer. Sara wasn’t bothered that he had rudely fallen asleep in the middle of her fervent speech. She’d simply explain it all to him again the next day.

  She couldn’t wait for morning light. She was going to find a hundred ways to make Nathan realize his good fortune. She already knew she was the perfect mate for him. He didn’t know it yet, but eventually, with patience and understanding, he’d realize how much he loved her. She was certain.

  She was his wife, his love. Their marriage was true in every sense. There was a bond between them. Marriage was a sacred institution, and Sara was determined to protect and cherish her vows.

  She fell asleep holding him tight. The next day was going to be the official start of her new life as Nathan’s wife. It was going to be a day in heaven.

  Chapter Six

  It was a day in hell.

  Nathan had already left the cabin by the time she awakened. He’d opened the chimney lid for her, and the room was flooded with fresh air and sunshine. It was much warmer than the day before. After she bathed, she dressed in a lightweight royal-blue gown with white linen borders and then went to find her husband. She wanted to ask him where the fresh sheets were kept so that she could change the bedding. She also wanted him to kiss her again.

  Sara had just reached the top step on the way to the main deck when she heard a man’s shout. She hurried forward to see what all the commotion was about and almost tripped over the fallen man sprawled on the deck. The older seaman had obviously taken quite a fall, for he was sleeping soundly.

  The parasol she hadn’t been able to find the day before was twisted between his feet. Jimbo was bent on one knee over the prostrate man. He slapped the side of the man’s face twice in an attempt to waken him.

  In a matter of seconds a crowd gathered around their friend. Each immediately offered a suggestion or two as to how Jimbo could bring the man around.

  “What the hell happened?”

  Nathan’s booming voice sounded directly behind Sara. She didn’t turn around when she answered his question. “I believe he tripped on something.”

  “It weren’t something, m’lady,” one of the crew announced. He pointed to the deck. “It were your parasol that caught up in his legs.”

  Sara was forced to accept full responsibility. “Yes, it was my parasol,” she said. “His injury is my fault. Will he be all right, Jimbo? I really didn’t mean to cause this mishap. I—”

  Jimbo took pity on her. “No need to carry on so, Lady Sara. The men know it was just an accident.”

  Sara glanced up to look at the crowd. Most were nodding and smiling at her. “No need to get yourself in a dither, m’lady. Ivan will get his wits back in a minute or so.”

  A man with a full orange beard nodded. “Don’t be fretting,” he interjected. “It weren’t that bad. The back of his head broke his fall.”

  “Murray?” Jimbo called out. “Bring me a bucket of water. That ought to bring him around.”

  “Will Ivan be able to cook up our meal tonight?” The man Sara remembered was named Chester asked that question. He was frowning at Sara.

  She frowned back. It was apparent he blamed her for the unfortunate circumstance. “Is your stomach more important to you than your friend’s health?” she asked. She didn’t give him time to answer her but knelt down beside the sleeping man and gently patted his shoulder. The elderly man didn’t respond. His mouth was gaping.

  “My God, Jimbo, have I killed him?” she whispered.

  “No, you didn’t kill him,” Jimbo returned. “You can see he’s breathing still, Sara. He’ll just have a fair head split when he wakes up, that’s all.”

  Nathan lifted Sara to her feet and pulled her back away from the crowd. She didn’t want to leave. “I’m responsible for this accident,” she said. Her gaze was fully directed upon Ivan, but she could still see the nods from the men surrounding her. She felt herself blush in reaction to their easy agreement. “It was an accident,” she cried out.

  No one contradicted her. That made her feel a little better. “I should take care of Ivan,” she announced then. “When he opens his eyes I must tell him how sorry I am for forgetting my parasol.”

  “He won’t be in the mood to listen,” Nathan predicted.

  “Aye,” Lester agreed. “Ivan the Terrible isn’t one to forgive a slight for a good long while. He loves a good grudge, doesn’t he, Walt?”

  A slightly built man with dark brown eyes nodded agreement. “This is more than a slight, Lester,” he muttered. “Ivan’s going to be in a rage.”

  “Is Ivan the only cook?” Sara asked.r />
  “He is,” Nathan told her.

  She finally turned around to look at her husband. Her blush was high, and she really didn’t know if the heat in her cheeks was due to the fact that this was their first encounter since their night of intimacy or because she’d caused such commotion.

  “Why do they call him Ivan the Terrible?” she asked. “Is it because he has a mean temper?”

  He barely spared her a glance when he answered. “They don’t like his cooking,” he said. He motioned for one of the men to toss the contents of the bucket in Ivan’s face. The cook immediately started sputtering and groaning.

  Nathan nodded, then turned and walked away from the group.

  Sara couldn’t believe he’d leave without a word to her first. She felt humiliated. She turned back to Ivan and stood wringing her hands while she waited for her chance to apologize. She silently vowed she would find Nathan and give him another lesson in proper etiquette.

  As soon as Ivan sat up Sara knelt down beside him. “Pray forgive me, sir, for causing you this injury. It was my parasol that caused you to trip, though if you’d only been looking where you were going, I’m certain you would have noticed it. Still, I beg your forgiveness.”

  Ivan was rubbing the back of his head while he glared at the pretty woman trying to give him a bit of the blame for his near brush with death. The worry in her expression kept his surly retort inside. That, and the fact that she was the captain’s woman.

  “It wasn’t much of a hit I took,” he muttered instead. “You didn’t do it on purpose, now did you?”

  There was a faint Scottish brogue in his voice. Sara thought he sounded quite musical. “No, of course I didn’t do it on purpose, sir. Are you strong enough to stand? I’ll help you to your feet.”

  She could tell from his wary expression that he didn’t want her assistance. Jimbo pulled the cook up, but as soon as he let go Ivan began to sway. Sara was still kneeling at his side. She reached out to grab her parasol from between his feet just as another crewman reached out to steady his friend. Poor Ivan was suddenly caught in a tug-of-war of sorts, for the captain’s wife was pushing against his legs. He ended up sprawled on his backside.