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CHAPTER 17
That night Kate didn't come home, Maria calls Dr. Drew. Kate have high temperature fever and he told her bed rest and give her high dose of sleeping pill but it did not affect on her.
Dr. Drew knows where she was. She was at Jake's grave sitting under the tree, backing it. It was full moon and Augusts’ autumn, she stare the sky then Jake’s grave, continuously.
She was drinking a bottle of alcohol, which was harmful for her. When Dr. Drew reached at Jake’s grave; he was shocked to see her drinking.
“Kate you know you are in fever... you can't stay out, you need bed rest and you know you’re still under 21, you can’t drink not legally...you can go jail for that” Dr. Drew said softly as he sits next to her, he knows her mental condition is critical so he didn’t force her to come with him, he’s very sensible person.
“Yep... I do…Doc and…I don’t care” Kate said taking a sip.
“You know it’s not good for your health also… Kate” Dr. Drew said he feels she’s not looking him.
She just looking at Jake's grave “it reduces the pain inside of me Doc... which is also not good for me” Kate said smiling.
Dr. Drew take a deep breath then said “Kate ... We born then we dies... everyone has their time... one day I die then you will ... So we can't stop our life if someone our beloved die... It’s a process of life no one lives forever” he sounds like he's making all these words.
“Death” Kate said and took a pause then again said
“Death is not my problem Doc, living is... I have seen many... Problem is that he leaves me alone with guilt... He was upset with me when he was leaving... that... person ...In that gra... grave Doc” Kate voices break she took a sip.
Dr. Drew look at her, eyes were red she was not the person Dr. Drew knew. She was different because of liquor she was not in her senses.
“What do mean?” Dr. Drew asked suspiciously. When Kate starts talking, she reveals the true person in herself.
“You know Doc ... I never lied to you... It’s very hard to pretend the person you are not... because how much you tried to hide it. It will reveal to the world unless you got a strong reason to pretend. That's what my mother used to say ... to me. I always pretend to be nice because of Jake so he... he becomes my friend... He would proud on me... But now I don't have to pretend any more... My mother married to a Russian man against my grandpa’s will. She moves to Russia. My grandfather was much known business man so as my father. His name was YURI KLYMENKVO”
Dr. Drew was shocked because her grandpa told him that she live in Arizona, after her mother died of cancer so she moved to her grandpa, because her dad can't take care of her.
Kate take a sip then continue “my mom love him so much ... that she leave her father even change her name and never came back to America, my real name is KIVA EZILA KLYMENKVO”
She stop then smile and said “Grandpa changes it so no one ask me anything about my past. When I was born my father was happy as my mother told me... but I never believe her... my grandfather had divided his business in his two sons. After 3 years my father starts losing his business. He need money but on one was ready to invest in his company but there was a place where business deal was settled on fight among the dealer. They represent their heirs to fight and the winner got the deal. My uncle was 18 when my grandfather died. My father start losing himself he starts drinking, gambling. He wants a son so he could prepare him for fight but as rules only first born child can fight. My father was not a fighter and my uncle can’t fight. I was 6 years old; I saw my father beat my mom all the time, and then she falls on the floor crying all the night, he became a drunker, a broke man with no hope left in his life. But my mom still doesn’t hate him... I do... because he never love me like a daughter”
Dr. Drew was looking at her eyes wide, still. Kate continue
“I saw my uncle training and one day he looks at me; when he was training then asks me do I want to fight? ... He said, it makes my father happy and I said yes. He trains me for fight teaches me everything, every way to kill someone. My father never care about what am I doing, he was drunk all the time. I know if I make my father happy my mom would be happy, I can have a complete and happy family and for that I was willing to do anything. I was full trained at the age was 9. He took me to that place; everyone was surprised looking at me. Because there was no girl except me, my father was disappointed. But my uncle trusts me, he said he believes in me and I will make my family proud. When I got in to the ring, my heart was pounding so fast, some people were laughing, some staring and whispering about me. There was no rule in fight”
Dr. Drew can't believe what she saying, her eyes full of tears as she continue
“The bell rings and in my opponent, there was a 12 year old boy. The fight starts and he start it by hitting me, I got scared and fall he kick me on my face, I was feeling so much pain. When I saw my father leaving I thought I had to win at any cause. There was an iron rod little away from ring, I grab it and start hitting him with it I... I closed... closed my eyes Doc... But when no one said anything I stop and open them, I look around every one was looking at me. I saw my father who’s looking at me too... when I saw on the floor, it was not my fault Doc really!” she forcibly closes her eyes and put her arms around herself, when I saw...him ... he was dead ... I ... I killed ... killed him”
Dr. Drew was shocked he looks at the ground for a moment then at her
“After few moments everyone was shouting my name as winner... I win...I saw my father smiling; my face was covered with his blood. That day my mother loses me ... but my father was happy he hugs me and kisses me. At the age 11, I killed four boys... They start calling me “Angel smerti”… in English it means “death angel”, I can still hear them shouting” she cover her ears with her hands, voice echoes in her head “angel smerti…smerti”
“It still echoes in my head Doc…it didn’t let my sleep” Kate shouts as she cries.
“My mother was so worried she wants to stop it but she can't. I was having nightmares…I hate lights, always sit at the corner in my room in dark. I can’t go to school; I don’t have any friend…anyone who loves me. My laugh, my innocence was gone and my mother can't stand it and she did something that she shouldn't do, she came between me and father” she stops for a moment then continue
“One day she hide me in closet and told me whatever happen don't come outside and lock it from outside. When my father came to take me she told him that's enough. My father was happy, he got investment and he doesn’t want to lose it he pushes my mother away but mother grab him. He takes his gun out and pushes my mother and she fell on the floor... My heart was pounding so fast I want to get out of the cupboard but it was locked, then I heard a gunshot and... and my father fall down... it was my uncle he killed him... because he's going to kill my mother, my mother stand and take the gun from my uncle hand she told him ... something then shot herself with the same gun and I watch... I watch everything”
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