The Complete Short Stories of Ernest Hemingway

by Ernest Hemingway

  “You’re a writer all right,” said one flyer. “You ought to write for War Aces. Do you mind telling me in plain language what happened?”

  “No,” said Baldy. “I’ll tell you. But you know, no kidding, it was something to see. And I never shot down any big tri-motor Junkers before and I’m happy.”

  “Everybody’s happy, Baldy. Tell us what happened, really.”

  “O.K.” said Baldy. “I’ll just drink a little wine and then I’ll tell you.”

  “How were you when you sighted them?”

  “We were in a left echelon of V’s. Then we went into a left echelon of echelons and dove onto them with all four guns until you could have touched them before we rolled out of it. We crippled three others. The Fiats were hanging up in the sun. They didn’t come down until I was sightseeing all by myself.”

  “Did your wingmen muck off?”

  “No. It was my fault. I started watching the spectacle and they were gone. There isn’t any formation for watching spectacles. I guess they went on and picked up the echelon. I don’t know. Don’t ask me. And I’m tired. I was elated. But now I’m tired.”

  “You’re sleepy you mean. You’re rum-dumb and sleepy.”

  “I am simply tired,” said Baldy. “A man in my position has the right to be tired. And if I become sleepy I have the right to be sleepy. Don’t I Santa Claus?” he said to Al.

  “Yeah,” said Al. “I guess you have the right to be sleepy. I’m even sleepy myself. Isn’t there going to be any crap game?”

  “We got to get him out to Alcalá and we’ve got to get out there too,” a flyer said. “Why? You lost money in the game?”

  “A little,” said Al.

  “ou want to try to pass for it once?” the flyer asked him.

  “I’ll shoot a thousand,” Al said.

  “I’ll fade you,” the flyer said. “You guys don’t make much, do you?”

  “No,” said Al. “We don’t make much.”

  He laid the thousand-peseta note down on the floor, rolled the dice between his palms so they clicked over and over, and shot them out on the floor with a snap. Two ones showed.

  “They’re still your dice,” the flyer said, picking up the bill and looking at Al.

  “I don’t need them,” said Al. He stood up.

  “Need any dough?” the flyer asked him. Looking at him curiously.

  “Got no use for it,” Al said.

  “We’ve got to get the hell out to Alcalá,” the flyer said. “We’ll have a game some night soon. We’ll get hold of Frank and the rest of them. We could get up a pretty good game. Can we give you a lift?”

  “Yes. Want a ride?”

  “No,” Al said. “I’m walking. It’s just down the street.”

  “Well, we’re going out to Alcalá. Does anybody know the password for tonight?”

  “Oh, the chauffeur will have it. He’ll have gone by and picked it up before dark.”

  “Come on, Baldy. You drunken sleepy bum.”

  “Not me,” said Baldy. “I am a potential ace of the people’s army.”

  “Takes ten to be an ace. Even if you count Italians. You’ve only got one, Baldy.”

  “It wasn’t Italians,” said Baldy. “It was Germans. And you didn’t see her when she was all hot like that inside. She was a raging inferno.”

  “Carry him out,” said a flyer. “He’s writing for that Meridian, Mississippi, paper again. Well, so long. Thanks for having us up in the room.”

  They all shook hands and they were gone. I went to the head of the stairs with them. The elevator was no longer running and I watched them go down the stairs. One was on each side of Baldy and he was nodding his head slowly. He was really sleepy now.

  In their room the two I was working on the picture with were still working over the bad camera. It was delicate, eye-straining work and when I asked, “Do you think you’ll get her?” the tall one said, “Yes. Sure. We have to. I make a piece now which was broken.”

  “What was the party?” asked the other. “We work always on this damn camera.”

  “American flyers,” I said. “And a fellow I used to know who’s in tanks.”

  “Goot fun? I am sorry not to be there.”

  “All right,” I said. “Kind of funny.”

  “You must get sleep. We must all be up early. We must be fresh for tomorrow.”

  “How much more have you got on that camera?”

  “There it goes again. Damn such shape springs.”

  “Leave him alone. We finish it. Then we all sleep. What time you call us?”

  “Five?”

  “All right. As soon as is light.”

  “Good night.”

  “Salud. Get some sleep.”

  “Salud,” I said. “We’ve got to be closer tomorrow.”

  “Yes,” he said. “I have thought so too. Much closer. I am glad you know.”

  Al was asleep in the big chair in the room with the light on his face. I put a blanket over him but he woke.

  “I’m going down.”

  “Sleep here. I’ll set the alarm and call you.”

  “Something might happen with the alarm,” he said. “I better go down. I don’t want to get there late.”

  “I’m sorry about the game.”

  “They’d have broke me anyway,” he said. “Those guys are poisonous with dice.”

  “You had the dice there on that last play.”

  “They’re poisonous fading you too. They’re strange guys too. I guess they don’t get overpaid. I guess if you are doing it for dough there isn’t enough dough to pay for doing it.”

  “Want me to walk down with you?”

  “No,” he said, standing up, and buckling on the big web-belted Colt he had taken off when he came back after dinner to the game. “No, I feel fine now. I’ve got my perspective back again. All you need is a perspective.”

  “I’d like to walk down.”

  “No. Get some sleep. I’ll go down and I’ll get a good five hours’ sleep before it starts.”

  “That early?”

  “Yeah. You won’t have any light to film by. You might as well stay in bed.” He took an envelope out of his leather coat and laid it on the table. “Take this stuff, will you, and send it to my brother in N.Y. His address is on the back of the envelope.”

  “Sure. But I won’t have to send it.”

  “No,” he said. “I don’t think you will now. But there’s some pictures and stuff they’ll like to have. He’s got a nice wife. Want to see her picture?”

  He took it out of his pocket. It was inside his identity book.

  It showed a pretty, dark girl standing by a rowboat on the shore of a lake.

  “Up in the Catskills,” said Al. “Yeah. He’s got a nice wife. She’s a Jewish girl. Yes,” he said. “Don’t let me get wet again. So long, kid. Take it easy. I tell you truly I feel O.K. now. And I didn’t feel good when I came out this afternoon.”

  “Let me walk down.”

  “No. You might have trouble coming back through the Plaza de Espana. Some of those guys are nervous at night. Good night. See you tomorrow night.”

  “That’s the way to talk.”

  Upstairs in the room above mine, Manolita and the Englishman were making quite a lot of noise. So she evidently hadn’t been arrested.

  “That’s right. That’s the way to talk,” Al said. “Takes you sometimes three or four hours to get so you can do it though.”

  He’d put the leather helmet on now with the raised padded ridge and his face looked dark and I noticed the dark hollows under his eyes.

  “See you tomorrow night at Chicote’s,” I said.

  “That’s right,” he said, and wouldn’t look me in the eye. “See you tomorrow night at Chicote’s.”

  “What time?”

  “Listen, that’s enough,” he said. “Tomorrow night at Chicote’s. We don’t have to go into the time.” And he went out.

  If you hadn’t known him pretty well and if you h
adn’t seen the terrain where he was going to attack tomorrow, you would have thought he was very angry about something. I guess somewhere inside of himself he was angry, very angry. You get angry about a lot of things and you, yourself, dying uselessly is one of them. But then I guess angry is about the best way that you can be when you attack.

  Under the Ridge

  IN THE HEAT OF THE DAY WITH THE DUST blowing, we came back, dry-mouthed, nose-clogged and heavy-loaded, down out of the battle to the long ridge above the river where the Spanish troops lay in reserve.

  I sat down with my back against the shallow trench, my shoulders and the back of my head against the earth, clear now from even stray bullets, and looked at what lay below us in the hollow. There was the tank reserve, the tanks covered with branches chopped from olive trees. To their left were the staff cars, mud-daubed and branch-covered, and between the two a long line of men carrying stretchers wound down through the gap to where, on the flat at the foot of the ridge, ambulances were loading. Commissary mules loaded with sacks of bread and kegs of wine, and a train of ammunition mules, led by their drivers, were coming up the gap in the ridge, and men with empty stretchers were walking slowly up the trail with the mules.

  To the right, below the curve of the ridge, I could see the entrance to the cave where the brigade staff was working, and their signaling wires ran out of the top of the cave and curved on over the ridge in the shelter of which we lay.

  Motorcyclists in leather suits and helmets came up and down the cut on their cycles or, where it was too steep, walking them, and leaving them beside the cut, walked over to the entrance to the cave and ducked inside. As I watched, a big Hungarian cyclist that I knew came out of the cave, tucked some papers in his leather wallet, walked over to his motorcycle and, pushing it up through the stream of mules and stretcher-bearers, threw a leg over the saddle and roared on over the ridge, his machine churning a storm of dust.

  Below, across the flat where the ambulances were coming and going, was the green foliage that marked the line of the river. There was a large house with a red tile roof and there was a gray stone mill, and from the trees around the big house beyond the river came the flashes of our guns. They were firing straight at us and there were the twin flashes, then the throaty, short bung-bung of the three-inch pieces and then the rising cry of the shells coming toward us and going on over our heads. As always, we were short of artillery. There were only four batteries down there, when there should have been forty, and they were firing only two guns at a time. The attack had failed before we came down.

  “Are you Russians?” a Spanish soldier asked me.

  “No, Americans,” I said. “Have you any water?”

  “Yes, comrade.” He handed over a pigskin bag. These troops in reserve were soldiers only in name and from the fact that they were in uniform. They were not intended to be used in the attack, and they sprawled along this line under the crest of the ridge, huddled in groups, eating, drinking and talking, or simply sitting dumbly, waiting. The attack was being made by an International Brigade.

  We both drank. The water tasted of asphalt and pig bristles.

  “Wine is better,” the soldier said. “I will get wine.”

  “Yes. But for the thirst, water.”

  “There is no thirst like the thirst of battle. Even here, in reserve, I have much thirst.”

  “That is fear,” said another soldier. “Thirst is fear.”

  “No,” said another. “With fear there is thirst, always. But in battle there is much thirst even when there is no fear.”

  “There is always fear in battle,” said the first soldier.

  “For you,” said the second soldier.

  “It is normal,” the first soldier said.

  “For you.”

  “Shut your dirty mouth,” said the first soldier. “I am simply a man who tells the truth.”

  It was a bright April day and the wind was blowing wildly so that each mule that came up the gap raised a cloud of dust, and the two men at the ends of a stretcher each raised a cloud of dust that blew together and made one, and below, across the flat, long streams of dust moved out from the ambulances and blew away in the wind.

  I felt quite sure I was not going to be killed on that day now, since we had done our work well in the morning, and twice during the early part of the attack we should have been killed and were not; and this had given me confidence. The first time had been when we had gone up with the tanks and picked a place from which to film the attack. Later I had a sudden distrust for the place and we had moved the cameras about two hundred yards to the left. Just before leaving, I had marked the place in quite the oldest way there is of marking a place, and within ten minutes a six-inch shell had lit on the exact place where I had been and there was no trace of any human being ever having been there. Instead, there was a large and clearly blasted hole in the earth.

  Then, two hours later, a Polish officer, recently detached from the batalion and attached to the staff, had offered to show us the positions the Poles had just captured and, coming from under the lee of a fold of hill, we had walked into machine-gun fire that we had to crawl out from under with our chins tight to the ground and dust in our noses, and at the same time made the sad discovery that the Poles had captured no positions at all that day but were a little further back than the place they had started from. And now, lying in the shelter of the trench, I was wet with sweat, hungry and thirsty and hollow inside from the now-finished danger of the attack.

  “You are sure you are not Russians?” asked a soldier. “There are Russians here today.”

  “Yes. But we are not Russians.”

  “You have the face of a Russian.”

  “No,” I said. “You are wrong, comrade. I have quite a funny face but it is not the face of a Russian.”

  “He has the face of a Russian,” pointing at the other one of us who was working on a camera.

  “Perhaps. But still he is not Russian. Where you from?”

  “Extremadura,” he said proudly.

  “Are there any Russians in Extremadura?” I asked.

  “No,” he told me, even more proudly. “There are no Russians in Extremadura, and there are no Extremadurans in Russia.”

  “What are your politics?”

  “I hate all foreigners,” he said.

  “That’s a broad political program.”

  “I hate the Moors, the English, the French, the Italians, the Germans, the North Americans and the Russians.”

  “You hate them in that order?”

  “Yes. But perhaps I hate the Russians the most.”

  “Man, you have very interesting ideas,” I said. “Are you a fascist?”

  “No. I am an Extremaduran and I hate foreigners.”

  “He has very rare ideas,” said another soldier. “Do not give him too much importance. Me, I like foreigners. I am from Valencia. Take another cup of wine, please.”

  I reached up and took the cup, the other wine still brassy in my mouth. I looked at the Extremaduran. He was tall and thin. His face was haggard and unshaven, and his cheeks were sunken. He stood straight up in his rage, his blanket cape around his shoulders.

  “Keep your head down,” I told him. “There are many lost bullets coming over.”

  “I have no fear of bullets and I hate all foreigners,” he said fiercely.

  “You don’t have to fear bullets,” I said, “but you should avoid them when you are in reserve. It is not intelligent to be wounded when it can be avoided.”

  “I am not afraid of anything,” the Extremaduran said.

  “You are very lucky, comrade.”

  “It’s true,” the other, with the wine cup, said. “He has no fear, not even of the aviones.”

  “He is crazy,” another soldier said. “Everyone fears planes. They kill little but make much fear.”

  “I have no fear. Neither of planes nor of nothing,” the Extremaduran said. “And I hate every foreigner alive.”

  Down the
gap, walking beside two stretcher-bearers and seeming to pay no attention at all to where he was, came a tall man in International Brigade uniform with a blanket rolled over his shoulder and tied at his waist. His head was held high and he looked like a man walking in his sleep. He was middle-aged. He was not carrying a rifle and, from where I lay, he did not look wounded.

  I watched him walking alone down out of the war. Before he came to the staff cars he turned to the left and his head still held high in that strange way, he walked over the edge of the ridge and out of sight.

  The one who was with me, busy changing film in the hand cameras, had not noticed him.

  A single shell came in over the ridge and fountained in the dirt and black smoke just short of the tank reserve.

  Someone put his head out of the cave where brigade headquarters was and then disappeared inside. I thought it looked like a good place to go, but knew they would all be furious in there because the attack was a failure, and I did not want to face them. If an operation was successful they were happy to have motion pictures of it. But if it was a failure everyone was in such a rage there was always a chance of being sent back under arrest.

  “They may shell us now,” I said.

  “That makes no difference to me,” said the Extremaduran. I was beginning to be a little tired of the Extremaduran.