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Bramah and the Beggar Boy

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by Renée Sarojini Saklikar


  Fingers weave and knot and lace, learn with grace

  warp up, weft across, make your spindles wood.

  Then, they led me to a darkened chamber:

  Folding the edges of the mask, sides sewn.

  Electromagnetic wave———front objects.

  Our hands to push the fire button fast.

  Hoarded, bartered, silk, nylon, cotton scraps.

  Polypropylene banned, discarded, or

  so said Consortium, blind eyes turning

  folded fabric, half backs facing outward:

  pins to pattern, quarters cut on the seam.

  3-D and virtual, grooved plates, angled light

  illuminations, those beams recorded.

  Threaded pieces upward, threaded back down.

  Reference beams, scattering telepresence:

  Layered centre line, a needle and thread.

  Tie the elastic and fear for our dead.

  The Guild Hall Makers Chant Their Secret

  At the Wishing Well we said their names loud:

  banyan, oak, linden, maple, birch and fir.

  North, South, East, West, each epoch brings a test.

  To tie a knot, to bake unleavened bread.

  To leave enough honey on the cut comb,

  Come, Bramah, we then whispered, save our end.

  From a line to a circle, spinning spheres,

  spices and oatmeal, mud from the river.

  Split open bark, cotton thread twisted fine,

  each strand of our story woven in time.

  Knives sharpened at dawn, we cut down green vines.

  Sweet branches ablaze with a thousand bees.

  Strike a match, light a candle, bury gold,

  Come Bramah warm us, we’ll never grow old.

  All this they shared with Abigail and told,

  Six oak trees at midnight to save our secrets.

  With a toss of her head, Abigail paused

  grinning, she asked, and about that man, Bartholomew?

  Abigail and Bartholomew

  Pursued from the Gate of the Autumn Portal

  Surveillance footage to show them running—

  loping gait, they stride to the lock, canal, drifters

  obsessed, with payment, masks untied, hob-boots

  muddied, the same path, up to the river—

  snowfall, auburn pastures, stone-cutters’ hut

  else, city core, the Sandman, where they stayed

  that night following Abigail on foot—

  Later, the Boy Brigades sang, Don’t trust them,

  just call ’em, Rip Van Winkles, they coughed and——

  slow walks, scythed meadows, pebbled narrow lanes

  Watch your back, Abigail, you’ll be wanted.

  We done all our coughing, we torn off our masks.

  That Time of the Wildfires, Abigail Sends Word

  Ramshackle, dirt poor, fingernails broken

  said strong, slow, sweet: Only hard-luck stories.

  Lips to hands, I’ll come to you in your dreams.

  She said, Goodbye to rain on the river.

  Bees encircling each breast, his name danced.

  A thousand shores, those border children cried.

  Shattered glass, morning’s surrender, sirens

  who called, the fallen on their knees, memory:

  she saved six, his eyelashes, long, gold-tipped

  all thought obliterated, guns drawn, hands

  seven thousand kilometres, years and—

  whoso serves, unlock, that gate, hair unbound

  standing, his gaze sent—his last cigarette

  far distances, five bombs dropped—minarets—

  For calling lovers through distance and time

  she knew just the spell, save he wasn’t, yet.

  That Moment When They Fell

  Moonlight on the bed inside Rentalsman:

  Before-Time books strewn across bedsheets;

  silver keepsake, golden rings, frozen fields.

  Dear Dante, a thousand turmoils, distant——

  Dear Zhivago, one woman’s story, told.

  Dear Robin, when lightning strikes, that North Shore.

  Dear Buxom Girl, I seen your picture and—

  Dear Wax-Jean Woman, the body promises—

  To walk under starlight’s infinite gaze

  each moment with us emits a pulse

  foretold, predestined, inescapable:

  always, we are kneeling, upstairs in the—

  Time smothers us in his blanket, tight-rolled.

  I will sing although afraid, as foretold.

  Theatre entrance scanned, each face not his—

  I’ve started again, weeping at Seed Saver meetings,

  white latex, used rubbers, after. Smoke, ash,

  Port Orford cedar, built from long ago.

  On stage, his hand crushed mine. There was applause.

  Resistance leaders jealous of our skills.

  Red is a colour on the devil’s head,

  refrains: outside, the detention centre—

  Unanswered moon prayers, roses turned toad.

  Says that quarter sphere to Venus: side smile:

  night hills rise, silent snow-covered, looming,

  this becoming, porous-captured, how to—

  my face to his, drawn diagonal, checked.

  We’ve come that far, driven into that wreck.

  Mix recorded live, snatched, mashed, dance-hall snips.

  We called it blueprint, a good ear, viral,

  pitched nomadic, minus passports, easy

  cluttered digital, user error, junk

  bandwidths, bottled, necked out, circumference whole

  tinkered with, tuned, our samples compounded.

  Ah Mustafa, the women exclaimed, locked

  away to the far borders, those marchers

  through an open window, seen, a four-track

  the way they watched us smile, we smiled back, strong

  sonically squelched, suffused, captured, night

  that time of meeting, the questions of where—

  speak, think, make: Outside Perimeter’s strike.

  Our story began in Pacifica—

  Abigail and Bartholomew Help a Group of Seed Savers

  Where the fuck is he? the Guards screamed at us.

  And gathered our clothes as fast as we could.

  Wanted, the names of all the others.

  Logged stumps, young hemlock, we chewed the needles.

  Apis mellifera L., captured, chilled—

  no warmth, save making, them the painters stored.

  Walking toward us, silver-orbed crooner,

  Bring him to me and soon: bargain pleas, worth—

  less than anyone else, we would still dare

  that distance, orbital range, spinning fast.

  It were north in the city, ice upon—

  that riverbank, his face, eyes downcast, lashed:

  arms spread on the back of the wind named Niamh

  my fingers, his arm, no give there, his sleeve—

  Sewn inside, what looked like rips, threaded down

  long past midnight, picked apart, sequoia

  red dawn, rare, seeds as thin as oat flakes

  fluttered—

  All the Things That Then Happened

  That line where the missing-you part begins

  She just wanted to make sure he lived through—

  His hands on her hair, pulling. Outside, edge

  snow-covered, windswept, sharp gravestone letters:

  One settler: rare visits, press send, fingers—

  and of that all-alone mother, no word.

 
Standing at the border, she wept, head raised

  wall, bridge, road, checkpoint security, they

  ghost workers, no airport would release the—

  In the hands of the woman whose child had

  that buoy, outer limits, cold dropping—

  Devouring Time, where steps fell on ice

  years earlier, aerial: mountain paths,

  after, they realized, no one to ask—

  And so in secret, no deity there

  they walked to the shrine of the Kings of Laois

  brought overseas from a band of peddlers

  All the things not said, they’d wish them, they’d wed

  melted, and loved the name, esker, and held

  undulated, their song of the hollow

  And threw salal down, lake basin, bowl

  that moment when everything fell away

  all the things not said, they’d wish them, they’d wed

  and showed their palms, up, un/veined, without holes

  He brought her magnolia oil, her heels chafed, cracked

  newspaper lined their boots, she cried to think

  all the things not said, they’d wish them, they’d wed

  branded, their families, and ran, chased, outlawed

  rainfall, a blanket, who could remember—

  Hunted by Agents of Consortium

  Long black strands, the past, hungry to claim her.

  His fingers smeared honey, each fold, her skin.

  Stop accusing me of beauty, she said.

  He knew to ask nothing, that young boy’s boots—

  Once were warriors, they said, together.

  Once fire burned, that lake, acid rain, all

  things real, un/real: that resonant dance—they—

  City centre, woodcut variants, inked

  relief surface gouged; uncarved, reversed

  by hand, each print. Door-to-door combat, press—

  Machine-gunned, pockmarked walls, battering rams.

  Inside, circle where they squatted or bent:

  plaid shirt, jeans, heavy yellow paper, thumb—

  arms up, back wrenched, eyes fixed, gun-struck

  mouths, dumb.

  —escarpment, they’d walk, slope to slope, falling

  slinged arrows, sticks, guards turning over

  all things left behind, they’d not tarry often

  deposited on one side, eroded

  steadfast the rate by which, both of them, pursued

  falling, escarpment, they’d run, slope to slope

  faces, a hundred thousand, captured, chained

  those shadow women, who warned Don’t get caught

  those peddlers, those beggar children, arms cut

  Abigail and Bartholomew, scared, still

  trying to save, failing, falling, escarpment,

  they’d stagger, slope to slope, ground sodden

  marram grass, by seed and by root, rhizomes,

  and rolled down those dunes forever and a day.

  Cronos laughing, wrapped them tight, blankets!

  Don’t take this world too personal, prisoners said.

  Doomed battles, long-shot chances, odds against,

  from indifference: rapture, radiance:

  And called him beloved, battle-scarred, who stood—

  there were the demands for signs, yet none came.

  There was the applause: Then his hand crushed mine.

  They would seduce one to find the other.

  Crash: symbols, timpani: borders, bridges,

  men pushed barges; trees sunk in the river.

  To her knees falling when called, her hair shook.

  Trouble lay breathing in corners too deep.

  Beauty hoarded to hide from stealing

  that house, those chronic angers, no healing,

  doomed causes, terrible odds, and signed—

  Every last one of us, those boys sang.

  In Rentalsman, they opened windows, blinds

  that rapid gunfire, snow-laden trees, bent—

  Surged, those after-midnight calls, therapy:

  once she was Queen of all-the-street, walking.

  What prisoners did and lovers, jilted, they—

  With the heels of her hands, she pushed the sky,

  the last scion of that lumber family.

  Inside Rentalsman: heavy, soft, fluid—

  Outside, bullets scavenged, melted, reused.

  Months long, those battles: morning, brigades sang:

  His strong hands, eyes—to want those times again,

  scrapped paper, she wrote, To have you as my friend.

  One Night, a Bard Sings of the Battle of Kingsway

  Sadness a substance, set down, front step, run—

  Don’t start with me, snarled a Guard of the Gate.

  When they firebombed those specials, ombre.

  Our gaze would always, and we found ourselves,

  enough metal burned, ours hands could not hold.

  Those specials, made in the Before-Time, decks,

  black snake slithering, elephant heel crushed.

  Pay attention! cried the tablet bearer.

  Capable of, that moment on the bridge.

  Look where we are brought down to, hands held strong:

  blisters, barbed wire, those kinds of kisses.

  She ran toward the river, knew those hills,

  and called the Battle, Kingsway, us shipped in—

  Outside a row of children recited—

  Abigail, Abigail, come to our well

  The future’s not over, we’ll never tell.

  And did they then stare into the fire­—

  And did they understand: they must flee—

  Leaving Pacifica to Join the Resistance

  Snow on the mountains, crossing the Fraser

  I’ve put on my makeup, blanket scarf unwrapped

  green wool coat on the train inside a car:

  everyone quiet, blue water, white banks

  gloves on my knee, phone put away, fingers—

  Zhivago, you are in my brown hands, held.

  City centre square, those giant reindeer—

  LED lights glow silver, spun, cast, flakes

  snow falling, that sequined skirt, in the court—

  a drink made from tears, heart-bone of a stag:

  that evening and later, these long months passed

  in which the silence, with every breath, Chance—

  We will meet at the Place of the Bronze Wheel.

  From that treasure chest, those gems we will steal.

  As Foretold Although She Did Not See It Then

  Night-hours, sinews whispering to bone

  Night seamstresses squatted on forest floors

  Night music, feathery beats, a Snowy Owl

  Each footprint, snowflake erased: a thousand

  Each lamentation, hoarfrost breath, a light—

  Each frozen kiss, liquid lips, stuck, melted

  Shingles, spars, knot-free, ice-laden, waiting

  Sitka trunk, open crown, icicle free

  Silver birches, leafless, dreaming of green

  Pacifica, they sang. Retreating ships—

  Kingsway to Rue Mouffetard, those letters sent

  They stood, market centre, each breath, a plume

  They spoke mélange, crunched ice underfoot, stamped

  They fell silent, long lines, those upper ramps—

  Time-travelling with Bartholomew

  How to get used to it, the street choirs sang

  Inside that room, those hooded men questioned

  And so the year ended they could not hope

  All he
r mirror-lookings, she’d break beauty

  The knives stored casket-deep, just beyond reach

  Destiny, Chance, Fate: these three gates opened

  After the first catastrophe, the lists—

  That November changed to December, risked

  Supple, slender, smooth, arms beckoned, replete

  Cardamom, ginger, cloves, crushed, hoarded mounds

  I am here, crooned Abigail, forehead, cut

  Those long-ago days, they’d kneel, heads bent low

  That tension, to name/un/name, cherished, gone

  And called out, moments: when he, and she, they—

  Finding Refuge with an Ex-Lover

  After they cut the block, image reversed

  That house, well inside Perimeter where—

  Sharp sun to rise over ice-crusted streets

  She studied his hands: they decided, space

  Directly on the block, rough, smooth, prepared—

  Outside, Cedrus deodara, furrowed.

  North of Kingsway, Pacifica recalled.

  He wrote in her book the names of artists.

  London, the Before-Time, he’d retraced steps.

  Every drawing, her mouth, every brush stroke—

  They’d felted, carded, scraped: presence, shapes

  The strength of one glance, to last forever

  Outside, Boy Brigades sang: Carmanah-tall

  Inside, he kneeled to show her, edges, all—

  Untouched by language, he divined secrets

  Revenant, cold-stalker, heat-seekers, gone.

  Amulet, keepsake, fear-soother, held tight

  his body bent over, hands adjunct, side—

  Anything, is what she told him, I’d do—

  What is mine to give, he said, jewels, birds

  Night, a cloak of stars, morning’s moon crescent

  His eyes, her lips, curved, centrifugal force

 

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