by Chrissy J
“That’s bullshit, that nigga beat my sister ass and because she shot his trifling ass she have to be held in jail. Fuck outta here” I heard Story yell I could tell she was crying I turned to look at her my uncle Mike had to carry her out the court room, I shook my head this was going to be hard for me. Everybody knew I couldn’t Function without my kids.
“Officer escort her to the back” the judge ordered, I looked at my father and we made eye contact with each other. The look in his eyes were full with hurt and rage I nodded at him and he did the same thing,
“What happen?” Tima asked
“I have to wait for my next court date to see if I’m going to get bail” I told her not in the mood to talk to anybody.
“Damn D” she said, we had to wait for everyone else to come back from seeing the judge.
“Yo it’s crazy out there, nigga from Harlem turn it out in the court room” the girl Jewel said shaking her head, we all was then escorted back down stairs to the holding cell to wait to be transferred to Ricker’s Island. The females that seen the judge was all called and we was then lead to the bus so we can go to the island
‘I can’t believe this shit’ I thought me and Tima was seated together and Jewel and the other chick was in back of us, we got to Rose M. Singer Center and the most embarrassing thing a human can go through was performed on us the nerves of these fucking CO’s.
‘Spread your ass cheeks, bend down touch your toes, cough, open your mouth lift your breast’ the female CO’s was no fucking better than the males, it seem like those bitches was enjoying the show. Thank god my pussy was shaved because the shit some of the females had to do like moving their pussy hair and shit was just crazy. They were treating us like we were fucking animals. After the disgusting search, we got our picture taken and a bed spread along with a prison suit and whatever bullshit they had to give us, me and Jewel was cell mates and I knew off the back she was a chick that loved to talk. The bitch hasn’t stopped talking since the holding cell in central bookings.
“CO when can I make a phone call? I need to call my family” Jewel asked I took the bottom bunk and she had the top
“In an hour” the big black CO said she had a nasty attitude, Jewel sucked her teeth and made her bed, I just laid on the bottom bed and shook my head. My body was telling me I needed rest but I didn’t trust no body so I wasn’t about to close my eyes up in this bitch, plus I had a lot of shit on my mind mostly my babies I haven’t spoken to my father or Hershey since the night everything happen.
“So I take it those fine ass niggas was in the court room for you?” Jewel asked breaking me out my thoughts I looked at her and shook my head; she was a pretty white chick that could pass as Amber Rose twin.
“Look don’t ask me no questions and I won’t ask you none, so stay in your space and I’ll stay in mine” I told her I wasn’t about to start making friends in this bitch
“Damn Ma I was just asking, you been quiet as hell since you got in the holding cell” she said rolling her eyes
“I don’t give a fuck what you trying to ask, I said what I said and that’s that” I said rolling my eyes at her, she got the picture and climbed on her bed.
Chapter 20
It took two long ass days before I got a chance to call home
“Hello” I heard my father voice and it almost brought tears to my eyes
“How’s are my babies? daddy?” I asked
“Princess they good I have them with me, how you holding up in there?” he asked
“I’m maintaining, how shit looking out there?”
“Same shit different day, Trisha should be coming up there to talk to you” he told me
“I hope she working on getting me the fuck outta here, where my babies at? I want to talk to him” I said
“Hold on Ma wants to talk to you” he said
“Hey Princess” Mary said I could hear it in her voice she was about to cry
“Hi Ma, please don’t start crying. I’m hanging in there nobody stepped to me on no bullshit” I told her
“That’s good, Bookie told your father Tima in there with you” she said I laughed
“Yea she in here with her crazy self”
“Hold on here Lil man and Fanny” she said
“Hi mama” I heard both my babies say
“Hi my prince and princess, mommy misses you both and Sparky so much I love you babies” I said wiping the tear that came to my eye
“Love you to mommy” they said
“Sparkle sleep” my father said coming back on the phone
“Daddy I love you, the phone about to hang up tell everybody I love them and I’ll try to call you back later” I said right before the phone hung up,
“Don’t let these bitches see you sweat D” Tima said standing on the side of me
“You know me, I’m not no punk ass bitch” I said as we walked to chow for lunch,
“Bitch I know that, I can’t wait to get out of here so I could eat some real fucking food” Tima said
“I know how you feel” I laughed with her
“Bitch you just going to stand there, move the fuck out my way” this butch looking bitch said pushing me in the back
‘Breathe Diva’ I said to myself
“This bitch can’t hear” another bitch said
“Who the fuck are you talking to?” Tima asked stepping off the line I turned around and swung the tray I was holding in the bitch face that bumped me; Tima hauled off and punched the other bitch in her face.
“Bitch don’t you ever put your fucking hands on me, do you know who I am?” I asked stomping her in the face, the alarm went off.
“D let’s go” Tima yelled pulling me I kicked her one last time before walking off to my cell; I needed to get out of here ASAP. The jail was put on locked down while the CO’s tried to find out who was the one that stomped and put the jail bully in the infirmary.
“That shit was all the way live, you did your thing girl” Jewel said from the top bed I just stared straight up I wasn’t in the mood to talk to Jewel.
The next two days while we was on lock down I finally cracked and listened to Jewel story, she told me she was locked up behind some shit her baby father did. She didn’t know her baby father had robbed someone and the same nigga came to her crib in the middle of the night only to be met with a hit from a mental baseball bat, she hit him over the head four times before calling the cops. Once they got there they found more than the guy that break in her home, they found two eight balls of crack and two pounds of weeds that belonged to her baby father. I felt sorry for her she had nobody on the outside to take care of her four year old son; her son was placed inside a foster home until she would be released.
“Red we out of lockdown, I’m about to go wash my ass” Jewel said grabbing her shower stuff, I open my eyes to look at her
“I’m right behind you” I told her laughing I brushed my teeth and walked out the cell with my stuff in my hand
“Bitch there’s a long line near the showers” Tima said wrapped up in a towel
“I bet there is, I should’ve been up earlier” I told her
“Jewel got two people in front of her you might can squeeze in with her, bitches already showing Jewel mad respect because she your cell mate” Tima joked
“Funny bitch” I laughed leaving her, I walked towards the showers the line wasn’t that long but I knew if I wanted to be the first one to use the phone when they turned on I had to get in and out the shower.
“Jewel” I called out to my celli
“Yo” she answered sticking her head out the front of the line
“You got me?” I asked
“yea come on” she said I knew some of the girls was salty behind the stunt we just pulled but there was nothing these bitches could do about it, after a five minute shower I walked back to my cell and threw on some Grey sweat pants with a white t-shirt and my white gel bottom Reeboks sneakers, even in jail I was still a bad bitch. I walked to the phones an
d dialed Hershey number I haven’t spoken to my homie in three weeks, I was missing my girl.
“Hello” she answered
“What’s shaking Chica?” I said
“Oh my god Diva, I miss you” she said breaking down
“Hersh stop crying it’s not good for my god baby, I miss you to bitch” I said laughing I heard her blow air out her mouth.
“This shit is all fucked up, I need you out here Chica. I feel so empty without you” she said crying again
“Trisha working on another bail hearing, I’m not trying to be here for my daughter’s first birthday. Plus it’s good to fight the case while I’m out on bail” I told her
“Yea I know, Sparky getting big as hell she took her first steps the other day while she was here with me and Ha” Hershey told me I felt my heart break my baby girl was trying to walk and I wasn’t there to see it, I knew my babies was wondering where I was. The phone went silent both me and Hershey in our own deep thoughts.
“Diva don’t worry about that, I recorded it for you. Every time her, Lil man and Fantasy do something I think you should see I tape it. Did you speak to Kendu? He has not been the same since you been locked up” she told me
“I haven’t spoken to him since the night he left and went to hang out with Ha and I was locked up” I said hearing the warning that the phone was going to hang up
“Hershey I love you the phone about to hang up”
“I love you Diva” she said and just like that the phone hung up.
Kendu….
How did I let my girl get caught up in this fucked up situation, it was like Déjà vu when Raya was locked up for the murder of ol boy she was fucking with. Now I’m going through the same thing I went through with Raya with Diva, then I haven’t spoken to her in three weeks. Mel told me she called him for five minutes and then she didn’t call him back since that day, fuck that I had to see my girl. I drove all the way to Ricker’s I had to park my car in the parking lot on the other side of the bridge, I made sure I had a $4.50 metro card so I can get on the bus to go over the bridge. After making sure I had my bread and ID in my pocket, I grabbed the Shopping bag that held packs of socks, Panties, two sports bras, a pack of t-shirts and three sweat pants along with the black gel bottom reeboks. I got on the bus with the other people going to visit their love ones; I haven’t been on a fucking city bus since the 90s. Once I got on the other side of the bridge, I walked in the building and found the spot where the visitors that was going to Rose M. Singer Center, I was the only male there I shook my head. I knew some of those females that were on locked down were either there because of their dude or something they did for their nigga and not one of those females got a visit. After giving my Info and Diva info I was able to broad the bus to take us to the jail.
‘Ricker’s never change’ I thought sitting down.
Diva….
“Cinnamon Woods you got a visit” the Male CO that was cool with all the females told me walking to my cell, Tima and Jewel looked at me
“What? I don’t know who that could be, I hope it’s Tasha” I said going to the mirror I checked my hair to make sure my ponytail was straight, I dapped some Chanel .5 oil on my neck and wrist then walked out the cell. I walked out the cell and followed CO Daniel’s out the housing unit he cuffed me and walked along with me until we got to the visiting area there was some more girls there getting ready for their visit after being strip search we was given a jump suit and slippers, I just was ready to see who came to visit me. I walked out to the visiting room and showed my ID to the officer at the desk, she looked up at me and frown before pointing to the table where my visitor was sitting. I looked and a big Kool Ad smile spread across my face, I damned near ran to Kendu. He stood up with a smile and I fell into his arms welcoming his smell I kissed his mouth sticking my tongue down his throat.
“Break it up Woods” the CO shouted me and Ken broke away from each other then sat down across from each other, Ken took my hands into his and just stared at me.
“How you been holding up in here?” he asked stroking my hand
“I’m hanging in there, some of these bitches are ratchet as hell, but I stay away from them and I mind my business” I told him taking in how sexy he looked I turned around to see half of the female inmates looking our way
“Nobody tried fucking with you?” he asked
“I got into a little something two weeks ago and we was put on lock down but other than that, I’m straight” I said the rest of the hour visit went good we talked about the case and the babies, when the visit was over I wanted to leave with Kendu and I think that was the hardest part of the damn visit not being able to leave with the ones you love.
Chapter 21
Walking back to the cells made me realize that I was locked away from my kids, my family and my man, Tasha needed to get her ass working so I could go home.
“Who was the mystery visitor?” Tima asked when I walked inside the rec room, her and Jewel was playing cards
“My boo” I told them with a smile on face, I still smelled his I am King Cologne
“Awe that was so sweet” Jewel said looking up at me
“Yea it was cool, he brought me some more shit. I’m about to go lay down wake me up when it’s dinner time” I told them walking off. I got to my cell and put all my stuff away in my locker I laid down and closed my eyes, I knew it was not good to be stressing about the situation that I was in but I couldn’t help but to stress about it. I was away from my kids and my family and I was missing the real world more in more each day, Tima and Jewel came to wake me up two hours later so we can go to chow.
“Bitch I’m going back to my cell, I’m about to go make some noodles and tuna fish” I said
“Shit I’m right behind you, tonight is not a chicken night” Tima joked
“Word, I got some beef jerky in my locker” Jewel said laughing we all turned around and walked back to my cell.
I started getting use to the jail life, I had Tima and Jewel who held me down on the inside and my FAM that held me down on the outside, I spoke to Kendu and the kids almost every day. Eddie was making a full recovery that rat bastard, I wanted to look in his eyes and ask him why he did what he did, what made him want to rob me.
“Cinnamon Woods report to the bubble” I heard my name on the intercom
“What you did?” Jewel asked
“I don’t know” I told her walking out the rec room and going to the bubble where the CO’s were
“Yes?” I asked standing near the window; CO Daniel’s looked up from some paper work and smiled
“Pack up Inmate, you just made bail” he said I just stood there like he was joking
“What?” I asked him
“Go pack your shit” he said again, he didn’t have to tell me twice I ran to my cell
“What they wanted?” both Jewel and Tima asked
“I just made bail, please don’t ask any questions because I can’t give you any answers” I told them grabbing my letters everything else was staying here with Jewel and Tima
“I’m so happy for you D” Jewel said hugging me
“Thanks” I said Tima hugged me to
“T I see you when you touch down next week, Jewel I’ll make sure I write you and keep your books stacked and don’t worry about your son I’m going to make sure my lawyer look into that for you” I said
“Thanks D” she said wiping tears from her face, they walked me back to the bubble and I was on my way home.
After signing paper work and getting my property that I came to jail with I was given a metro card and was free. I got on the bus to take me over the bridge I was nervous a little bit; I didn’t know who was waiting for me on the other side of the bridge. I got to the other side and tears came to my eyes my father was standing there with Kendu and my babies, I got off the bus and ran to them.
“Daddy” I yelled jumping in his arms I hugged him like I wasn’t going to ever see him again
“Princess I’m s
o happy your home” he said swinging me around I didn’t know what Trisha did but I thanked god for her she pulled through for me, my father put me down and I turned to Kendu who had a big smile on his face
“Hey pretty girl” he said pulling me into him for a hug, I hugged him then I grabbed all three of my babies.
“Look at mommy’s babies, I missed you so much” I said hugging and kissing them
“Home” Lil man and Fantasy said wiping my face that were full with tears
“Yea we taking mommy home Lil man, come on Princess” my father said grabbing my hand we all walked to his Black Hummer
“Daddy I hate this damn car” I joked it always remain me of a fucking monster truck
“This is a boss truck” both my father and Kendu said
“Says who?” I asked getting inside the back with my kids, I was happy that I wouldn’t have to sleep another night in that fucking cell.
We pulled up to my block and I noticed all my family cars, I should’ve known they were going to come show your girl love. I took Sparkle out her car seat while my father got Lil man out his Kendu already had Fantasy, I felt like I was being watched as I held my daughter I looked up and down the block to see if I noticed anything out of the normal. I peeped a black Range Rover with tinted windows driving down the block in slow motion, before I could warn my father and Ken the window rolled down and bullets started flying. I threw Sparkle on the floor and covered her body with my own, it seem like everybody that was inside my house was opening fire on the Range and just as quickly the Range appeared it disappeared.
Kendu….
Shit just got real; niggas was shooting at my girl while she was carrying my daughter in her arms and the twins. That was a no no in my book, I was about to make Harlem bleed.