The Snow Child

by Eowyn Ivey

  “I suppose we won’t be having potatoes, will we?” Mabel said. She looked at the girl and smiled. “We do have some of those awful sailor biscuits. I guess that’ll have to do. And some boiled carrots.”

  CHAPTER 12

  Never had Mabel imagined the little girl would be sitting before them, at their own kitchen table. How had this come to be? The moment had the surreal fast-and-slow movement of a dream. She set an empty plate in front of the child and fought the urge to grab her hand, to touch her and see if she was real. She and Jack sat in their chairs. He folded his hands in his lap and bowed his head. Mabel did as well, but could not stop looking at the girl.

  She was even smaller than she had appeared at a distance, and the chair back towered around her. With her coat on, the child had looked almost roly-poly as she sprinted through the trees, but now Mabel saw her thin arms and small shoulders. She wore that same cotton dress with tiny flowers on it, but Mabel could see now that it was a summer dress for a grown woman. Beneath it, she wore a long-underwear shirt that was too small; the sleeves did not reach her thin wrists. The girl’s hair was white-blond, but when Mabel studied it, she saw that woven and twisted among the strands were gray-green lichens, wild yellow grasses, and curled bits of birch bark. It was strange and lovely, like a wild bird’s nest.

  “Dear Lord,” Jack began. The girl did not close her eyes or bow her head but, unblinking, watched Jack. Delicate lips, the hint of bones beneath rounded child cheeks, a small nose—Mabel found herself recalling the face Jack had carved into the snow. The child’s face was gentle and young, but there was a fierceness as well, in the flash of blue in her eyes and the point of her little chin.

  “We thank you for this food and for this land…” Jack paused. Mabel couldn’t remember him choosing his words so carefully for a blessing. “We ask you to be with us as we… share this meal, with each other and with… with this child who has joined us.”

  The girl opened her eyes wider and glanced from Jack to Mabel, her lips pressed together.

  “Amen.”

  “Amen,” repeated Mabel. The girl watched, her hands bundled in her coat, as Mabel served moose steaks onto each plate. Then she leaned forward slightly, as if to inspect the meat.

  “Oh. Let me get those awful crackers.” Mabel stood and walked behind the girl, pausing for a moment to take in her fragrance—fresh snow, mountain herbs, and birch boughs. Mabel allowed her hand to slide along the back of the chair, her fingertips barely touching the girl’s hair. Perhaps it was not a dream after all.

  As soon as Jack and Mabel began to eat, the girl did as well. She picked up the sailor cracker, sniffed it loudly, and then set it down again. Mabel laughed. “I agree wholeheartedly,” she said and set her own cracker aside.

  The girl then picked up the meat with her hands, smelled it, and bit into it. When she saw Jack and Mabel watching, she put it down. Jack used his knife and fork to slice pieces off his own steak and eat them.

  “It’s all right, dear,” Mabel said. “You eat it any way you want.”

  The girl hesitated, then picked it up in her hands again. She didn’t devour it the way Mabel expected, like a starving pup, but instead ate it daintily, little nibbles here and there, but eating every bit, even a line of gristle that ran through it. Then the child picked up each slice of boiled carrot and carefully ate it. Her plate was clean even as Jack and Mabel continued to cut their meat.

  “Would you like some more? No? Are you sure? There’s plenty here.”

  Mabel was alarmed to notice how flushed the child’s cheeks had become. Her eyes had gone glassy as if from fever.

  “You’re too warm, child,” Mabel said. “Let me take your coat. Your hat.”

  The girl shook her head firmly. Along the bridge of her nose, tiny beads of sweat formed, and as Mabel watched, a large droplet slid down the child’s temple.

  “Open the door,” Mabel whispered to Jack.

  “What?”

  “The door. Prop it open.”

  “What? It’s well below zero.”

  “Please,” she begged. “Can’t you see? It’s much too hot in here for her. Go—open the door!”

  So Jack did, and he wedged a piece of firewood in the doorway to keep it open.

  “There, child. That will cool you. Are you well?”

  The girl’s eyes were wide, but she nodded.

  “Do you have a name?” Mabel asked. Jack frowned. Perhaps she pushed too quickly, but she couldn’t help herself. She was desperate to seize the child, to hold her and not let go.

  “I’m Mabel. This is Jack. Do you live nearby? Do you have a mother and father?”

  The girl seemed to understand but gave no expression.

  “What’s your name?” Mabel asked.

  At this the child stood. Her coat was on before she reached the doorway.

  “Oh, don’t leave. Please,” Mabel said. “I’m sorry if I asked too many questions. Please stay.”

  But the girl was already out the door. She did not seem angry or frightened. As her feet hit the snow, she turned back to Mabel and Jack.

  Thank you, she said, her voice a quiet bell in Mabel’s ear. And then she slipped away into the night with her long blond hair trailing down her back. Mabel remained in the open door until the cold air seeped in around her feet.

  CHAPTER 13

  The girl appeared and disappeared without warning, and it unnerved Jack. There was something otherworldly in her manners and appearance, her frosty lashes and cool blue stare, the way she materialized out of the forest. In ways she was clearly just a little girl, with her small frame and rare, stifled giggles, but in others she seemed composed and wise, as if she moved through the world with knowledge beyond anything Jack had encountered.

  The child had not shown herself for several days when Garrett came to visit. It was a snowy afternoon, nearly dark even at midday, when the boy rode his horse in from the river.

  “Hello!” he called out to Jack. The boy dismounted and dusted snow from his hat brim.

  Several times now Garrett had ridden through on his way home from his trapline. If he’d caught anything, he’d show it to Jack, and then for an hour or so he would follow Jack around while he worked. He would help stack wood or move pallets. Jack would ask him about trapping and hunting, but mostly the boy just talked without prompting. Ever since they’d field-dressed the moose together, the boy was different, as if eager to be friends. He even seemed to seek Jack’s approval.

  “You bringing anything home today?” Jack asked with a nod toward Garrett’s horse.

  “Naw. Nothing. Missed a coyote that was too smart to come into my set. You leave any bit of scent behind, anything that rouses their suspicion, and you might as well call it a day. They won’t come near your trap. Sometimes I think they’re harder to catch than just about…”

  But Jack wasn’t listening. Over Garrett’s shoulder, through the falling snow, he spotted the little girl at the edge of the trees. She peered around the thick trunk of a cottonwood.

  “You see something?” Garrett asked. He turned to follow Jack’s eyes, but the girl was gone.

  “Thought I did,” Jack said, “but it was just my old eyes playing tricks on me.”

  The next day when Jack was alone in the yard, the child approached silently and sat on a stump while he worked. A few times she opened her mouth as if to speak but then closed it again.

  Jack was certain her visits were driven by more than just curiosity or hunger. It was something akin to sorrow or weariness, like a bruise in the skin beneath her eyes.

  While Mabel continued to prod at the dinner table, sneaking in questions here and there that went unanswered, Jack chose to watch and wait. Eventually she would make her purpose known. For now, he enjoyed her company. Only a few times did she venture into their cabin, and always she refused to stay the night. But she brought them her little gifts: the white ermine pelt, the basket of berries, an arctic grayling cleaned and ready for the frying pan. Jack came to
see that the dead snowshoe hare, strangled and left on their doorstep—that, too, had been a gift from the child. He regretted throwing it into the woods.

  Then the day came when she appeared without gifts but instead with the questions Jack had seen in her eyes. She arrived early, just after he had finished breakfast and stepped outside into the dim morning, and she followed him around the barn and yard like a shadow.

  As he closed the barn door, he felt her small cool hands clasping at his wrist. She tugged at his arm so that he bent to her.

  Will you promise?

  Her voice small and frightened.

  And before he knew the implications of such a promise, he was following her through the snow. The child ran as if alarmed, as if pursued, but when Jack fell behind, she slowed and led him toward the mountains and up the alpine slopes.

  He followed as best he could. He was a huffing, slow-footed oaf next to her. Her steps were so light and sure. The way seemed much longer than before, when he had chased her through the woods at night. He sensed the girl’s impatience. She paused just until he reached her, then sprinted away again before he had a chance to catch his breath. He no longer paid attention to where they were going, but only knew it was up. The long, slow climb cramped his calves and ached in his lungs. The solid gray sky pressed down on him. He was weak and heavy. Each time they reached the top of a ridge he thought, This is it. We’ve finally arrived. But then they would continue higher, to the next ridge, and on again. The snow was deeper than before, and he slogged through while the girl seemed to float across it.

  Are you well?

  She stood above him.

  We’re almost there, she said.

  Fine, he said. I’m fine. Lead the way.

  He tried to smile but knew it was more like a grimace.

  I’m not as young as I once was, but I’ll get there.

  The girl seemed to make an effort to go slower, to show him where he could place his feet and where he could grab at a tree branch to pull himself up a ledge.

  Then he saw rocky cliffs ahead of them and heard the trickle of a creek beneath the ice. He followed the girl up the ravine. Soon they were among a clump of large spruce trees that seemed out of place so high up the mountain, and the large boughs and immense trunks gave a sheltered feeling to the narrow valley. She slowed here without looking back at Jack and seemed reluctant to go on. Then she stopped and pointed toward a snow-covered heap beneath one of the trees.

  What is it?

  The girl didn’t answer. She only pointed, so Jack walked past her to the heap. He brushed away some of the snow and uncovered a canvas tarp. He looked at the girl again, questioning, but she turned away.

  When he pulled back the tarp, a dozen voles scuttled away into the snow, and he saw a man’s neck where blond hair met a woodsman’s wool coat. Jack’s heart beat loudly in his ears. He put his hand to the broad shoulder, and it was like shoving a cottonwood log, cold and frozen to the ground. Jack stepped around the corpse. He saw now where the voles had made their small tunnels through the snow, spreading in a maze in all directions from the dead man. He didn’t want to, but he dusted the snow off the face and head, then off his side and chest. The corpse lay on its side, curled up like a child, but it was no child. He was a big man, much taller and broader in the shoulders than Jack, and there was no doubt he was gone to this world. His milky eyes, sunk back into his skull, stared blankly ahead. His skin was a ghastly blue. Ice crystals grew on his face and clothes and along his blond hair and long, bushy beard. The rodents had begun to gnaw away his frozen cheeks and nose and the tips of his fingers, and their droppings were everywhere.

  Jesus. Christ almighty.

  Then Jack remembered the girl. He turned and she was there at his elbow, peering down at the frozen man.

  Who is he? Jack asked.

  My papa, she whispered.

  What happened?

  I tried. I tried and tried.

  Jack looked into her eyes, and it was like watching water gather on lake ice. No sloppy dribble, no sobs. Only a quiet pool on the blue.

  I pulled on his arm and said, Please, Papa. Please. But he wouldn’t come. He only sat in the snow.

  Why wouldn’t he move?

  The girl’s chin trembled as she spoke.

  He told me Peter’s water kept him warm, but I knew it wouldn’t. I wanted to make him warm. I held his hands and then I held his face, just like this.

  And the girl reached down and cupped the dead man’s cheeks in her small hands with the tenderness of a daughter’s touch.

  I tried, but he was colder and colder and colder.

  Jack went to one knee beside the corpse and caught the strong smell of liquor. A green glass bottle was clenched in a frozen claw of a hand. Jack’s stomach turned. How could a man do this, drink himself to death in front of his child?

  Why couldn’t I make him warm? the child asked.

  Still on one knee, Jack reached up and took hold of her small shoulders.

  You aren’t to blame. Your papa was a grown man, and no one could have saved him but himself. This is not your fault.

  He pulled the canvas back over the dead man.

  When did this happen?

  The day the snow first came, the child said.

  He knew when. It was the night he and Mabel had built the little snow figure in the yard. Nearly three weeks ago.

  Why didn’t you ask for help?

  I kept Fox away. I threw stones and yelled. And I wrapped Papa so the birds wouldn’t peck at him. But now… the voles are eating him.

  What choice did he have? He stood and dusted the snow from his knee.

  I might have to get some help, from town, he said.

  The girl’s eyes flashed with anger. You promised. You promised.

  And so he had. Jack sighed heavily and kicked the sides of his boots together. It was more than he had bargained for.

  This isn’t all going to happen today, he said. I’ve got to think about this, about how we’re going to take care of… your papa.

  All right.

  The girl was tired and calm, the fight drained out of her.

  You will stay with us until we can sort things out.

  Jack spoke as he had that first day when he’d told her it was time to go in for dinner, as if this were the last word.

  The girl stood straight, her eyes sharp again.

  No, she said.

  I can’t leave you here in the woods. This is no place for a child.

  It’s my home, she said.

  She stood with her head high. The mountain wind blew through the spruce trees and stirred her blond hair.

  This was her home. Jack believed it.

  In Alpine, he asked around, saying he’d seen ax blazes on several trees, signs of marked trails. Had anyone been trapping near his homestead over the years? Anybody living up toward the mountains?

  “Yeah. Yeah. Funny you ask ’cause I haven’t thought of that fellow in a coon’s age,” George said. “We called him Swede, and he never told us different. Didn’t give a name, now that I think of it. More likely Russian, I’d guess—judging from the way he said his words.”

  “What did he look like?” Jack asked. “Just curious if I ever met him along the way.”

  “Big, strapping man. Built like a lumberjack. Light-colored hair. A beard. A little off, if you ask me. Not the friendly, talkative sort. Esther’s known for inviting the bachelors over for Sunday dinner once in a while, but she never asked him. I wonder what happened to him. You think he’s trapping around your place?”

  Betty remembered the man, too.

  “Oh he was an odd duck, that one,” she told Jack as she poured him a cup of coffee. “Like a lot of ’em, he panned gold in the summers, trapped in the winters. Probably thought he’d strike it rich and go back to wherever he came from. Couldn’t understand him half the time, always mixing another language in with his English.”

  “You seen him lately?” Jack asked. “I just want to know who I
’m dealing with, if he’s trapping out my way.”

  “Nope. Can’t remember the last time he was in here. But then he only came into town a few times a year. Spent all his spare time drinking with the Indians upriver, from what I heard.”

  “Wonder what ’came of him.” Jack casually stirred his coffee.

  “Who knows? Maybe he went back to wherever he came from. Or the river drowned him, or a bear ate him. Happens all the time. Men come and men go. Sometimes they just walk off the face of the earth.”

  “You recall him having any children?… Or a wife? I was just thinking Mabel might want to get to know her.”

  “Can’t say that I do. Seemed a pretty solitary type to me.”

  A tired sadness settled over Jack as he rode back to the homestead. The horse trotted sharply and tossed its head, as if invigorated by the brisk weather. Jack’s hands stiffened in the cold as he held the reins. He thought of the girl on the side of the mountain with her dead, frozen papa and wondered if he was doing the right thing. She had made him promise not to tell anyone, especially Mabel, and Jack understood. Most any woman wouldn’t allow a child to stay in the wilderness alone with her father’s corpse. The girl feared being yanked away from what was familiar. Jack had watched when Mabel once or twice reached out to brush hair away from the girl’s eyes or to help button her blue wool coat. The girl flinched and pulled back. She clenched her teeth and pursed her lips as if to say, I can take care of myself.

  Jack was fairly certain it was true. The girl knew the woods and trails. She found food, shelter. Was that all a child needed? Mabel would say no. She’d say the girl needed warmth and affection and someone to look after her, but Jack had to wonder if that didn’t have more to do with a woman’s own desires than the needs of a child.

  Besides, he had promised the girl. He made few promises, but those he made, to the best of his abilities he kept.