Hating My New Husband (Hate Love Book 3)

by B. B. Hamel

  “About what?” I practically yell, my frustration getting the best of me.

  “Danielle!” she blurts out. “You knew that would hurt me!”

  “Hurt you? I don’t get why you give a shit. I mean, seriously, Carly, it’s not like we were dating. We were just friends.”

  Her hand grips the glass. She puts it down, glaring at me. “You’re so stupid. You never noticed, did you?”

  “Noticed what?”

  “I was in love with you!”

  I stare at her, completely shocked. We’re silent for a second and she sighs, like a weight was released. She sips her drink and shakes her head.

  “It was just a stupid crush,” she says softly. “But you got with Danielle and kept bragging and it just… it hurt. You used me to get girls all the time and I hated you for it.”

  “Carly,” I say softly. “I didn’t know.”

  “You knew,” she says. “Of course you know.”

  “I really had no clue. You always… you always acted like you didn’t care about anything. Like you were too good for me.”

  She shakes her head. “I was just defensive.”

  “That’s why you stopped talking to me,” I say softly, letting it sink in. “Oh, shit. That must’ve been awful.”

  She bites her lip. “It really was.”

  “I kept talking about it… and then I got with, what’s her name? Tina?”

  “Trisha,” she corrects.

  “Yeah, your friend from home.”

  She nods. “That put me over the edge, but Danielle… that’s what really set me off.”

  “Shit,” I say softly. “I’m so sorry. Seriously, I didn’t know.”

  She stares at me for a long moment. I can see some of the anger drain from her face. “Would it have mattered?” she says softly. “You are what you are, Davis.”

  “It would’ve mattered. I wouldn’t have… I would’ve… It would’ve mattered.”

  “Maybe, but it’s easy to say now. I mean, it was so obvious how I felt about you. Everyone knew it.”

  “Everyone?” I blink. “No way. Somebody would’ve told me.”

  “Everyone assumed you knew but were just stringing me along.”

  “I had no clue, Carly. I swear.”

  I stare into her eyes, willing her to believe me. Willing her to believe the truth.

  I had no clue she was in love with me. I always knew she liked me better than other people, but I just figured it was a good friendship. She never indicated that she wanted more, never made jokes, never flirted. We spent a lot of time together, sure, but I had no clue…

  Oh, god, I was so stupid. I was just a stupid kid. Looking back, with perfect hindsight, it’s obvious. But I didn’t know. My teenage self was a moron.

  “I didn’t want to do this,” she says finally, looking away. “It was so long ago. We were just kids.”

  “I was a fucking idiot,” I say softly. “Seriously.”

  “Yeah, you were.” She smiles a little bit. “But that’s why I’ve hated you for so long. It always felt like you used me to get with other girls, bragged about it, treated me like dirt.”

  “I’m so sorry,” I say softly, stepping toward her. “Honestly, Carly. I mean it, I had no clue. I would never have acted like that.”

  “It’s fine,” she says, looking at the floor.

  “It’s not fine, obviously. I hurt you pretty badly back then.”

  “Yeah, you did. But like I said, we were kids.”

  “How can I make it up to you?”

  She snorts. “I think it’s a little late for that, don’t you?”

  “Honestly. What can I do?”

  “Nothing. It feels good to get this out in the air, though.”

  I sigh and sip my drink, watching her closely. She does look a little relieved, a little less angry.

  But fuck. I can’t believe I did that, I can’t believe I was so stupid. I should’ve seen it by now, should’ve realized. I was such a dick back then.

  And I’m a fucking dick now, too.

  I step toward her. I’m not sure what I’m doing, but I reach out, touch her cheek. She bites her lip and I can see tears in her eyes. “Carly,” I say softly. “Fuck, Carly. I’m sorry.”

  “You don’t have to keep apologizing.” She sighs. “We were kids. I should’ve let this go a long time ago.”

  I bite my lip, step closer. She looks up into my eyes.

  I want to share my bed with her. I want to share my room. I want her here, in my space, even if she’s going to make a mess, knock over wine, fuck things up.

  Because she’s Carly. She was my best friend, and now…

  And now she’s my wife.

  Fuck, it’s all so complicated and messed up.

  I lean toward her. My lips press against hers and we kiss for maybe the fifth time today.

  But for the first time, it’s very real.

  I feel something stir inside of me, deep in my chest. It’s a strange warmth, a comfort, like I don’t ever want to let her go.

  I’m afraid that if I do, I’ll never feel this way again.

  And I need to feel this way. I need it so badly.

  I never even knew.

  She pulls back and looks up into my eyes. “What?” she asks softly.

  “Carly, I—”

  Her phone starts ringing before I can finish my sentence.

  She frowns and looks over at the kitchen counter. She hesitates, but I let her go.

  “Answer it,” I say. “Could be Long.”

  She nods and walks over. She sighs as she picks it up. “Hi, Mom,” she says.

  I move away, wine glass in my hand. I can’t believe I was about to say that, about to tell her that I might be feeling something very, very stupid.

  Because that would be stupid. Falling for her right now would be absolutely fucking stupid.

  I’m thinking with my dick. That’s all it is. I want her so badly it hurts, and that’s all I can think about. It’s not that I’m falling in love with her.

  I can’t be falling in love.

  She gets off the phone a minute later. “Sorry,” she says.

  “It’s fine.”

  “What were you about it say, before she called?”

  I shake my head. “Nothing important. What did your mom want?”

  She chews her lip for a second. I think she might press me, and I’m relieved when she doesn’t.

  Well, relieved for a second, at least.

  “They want to meet you.”

  I raise an eyebrow. “They?”

  “My parents. Remember, I said they wanted to meet you?”

  “Oh, right.”

  “Well, they want to come tomorrow for dinner.”

  I laugh softly. “Sounds lovely.”

  “You want to make it up to me?” she asks. “Be on your best behavior.”

  “I’ll do what I can,” I say, grinning at her.

  She sighs. “I have more unpacking to do.”

  “Go for it.”

  She nods and hesitates. “Are you sure it’s okay? We can take them somewhere nearby.”

  “That sounds great. I know a place.”

  “Okay.” She smiles. “Thanks, Davis.”

  “It’s what a husband’s for.”

  She grins and walks away, shaking her head.

  I watch her go, not sure what the hell to think.

  I think I love her. I think I want her. And now I’m going to meet her parents.

  And we’re deep in this fake relationship, so deep I can’t see the other side.

  If there even is another side.

  I groan, rubbing my temples. Fucking hell. I’m such a moron.

  But I’m going to taste this girl, no matter what.

  13

  Carly

  Richard and Francine Miller are in their early sixties. They look like any other middle-class white couple, and if they weren’t my parents, I’d never give them another glance.

  Instead, as soon as I spot
them sitting at the bar of the expensive restaurant Davis picked out, my stomach does freaking flips.

  “That’s them,” I say, nodding in their direction.

  Davis sizes them up. My mother looks good, like she lost some weight, and she’s wearing her best jewelry. My father has on a pair of khaki slacks and a nice sport coat over a button-down light blue shirt. He’s staring at a glass of whisky in front of him, not smiling, while my mother talks to him.

  I doubt he’s even listening. I bet he’d rather be anywhere but here.

  “Come on, let’s go,” Davis says.

  “Wait.” I grab his arm. I take a deep breath.

  He takes my hand. “It’s going to be okay, Carly,” he says softly. “I’m here. I’ll take care of everything.”

  I stare into his eyes and for some reason, I believe him. “Okay,” I say. “Let’s go.”

  We walk over to my parents. My mother spots me right away and stands, beaming, as she gives me a hug.

  “Mom, this is Davis,” I say. “I went to high school with him.”

  “Hello, Mrs. Miller,” he says to her.

  “Francine,” my mother insists. “It’s nice to meet you. This is my husband, Richard.”

  Davis and my father eye each other up for a second. My father doesn’t smile.

  Davis reaches out his hand, and they shake.

  “Well, this is nice,” my mother says, smiling at me. “Oh, honey, you look good. Did you lose weight?”

  “Nope,” I say. “Probably put some on since you last saw me.”

  Dad grunts. “Is there even a table in here?” he says, cutting Mom off before she can say anything else. “It’s damn crowded. We were lucky to get a spot at the bar.”

  “I’ll take care of it,” Davis says, and walks off toward the hostess.

  I’m left standing there awkwardly with my parents. I haven’t seen them in person in a long time. I haven’t even spoken to my father in years.

  I don’t know what to say.

  “Well,” my mother says. “He seems nice.”

  “Nice and rich,” Dad grunts.

  I sigh. “Nice to see you too, Dad.”

  He glances at me, but doesn’t say anything.

  “Richard,” Mom warns. “Be nice.”

  “I just don’t know why we’re here. The girl clearly doesn’t want us here.”

  I blink, surprised. “No, I want you here,” I say quickly. “Seriously, I want both of you here. I want you guys to meet Davis.”

  He grunts and Mom smiles. Before we can start talking awkwardly again, Davis and the hostess return.

  We follow her to a table tucked away in the back. It’s the best table in the house, private but with a view of the rest of the room. Dad looks impressed as he sits down and we instantly fall into small talk, driven by Davis.

  My mother asks him about his family, about what it was like going to high school with me. He shares some funny stories, and by the time our drinks arrive, even my dad is smiling a little bit.

  I can’t shake my nerves, even though this is going well. I can’t help but think something is going to go wrong, anything is going to go wrong. It can’t go well. I haven’t had a good interaction with my parents in person in a very long time.

  But somehow, Davis is siphoning off all the negative energy. Or at least he’s distracting us from it.

  “Honestly,” he says. “Carly was really sweet in high school. I remember this one time, she wouldn’t say the word ‘coccyx’ because she thought it was a bad word. And we were in biology!”

  Dad roars with laughter. Mom smiles and leans across the table toward me. “What’s that, honey?” she asks softly.

  “That’s the scientific word for your tailbone.”

  “Ah,” she says, nodding. “It does sound dirty.”

  I grin a little bit. Dad’s still laughing, which doesn’t surprise me. Any story that makes me look like a moron is bound to amuse the hell out of him.

  Eventually our food comes. Dad doesn’t say much, so it’s up to my mom and Davis to keep the conversation going. I try and interject what I can, but mostly I’m trying not to let my father’s surly silence get the best of me.

  Nothing in this world can last. That’s the nature of our lives, they’re so fleeting and impermanent. And that same damn principle applies to my relationship with my father.

  It’s always calm before the storm, no matter what.

  “Tell me,” Dad says suddenly during a lull. “How is all that acting treating you, Carly?”

  I frown at him. “Fine,” I say.

  “Really? Land any big roles?”

  “Carly’s been going on some really cool auditions,” Davis says quickly.

  I shoot him a glare. “You don’t have to lie for me,” I say and look back at my father. “Davis is just being nice. I haven’t been on an audition in a while.”

  “Oh, really?” he asks.

  “Really. I know, I’m sure you’re very surprised.”

  “I am. You gave up your life for this, after all. I figured you’d at least succeed at it.”

  “Richard,” Mom warns him.

  “No, it’s okay.” I lean toward my father. “He’s right. I failed at being an actress. But you know what? At least I had the courage to try something.”

  “Instead of what? Working a steady job and supporting a family, like I did?”

  “Pretty much,” I say.

  He narrows his eyes. “You always were ungrateful.”

  “And you always were miserable. You’re a bad example of how to live a life, Dad.”

  That pisses him off. It always does. “What do you know about responsibility? We supported you for years.”

  “You did, and I’m grateful for that,” I say softly.

  “I cut you off for your own damn good.”

  “I know you did.”

  “And you never said thank you.”

  “That’s not true.”

  “Richard,” Mom says, getting worried.

  “Nothing matters to you,” he says, ignoring her. “You only ever cared about yourself and what you want. You ignored my advice, and look at you now. Married to some rich guy you barely know.”

  “Richard,” Mom says again.

  “I know Davis,” I tell him.

  “No, you don’t.” Dad leans toward me, eyes narrowed. “I don’t know what you tell people, but it’s obvious why you’re with this guy.”

  Davis leans forward, grabbing Dad’s attention. “And why is that, Richard?” he asks him.

  My father slowly looks at Davis. “Money,” he says. “She’s with you for money. Don’t you forget it. That girl only cares about herself, and you’re just the latest get-rich-quick scheme.”

  I slam my hands down on the table. Mom jumps and Dad grins at me, a wicked glint in his eye. He loves nothing more in this world than pissing me the hell off.

  And he did it. He succeeded like I knew he would. I was so afraid of this moment, afraid I’d embarrass myself, afraid I’d make a scene, afraid I’d say something to my parents that I’d regret forever.

  Now that this moment has come, I find that I don’t give a fuck about any of that.

  I open my mouth to tell my father all the things I’ve always wanted to say. I want to tell him that he was never as good of a dad as he thinks he was. He provided, but that was it. He was a cold, distant asshole, a controlling dickhead. He fucked me up, and I resent him for it. He’s a bad fucking person.

  And it’s about to spill out, every word of it, when Davis puts his hand on top of mine.

  For some reason, that stops me. I look at him, and his eyes are glowing. I swear, they’re glowing with a red-hot anger unlike anything I’ve ever seen before. He slowly turns that gaze onto my father.

  “You don’t know your daughter,” he says softly.

  “Oh, you think so?” my dad jeers. My mother looks mortified.

  “No, you don’t. Your daughter is intelligent, beautiful, talented. She may not have succeed
ed as an actress yet, but if she wants to, she will. And she’s not with me because of my money, you idiot. She’s with me because I’m nice to her, which is something you’ve never bothered to be.” He pushes back from the table. “We’re leaving.”

  I blink and stand up. I look at my mom. “Sorry,” I say to her. “Call me.”

  She nods, resigned to her fate.

  My father just laughs. “Go ahead, leave. You deserve each other, you fucking freaks. Go ahead and let her bleed you dry, Mr. Millionaire Asshole. See if I care.”

  Davis makes a face. “She told me you were an asshole, Richard, but I didn’t realize you were also tacky.”

  He turns and leaves the table. My eyes are wide and I’m grinning. I look at my dad and he’s glowering after Davis, angry beyond words.

  I don’t need to say anything. I just hurry after Davis.

  We leave together, head outside.

  “That was…” I say to him, and he whirls on me.

  “Don’t you ever let that fucker talk to you like that again, you hear me?”

  He’s angry, glaring at me. I blink and nod. “Okay,” I say.

  “Good. Fuck that guy. He’s such a fucking prick. I see why you don’t talk to him.”

  “Davis,” I say softly.

  “That fucking twat. I want to go back in there and beat the fucking shit out of him. How dare he talk about you that way?”

  “Davis!”

  He looks at me and lets out a breath. “What?”

  “Thank you.”

  He hesitates a second and smiles. “Sorry. I went overboard.”

  “No, it’s okay. You’re right. He is an asshole. And he’s tacky.” I step closer to Davis, get up on my tip-toes, and kiss him.

  He pulls me against his body, kisses me deep and slow. It’s not the sort of kiss I expect from him. It’s not lust-filled, although there’s lust. It’s passionate, but it’s not smoldering.

  It’s tender. It’s loving.

  He breaks off. “Come on, let’s go home.”

  I nod. “Okay.”

  “I hope he enjoys that bill,” Davis says, taking my hand. “My meal was expensive.”

  I grin at him. “Mine, too.”

  He laughs and squeezes my hand. We walk together back toward the house, shoulder to shoulder. I feel better than I have in a long time, and it’s all because of him.