by Eve Kaan
'Maybe the lady could untie her yukata to prevent it from staining. And I sincerely apologize for such a lapse on my side, I hope my grapes haven't caused any inconvenience for you.' The way I played with my words excited her. She slightly shuddered.
'You are right, this is only inconvenient for my yukata.' I didn't hope she would immediately agree, but she lowered the grape on the table, then slowly untied it. 'I think this is enough, I wouldn't wont to get cold.' Yukata had only parted a bit in the area of her chest and crotch. I feel pulsating in the lower part of my belly. 'And I would also recommend you do the same if you are planning to eat.' She was making it seem like she's not looking at me while taking her cup of tea. 'Maybe you would welcome some help because you're still pouring a hot drink.' She placed her hand back on my thigh while taking a sip, crossing over my hips, then pressing the place where I was on edge from pulsating. She took my belt and pulled it, slipping herself there due finishing with tea. 'Maybe if I could untie the part where the danger of dripping is the most possible to happen.' With fingers, she climbed toward my neck but slowed her advance just for a moment at the chest area. 'I ate all the grapes here, I'm so inconsiderate - I'll have to get you the other one from the table.' The passion is overwhelming me. She leaned over me again, but this time, she was holding a hand directly on my crotch. 'Your pulse is really powerful, surely because of this weather.' She deliberately moved her hand as she stretched forward in an untied yukata. I caught her hand and pulled her into my lap. She embraced me with placing the legs around me while her wide open yukata fall down the back. 'You've got me a little distracted, but I have to admit this is convenient, though I haven't adjusted myself quite comfortable yet.' I could feel the scent of her wet groin. I lightly pulled her closer to me, with forthcoming of our buds, her breathing accelerated. Deep emotions are coming from my heart while I was kissing her neck, climbing all the way up to the lips - sweet from those small barries. She clutched my back, joining our two buds. Her heart gently touches my love. If I could, I would impress her deeper into me, to become one with her. I love her with my whole being without constraint. Holding her firmly, I assessed her in the rhythm of accelerated movements. With my fingers underneath her yukata, I could feel the moisture that was spreading from her lower part. She became more swollen in the area where her small lips are spreading. With each kiss, I'm transmitting my passion to her. She is awakening such strong emotions in me, that is more powerful than any climax.
She slowly slid her tongue down my neck, holding onto me to still herself. 'Mmm... Oh Rin, don't stop.' In my ear, she whispered. Stretching her arms and placing them down behind her back, yukata slipped slowly from her, showing the naked stiffened breasts. She twisted them up while grabbing the edge of the table, pushing with her pulsating point stronger than ever. I gazed at the body I belong to, grabbing the backrest behind my back while kissing her hot skin with tensed breasts. Her breathing is passionate, in the rhythm of our movements. She is the most wonderful being I've ever felt. Every plate and platter at the table is shaking, almost shattering upon our love clutches. She came closer to me, we enjoyed in embrace yet again. 'You are everything to me Rin.' With the calming voice, she whispered. 'I belong to you - you are my soul mate, I feel you like that.'
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Yuna
'My heart didn't know what love is until I met you.' Rin replied to me in a whisper while our female hills renewed the tension with slow movements. She held me firmly while getting up, lifting me with her in the process. I was clutched to her passionately, watching her yukata at the back as it swings in waves while she walks sensuously. She sat on the edge of the pool, still holding me in her lap. I placed my hand on her face, gently caressing her warm skin. I'm approaching the corner of her moist lips which are briskly trying to take the air in. I ascended up to kisses, causing the water surface to ripple underneath the sensual motions. In the onsen, we passionately continued to make love the whole remaining time we had.
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
I returned from Rin's during the late afternoon. Grave silence engrossed the house, so I've searched all the ground floor rooms. It surely wouldn't be unlocked if the house was empty. Kaoru and Hana were at the estate with their clients for the next four days, that I knew from their schedule, but Utano and Mother, where could they be? I peeked in Mother's room, thinking she could be resting, but it was empty. Just when I started to climb the stairs, I heard a silent sob.
My next few steps were gentle in order to catch the sound of whispering - unnoticed. These are not the sounds of a client visit.
The voices are unarticulated, so I'm not sure about vocals owner. But climbing to the top, I realized that the sound is coming from Utano's room. Trying to listen in, I stopped at the stairs, recognizing them in silent sobs. My senses sharpened so I could hear it more clearly.
I froze, maybe I imagine things. It's not the sobs I'm hearing, I'm almost sure it's a love note. The overlapping moans spread across the hall all over to the stairs.
Mother whispered to Utano about the love she feels for her, and Utano's breath mixed with tears. I can't allow Mother to do such things to her, but how can I open the door just like that. I hear Utano's repulsion, begging her to let go, and that she can't carry on any longer. I was approaching the door, Utano is suffering – how can Mother force her like this. I caught the doorknob and started to open it cautiously.
Just when I thought I couldn't be more shocked, Utano told Mother that their love wasn't meant to be. They are lying naked on the futon with Utano pleasantly squirming on top of her. I lost the ability to speak, completely frozen on the spot. Everything's moving so fast, but for me, it's like the time has stopped. Utano leaned over Mother and told her she loves her more than life itself.
Mother noticed me immediately.
They both winced and covered their naked bodies momentarily. I noticed the tears on both of them sliding like a fall. They are intimate!!! They are making love!!? They made love - and I, I interrupted them. Even though I became aware of what I did, I still couldn't move any part of my body.
'Uta!'
I flinched only after Utano, standing up, called my name.
I started to run, not thinking about anything for the first few moments, only feeling the wind on my skin. The avalanche of anger arose in me like a sudden summer rainstorm. How could she lie?!! Utano knows what love is, yet still, she always pushed me away from Rin. She wasn't my support, I went alone through all of that so she wouldn't get hurt because of her trauma. She is a hypocrite - maintaining the love affair with Mother. All those stories about a broken heart, and what about the fact that she's still engaged in love with her. I was sorry for her, and she behaved like I was naive. She lied!!! She lied more than any false word I had ever said to her. How could she!! How did she dare!!? I'm sick of her. I don't want to see her for the rest of my life. Tears are flowing down like a stream. This whole time I was worried about her while she was hiding such a thing from me. Mother is her other half. When I asked her about it, she was silent. Of course, she was silent, she wouldn't encourage me to be happy - would she?! She is selfish!!!! Selfish!!! How could she! Where was her support when I needed it the most.
I only realized where I was running to when I found myself in the Great House. I need Rin - she's all I have. Gina appeared at the door of her quarters. 'Uta? Are you all right?' She's looking at me worriedly while stretching her hand to support me. I asked for Rin, but she wasn't here yet. Gina hugged me trying to say some comforting words, even though, from my brief explanation, she didn't know why exactly was I unhappy, just that it was some home problems. She ordered to bring me a calming tea, even offering me a cigarette - everything just to calm me down, at last for a bit. She started the story of records from the field she came to take, which was her clumsy attempt to linking this situation with mine. I think Gina's just trying to talk about anything, thinking that would make me forget my problems.
I feel weak, sorrow exhausting me.
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nbsp; Utano lied to me. She has made up thousands of reasons why I should stay away from Rin, instead of supporting me, acting as if she knows what she's talking about, and at some point I even thought it all happened to her, convincing myself that she was only protective over me. I don't understand. I simply don't understand her behaviour. She always acted like she is above us all, yet still being just a human, in flesh and blood, like the rest of us. She loves to be the centre of attention - behaving like that with Mother. Poor Mother drowns her sorrow in sake, and Utano had never even mentioned her. It must have been that she was afraid to be replaced as the centre of my world by Rin. How could someone be so selfish? And just when I think of that gold for my freedom, she knew there wasn't a place I can go to if she would've stayed. Maybe it all was just so I would be grateful to her. Of all the people here, she was the one to hurt me.
I'm not feeling well, I'm sick of this pain.
Leaving Gina's company, I went to the garden wanting to be alone with my thoughts.
Moon is high in the sky, but there's still no trace of Rin. Utano, my role model – dissipated like a cloud. I quietly walked through the garden, unable to stop imagining the scenes in which Utano was speaking to me about love in a negative context. I went down the stream path to the spot where I placed the stones in with Rin. I immersed my hand in the water to fetch the stone that caused our first touch.
Suddenly her hand touched my shoulder. 'Isn't it too late for arranging work?' I heard her soft voice from the back.
'Oh, Rin.' I turned to her with swollen eyes.
'Gina told me Utano made you sad. Try to understand her. She met me briefly - only once, it's normal for her to worry about it.' I just threw myself into her hug. 'What is it, sweetheart? She made you sad this much.' She held me, her arms firm like a stone.
'It's not that Rin. There's nothing to understand anymore. She, Utano -.' Tears weren't allowing me to finish the sentence. She held me, swinging us gently in an attempt to calm me. I was crying for a while, and she let the sadness take away every tear. We cuddled, she holding the lips on my skin, but not kissing, just keeping them for comfort. We stayed like that until instruments of entertainment became louder than sobs.
'When you're ready Yuna, I'm here.' Getting parted, I noticed a few girls peeking through the window along with their clients. They watched Rin and me in an unsuitable, secret interaction.
'Rin!' She flinched from my panic tone. 'Don't turn around, the whole event is watching us through the window. I just, I've ruined everything.' I was crying again.
'Yuna, I don't care about the event, nor gossips and clientele while I watch those little tears in your eyes. Anyhow, I wanted to stop with this pretending, we already discovered things of great significance.' She lowered her arms around my waist without paying attention to our observers.
'But the list, I haven't got it yet. I'm just one big misfortune.'
'Yuna, I don't want to hear you talk like that about yourself in front of me. Don't worry about the list, you've got it.' With a hand, she lifted my head.
'I didn't, what do you mean?'
'The client gave Gina a list as soon as she came, she told her it will be safer for her if Gina was to give it to you because it's difficult for her to control the sake intake. Well, she probably didn't see you, and got scared that she'd lose the list before she would meet with you.'
'And what now? That list.'
'Come on, let go of the list and this party. Nothing is more important than your heart. Let's go to my chambers. There I have everything I need to heal even the most hidden cracks of your heart.'
Coffee and a bowl of strawberries were on the table. Rin became nervous when she caught my gaze toward the detail of strawberries. 'You said this morning that you would like to eat them, so I send an order for them before I came, they are for you.' It was enough just to look at her, and my heart fluttered from happiness this wonderful woman brings to my life. Where is Utano now to tell me how Rin only exploits me? If this is exploitation, let it be until the rest of my life.
'Thank you, Rin. You didn't have to. You are very thoughtful - unlike someone who has the capacity for masterful acting.' My tone became angry.
'I would like for you to share the reason for your broken heart with me. If you don't want to talk about it, I will not force you - and when you're ready, I'll be here.' Of course, I want to share everything with her. I sat next to her on the futon, beginning with the story of entering the house silent as a grave. Just as I came to the stairs in my story, knocking on the massive wood came from the door. 'Please accept my apologies Yuna, it's certainly important, they know that nobody can bother me during events.'
Madam was at the door. 'I beg your pardon Respected lady, I wouldn't trouble you. Well, you know, I mean – it's important -.'
Rin became tense by impatience. 'Will you finish the sentence, or do I have to wait till dawn for you to gather your thoughts together?'
Madam made a step backward, moving closer to the door. 'The client asked. She is interested in buying, you see, so she just wanted to know?'
Rin was already quite upset. 'Well, will you get to the point and tell me what this is about?!'
Quietly, almost in a whisper Madam pronounced my name, and vein on Rin's neck swell as soon as she realized what Madam had said to her. 'What!!! That's why you came, don't you see she is mine?!!'
It would be better if she would've stayed silent, but she had the need to justify herself. 'I see, I see. The client said that it can also be some other night - if she's not unavailable now, that is - she is offering a considerable amount...'
Rin interrupted her, 'Are we talking in different languages!!! Nobody can buy her now nor tomorrow - not ever!' With each moment she's becoming more unpleasant to the woman who is only doing the job for which she is paid, I understand why Rin feels so provoked, but she's not thinking about that Madam is just an employee who doesn't know anything about us. I significantly squeezed her hand under the table. She took a deep breath. 'Thank you for the information, please just tell the client that Uta is not available - permanently.' Madam closed the door with a subtle smile. 'I'm sorry, please continue.' I couldn't help myself not to indicate on her behaviour with which she was frightening people. She stayed silent on the subject, pretending that this was irrelevant in front of the story she has been waiting for.
At one point, I caught myself sounding worse than her when she was spreading fear around herself - that's the extent of my provocation by Utano's behaviour. She listened carefully before getting up. Rin thoughtfully walked with a cigarette of thick smoke. 'Yuna.' She said my name taking the smoke than made a few steps before leaning against the window. 'I understand how you feel, I really do. Still, she is your sister - this situation certainly is not only black and white.' I tried to say something, but she interrupted me immediately. 'The truth is – it's not nice of her to hide such a secret from you... In fact, she could have kept that for herself, it's her privacy - but she didn't have to react the way she did when you asked her for that part of her life. I think you need to talk to her, you're so angry this way, and you're not even sure in what situation she really is with the Mother.'
'I'm not ready, not yet, I'm afraid I'll tell her things I would regret later. Maybe I'll never be ready.'
'It's not good to have such strict attitude. You never know - she is your sister, after all.' She tried to reason me.
'I want to see the files about her and Mother, Rin.'
'That's not a good idea. Yuna, it's private - I avoid looking at them without reason. These files are containing everything about the person, from the moment they stepped foot on Yoshiwara's grounds.'
'Please, I need to know.'
'What would you get out of these files?'
'I don't know, but I have a feeling I need to look at them. Please.' I looked at her, she was silent for a while, but I stayed determined.
'Fine.' She indulged my pleas going for the files while I nervously waited for her. She entered the
room slowly, as if she's hesitating, holding numerous sheets of paper divided into two files. She placed them down in front of me on the table then stepped to lit a cigarette at the window.
'Aren't you going to check them with me?'
'No Yuna, that's their privacy - I don't have a justified business reason to do that.' I can feel her - as if I'm forcing her to do something that's making her uncomfortable, but I have to know. Rin turned her head toward the garden, she didn't even want to look at me doing that. I opened the files of Utano.
'Hatsu Ishihara, female, 7 summers, admitted in house 24 ...
On the 15th summer, she goes to Mother's house, received in the female part of Yoshiwara, Hatsu Ishihara takes the name Utano, sister Utako ...
With the 18th summer sold at the ceremony for ..., the buyer Utako - sister ...'
My eyes swallowed the letters. I knew everything to the point that the buyer was Utako. I said aloud that she was bought by her sister. Rin didn't turn around still. I was very impatient to see what else is written in there, so I didn't await her reaction. Utano was either lying about her first night - or could it be that she really spent it with her sister, but how could her sister have that much gold collected??? I have to see the file of her sister now. I'm burning to find it all out.
"With 20 summers of life leaves Yoshiwara without permission, but returns in winter that same year, Mother is finding her in the male part of Yoshiwara ...
Report: Utano, 20 summers, attacked by an unknown perpetrator ...
'That was the night she met me when I accidentally saved her.'
'What night, Yuna?'