The Scottish Prisoner

by Diana Gabaldon

  "Oh, I think you'd do it," Harry assured him. "And so would Grey. It's just that Siverly's in Ireland. Might complicate matters, eh?"

  "Oh," said Hal, looking rather blank.

  "Why?" asked Grey, stopped in the act of pouring more coffee. "What's he doing there?"

  "Damned if I know. All Halloran said was that Siverly had asked for--and been granted--six months' leave to attend to personal matters."

  "He didn't resign his commission, though?" Grey leaned forward, anxious. He wasn't sure but thought a court-martial couldn't try someone who was not in the army. And going after Siverly in the civil courts would be a much more laborious undertaking.

  Harry shrugged. "Don't think so. Halloran only said he'd taken leave."

  "Well, then." Hal put down his dish in a decided manner and turned to his brother. "You'll just have to go to Ireland and bring him back."

  THE ARRIVAL OF the picquet party put paid to further discussion, and Grey found himself paired with Leo Clifford, a pleasant young captain who had recently joined the regiment. Clifford was no particular hand at cards, though, which left a good bit of Grey's mind free to brood on the recent conversation.

  "Go to Ireland and bring him back." He supposed he should be flattered that Hal trusted him to do such a thing, but he knew his brother well enough to know it was merely expectation and not compliment.

  Could you court-martial someone in absentia? he wondered. He'd have to ask Minnie. She had ferreted out records of court-martial for the crime of sodomy when their stepbrother, Percy Wainwright, had been arrested. The army had shipped Percy back to England from Germany to stand trial, so perhaps you couldn't try someone not physically present.

  "Repique," he said absently. Clifford sighed and wrote down the score.

  He'd got over Percy. Or at least he thought so, most of the time. Every now and then, though, he'd catch sight of a slender young man with dark curly hair, and his heart would jerk.

  It jerked now, a tiny bump at the sudden thought that it was the mention of Ireland, more than courts-martial, that had made him think of Percy. He'd arranged for Percy to escape to Ireland, though his erstwhile lover had made his way eventually to Rome. Surely he would have no reason to go back to Ireland ...?

  "Sixieme!" Clifford said, his voice full of joy. Grey smiled, despite the loss of points, gave the proper reply of "Not good," meaning his own hand could not beat that, and put Percy firmly out of mind.

  Harry had suggested that Grey and Hal might leave after the first game, but Grey was entirely aware that Harry knew this wouldn't happen. Hal was a cutthroat cardplayer, and once his blood was up, there was no dragging him away from the table. As picquet was a game for two hands, obviously Grey couldn't leave until Hal did, or the numbers would be unbalanced.

  They therefore played in pairs, changing partners after each game, the two men with the highest scores to play the final game. Grey did his best to put everything out of his mind but the play. He succeeded to such an extent that he was startled when his brother--now opposing him--stiffened in his seat, head turning sharply toward the door.

  There were voices raised in greeting in the outer room and the noise of several people coming in. In the midst of it, he caught the high, oddly prim voice of the Duke of Cumberland. He stared at Hal, who compressed his lips. Hal cordially disliked Cumberland--and vice versa--and the revelation that the duke was an intimate of Siverly's was unlikely to have improved this animus.

  Hal's eye met his, and Grey knew what his brother was thinking: it would be necessary to proceed with the utmost secrecy. If Cumberland caught wind of the matter before the court-martial could be organized, he might well plant his fat arse right in the middle of it.

  Then Grey caught the sound of another voice, deeper, gruff with age and tobacco, replying to something Cumberland had said.

  "Scheisse!" Hal said, making everyone look at him curiously.

  "Don't you say carte blanche if you have a hand with no points?" Clifford whispered, leaning over to Grey.

  "Yes, you do," Grey replied, narrowing his eyes at Hal. He felt like saying something much worse himself, but it wouldn't do to attract attention. Harry, on the other side of the room, had heard that voice, too, and pursed his lips, eyes fixed on his cards.

  Grey hadn't heard Reginald Twelvetrees's voice in some time, but he had vivid memories of it. Colonel Reginald Twelvetrees had headed a board of inquiry into the explosion of a cannon, two years before, and had come uncomfortably close to ruining Grey's career over it, out of the long-standing hostility that had existed between the Greys and the Twelvetrees family since Hal's duel with Nathaniel, the colonel's younger brother.

  "When do you say scheisse?" Clifford whispered.

  "When something untoward occurs," Grey whispered back, repressing an urge to laugh. "Septieme," he said aloud to his brother.

  "Not good," Hal growled, and tossed in his hand.

  5

  Why Am Not I at Peace?

  Helwater

  IT HADN'T BEEN A GOOD NIGHT. IT WASN'T GOING TO BE A good day.

  Hanks and Crusoe didn't look at him when they all made their way up to the house for breakfast. He'd been screaming in his sleep, then. A dull red flush burned up from his belly, radiating from a core of hot lead somewhere deep inside. He felt as though he'd swallowed a two-pound shot, fresh from the cannon's mouth.

  He'd dreamed, he knew that much. Had wakened before dawn, shaking and drenched with sweat. It had been a dream of Culloden, because all he recalled was the sickening feel of a sword driven into flesh, the momentary toughness just before the skin split, the yielding drive into muscle and the grate and jar of bone. The feeling still quivered in his left arm; he kept flexing his hand and wiping it against his thigh.

  He ate nothing but managed a mug of scalding tea the color of dirt. That soothed him, and so did the walk out to the farthest paddock, bridle in hand. The air was still chilly, but the lingering snow on the fells was melting; he could hear the voice of running water, coming down through the rocks. The bogs in the low ground--"mosses," the locals called them: White Moss, Threapland Moss, Leighton Moss--would all be greening now, the ground growing softer and more treacherous by the day.

  There was a long slender switch of fresh elder floating in the horse trough in the far paddock, though there were no trees of any kind within a quarter mile and no elders nearer than the manor house. Jamie muttered, "Christ," under his breath, and plucked the stem out, dripping. The dark resinous buds had begun to split, and crumpled leaves of a vivid light green keeked out.

  "He says to tell you the green branch will flower." He flung the branch over the fence. It wasn't the first. He'd found one laid across his path three days ago, when he'd brought his string in from exercise, and another yesterday, wedged into a cleft in the fence of the riding arena.

  He put his hands to his mouth and shouted, "NO!" in a voice that rang off the tumbled stones at the foot of the nearest fell. He didn't expect to be heard, let alone obeyed, but it relieved his feelings. Shaking his head, he caught the horse he'd come for and made his way back to the stable.

  Life had gone back to its accustomed rhythm since his meeting with Quinn, but the Irishman's pernicious influence lingered, in the form of bad dreams, as well as the mocking greenery.

  And then there was Betty. Coming up to the house for his tea--much needed, he having had neither breakfast nor elevenses--he saw the lass loitering about the gate to the kitchen garden. A lady's maid had no business to be there, but the flower beds were nearby, and she had a bouquet of daffodils in one hand. She raised these to her nose and gave him a provocative look over them. He meant to go by without acknowledgment, but she stepped into his path, playfully brushing the flowers across his chest.

  "They havena got any smell, have they?" he said, fending them off.

  "No, but they're so pretty, aren't they?"

  "If ye canna eat them, I'm no particularly inclined to admire them. Now, if ye--" He stopped abruptly, for sh
e had pressed into his hand a sprig of willow, with its long, fuzzy yellow catkins. A note was wrapped about the stem, secured with string.

  He handed it back to her without hesitation and walked up the path.

  "MacKenzie!"

  He knew it was a mistake to turn around, but ingrained courtesy had turned him before he could resist. "Mistress Betty?"

  "I'll tell." Her black eyes glittered, and her chin thrust out pugnaciously.

  "Aye, do," he said. "And I hope ye've a fine day for it." He turned his back on her but, on second thought, turned again.

  "Tell who what?" he demanded.

  She blinked at that. But then a sly look came into her eyes.

  "What do you think?" she said, and turned away in a flounce of skirts.

  He shook his head, trying to shake his wits into some semblance of order. Was the bloody woman talking about what he'd thought she was talking about?

  He'd assumed that she meant she'd tell Lord Dunsany that he'd been secretly meeting an Irish Jacobite on the fells. But looked at logically ... would she?

  Quinn was, after all, her brother-in-law. And presumably she liked the man well enough, or why carry his messages? Would she risk having him arrested?

  Was the note she had tried to give him from Quinn, in fact? He'd thought so, seeing the willow branchlet, but perhaps it was her own silly attempt at further seduction, in which case he'd just mortally offended her. He breathed heavily through his nose.

  Putting that aside ... it might cause Jamie a bit of bother if she mentioned his meeting Quinn, but if you came right down to it, the one advantage of his present position was that there really wasn't much anyone could do to make it worse. He was not Dunsany's prisoner; the baronet couldn't lock him up, put him in irons, feed him on bread and water, or flog him. The most Dunsany could do was to inform Lord John Grey.

  He snorted at the thought. He doubted that wee pervert could face him, after what had been said during their last meeting, let alone take issue with him over Quinn. Still, he felt a cramping in his middle at the thought of seeing Grey again and didn't want to think too much about why.

  At least there was cake for the servants' tea. He could smell its aroma, warm and yeasty, and his step quickened.

  IF HE DREAMED that night, he had the mercy of not remembering it. He kept a wary eye out, but no green branches lay across his path or fell from his clothes as he dressed. Perhaps Betty had told Quinn about his ungracious response to the proffered note and the man had given up.

  "Aye, that'll be the day," he muttered. He knew a number of Irishmen, and most of them persistent as saddle burrs. He also knew Quinn.

  Still, the day looked like an improvement over the last--at least until word came down from the house that Lady Isobel required a groom to drive her into the town. Hanks had fallen down the ladder this morning and broken his arm--or at least he said it was broken and retired, groaning, to the loft to await the attentions of the local horse leech--and Crusoe avoided the town, he having gotten into an altercation with a blacksmith's apprentice on his last visit that had left him with a flattened nose and two black eyes.

  "You go, MacKenzie," Crusoe said, pretending to be busy with a piece of harness in need of mending. "I'll take your string."

  "Aye, thanks." He felt pleased at the thought of getting off Helwater for a bit. Large as the estate was, the feeling that he could not leave if he wanted to chafed him. And it had been some months since he'd been to town; he looked forward to the journey, even if it involved Lady Isobel.

  Isobel Dunsany was not the horsewoman her sister, Geneva, had been. She was not precisely timid with horses, but she didn't like them, and the horses knew it. She didn't like Jamie, either, and he knew that fine well; she didn't hide it.

  Nay wonder about that, he thought, handing her up into the pony trap. If Geneva told her, she likely thinks I killed her sister. He rather thought Geneva had told Isobel about his visit to Geneva's room; the sisters had been close. Almost certainly she hadn't told Isobel that she'd brought him to her bed by means of blackmail, though.

  Isobel didn't look at him and jerked her elbow free of his grip the instant her foot touched the boards. That was nothing unusual--but today she turned her head suddenly, fixing him with an odd, piercing look before turning away, biting her lip.

  He got up beside her and twitched the reins over the pony's back, but was aware of her eyes burning a hole in his right shoulder.

  What burr's got under her saddle? he wondered. Had bloody Betty said something to her? Accused him, maybe, of interfering with her? Was that what the little besom had meant by "I'll tell"?

  The lines came to him suddenly, from a play by Congreve: Heav'n has no Rage, like Love to Hatred turn'd, / Nor Hell a Fury, like a Woman scorn'd. Damm it, he thought irritably. Was it not possible to refuse a woman's bed without her feeling scorned? Well ... possibly not. He had a sudden distant memory of Laoghaire MacKenzie and an ill wish, a bundle of herbs tied with colored thread. He shoved it aside.

  He'd read the Congreve play in Ardsmuir prison, over the course of several weekly dinners with Lord John Grey. Could still hear Grey declaim those lines, very dramatic.

  As you'll answer it, take heed

  This Slave commit no Violence upon

  Himself. I've been deceiv'd. The Publick Safety

  Requires he should be more confin'd; and none,

  No not the Princes self, permitted to

  Confer with him. I'll quit you to the King.

  Vile and ingrate! too late thou shalt repent

  The base Injustice thou hast done my Love:

  Yes, thou shalt know, spite of thy past Distress,

  And all those Ills which thou so long hast mourn'd;

  Heav'n has no Rage, like Love to Hatred turn'd,

  Nor Hell a Fury, like a Woman scorn'd.

  "What?" said Lady Isobel, rather rudely.

  "I beg your pardon, my lady?"

  "You snorted."

  "I beg your pardon, my lady."

  "Hmmph."

  Musick has Charms to sooth a savage Breast,

  To soften Rocks, or bend a knotted Oak.

  I've read, that things inanimate have mov'd,

  And, as with living Souls, have been inform'd,

  By Magick Numbers and persuasive Sound.

  What then am I? Am I more senseless grown

  Than Trees, or Flint? O force of constant Woe!

  'Tis not in Harmony to calm my Griefs.

  Anselmo sleeps, and is at Peace; last Night

  The silent Tomb receiv'd the good Old King;

  He and his Sorrows now are safely lodg'd

  Within its cold, but hospitable Bosom.

  Why am not I at Peace?

  He wondered whether music really did help. He could not himself distinguish one tune from another. Still, he was pleased to know that he could recall so much of the play and passed the rest of the journey pleasantly in reciting lines to himself, being careful not to snort.

  AT LADY ISOBEL'S DIRECTION, he deposited her at an imposing stone house, with instructions to come back in three hours. He nodded--she glowered at him; she thought him insolent, because he never tugged his forelock in the manner she thought proper deference (Be damned to her for a high-heided wee baggage, he thought, smiling pleasantly)--and drove to the square, where he could unhitch and water the pony.

  People looked at him, startled by his size and coloring, but then went about their own business and left him to his. He hadn't any money but enjoyed himself in strolling through the narrow streets, luxuriating in the feeling that--for however short a time--no one in the world knew exactly where he was. The day was bright, though cold, and the gardens had begun to bloom with snowdrops, tulips, and daffodils, blowing in the wind. The daffodils reminded him of Betty, but he was too much at peace with himself just now to be bothered.

  It was a small town, and he'd passed the house where he'd left Isobel several times. On the fourth passage, though, he glimpsed the wind-to
ssed feathers of her hat through a screen of thinly leaved bushes in the back garden. Surprised, he walked to the end of the street and went round the corner. From here, he had a clear view of the back garden, neat behind a black iron fence--and a very clear view of Lady Isobel, locked in passionate embrace with a gentleman.

  He ducked hastily out of sight before either of them should look up and made his way back to the square, nonplussed. Carefully casual inquiry among the loungers near the horse trough elicited the information that the house on Houghton Street with the black iron fence belonged to Mr. Wilberforce, a lawyer--and from the description of Mr. Wilberforce, it was indeed this gentleman who had been making love to Lady Isobel in his gazebo.

  That explained Isobel's manner, he thought: excited, but wary lest he discover her secret. She'd had a parcel under her arm, a taped packet of documents; no doubt she'd brought them to the lawyer, her father being ill. Lord Dunsany had had a bad winter, having taken a chill that turned to pleurisy, and Isobel had come often to the town during his sickness, presumably on the family's business. Whereupon ...

  Aye, well. Perhaps I'm none so worrit by what Betty might say to her ladyship.

  Whistling tunelessly through his teeth, he began leisurely to hitch up the pony.

  THERE WAS A NOTABLE LACK of green branches for the next few days, nay a squeak out of Betty, and he began to relax. Then on Thursday, a warm bright day, Lord Dunsany came down to the paddock where Jamie was shoveling manure, accompanied by old Nanny Elspeth with William in her arms.

  Lord Dunsany beckoned to the deeply suspicious nursemaid and waved to Jamie to approach. He did, his chest feeling tight, as though the air had suddenly grown too thick to breathe.

  "My lord," he said. He didn't bob his head, let alone knuckle his forehead or make any other physical sign of subservience, and he saw the nurse's mouth purse in disapproval. He gave her a straight, hard look and was pleased to see her rear back and glance away, sallow cheeks flushing.

  He was prey to the most extraordinary array of emotions. For the most part, he succeeded in keeping his thoughts of William strictly confined, though he thought of him every day. He seldom saw the child, and when he did, it was only as a glimpse of a woolly bundle in the arms of Nanny Elspeth or Peggy, the nursemaid, taking the air on one of the balconies. He had accustomed himself to thinking of William as a sort of small, glowing light in his mind, something like the flame of a wax candle lit before a saint's statue in a dark chapel. He couldn't afford such a candle, and wouldn't be allowed into the Helwater chapel, but liked to imagine himself lighting one when he said his prayers at night. He would watch the flame catch and swell, wavering a bit and then growing tall and still. He would go to sleep then and feel it burn, a peaceful watch fire in his heart.