Opposites Attract: The complete box set

by Higginson, Rachel

  A slow smile spread my lips into a taunting expression. “Are you afraid?”

  He moved closer so that our lips were actually touching. I stopped breathing in that second, stopped thinking… stopped being. It was only the two of us here at this moment. No kitchen. No competition. No world beyond us. “I’ve been afraid of you for as long as I can remember.”

  And then he kissed me. No more than the slow brush of his lips against mine. It wasn’t anything earth shattering. Or it shouldn’t have been. It was the briefest taste of his mouth. His tongue was there only enough to remind me that it had the power to undo me. To totally upend me.

  To ruin me for all other men.

  His hands grasped my waist, forcing me to acknowledge their presence and the intense way I liked them on me. His teeth scraped my bottom lip, pulling a breathy sound from the back of my throat. His scent filled my senses, making me dizzy with the headiness of him.

  I stopped caring about our rivalry and our history and the constant competition between us. I stopped worrying about my future and my life goals and just settled in this moment. This was what I wanted. This right here. Him.

  Wyatt.

  His touch and his taste and the wicked things I knew he would do to me.

  It had been too long for me and I was tired of feeling like I’d thrown away my one good chance at a committed relationship when I’d walked away from Nolan. I wanted to feel wanted. I needed to feel needed. I desperately desired to feel desired.

  Maybe Wyatt could make me feel all those good things and more.

  The problem was I still needed to be able to walk away from him when it was over.

  The back doorbell rang, snatching all my hasty, lust-filled choices out of my hands before I’d gotten the chance to make them. Because Wyatt was gone. The loud buzz broke the spell and he’d moved, striding across the kitchen like his feet were on fire.

  And I was left to slide off the counter into a puddle of confusion and abandoned desire.

  “What the hell was that?”

  There was no one there to answer. Wyatt was already outside.

  I knew he wouldn’t answer anyway. It was his mission in life to torture me. This was another level in our game.

  Meaning I shouldn’t let him corner me like this again. Now that rational thought had reentered my sex-starved brain, I knew I couldn’t let him win. But more importantly, I knew I wouldn’t be able to walk away if this happened a second time. At least not with my dignity still intact. I wouldn’t be able to push him away. Or deny him what he wanted.

  Or convince myself it wasn’t what I wanted.

  Because it was.

  Oh God, I wanted it badly.

  Thankfully, I was saved from abandoning all my best laid plans and recklessly throwing myself at him when the rest of our coworkers started trickling into the kitchen. We quickly got to work prepping food for the night after we suffered through our morning meeting and Wyatt’s drill sergeant like pep talk. He might as well have looked us all in the eye and said, “Don’t fuck up.” I knew he thought he was being motivational, but he was only succeeding if he wanted us motivated by fear of him killing us for messing something up.

  That was usually the impact he left after his hour-long power trip. But, I had his entire body plastered against mine only a little while ago and was too busy hyper-focusing on getting over that incredible feeling to worry about the consequences of well-done filet mignon. I felt bad for the rest of the crew though.

  By the time Dillon and I snagged a break close to opening, I was a sweaty, frustrated, horny mess.

  “You seem… out of it today. Are you okay?” she asked as we stepped outside into the cool spring breeze. The trees had just started to bud around the plaza, dotting the industrial brick and stone with brushstrokes of green and white. The sun was warm on my naked arms and my bandana covered head. It calmed some of my frantic nerves and soothed the riotous confusion inside me. I wanted to lay a blanket down and take a nap in the perfection of the day.

  Most of all I wanted to forget about the weird energy between Wyatt and me. The barely there kiss. The feel of him.

  The way I’d called him chef. Not like he was my boss. The word had spilled out of me as a gift. An offering. Worship.

  I turned to Dillon and debated what to tell her. “Vera’s letting me cook with her at Sarita Sunday nights. She’s… training me to take over.”

  Dillon’s mouth dropped open and I couldn’t help but laugh at her shocked expression. “No way!”

  I nodded, a gleeful smile taking over my face. “I know! It’s crazy. And so kind of her.”

  “How long has this been going on?”

  I shrugged, remembering my inspiring night waiting tables. “I’ve only done it once so far. I’m going again this week.”

  Some of our coworkers pushed through the door heading behind the building to smoke. Dillon leaned forward and dropped her voice. “Does Ezra know?”

  “No,” I confessed. “This is totally Vera’s idea. I’m not even sure Killian knows.”

  Her brows drew together. “He has to know. The whole staff at Sarita knows. I doubt they’d be able to keep that a secret.”

  “I’m not sure what they know. Vera said they’re happy to keep our secret because they will do anything to avoid another Juan Carlo scenario. Also, I’m sure they’re all terrified of Killian.”

  Dillon nodded. “As they should be.”

  “I’m not worried about him finding out though. It’s Ezra that I’m hoping to hide this from until I can at least apply for the position with confidence. Vera has promised to whip my tail into shape. Last Sunday, she made me take orders to familiarize myself with the food. She’ll probably have me bus tables this week, so I can really get in touch with Sarita’s soul.”

  Dillon laughed at my sarcasm. “No, she didn’t.”

  “She did. I swear it.”

  “You’re like the Karate Kid!”

  I snorted. “That’s exactly what I said!”

  “Still, that’s amazing. The job is for sure yours.” Her pretty face fell. “And then I’ll be stuck here. By myself. Working for the devil. While all my friends run restaurants of their very own.”

  “Yeah, but not forever,” I reminded her. “Plus, there’s no guarantee that I’ll even get Sarita. Ezra has never hired a female chef before. I’m the first female sous chef in the harem and only by default thanks to seniority.”

  “Not true,” she protested. “You deserved your position. Killian’s the one that appointed you in the first place. Not even Wyatt could deny you that accolade.” She folded her arms across her chest and hugged her body, staring at her feet. “I don’t think Ezra has intentionally only hired men. Unfortunately, I think there are more male candidates to choose from.”

  That was true. Women were definitely the minority in fine dining kitchens and often left their positions to have families. Kitchen hours were the absolute worst where kids were involved. And because of that, women had to fight harder than anyone to make it in this already cutthroat industry.

  “You’re probably right,” I agreed with her. “But that doesn’t make the interview any less daunting.” Her lips pressed into a frown. “I don’t think your brother is sexist by the way.” And I didn’t. Maybe naively unaware that his kitchens were dominated by men. But as far as I could tell, Ezra disdained all sexes and people equally. He was an equal opportunity snob.

  “Vera!” Dillon blurted, pointing her finger in the air.

  I blinked at my friend and her sudden emotional one-eighty. “What?”

  “He offered Bianca to Vera!”

  This was news to me—I only barely kept my jaw from dropping. “He did what?”

  Dillon waved at the general area of where the food truck used to be. “When she had Foodie, and he was dealing with all the drama at Bianca, he offered her the position. But she turned him down because of Killian and Salt.”

  Hope soared in my chest, creating more hope and new hope and a li
ght at the end of this tunnel. “That’s good news.”

  “Right?”

  We were silent for a few seconds before I said in genuine confusion, “I can’t believe she turned him down.”

  Dillon’s eyes bugged. “Me either! I guess she only wanted to work with Killian.”

  Neither of us could grasp a love like that. A love that inspired loyalty and the desire to work together.

  I thought about Wyatt. Not that I loved him. Or would ever even like him. But the sexy kiss had put him in my head and it was impossible not to hold him up next to Killian.

  Vera loved Killian enough to abandon her food truck and go into business with her boyfriend, now fiancé. I couldn’t help but cringe in anxiety for her. That could end so badly.

  What if their restaurant ruined their marriage?

  Or worse, what if their marriage ruined their restaurant?

  Killian had a reputation that could save him. Maybe. But what about Vera? She was risking everything on the miniscule chance that her marriage wouldn’t end in divorce and her business partnership wouldn’t end in bitter hatred.

  It was too much.

  Wyatt was one of the best chefs I knew. We didn’t even have a friendship to jeopardize, but I still wouldn’t risk my future, my business… my reputation on him.

  “It’s not my restaurant.” Vera’s words danced through my head and I partly understood her motivation.

  Salt was hers. Salt was her home. Killian was worth the risk to have that feeling. And if I had to guess, she felt something similar for Killian.

  Maybe I would never know something like that with a man, but I was bound and determined to have that with a kitchen.

  “That girl is crazy,” I said, referring to Vera. Dillon made a sound that was half laugh, half agreeing. I looked at her out of the corner of my eye and took a steading breath. “Do you think I have a chance with Ezra? Do you think it’s possible he’ll consider me?”

  She dug her toe into the ground and kicked at a chunk of pavement. Burying her chin in her lifted shoulder, she made another noncommittal noise. “I don’t know my brother’s mind. As close as we are, he can still be a mystery. I think he’ll give you a chance though.” Her head lifted, and she met my gaze, braving the possibility of disappointing me. “He’s fair, Ky. And he wants the absolute best for his restaurants. To like a psychotic degree.” The door pushed open behind her and Wyatt stepped outside just as Dillon finished saying, “If you’re the best thing for him, then you have absolutely nothing to worry about.”

  Wyatt’s feet came to a screeching halt and his knuckles turned white where he held open the heavy side door of Lilou. Dillon’s words landed like landmines around us, falling with the heaviness of a waiting explosion.

  God, why couldn’t I be a smoker? They congregated at the back of the building, where there was privacy. Where our boss didn’t walk into a conversation he had no business hearing.

  Instead, I had to hang out here, where the air was clear of lung cancer but strongly lacking in distance to the door. Damn.

  To his credit, Wyatt didn’t say anything. Instead, he glared at me until my insides started to melt.

  “Hey, Wyatt,” Dillon said, breaking the awkward tension boiling between us. “What’s up?”

  He didn’t take his eyes off me. “Are you planning on working tonight? Or are you going to hang out here until your shift’s over?”

  I attempted to swallow, but my throat had dried out to a husk and I couldn’t manage it. “Here,” I decided. It seemed like a better option than walking back inside. “I’m going to hang out here all night.”

  His sneer hit me right in the gut, and a deep swell of panic and insecurity washed over me. I wanted to crawl into a hole and hide. I wanted to walk away from this restaurant and never look back. I wanted to… I wanted to feel nothing whenever Wyatt was involved.

  That was my biggest issue with him. He made me feel more than any other person on the planet. When he disapproved of something I did, it killed me. When he got irritated with me, it made me want to cry. When he approved of something I did, my spirit soared. When he touched me, I burned. When he kissed me, I exploded.

  My emotions were not neutral toward him. I was all over the place. With every other person I could remain nonchalant, totally unaffected no matter their opinion of me. At the very least I could defer to sarcasm without wanting to cry or run away.

  Wyatt brought every single feeling out of me. All at once. I didn’t want to care about him or what he thought. Yet, here I stood, a buzzing, flailing ball of feeling. If Dillon wasn’t here, I probably would have jumped the poor man and picked up right where he’d left off earlier—meaning more kisses. So many more kisses.

  I was also contemplating punching him in the kidneys.

  It was really anyone’s guess what I would do. But the indecision inside me was concerning.

  He turned his glare on Dillon. “Can I have a minute with Kaya?”

  She crossed her arms and glared back. “That depends. Are you going to be mean?”

  His jaw ticked, and I had to fight to swallow again. Only for entirely different reasons. Damn that jaw.

  Damn this boy.

  “I’m never mean to Kaya.”

  Dillon rolled her eyes, and the confused, over-emotional crazy person inside me threw her hands in the air and cheered for good friends. “Please.”

  Wyatt’s jaw ticked again. “Go inside, Dillon. I need to have a conversation with my sous chef.”

  She pointed a finger at him. “Be nice.”

  His hands dropped to his waist and he glared at the ground until she’d walked past him and disappeared in the building again.

  “Am I in trouble?” My voice had more courage than I felt, but I was thankful for the bravado.

  His head lifted slowly, his eyes finding mine from behind thick lashes. “You shouldn’t let her set you up. I’ve heard stories about the guys she dates. They’re losers.”

  His words made zero sense to me. I blinked at him and tried to put them in the right order. Was he having a stroke? “What?”

  “Listen, you’re better than that. You deserve more than club rats.”

  My heart kicked in my chest and I struggled to catch my breath. Was that a compliment? But I didn’t know what to say. Or why he was giving me dating advice. I should have said thank you and walked back inside. That’s what I should have done. But like all the times before with Wyatt, for whatever stupid reason, I ended up blurting the truth. “I, uh, she’s not setting me up with anyone.”

  His eyes narrowed. “I thought I heard you ask her to.”

  Belatedly I remembered that I had asked her to hook me up not that long ago. Crap. But had I even been serious? I didn’t have the time or energy for blind dates and meaningless hookups. Honestly, a night out with one of Dillon’s friends sounded exhausting. Best to move this along. “You must have misheard. Uh, what did you want to talk to me about?”

  He remained silent long enough that I wondered if he forgot what he’d wanted to talk to me about. Finally, he said, “There’s a chance that Rebecca Jones will stop by tonight.”

  “Whoa.” Rebecca Jones was a food critic in Durham. Lilou had been reviewed by plenty of notable critics while Killian was here and considering the magazines and professionals and acclaimed critics that had reviewed before, Rebecca Jones wasn’t that big of a deal. But for Wyatt, she was the most notable critic to dine at Lilou under his new regime.

  This was a good sign for him. People wanted to check him out, see if he had the chops it took to handle Lilou.

  He shrugged. “It’s not for sure. But just in case, I, uh, I need you to be extra on top of things tonight.”

  Noticing the redness to his eyes and the several days of stubble covering his face, it was easy to see that he still wasn’t sleeping. Unable to help myself, I leaned forward and brushed my thumb over his cheekbone. He leaned into my touch, his eyes fluttering closed.

  I had the strongest urge to kiss his
closed eyelid. My heart squeezed with the need to soothe some of his exhaustion, the burden stress and perfection had dropped on his shoulders. He was too calm like this, too sweet. This wasn’t the dictator I’d come to resent in the kitchen, this was a softer, more insecure version of him. A version that made me all squishy inside and prone to make bad decisions.

  When I realized what I was doing, I dropped my hand. His eyes opened, and my heart kicked again at how tired he looked. Maybe that was what the kiss was about earlier—sleep deprivation.

  “Are you still not sleeping?” I asked gently.

  He shook his head. “I think I’m still acclimating.”

  “You must be doing something right. Rebecca Jones is coming tonight. The city of Durham will soon know you can handle the shit out of this kitchen.”

  I had been hoping for a smile and I got one. “Yeah, or the opposite.”

  Rolling my eyes, I moved to walk past him. “Don’t worry, I’ll babysit you tonight so that doesn’t happen.”

  His arm shot out, wrapping around the front of me. “Thank you,” he murmured near my ear.

  We heard the smokers returning at the same time. His arm dropped immediately, and I ducked inside before anyone caught us talking innocently and not at all suspiciously outside.

  I looked for a surface to bang my forehead against until my rapidly beating heart and rushing blood returned to normal but settled on prep work and hours of chopping instead.

  Get your shit together, Kaya. Or you’re going to end up as red-eyed and glitchy as Wyatt.

  And I did not have time for that right now.

  I had an executive chef to babysit and a different restaurant to take over.

  It was hard to focus after all that had happened between us today. By the time I got home after a grueling fifteen-hour shift and a successful night of impressing Rebecca Jones—or at least I hoped we had— I wasn’t even surprised to find a text message from Wyatt. I might have even been expecting one.

  Thanks for taking care of me tonight.

  I smiled at the typed words, imagining that they were said with no small amount of reluctance. Are you embarrassed by how much you need me? I asked him.