Angels - the Judith's secret
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There is something that the detective Clóvis said that I will never forget, that a cold sun has cold planets, and a hot sun has its planets hot. It is an obvious metaphor, but today I know how much a different energy can change the world around us.
I sold my house and my car and got the money to reopen the store.
I got my father out of the rest home and brought him to live with my family. He had doubted of my venture, but, when he saw the success of the opening of the store and the number of customers that the establishment had right on the first month, he was excited. Since he didn’t forget the friendships he created at the rest home, he conciliated the time helping Matheus with his experienced business advices and his walk up to the old home to see his friends and take care of his tomato plant.
Matheus showed a great agility as manager, despite of being young. He understands well the grandpa’s advices and has a notable view on how to attract more customers. I had my self-esteem high when I saw my son walking around at the church square holding hands with Eva, the Mayor’s daughter. But let me be clear that now I only have eyes to my beloved Madalena, the woman of my life.
Madalena was not prepared for these changes, particularly so sudden. Our conversations were important so that I could show her the need to fight for a better life and look at life with less skepticism. Little by little, she broke her barriers and became a great ally. She learned how to balance her meal, lost weight and did as I was doing: I feel much better now that my belly is gone!
Maria see me more as a friend than as a father; and I do everything I can to help her clearing the confusions at the beginning of adolescence.
Gabriel is my fan. He loves when we hang out on the porch gazing at the sky and tell him stories about constellations, planets, lunar phases and things I learned on the mythology book.
After hearing the Beatles tape that reproduced the discussion between the priest and the detective, I went to the church square and gave it to Jonas, the Chief of Police, that together with other professionals analyzed the tape. They concluded that it was a premeditated suicide, that detective Clóvis tried at all costs to avoid it. And the case was closed as such.
The reporters started leaving town right after they got the information that they should broadcast, until everything calmed down and Rio Vermelho went back to what it was.
A new priest came to replace temporarily the suicide priest, but he is in town for two years now.
Analyzing the behavior of human beings, I got to the conclusion that we try to live as if we were the only ones and that there is no one else like us in the world, but in reality, everything repeats itself. Everything is the same. For generations the human beings copy human beings. The worst of all is finding out that this doesn't takes us anywhere, or nearly nowhere.
Thinking this way, I really changed myself, accepting the truth that I am made out of dirt and the only difference is that God gifted me with the conscience of seeing other things.
Meditating about the fundamental values of life, I slowly created a new philosophy, perfecting my personality that, before, I believed to be perfect and that now I knew was so full of imperfections. This transformation was so clear that many people saw the differences and acknowledged my recent qualities. That is so true that I received an invitation to run as a candidate on the next elections by a political party... and I accepted it.
I learned to do my part to ease the suffering of the others. I started walking more, to observe better the nature, to hear what people had to say. I was true without needing to talk much, without making promises and propaganda, because my actions are more important than fake simulations.
This way I got the absolute majority of votes of a population so tired of promises and inadequate projects. I won the elections for the mayor of Rio Vermelho.
And, as the Mayor, I will increase the work I started even before running for mayor, and I will include a Cultural Center to stimulate popular art, I will pave several streets, I will provide professionalizing courses and grant assistance to the poor families in my community. Oh! I will, also, built a smaller speed bump for the church square and others.
I will hold office on January; and, God willing, will save some money to fix my Variant.
The detective Clóvis’ angels were fundamental to my intellectual growth. Sorry, my angels were fundamental and crucial so that I could put my mind in order. It was unbelievable when I started hearing myself, studying myself, rediscovering me; and worst than this is when I started watching my mental behavior, distinguishing who was the bad angel and who was my soul. It was sad to learn that the bad angel controlled most part of my thoughts, manipulating my life almost completely.
That is why I stopped acting as a pessimist, procrastinator and critical.
More: I, now, have the habit of reading.
My intention was to transform books into teachers for my soul, once I would be enriching my weak vocabulary to understand better the texts and, who knows, later, prepare an autobiography. Not that I intend to be immortal, far from this, but I thought it would be nice to publish how the weird detective showed up in town to solve a murder and was able to, maybe unintentionally, heal the evil of my soul.
Maybe it will not be a huge success as the books from great authors. Maybe it is not accepted by the market and never exceeds the first edition. But I will be happy if it works as a “push” to those that, eventually, read it. My objective will be the search of sensibility, philosophy and reflection, and, also, wonder those who love a good reading. The important thing, in my opinion, will be the opportunity of showing that it is possible to make things right when you learn to question your own actions, not only of the present as of the past, no matter how hard this may be.
And as long as I don’t feel really capable of creating something extraordinary, I will write poetic essays and I will be merciful so that the remainder of my life be as significant as possible, putting inside me this abundant essence brought by the wisdom that God spread on Earth.
Well, I will allow my mind to travel on ideas about how to write my story, and I will be here sitting on the service area, resting my eyes on a good mythology book, contemplating a wonderful yellow and golden sunset…
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