by E. M. Bernal
A slight sigh came out of my breath. “Come in…” I opened the door all the way to show him to the couch.
“Do you want some water or something?”
“No, please sit down.” He said with a serious tone.
“Robert…” I said as I sat down on my sofa.
“No, let me start.” He interrupted.
“Yes, I’m in love with you but that is not what this is about.”
I stayed straight faced sitting close to him.
“I am not really as normal as you think I am.” Robert said without making sense.
“What, what do you mean?”
“I am not like other guys. And, I know you are not like other girls.”
“Robert, you’re confusing me.”
“I know.” Robert said straightening out his posture to start again.
“I believe we belong together but not the way you think.”
I didn’t know what to say but I became curious when he said, were not like other guys and girls.
“Are you stalking me Robert?” I responded, not knowing what else to say.
“No, that is not it.” Robert tried to continue.
“Why don’t you tell her what you really mean then.” A harsh and jealous tone came from the background. We both turned around and there stood Ren’s image on the stairway. I couldn’t have imagined he was talking to Robert but right when that crossed my mind….
“Why don’t you tell her what I mean?” Robert answered him and stood up from the couch.
“WAIT! What the hell is going on?” I yelled out, not really knowing what I was asking and was afraid to find out because I could not believe what I was seeing or hearing.
“Tell her what you mean. Go on. You were about to when I wasn’t here.” Ren said but still didn’t give Robert room to finish.
“He lied to you Veracity; he’s a Necromancer.” Ren’s energy became so solid, his white smoke didn’t appear at all, but I couldn’t understand what was going on, or why Robert could see him.
“What the hell is a Necromancer? And, lied to me about what?” I asked with severe confusion.
Robert turned to me.
“Do you love him Veracity? Do you really love someone you could never be with?”
“Don’t change the subject! Tell me what a Nacromancer is and what did you lie about?”
“I’m what humans would consider a warlock. But, I knew you had powers too all along.” Robert finally answered upset.
“Why didn’t you tell me you knew, and you knew about Ren too?”
“He hid his energy from me, so I didn’t know who you were with, but I figured it out and I don’t want you to do anything stupid.”
“Her loving me is not stupid… but lying to her is.” Ren decided to interrupt.
“And, you. What about your lies? You say you love her, knowing she can never have a real life with you?”
“That is up to her!”
“You don’t love anything but yourself, you are not a part of our world. You had no right to come into her life when I could have given her one.”
I stood there shocked at the conversation. So shocked it was hard for me to ask any questions. “STOP! Just stop!” I was so confused that anxiety started to shoot up my veins and for some reason, what made it worse, is that I could hear both their hearts beating at the same time.
“I want both of you to go.”
“Veracity?” They simultaneously asked.
NO, go! Please just go.” I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I felt like this is was trick or something.
Ren vanished and Robert looked at me with sadness and anger. He then suddenly traveled to the door in less than a second, letting the wind come in unexpectedly before I could blink. When I did, he was gone. I had never seen him use his powers before, and I was in absolute uncertainty why this was happening to me.
My life just got a little crazier than it already was, how is this possible?
DATING REN
Diary 15
I laid down that night with sadness in my eyes, but no tears came crashing down. All the unanswered questions running through my mind made me feel pain. Yet, I didn’t want to ask Robert or Ren why, or how.
I was clearly upset, but not in an angry way. I just didn’t understand how both of them came into my life at the same time. And did they know each other without telling me? How did Robert know I was with a ghost? What kind of powers does he have and what is he? Last but not least, how did Ren know he could see him?
It was troubling, but most of all, why did I feel an instant love for Ren more than I ever did for Robert? The mystical world was a mysterious and complex place, I guess. But I did not have the brain power to figure it out tonight.
I continued to lay there in dismay, hoping to fall into a deep sleep. The night finally fell. I turned to my side with my pillow, allowing the moon to greet me when it went pitch dark and no more thoughts came.
*******
The sun came blaring down on my eyes. I blinked a few times before I fully opened them. Ren was sitting on the edge of my bed but facing my side window. I still felt confused and didn’t know if I was ready to talk, but I didn’t want him to leave either. And, in all honesty, I wanted to talk to Robert too. This was a good time to let Ren know what I was going to do.
“Hey…” I softly said as I rose up from my laying position.
Ren wasn’t facing me yet and he didn’t turn either when I spoke to him. I could feel his energy not as vibrant as it usually was.
“Hey…” He finally responded back.
We went silent for a few seconds. I decided to get up and put my hair in a bun. I went to the bathroom to go wash up. When I came out he was still sitting there silent. I couldn’t hear what he was thinking because ghost can block our mind reading abilities, but I knew whatever it was, it wasn’t good.
I sat on the edge of the bed next to him.
“I won’t take up much of your time.” He said as he immediately rose.
“Ren, there is nothing going on between me and Robert.”
“You obviously have feelings for him.”
“I do care for him but not the way I feel for you.”
I understood Ren’s concern, but Robert is just a friend, I thought, but I wasn’t going to try to convince him either.
“How do you know him?” I asked. It was time for my curiosity to be answered.
“I don’t. I just knew there was another energy source around you. I felt it when my energy surrounded yours in the room.” Ren stated with discomfort.
I didn’t realize how strong Robert’s energy was, but we can all obviously read each other’s energy with these powers. They say it’s a gift but I’m starting to think these powers are a curse.
“When I saw you sitting next to him, I knew he was someone you cared about and if you want to be with him…”
“Ren, stop. I love you. I want to be with you.”
“But, your ex is right. He can give you a real life. I never can.”
“He’s not my ex. And… it’s my choice how I want to live my life. Not yours, not Robert’s.” I responded with some sarcasm.
Ren stayed silent not knowing what to say.
“Do you want me to leave you alone?” He questioned again with insecurities running through the room.
I looked up at him and immediately shook my head to imply no. That was something I didn’t hesitate about, or question. I wanted to be with him but on my terms. We still had a lot to sort out.
“Listen, I do have to talk to him because I want more answers.” I stated with a soft but sure voice.
“Okay. I won’t’ stop you, even though I rather he just be out of your life.” Ren tried to agree sarcastically.
“It’s just to talk.” I responded, hoping to clear his concern.
Ren touched me on my cheek and generated his energy with a strong vibe that came across the room to lean over and kiss me, but then…
“VERACITY!” Unity’s voice suddenly vibrated up th
e stairwell, yelling my name, interrupting the kiss.
Me and Ren’s eyes met. “I’ll get with you tonight at the garden.”
“What?” Ren questioned with confusion.
“Tonight, let’s have our first date, okay? But for now, you have to go.”
I stood up to hug him, but he stayed straight faced. He eventually nodded with a sigh and drifted into white smoke.
“Coming Mom!”
She was just checking if I was home. I showed my face but made no attempt to have a conversation. I just wanted to be alone in my room until it was time to go to the garden and show Ren what I could do.
******
The evening went by very quickly. I felt somewhat somber, but I knew that everything would work out. It was just a matter of time. I had to face that I was in love. It felt intense and even with an unsure future or certainty, it just didn’t matter. I know the future is supposed to matter, but it felt good to just live in the present for once. I was finally feeling something that wasn’t suicidal thoughts. And, I didn’t want anything to ruin that for me and Ren. So, I couldn’t let Robert or Unity effect my decisions.
I needed to get ready. I threw on my flat black combat boots with black shorts, and a hoodie. I wanted to wear clothes that made me feel relaxed. But, I kept my hair down to keep my promise of change. I grabbed my earphones, keys and cell to head out. I started scrolling through my music to find something uplifting. I decided on The Weekend. He always had some rebellious thing to say and I needed to get some motivation.
Before I put my car in reverse, I needed to send a telepathic message for Ren to meet me at 6 pm.
When I arrived there were a couple of kids in the garden having their own date, so I started walking down the quite dirt and rocky path, towards the lake to find him alone. A filter of white smoke surrounded me as I walked past the purple flowers. I smiled as the smoke seductively shifted around me. “Show yourself Ren.” I demanded with my smile.
“Okay. I’m here.” Ren appeared and immediately grabbed my hands. We hugged and almost kissed, but he interrupted with a suggestion.
“Where do you want to go?” I asked.
“Where can we go?” He asked.
“I’m going to leave my body here.” I instructed with a smile.
“Is this a good idea?” He questioned.
“Yes.” I answered to assure him I wasn’t afraid.
“The garden has an electric magnetic field; it will signal us if anything happens he said.”
“What do you mean? Something can happen to it?” I became a little more fearful.
“No, you’re safe.” He assured.
We smiled with a warm embrace and started to look for a place to lay my body. It was getting dark and the spot we picked seemed safe. It was behind a thick large-bark tree. Ren sat next to me while I put my earphones down, along with my cell phone in my pocket. We held hands and closed our eyes as our energy shifted together. The song With Ur Love was next on the list and started blaring out of the earphones. I didn’t realize it was still playing because when I’m with Ren, my thoughts get so centered around his energy that everything else become oblivious.
“What are you listening to?” Ren asked before my energy shifted all the way out of my body.
I was able to answer him but telepathically. “With Ur Love, by Cheryl Lloyd.” “Who?” He asked. “Never mind, let me concentrate.” The music got louder and penetrated in my ears.
When my eyes opened, Ren and I were holding each other face to face, but we were surrounded by the night sky and the stars. There was no ground, no trees, no earth, but white clouds were in patterns everywhere which were embraced by bright twinkles from the stars. I realized we were floating in the night sky. It felt like a rush came over me while the song was still playing in my ears. I started lip singing to him to let him know that he tears my walls down every time. He smiled back as if he already knew.
“Nice lyrics.” He responded but only to get closer to my lips and embrace me in a kiss. The world started spinning in slow motion with the stars glazing through their bright shimmer. It was amazingly romantic. I didn’t want it to stop but Ren pulled back and asked me to close my eyes again.
“Okay, open them baby.”
I was suddenly standing on top of a castle. It almost resembled the Cinderella castle at Disney Land, overlooking a vast green landscape underneath the night sky that was so beautiful. I could feel the ground and touch the varnished gray/white stone on top of the tower. My eyes grazed over each section in slight shock of the green pasture and pink flowery trees that had a hint of blue/ green. The moon scattered magnificently over the sight. It was breath taking.
“OMG! Where are we Ren?” I asked in amazement.
“We are South of Germany near the Alps. It’s an old castle that used to be owned by a king name Ludwig. Beautiful isn’t it?”
“Words can’t describe.” I responded.
“Not like you though.”
“Me, how not?” I said jokingly.
“You’re not just beautiful… you’re breathtaking.” Ren said, pulling in close to me by the edge of the tower and suddenly whispered in my ear, “I love you Veracity.”
The feeling was overwhelming but this time it felt right. “I love you more than you know Ren.”
“Okay, where to next?” Ren asked.
“Anywhere as long as it’s with you.” I assured.
I wasn’t ready to leave the castle, but Ren wasn’t done showing me the world I think.
“Perfect, let’s try London. Concentrate. Hold me tight.” Ren demanded with a kind but sexy voice.
When Ren grabbed me, his silly came out. He snapped his fingers like a magician, and we now were on top of The Tower of London. It also had the beautiful image of a castle. To my surprise Ren knew a lot about history and explained to me in detail about the palace. I was thoroughly impressed. I laughed pretending I was a queen, and he was my king.
“We need to get going my queen.” Ren ended the history lesson that was complimented with a affectionate hugs.
“Where to next my king?”
“Let’s hit Belize baby!”
“Hey! Kings don’t talk like that!” We both laughed and somehow ended up by a beautiful ocean that had huts laying in the sand near a long-boarded walkway. The ocean was so clear you could see through the pastel blue. We were near the water standing on the sand. I didn’t bother asking where we were. I just wanted to jump in. I wonder if it was cold or hot. I wonder if I could feel it.
“Can we get in?”
“Yes. This is the Island of Belize. The water here is not cold, but you don’t have to feel it even if it was. You’re pure energy right now.” He tried to stop me before we jumped in. I looked back at him when I realized my clothes were still on.
“Will my clothes feel wet?” I was still uncertain how energy works in the non-physical world.
“No, you can take them off.”
“How???”
“Picture it. Use your powers City.” So, I decided to get naked. I never knew a man could be shocked and happy all at the same time.
“Whooh! Whooh!” You can leave your undergarments on.” Ren was trying not to blush, staring at me, telling me to get dressed without really closing his eyes.
I snapped my fingers to redress in my undergarments. He lunged at me, drifting in the water. It splashed against our skin and it felt so real. But was it?
As we held each other in the water, my legs were wrapped around his hips, and he held onto mine with his hands. We laughed and giggled while we kissed in between. I couldn’t get enough of him.
“Okay, we don’t have to leave this place.” I blurted out as I was wrapped around him. My chin against his shoulder.
“You know, if it wasn’t for you, my energy would have disintegrated.”
“What, I thought energy couldn’t die?” I asked sarcastically.
“Energy can be eliminated, there are powers that can do it. Either that or reincarn
ate, which I don’t ever want to do. Especially now that I found you.”
“I’m happy when I’m with you. I’m just sad that we can’t do anything together in real life.”
“Don’t say that Veracity. I don’t want to think of that now.”
“I know, I’m sorry.”
“I wish you could just be here with me in eternity.”
“Sometimes I do want to get out of here and be with you. It’s really difficult trying to be extroverted when I’m introverted on a suicidal level.”
“Veracity, I’m not asking you to do that.”
“I know it’s crazy, but this has nothing to do with you. I have a mother who ignores me for a man who hates me.”
“You said she is getting better though.”
“True, I do feel more content but if she ever goes back or hurts herself for him, I don’t’ know if I could keep going here.
“Well, let’s not think like that. I will be here for you always.” Ren tried to reassure me as usual.
“I believe we have officially become Romeo and Juliet.” I tried to break the tension with a joke. “Well, I would have to be human first, so you can’t be the only one to go.” We both laughed and hugged.
“One more place or home?” Ren asked.
“It is getting late. I don’t want to get to bed too late.” I said with some sadness.