In Love : Once & Forever
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days ended, our Friendship will sail in our oceans of life forever.
Then In each day, the affection from my mother increased by 2 to the power n times where n is the number of days that went close to my counselling date.
She pleaded God to do some miracles such that, I should study Engineering as well as should remain with her.
All the preparation for my counselling is over. My cousin and the three of us gathered at a bus stop to take the bus for our counselling.
22.A WINDOW-SEAT:
Cool breeze makes me feel something weird. I feel like it is carrying me away into another world of dead eternity. Then I hardly come back to reality and realise that I am still living. That is what I have yearned for. To me sitting near the window in the bus is a delightful thing and thus I often wait for hours to get a window seat. Sitting on that seat I would be thinking about some of the happy moments of my life.
I thought about my college life. It felt like I had been on the same bus that I took four years before for my counselling. Now it is hard for me to realise that my college life travelled so fast and it seems that it ended even before the bus I took had reached its place. Now I feel that I am missing my college life as much as I thought of missing my school life four years ago. I thought about those moments. Those happy moments teardrops began to fall on my eyes. I started looking back on those days. Every moment came before my eyes. The days of counselling, my first day in the college, our Farewell day, etc.…
It was the day of my counselling. We three along with my cousin brother (my mother made him to come in order to assist me) entered the counselling hall.
I always yearned to join the course and college she would join. I was not interested in the courses and colleges. In those days to make me an engineer was my parents’ dream and my dream was something different than that. I dreamt to love her, my only aim that filled my heart was to marry my girl…
In the counselling hall, it was hard for me to guess the course and college she would be joining. It was the most complicated thing in the world and I was never confused for anything like that. Then at last I took the college and course suggested by my cousin.
Though the college name sounded familiar, I doubted that there were only few chances for her to choose that same college in the counselling. I chose the computer engineering for that was the course that most girls did chose. Might because computers mostly did what their velvet hands wanted, which some other machines (Mechanical engineering) denied.
Yet my heart weighed when I thought about “How I was going to survive in the college if she wasn’t there.”
After the counselling I saw my mother controlling the tears that were about to flow. The tears arouse because of the combined effect of ecstasy and pain; the ecstasy, that her dream had come true at the same time, there was pain induced in her because I had to go a distance from her.
Then we went to my college to begin the first day. In the college there was a huge crowd formed by the students, their parents, their relatives and their relatives. Yes, all the relatives and friends who would be coming to the marriage eve were present on that occasion.
After paying my huge college and hostel fees, we went to the room allotted to me. In our college, three students shared a room and I was the first one to reach my room. My mother cleaned my room and advised me to take the cot near the windows. She knew very well that I always found great joy in looking on to the outside world through the windows. After doing all these they went and bought me all the necessary things that I needed…
My father, who carried his lucky trunk all the way, at last kept that in my closet.
Then it was the time for my parents to leave me on my way like an eagle leaving its eaglet on its way after it had learned to survive by itself. They went on their way, saying goodbye to me for at least three times before they reached the gate of my college. During the third time while saying goodbye my mother’s voice went cold and I understood she was crying. During the first day in my school I cried on seeing my parents leaving me and during the time they left me in the college, it was their turn.
23.IN (-) FORMAL INTRODUCTIONS:
When we introduced ourselves for the first time, our professors asked about the aim of our life. My only aim during that time was to marry my girl but I thought it would be embarrassing to say that. So I said my aim was to become a scientist. Saying it was easier for everyone mostly for the ones who didn’t wish for it. Then I came to my place and sat
My roommate introduced himself by saying his name as “Sakthi Praveen”. When he was asked about his aim he said
“My only aim in my life is to marry a girl whom I love the most”. Whole class first laughed and everyone clapped their hands for his aim as it was most of ours’ unsaid aim too.
I should not have said my aim as a scientist because it gave me a nerdy look. Everyone after that started to ask some of the subjects’ related doubts.
I really yearned that my girl should be studying in the same college. I knew it was too stupid to think like that since it was a quite an impossible thing that could happen. Fate didn’t work as we wish; if it had then our life would not have been this much interesting.
I searched her for some time in all the places of my college as much as possible. I returned in the half way leaving some search incomplete for the next day. Because it was hard for me to bear that I was going to miss the chance of being near her for at least four years. So, I decided to divide the pain for a few days.
I would search for some time in one day and I would leave for my room with a hope and complacence that I hadn’t fully searched her, so she might be in some other place …
During the first week, Sakthi and I decided to go to the gym and build our body by reducing our tummy size. Most of our friends had already begun calling us as ‘Fatso’.
All of our friends advised us to not to go to the gym because there were chances for us to get caught by the seniors. However, Sakthi and I were oblivious to their advices and went to the gym.
We first went to a shoulder workout section. There stood a short and lean boy watching us keenly. We thought him to be gym boy, so Sakthi asked him to fetch a 6kg dumbbell. That boy grinned and asked whether we were first years or not. We nodded our heads as first year students.
He told, “I am a mechanical department student.”
“Oh! Sorry, we thought you to be a gym boy, anyway pleased to meet you,” I said and stretched my hands for a handshake.
“I am in third year, your senior” he said and we sighed.
. They took us straight to their rooms and after that they played the music and made us to perform to everything starting from a circus jester to an actor, a swimmer in land, etc. We escaped because most of the others were our department seniors, who were comedians and they didn’t even know how to rag a new student.
After that, we ceased to go to the gym as we got the confidence that, our mess food would automatically take care of reducing our tummy.
24.HARD TO SHOW AS WELL AS TO HIDE:
At first, we had a few problems with room sharing such to as our cot position, table position, etc. But, those problem settled by themselves. In college, I met various kinds of friends. One of the most humorous was Sathyan my other roommate. He woke up only at 8’o clock by the time everyone would be busy with going to the college. As soon as he wakes up his immediate question would be,
“What is the today’s breakfast in the mess da?”
Sakthi would say “Idli da” his immediate answer will be
“Will anyone eat that food? I really wonder how you people are eating it.”
After saying this he would get up from his bed and he would leave his room. He would go straight to the mess. In the mess we could see at least 10 Idlis stacked on his plate…
We mocked each other by identifying everyone’s weakness. During those rough hours, I saved Sakthi and he supported me while I mocked others. According to the rules of mocking, when one was affronting your friend by saying some cracks over him, you should not laugh. If your friend was affronting the others, then you should laugh or at least pretend to laugh as though nothing funnier than that joke was ever cracked.
If we were silent during the time when the others were mocking at us, then they would double the mocking. In addition, if you oppose then it would multiply in quadruples.
Our classes’ strength ratio decreased and attendance in the canteen increased as time went. With her thoughts in my heart, I wasn’t really interested in providing sweet eye to the girls. I met many beautiful girls. In fact, even my class contained one girl and she was next to me in our attendance order. They used that chance, linked her with me and they shut my mouth at every possible time using this. I thought for a week and asked help from Sakthi. He told that I had no other choice than saying,
“She is like a sister to me.”
I thought about that and I said as he said, they ceased linking me to her. I felt relief after that. But that was a great failure as after that everyone started to call me “brother-in-law.”
I understood the toughest job in the world was to be a brother to a beautiful sister. As they worsened, I said she was no