this topic began. He was keen on listening to it. And at last he wished me best of luck offering a job.
I found a job. I have thought of this day many times before, but this day wasn’t like the one I thought of. Some things wouldn’t be happening like we think. Certain things happen to signify the importance that human mind and thoughts still hold certain limitations.
34.TIME FOR THE BIRDS TO LEAVE THE SANCTUARY:
Even thinking of this day, will have a question,
“Why this day should have come?” Because if it hadn’t come then our college days would never have ended, it was our Farewell day. All my friends were speechless. Our heart spoke everything, which were unendurable to hear even by ourselves. They us asked one question,
“Will you in your life journey, ever find another enchanting encampment like this?”
The dream that filled everyone’s eyes
The stories that were said under the trees
The time that was spent in the benches
The treats that were kept and borrowed
The hostel food that reminded the missing of mother’s food
The gazes of the beautiful ones that made
Our loved ones to be forgotten in seconds
The results that came proportional to the movies
Those were seen before the nights of the exams
The heroic acts that ended up in great comedies
The cakes that were bought only to waste
The bumps that were given on the birthday eve
The demise of some dear ones and our sobbing for their departure
The innocent proposals and the paining humiliations
These were happenings
But, today these all are memories
The tear drops that runs down the cheeks
When we think of those moments
While we travel lonesome in the window-seat of a bus
In one or more ways
All these were beautiful college days.
As the bus reached my place, I wiped out the tears that fell near my cheeks while getting down from the bus. After that all I felt was that all my happy days have ended at last; because she is silent to my proposal so mostly she won’t be accepting me, if she had loved me then she would have immediately contacted me. But she didn’t.
I don’t know for how many days I am going to think and yearn for her, nevertheless, now not only trying to forget her but also thinking like that has become an impossible thing.
I at least used to console my heart by saying that,
“Believe me, today she may not be yours but tomorrow surely she will be yours” in my college days.
To the cruelty, even the college days have ended, though we might not have achieved our dream during those days of our college, we wouldn’t have worried about those since we had the thought that,
“Tomorrow is there to accomplish our dreams, so be happy today.”
As I reached home, I became worried about all those things and I became uninterested in anything. My father and mother understood the unusual of being of me. My mother came near me and asked, “Do you love someone?”
One of the most difficult phases of love was confessing it with our parents.
I said “Yes” to him.
“Does she love you back?” this time my father asked the question.
“I don’t know”, I said to them and explained my full love story to them, though my father first couldn’t accept that, he accepted it later. And then he said “Do not worry about anything, you will be surely getting her as your wife, I will make all the arrangements for them”.
“You just show the moon, I will make it to float forever in your sky,” my mother displayed her crystal clear love for me.
My heart that was close to become still, started to oscillate after it became aware that my parents are also in its side.
“You always made us happy by earning pride. And we would do anything to make our prince live his happy life”, they continued.
The moment my parents said consent to my love I felt that they are the perfect and the best parents in this world. I don’t know how many parents in this world will give the same feeling to their sons/daughters. But they gave it to me and this will be the best legacy a parent can give his son. I wished to be a good parent, just like them someday.
During the whole night I slept in my mother’s lap with the thought that,
“If I could get her, then I would be the perfect and the happiest man on this planet because I have got: an affectionate mother, caring father and my lovable dream girl with me”.
She is the most important thing to me. She is the most indispensable one of my life. I am ready to do anything in my life for her.
If I had followed her in all the way she went, might she turned back and loved me. If I had done her something in such a way that by looking at it she might have felt so touched, she might have understood and love me. If I had written some impeccable love poems and gifted her, she might have admired and loved me. If I have become a great rock star and said all those things happened because of her, she might have understood my unselfish love towards her and loved me.
Have I ever done one of these things or have I even tried one of them? No never… then one might ask me, being like this how can I expect that she might also love me? But let me ask one thing
“Did she ever do any of these things to me?” Perfectly no… then how did I love her?
The answer to all of them was that,
“Love just happens. It should happen by itself. If it doesn’t then we can never make it happen … it intensifies itself when we miss our loved ones…”
If the things that we never got are always priceless,
If the things that we never bought are always precious,
If we always like to be near to the one, who went far
If we crazily love the ones whom we miss the most, then
It doesn’t matter that she has gone far and I miss her a lot
Even if I am the one who misses her a lot,
Then I am the one who is happy about that
Because I feel that I miss her, only to love her more
I know what I feel is a quiet sort of craziness
But only those who love someone will know
How beautiful are the feelings of mine, because
In one or more ways all the ones
Who love someone are crazies.
I miss her to the utmost of my life; likewise, she too would be missing me if she loves me. If she did not then, missing me will have made her realise the love she may be possessing for me. If it didn’t then anything wouldn’t.
If she never felt the love towards me by herself then neither I nor anyone could ever make her to realise her love for me.
With this thought I lived another year beautifully. We, the college friends, met less in number of times than the number of times we assured of meeting each other. We got together less, even lesser than the number of times we spoke of it before.
I thought of proposing her by seeing her directly, but I postponed it every time being afraid of her answer to it.
35.WHITE MOUSE:
I am afraid. My heart is filled with some apprehensive thoughts; I hear her screaming with pain. When I go near and ask her, “Are you alright,” all she says is a YES. She is trying hard to give me a smile, in spite of the pain she is going through. Soon, the doctor arrived and I got out of the room.
Since from the day she has conceived, I have been taking care of all her activities. We have visited this hospital more than required (our doctor is a little worried with my obsession towards this).
My mother was unable to understand that why I was very much concerned over this. When I explained my worries regarding it, she gave me the confidence explaining how simple it was and not as hard as I think.
The doctor
s have been working inside now. Unwillingly, I try to peep into the room; later I recognise what I am doing and step back.
Our love, since from the day we married has been increasing proportionately. We both just love each other while the miracles revolve around us to see the miracle of a true love. Every time, I see her I wonder how I struggled to marry her. I still remember the difficult yet lovely phases in my life: the days I waited for her favourable reply; the days I proposed her; the days I thought of proposing her; the days I loved her so much. She was an angel to me during those days and since then my love never changed, instead it increased by the passage of day, she is still an angel to me.
Now, I count every minute restlessly.
Then I thought about the day she whispered in my ears with her exquisite eyes, and her whitish face brimmed with the demure happiness that she is pregnant. I can never easily explain how I felt in simple words. The thing is that it can never be explained merely with words. It is splendid in the way happened and nothing more. Tears stagnated in the corner of my eyes, which I could realise, yet couldn’t control.
How could I? When I heard that my white mouse is going to become a mother, I wished that let my milky mouse shall give me another white mouse of a daughter closely like her, since I missed all of her childhood days. It is a golden chance for me to live them.
Then my mother took care of her daughter-in-law. She never let her do the household work. Though it had another reason, that she was not satisfied by the way she does the work.
I explained my wish to beget a daughter to my mother. However, she didn’t care much about it. I know she was hoping for a boy, in the resemblance of me. My girl was also on her side. But my father is on my side as he has a clear knowledge that if it happens
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