Beautiful Dangerous Love- Teen Sampler

by Alicia Kat Dillman

1

  Into the Bunny Hole

  “Smell that?” Mack asked, his eyes shining bright.

  Tracy took a sniff of the hot summer air. She smelled the usual: popcorn, soft pretzels, cotton candy, ice cream, hot dogs and sweat. She shrugged. “Someone burned the hot dogs. Big deal.”

  “That’s not hot dogs,” Mack sang. He darted toward the kiddy rides, letting the crowd pass through him. Mack never paid attention to anything in his way. Tracy sometimes told him off for doing that, but a part of her admired his ability to experience everything he wanted. She admired him even more for being able to ignore the rest.

  Tracy sniffed the air again. It definitely smelled like burnt meat, but there was something different about it, something familiar. Memories pricked the back of her neck as images flashed in her mind.

  She remembered the flames grabbing the ceiling, like fingers trying to claw their way out of the House of Horrors. Thick, dark smoke choked her. Skinny eleven-year-old Mack felt so heavy as she desperately pulled his limp body along the wall. Why didn’t the emergency doors have a lit sign over them? Why couldn’t she feel the bars that went across to push them open? She remembered coughing, gasping for air. She remembered her heart beating faster and faster.

  And then she realized what the smell was.

  Mack was right. It wasn’t the smell of burnt hot dogs. It was the smell of death.

  “Oh, God...” Tracy ran after Mack, but she weaved between the people. She hated walking through anything, though it didn’t hurt. It didn’t feel like anything at all, which was the worst part of it. It was a reminder that she was nothing. She had no real body, no life. She was as empty as the air.

  She quickly glanced at the Ye Olde Photographs booth. It was shut. Halley—the one living person Tracy could talk to—wasn’t there. Tracy was on her own.

  Racing through the park felt like stepping through a surreal painting and finding herself in a place on the other side that was perfectly normal, though it had no right to be. People walked at their usual pace, laughing and chatting, sipping giant cups of cola, biting into soft pretzels, reading maps of the Amazing Lands Theme Park, and checking out flyers with a list of the day’s scheduled events. Where was the panic? With the smell of death in the air, shouldn’t there be panic? Shouldn’t people be shouting? Shouldn’t there be sirens?

  But then she remembered the last two times people had died in the park. The smell came first, though now it was much more intense. Perhaps there was some way she could prevent this death from happening. Where the hell was that smell coming from? Mack knew. He always knew. If she followed him, he would lead her straight to it. She went through the brightly painted gates to Fairy-Tale Fun Land and spotted Mack by the line for Beatrice’s Bunny Hole. When he saw Tracy, he smiled and pointed at a little girl.

  Oh, God, no. The little girl couldn’t have been more than six. Her hair was long, curly and brown. A smile spread across her little face. She playfully tugged her mother’s hand... and she reeked of death. Life just wasn’t fair. Why did it have to be such a little kid? Why should kids ever have to die?

  Mack grinned. “Fresh meat.”

  “I want to go on the bunny ride,” the little girl said, her voice high and sweeter than cotton candy.

  Her mother sighed. “All right, all right.”

  “No!” Tracy screamed.

  Mack laughed.

  The child’s mother looked red and green at the same time. Tracy guessed she had already had too much of the sun and of the park for one day.

  “You can go on the ride,” the child’s mother said. “I’ll wait for you on the bench over there by the entrance.”

  Beatrice’s Bunny Hole was a kiddy ride. Even toddlers went on it. How could such a tame ride kill this beautiful little girl? And then Tracy realized exactly what was going to happen.

  “Please, don’t let her get on that ride!” she screamed hysterically into the mother’s ear. “Please, please, please. It’s dark in there. She’s going to get scared, and she’s going to try to get off, and when she does she’s going to get caught in the mechanism that pulls the cars forward! Please, if you let her on that ride alone, she’s going to die. Please, you don’t want to let that happen. Please, please, please, don’t let her die!”

  Mack laughed again. “Tracy, you idiot, she can’t hear you.”

  Tracy shot Mack a dirty look.

  “Okay.” Mack shrugged. “Be my guest, but you are just wasting your breath. Or you would be if you had any.” He grinned.

  God, Tracy thought, I hate when he does that! Being dead is one big joke to him! But now was not the time for another of their many arguments. She continued to beg the child’s mother and tried to grab the little girl. Tracy’s fingers slipped through the girl’s tiny shoulder, over and over, as Tracy knew they would. The girl seemed apprehensive as she stepped into the bright yellow bunny car with its big, baby-blue eyes. She looked at her mother but didn’t say a word.

  “Have a good time,” said the little girl’s mother with a smile and a wave.

  “Please, stop her!” Tracy screamed into the woman’s ear. “She’s going to be killed! Don’t you understand that? Please. Oh God, oh God, oh God...”

  The smell of death went with the little girl into Beatrice’s Bunny Hole. The line of cars stopped for the next passengers. The little girl was probably just behind the cute bunny-hole door, with its painted wooden boards, flower garland and the sign that read, “Beetris Bunee’s Howz,” with the Bs and the Z backward. The little girl was so close, and yet there was nothing Tracy could do to help her now.

  Tracy turned away, bent over, and squeezed her eyes shut. She felt like she was going to throw up. Although her body was just an illusion—a figment of her own imagination—it still trembled. She put one hand down on the concrete path to steady herself as she sat down.

  “You coming?” Mack asked. “Should be a great show.”

  “You’re sick,” Tracy spat out at him.

  “You think it’s terminal?” He laughed and put one arm all the way up to his shoulder through the bunny ride’s wall.

  Tracy shot him another dirty look. He shrugged again.

  “You don’t know what you’ll be missing,” he said before disappearing into the ride completely.

  Tracy hugged her knees to her chest. She didn’t wipe the tears from her cheeks. There were too many of them, and they were still coming. She felt helpless and useless. She couldn’t save Mack then, and couldn’t save the little girl now. She couldn’t even save herself.

  Her nose was running, so she blew it on the sleeve of the gauzy white costume she had worn when she had worked in the House of Horrors: a poncho-type thing with frayed ends that reached the knees of her jeans.

  She took another sniff in the air. The smell of death was still close to her side, very close and very strong. It didn’t make any sense. The little girl was on the ride, and the smell had gone with her. Ghosts didn’t smell like death. The smell could only come from someone who was still alive and about to die. Maybe the little girl had got out. Maybe...

  Tracy looked up with a spark of hope. But the little girl wasn’t there. Instead Tracy saw the next two people in line.

  They were what the girls at her high school would have called “a cute couple.”

  The girl had her hand around the boy’s waist, but he didn’t seem too happy about it. If anything, he seemed embarrassed. There was a hint of a blush on his face, and he struggled to keep his smile. The right side of his mouth held the pretense, but the left side curved downward. The smell of death was coming from him. The teenage girl’s Day-Glo pink halter-top was too small, and she had a very short denim skirt. She hopped into the next bunny car—one in a shade of pink that clashed with the pink of the halter-top—and patted the place on the seat beside her.

  “I can’t believe you chose a kiddy ride,” he said, running his fingers through his thick, brown hair.

  “You and me alone in
the dark?” The girl smiled. “Trust me—this isn’t going to be a kiddy ride.”

  Yuck! Tracy tried to shake the girl’s words out of her head and leaned in close to the boy’s ear.

  “Look, I know you can’t see me,” she said, tears streaming down her cheeks. “And I know you probably can’t hear me, but maybe somehow I can get you to feel what I’m feeling. If you get on this ride, you are going to die. You have to listen to me! If you get on this ride, you are going to die. If you...”

  The boy stepped through Tracy into the pink bunny car and lowered the safety bar. Tracy put her hands on the part of the bunny car door that was the pink bunny’s ear and moved alongside it.

  “Please,” she said. The boy looked straight ahead at the door to the ride, oblivious to her. “Please, stop this. Tell the ride attendant you want to get off. Tell the ride attendant...!”

  The pink bunny car went through the door. Tracy pulled her hands away when she realized she had partly gone through the wall. What could she do now? She didn’t want to go into the ride. She didn’t want to be there when it happened, didn’t want to see the skin and flesh shredded by the gears, didn’t want to hear the screams, didn’t want to even think about it. But she couldn’t walk away either. Confusion froze her feet to the concrete. She didn’t know what to do.

  Parents and small children continued to wait in line, as if everything was normal. The little girl’s mother sat on the frog-shaped bench and fanned herself with a park map. She stared at the ride’s exit door and waited. And waited. And waited. Time seemed to slow for Tracy. If only it would stop. Then maybe the little girl and the boy who was half of the cute couple would be okay.

  But time didn’t stop.

  After two more cars entered Beatrice’s Bunny Hole, Tracy heard the faint sound of screams coming from inside, barely audible above the loud, obscenely happy music. The ride attendant—a pimply-faced teen with a long face and a blank expression—didn’t notice. When the entrance door opened for the next car, the screams were a little louder. Again the ride attendant didn’t notice. The exit door opened. A car with a man and a little boy came out. The little boy was crying. The man screamed, “Turn the ride off! Turn the ride off! There’s a kid on the tracks!”

  The ride attendant took half a minute to react. He turned the key that shut the ride down and opened the exit door. Adults with screaming kids in their arms and by their sides spewed out of the ride. The surge of people pressed the attendant against the wall. Most of the children and many of the adults were in tears. The girl in the pink halter-top burst through the exit door screaming and screaming and screaming. The blood splattered across her neck and bare shoulders told her story better than words.

  Tracy looked at the ground. She didn’t want to see it, didn’t want to know.

  “I’m a paramedic,” someone said. “Are you hurt?”

  “He’s dead! Oh, my god! Oh, my god! He’s dead! First that little girl... and then.... Oh, my god, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe...”

  I can’t breathe.

  The girl in the pink halter-top was screaming it, but Tracy felt it too. Air. She needed air. No, wait, too much air, too much breathing—she was hyperventilating. She had to get away, but her feet would not budge. She sat on the ground, put her face to her knees, covered her head with her hands, and gasped. The voices continued around her.

  “What happened? Are you okay?”

  “We’re fine, but it was awful.”

  “Bill! Bill! Where are you? I need to find my husband and my son! Have you seen—?”

  “Caitlyn! Oh, thank God, you’re okay!”

  “Where’s my baby?! My baby! My baby was on the ride, and she didn’t come out! Where’s my baby?!”

  People ran through Tracy on their way in and out of Beatrice’s Bunny Hole. The ride attendant phoned security. Then he threw up. A wail of sirens soon joined the screams. Time raced.

  Come on, Tracy, breathe. Just breathe. Slowly.

  She closed her eyes and raised her head. She didn’t have to be here. She was a ghost. She didn’t have to experience anything she didn’t want to experience. Between gasps she ordered herself to calm down. Little by little she began to take slow deep breaths, in through her nose and out through her mouth. They weren’t a real nose and mouth anyway, she reminded herself. She didn’t have lungs, didn’t need air. It was all in her imagination. And she could imagine it away.

  People continued to rush through her, but Tracy ignored the flashing of the sunlight and shadows on her closed eyelids, ignored the screams and the panic. She let her consciousness slip away from the scene, let it blur until it faded into nothingness.

  She was in the ghost world now. Here everything was silent and still, and nothing real could touch her. Although there was nothing to see, Tracy kept her eyes shut. The darkness was comforting, like a soft blanket on a cool night.

  The only illusion she held onto was her body. Letting go of that was difficult, like stepping off a high diving board when she couldn’t see the water below, like riding on a roller coaster with nothing under her feet. It was a freefall into the unknown. Her body was what she knew, even if it was no longer real. It was familiar, and it felt safe. Everything around her was quiet and peaceful and still. She was alone in her world. Completely alone.

  Then Tracy felt something hit her in the chest, and she returned to the Amazing Lands Theme Park with a scream.