Desensitizer

by Kaero Davis

  Enter Scenario

  “A little give means a little take, a requirement in forming bonds that may benefit how both parties see fit. Faith and trust go a long way and again has its benefits. Honour too. There are a lot of sell-outs out there who will benefit (as they may believe) by betrayal. But there is some amount of loyalty between those and who they’re betraying for. I myself think any kind of betrayal is hardly a benefit at all – not when you don’t know half as much as you think you do about the one you betray – nor those you do it for. There are many things people keep to themselves and of course the more you can be trusted – the more fruitful the privileges. To be trusted with particular privileges means a great honour – and the better your reputation. Who really wants to be friends with anyone that betrays or sells you out? Fuck that not me. I would sooner take secrets to the grave than break the bond of loyalty I require with my mates. Secrets bury with me. What people tell me, stays completely confidential between us and always will. Life or death, and I only pray mine do with others. This piece was inspired by the making of connections with a leap of faith. People who know me know I’m a reliable resource to either keeping things quiet, or in some way or another a solid back-up, alibi or watchful eye. And a peacekeeper of sorts. I try to avoid asking too many questions – making certain to retain some level of innocence but, am quick to a tactical defence to whichever the case may be. Again, for whatever loyalty I privilege another with, I can only hope to receive the same. And it will. A good lot of my friendship will only map out – measure out some, likewise for myself. I’m a very recognisable guy. You could pick me from out of a crowd – I make an impression, I stand out – I impact on others on a scale I’m often unaware of – so it’d be silly for me – stupid really, for me to draw an unnecessary, unwanted attention on myself. And it’s for that sole reason – I like to keep the appearance that I’m behaving myself … sometimes…” – Theine.

  Loyalty

  Lies can and may contort,

  But I’ll trust we’ll keep an accord,

  Safely deliver and have reward,

  Just don’t fall on your sword,

  Keep it from sight and free of their minds,

  Difficult to seek and hard to find,

  Erase all traces left behind,

  Keep them blind for all time,

  Show me your faith is worth the keep,

  Show me what your loyalty means,

  Leave the dogs all to their sleep,

  Say you never got it from me,

  Disrupt all possibility,

  With plausible deniability,

  Allegations ridiculing,

  Obscurities overruling,

  Should suspicions be aroused,

  And a search is sent out,

  Bite your tongue, shut your mouth,

  And all will be grouse,

  Show me your faith is worth the keep,

  Show me what your loyalty means,

  Leave the dogs to their sleep,

  Say you never got it from me,

  Exit Scenario

  “If it’s sensitive information or something the law will easily be offended by then you can count on the whole ‘loose lips sink ships’ phrase being incredibly as accurate. There are always going to be people out there with their nose out of joint over particular things, sticks up their arses that they often attempt to be heroes and ‘poke their noses in’ to disrupt whatever operation you might have going on. They tend to invoke the use of law enforcement to rid what they can’t handle others doing out of discomfort or some other self-propelling motive to conspire. All over the world there are people trading in secrecy but more often than not – those who’ve been doing that ‘whatever’ for so long, soon builds a necessity for that ‘whatever’ – and for many various reasons why the need is as important for the use of it than those that incriminate each time the whistle is blown. Sometimes it isn’t just a desire – it’s an obligatory requirement. The world has shown me it’s quickly becoming an ‘everyman for himself’ situation, not too many are looking out for everybody else – just keeping to their own herd or flock, and god help you if you go against them and stand out differently. God help you for being a free-thinker and not conforming where common-sense lacks – or rather god help you for having common sense when its rarely ever seen as much as it used to be. When you can’t afford to have setbacks you’ve gotta watch your step and never leave open any chance of unravelling, that you can’t often unfuck yourself depending on the degree of the unwanted attention. When you know you can’t trust your brother/ neighbour, you limit how much you let them in on unless you’re highly capable of having the link fail if you do. When you can’t trust the loyalty of another – you can’t afford to involve yourself with them too often, you need a good judgement of character – and most times you can never know. They say everyman has his price.” – Theine.

  Enter Scenario

  “I’m tired o’ scrapin’ the breadline – I wanna be rich! Filthy fuckin’ rich, don’t wanna be broke anymore but pay my bills and debts, and not just live comfortably but satisfactorily. Happily. Tired o’ not havin’ anything, I wanna have it all – what’s the point o’ fuckin’ sharin’ when ya got fuck all? Gonna set me mind to it and achieve big time. Work this mind and employ the full extent o’ me talents. Manipulate me skills to pursue all the more I’ve ever wanted, more than I’ve never had. Knock out all who challenge me and flaunt how fuckin’ good I am. I’ll get myself out there yet- and that world had better just be prepared – I got a lot to say and I’m gonna start with this…” – Euzopherias.

  MegaLife

  Go big, go loud, and go proud,

  Can’t do it once you’re in the ground,

  You only live once so why the fuck not?

  Get out there and give it all you got,

  I want a MEGALIFE,

  I wanna make it mine,

  Wanna tweak and trick it up,

  And not give a flying fuck,

  No more steppin’ eggshells,

  I’m goin’ out to excel,

  Gonna make me a big man,

  Gonna be the man,

  Keep the path for me clear,

  I’m at the wheel and closing near,

  Quick! Get the fuck outta my way,

  Motherfucker MOVE! This is my day,

  Yeah - I’m gonna win this race,

  Fly kick fuckers in the face,

  Well, anyone that tries stand in my way,

  Is gonna have a nasty aftertaste,

  I wanna great big MEGALIFE,

  This bitch is gonna be mine,

  Gonna tweak it, trick it the fuck up,

  And never give a flyin’ fuck…

  Exit Scenario

  “And I’m not ever gonna give up, give in or throw it all away. I have the drive, the want – the ambition, and damn it I’m gonna give it all I’ve got, give it my best, give it my all. I’ll show those fucker’s who told me otherwise and all those who never had the faith in me. I’ll strike it rich and I’ll say – look at me now you fucks! I’ll show ’em. I’ll have mine and I won’t be the stupid idiot they all thought of me once. I’ll fix ’em, I’m gonna have it all…” – Euzopherias.

  Enter Scenario

  “In becoming one. When embraced, locked to another, two opposites synchronise and become one. It’s as though there is a kind of magic in the works – dualities fuze, and on occasion one may feel heartbeats between both lovers are working in unison. It’s rare to feel, in saying, it’s not too common the connection you have can make you feel as close to another someone that you are one single being. It is a beautiful phenomenon, such love and emotion you share can quite literally be felt through vibrations on an almost psychic level. Shit, just go ahead call it a psychic level, I say it doesn’t happen too often because a great deal of the time, neither of the two partners may be (a
t the time) working harmoniously. It can’t be felt all of the time. We know we can feel sympathy pains say – when we are close enough to a pregnant and expecting spouse. Men can feel bouts of pain where his partner does at times so, what does that tell you? We must meld together and combine at times but when that infant child is born – you’ve got a living proof right there two people can. A piece of both mother and father. Back to the point however, as ecstatic as love-making and sex is, special factors are at play. Many varying characteristics determine what depths – what extents, what lengths such pleasures may graduate to.” – Arrathenahk.

  Melding

  Get down on your darkness,

  And suck my light,

  Taste my charisma,

  It’ll tickle your insides bright,

  Let me fondle on your evil,

  Kiss away your inhibitions,

  Souls entwining, weaving lethal,

  Bliss all out for exhibit,

  I’ll sensitize your lust tender,

  With a passion and love so hot,

  Stroke your sexy slenders,

  Frictioning electricity, tingling each spot,

  I’ll open your malice gingerly, gently,

  And tongue it into ecstasy,

  You release all you’re relenting,

  And nothing better pleasures me,

  Halo’s on the hatstand,

  Horns arise to play,

  Chemical fusion of woman and man,

  Honey you’ve made my day,

  Molest away at my innocence,

  Make me beg for pain,

  Caress me with your influence,

  Have me scream your name,

  You rock me with all of your design,

  Erotic, exotic, intense and insane,

  I erupt and blow my mind,

  And know I’ll never find another the same,

  Exit Scenario

  “It can be as simple as uttering the right formulation of words at the right time in the right tones and pitch of the voice, method of execution can be key. Right time, right place, right someone. It is somewhat of a chemical fusion in ways, a sort of science – but everybody is different. Different gestures work differently for different people. You’re probably best having some sort of idea of pet likes and dislikes of others. You may not necessarily have a physical attraction, but it can help. So long as there are other characteristics that attract either lover within each other, like how a clever and cunning articulation of your desire, may result as you’d hoped to achieve. It could mean anything out of the usual norm or something perhaps you’re new to, perhaps even something you’re a touch uncomfortable with – but something still your partner may enjoy for example – role-playing, bondage, etcetera. You may even have to step outside your own character – if only for a short period of time, you might like it. Try something else on.” – Arrathenahk.

  Enter Scenario

  “I have absolutely no idea why a government might prohibit a plant that does so many wonders, a plant surprisingly prohibited when it’s sedating effects are well within a safe proportional scale of outcome. You’d think a government would want a society to comply tightly with the law it governs with as minimal rebellion against what the government stands for or stands to do. Who’s going to argue when they’re peacefully baked? Who’s going to be out doing dangerous things when they can just relax, take the edge off, sedate the urge to be aggressive or be a hazard to theirs or another’s health? Calm the public, calm and educate them, that’s what I say. People really haven’t got as much a clue about it than they think, weed definitely doesn’t receive the credit it’s owed. It has a bad name. “yeah – it’s called dope for a reason – it makes you dopey”. It relaxes absolutely everything – from bodily functions like blocked sinuses or bowels – allowing ease with breathing or passing waste, but it does a lot more. Pot relaxes us so that we can find it easier to rest and/ or sleep, relaxes us so that we don’t irrationalise with anxiety, releasing differing kinds of pressures off of our minds – weights of our shoulders (figuratively speaking) – or at least temporarily paralysing the appearance of an abundance of stress – for temporary relief of stress. If governments were as smart as they think they are – they could get away with anything, if the society it governed weren’t as worried as it would be without it. The government is worried about finding funding – well, there’s an exponential potential amount of funding there. We’d make millions on Marijuana – enough to pull the average dollar up straight back up on top. It’d generate millions of jobs – from farming, irrigation/ plumbing, power, security, and of course jobs for hundreds to pick the crop. Take some of the power away from outlaws. If you want less people breaking the law – don’t make it so there’s something in the law to be broken – find another way to meet unconformity and negotiate it into submission. I can’t see a reason why a major portion of the populous has to suffer prohibition on marijuana when – say the capital cities have indeed (in part) have it decriminalized. Where hundreds of thousands of people are being allowed a portion of it on their person – whoever they might be – and then the majority of the public is prohibited to have the plant. How is it fair? What kind of example are we setting to the rest of the world when our politicians are biased to the idea – of what they think the rightful standard is or should be over the majority of the population? No one ever died bequeathing the position of king to these fuckers, but they all seem to think they can somehow have it easier than everybody else. Anyway, I say rip up the stupid restriction of marijuana everywhere and set up a thorough education for schools that teach more about the psychedelic plant – and schools that teach people how to thoroughly be responsible with what they’re getting into. There are too many stupid mindless idiots are out there that make it worse for everybody else that do habitually use responsibly and sensibly. Inform people and tell them why, educate them, you can’t just tell them ‘NO’ and not give a good reason – leaves it open for rebellion and further temptation, fuck…” – Sheytavici.

  Merry Mary

  Mary, Mary, quite contrary

  Smoke a bowl,

  And get off with the fairies,

  Oh Mary you give me sway,

  I just want you in so many ways,

  You always smell so, so good,

  You form and bond a brotherhood,

  Mary baby you’re the key,

  All I need to put mind to ease,

  Your satisfactions never cease,

  May you ever be the seed of peace,

  Oh Mary, many will protest,

  To much of my detest,

  Without a good experience,

  It’ll never put to rest,

  I like to suck your breath,

  And remember times like now when,

  I feel so low I may never,

  Be the same again,

  I say my prayers by night for sure,

  Get on my knees and light up some more,

  You unlock all the doors,

  In my minds’ labyrinth of corridors,

  I surrender to your thrills,

  Bringing time to stand still,

  I can never stop until,

  I have had my fill,

  Exit Scenario

  “Fuck I love marijuana, and I’m not alone there. I’ve known of over hundreds of smokers, and I will know of more before the end of my time. The prohibition on the shit is ridiculous. I could give a million reasons why it’s good and only be given a couple back why it isn’t. When I’d ask my father why some things can’t be while others can – he’d often say you’ll soon see why. But it never made sense, every reason not to condescends not doing it anyway. And I’ve always preferred having regretted something I’ve done over something I haven’t. I’ve always pushed when it appeared inappropriate to see if I can learn more about what it was than what I was often being told. And
I found – whether being crucified for it or not – I would learn more regardless of what I’d been told. Because when I was being told – I wasn’t being told everything. It always felt empty or incomplete. And I might say I have a thirst for knowledge, and I might even say I have a problem with authority also but, I have a problem when I can’t learn shit on my own – and I have a problem with those who know more about it but won’t leak anything further, I get irritated when I know I’m being withheld of information. I have a problem with being left behind, kept in the dark, and I have a problem when I feel people are keeping me from progressing further than I would when I know they could save me the time, cutting time in half and stop fucking me around. And normally when I’m pissed off enough – I’ll do it anyway. First, I’ll go for a smoke and chill the fuck out so I can better contain myself from snapping at the next fucker choosing to make shit difficult – I’ll have a smoke and chill, gather myself, and then start to plot my next move. Taking a moment to mentally prepare for the next. Calm, and chill as fuck.” – Sheytavici.