Collected Works of Zane Grey

by Zane Grey

  “I’m not sure. Perhaps if you watch him awhile you can tell...I’ll get some supper and call you.”

  Adam’s habitual dexterity over camp tasks failed him this evening. Presently, however, the supper was ready, and he threw brush on the fire to make a light.

  “Mrs. Virey,” he called at the door, “come and eat now.”

  When had the camp fire of his greeted such a vision, except in his vague dreams? Tall, white-gowned, slender, and graceful, with the poise of a woman aloof and proud and the sad face of a Madonna — what a woman to sit at Adam’s camp fire in Death Valley! The shadowed and thick light hid the ravages that had by day impaired her beauty. Adam placed a canvas pack for her to sit upon, and then he served her, with something that was not wholly unconscious satisfaction. Of all men, he of the desert could tell the signs of hunger; and the impression had come to him that she was half starved. The way she ate brought home to Adam with a pang the memorable days when he was starving. This woman sitting in the warm, enhancing glow of the camp fire had an exquisitely spiritual face. She had seemed all spirit. But self-preservation was the first instinct and the first law of human nature, or any nature.

  “When have I eaten so heartily!” she exclaimed at last. “But, oh! it all tasted so good...Sir, you are a capital cook.”

  “Thank you,” replied Adam, much gratified.

  “Do you always fare so well?”

  “No. I’m bound to confess I somewhat outdid myself to-night. You see, I seldom have such opportunity to serve a woman.”

  She rested her elbows on her knees, with her hands under her chin, and looked at him with intense interest. In the night her eyes seemed very full and large, supernaturally bright and tragic. They were the eyes of a woman who still preserved in her something of inherent faith in mankind. Adam divined that she had scarcely looked at him before as an individual with a personality, and that some accent or word of his had struck her singularly.

  “It was that miner, Dis — Dis—”

  “Dismukes,” added Adam.

  “Yes. It was he who sent you here. Are you a miner, too?”

  “No. I, care little for gold.”

  “Ah!...What are you, then?”

  “Just a wanderer. Wansfell, the Wanderer, they call me.”

  “They? Who are they?”

  “Why, I suppose they are the other wanderers. Men who tramp over the desert — men who seek gold or forgetfulness or peace or solitude — men who are driven — or who hide. These are few, but, taken by the years, they seem many.”

  “Men of the desert have passed by here, but none like you.” she replied, with gravity, and her eyes pierced him. “Why did you come?”

  “Years ago my life was ruined,” said Adam, slowly. “I chose to fight the desert. And in all the years the thing that helped me most was not to pass by anyone in trouble. The desert sees strange visitors. Life is naked here, like those stark mountain-sides...Dismukes is my friend — he saved me from death once. He is a man who knows this wasteland. He told me about your being here. He said no white woman could live in Death Valley...I wondered — if I might — at least advise you, turn you back — and so I came.”

  His earnestness deeply affected her.

  “Sir, your kind words warm a cold and forlorn heart,” she said. “But I cannot be turned back. It’s too late.”

  “No hour is ever too late...Mrs. Virey, I’ll not distress you with advice or importunities. I know too well the need and the meaning of peace. But the fact of your being here — a woman of your evident quality — a woman of your sensitiveness and delicate health — why, it is a terrible thing! This is Death Valley. The month is April. Soon it will be May — then June. When midsummer comes you cannot survive here. I know nothing of why you are here — I don’t seek to know. But you cannot stay. It would be a miracle for your husband to find gold here, if that is what he seeks. Surely he has discovered that.”

  “Virey does not seek gold,” the woman said.

  “Does he know that a white woman absolutely cannot live here in Death Valley? Even the Indians abandon it in summer.”

  “He knows. There are Shoshone Indians up on the mountains now. They pack supplies to us. They have warned him.”

  Adam could ask no more, yet how impossible not to feel an absorbing interest in this woman’s fate. As he sat with bowed head, watching the glowing and paling of the red embers, he felt her gaze upon him.

  “Wansfell, you must have a great heart — like your body,” she said, presently. “It is blessed to meet such a man. Your kindness, your interest, soften my harsh and bitter doubt of men. We are utter strangers. But there’s something in this desert that bridges time — that bids me open my lips to you...a man who travelled this ghastly valley to serve me!...My husband, Virey, knows that Death Valley is a hell on earth. So do I. That is why he brought me...that is why I came!”

  “My God!” breathed Adam, staring incredulously at her. Dismukes had prepared him for tragedy; the desert had shown him many dark and terrible calamities, misfortunes, mysteries; he had imagined he could no longer be thrown off his balance by amaze. But that a sad-eyed, sweet-voiced woman, whose every tone and gesture and look spoke of refinement and education, of a life infinitely removed from the wild ruggedness of the desert West — that she could intimate what seemed in one breath both murder and suicide — this staggered Adam’s credulity.

  Yet, as he stared at her, realising the tremendous passion of will, of spirit, of something more that emanated from her, divining how in her case intellect and culture had been added to the eternal feminine of her nature, he knew she spoke the truth. Adam had met women on the desert, and all of them were riddles. Yet what a vast range between Margarita Arallanes and Magdalene Virey!

  “Won’t your husband leave — take you away from here?” asked Adam, slowly.

  “No.”

  “Well — I have a way of forcing men to see things. I suppose I—”

  “Useless! We have travelled three thousand miles to get to Death Valley. Years ago Elliot Virey read about this awful place. He was always interested. He learned that it was the most arid, ghastly, desolate, and terrible place of death in all the world...Then, when he got me to Sacramento — and to Placerville — he would talk with miners, prospectors, Indians — anyone who could tell him about Death Valley...Virey had a reason for finding a hell on earth. We crossed the mountains, range after range — and here we are...Sir, the hell of which we read — even in its bottommost pit — cannot be worse than Death Valley.”

  “You will let me take you home — at least out of the desert?” queried Adam, with passionate sharpness.

  “Sir, I thank you again,” she replied, her voice thrilling richly. “But no — no! You do not understand — you cannot — and it’s impossible to explain.”

  “Ah! Yes, some things are...Suppose you let me move your camp higher up, out of this thick, dead air and heat — where there are trees and good water?”

  “But it is not a beautiful and a comfortable camp that Virey — that we want,” she said, bitterly.

  “Then let me move your shack across the wash out of danger. This spot is the most forbidding I ever saw. That mountain above us is on the move. The whole cracked slope is sliding like a glacier. It is an avalanche waiting for a jar — a slip — something to start it. The rocks are rolling down all the time.”

  “Have I not heard the rocks — cracking, ringing — in the dead of night!” she cried, shuddering. Her slender form seemed to draw within itself and the white, slim hands clenched her gown. “Rocks! How I’ve learned to hate them! These rolling rocks are livings things. I’ve heard them slide and crack, roll and ring — hit the sand with a thump, and then with whistle and thud go by where I lay in the dark...People who live as I have lived know nothing of the elements. I had no fear of the desert — nor of Death Valley. I dared it. I laughed to scorn the idea that any barren wild valley, any maelstrom of the sea, any Sodom of a city could be worse than the chaos of m
y soul...But I didn’t know. I am human. I’m a woman. A woman is meant to bear children. Nothing else!...I learned that I was afraid of the dark — that such fear had been born in me. These rolling rocks got on my nerves. I wait — I listen for them. And I pray...Then the silence — that became so dreadful. It is insupportable. Worse than all is the loneliness...Oh, this God-forsaken, lonely Death Valley! It will drive me mad.”

  As Adam had anticipated, no matter what strength of will, what sense of secrecy bound this woman’s lips, she had been victim to the sound of her own voice, which, liberated by his sympathy, had spoken, and a word, as it were, had led to a full, deep, passionate utterance.

  “True. All too terribly true,” replied Adam. “And for a woman — for you — these feelings will grow more intense...I beg of you, at least let me move your camp back out of danger.”

  “No! Not a single foot!” she blazed, as if confronted with something beyond his words. After that she hid her face in her hands. A long silence ensued. Adam, watching her, saw when the tremble and heave of her breast subsided. At length she looked up again, apparently composed. “Perhaps I talked more than I should have. But no matter. It was necessary to tell you something. For you came here to help an unknown woman. Not to anyone else have I breathed a word of the true state of my feelings. My husband watches me like a hawk, but not yet does he know my fears. I’ll thank you, when you speak to him, if you stay here so long, not to tell him anything I’ve said.”

  “Mrs. Virey, I’ll stay as long as you are here,” said Adam, simply.

  The simplicity of his speech, coupled with the tremendous suggestion in the fact of his physical presence, his strength and knowledge to serve her despite her bitter repudiation, seemed again to knock at the heart of her femininity. In the beginning of human life on the earth, and through its primal development, there was always a man to protect a woman. But subtly and inevitably there had been in Adam’s words an intimation that Magdalene Virey stood absolutely alone. More, for with spirit, if not with body, she was fighting Death Valley, and also some terrible relation her husband bore to her.

  “Sir — you would stay here — on a possible chance of serving me?” she whispered.

  “Yes,” replied Adam.

  “Virey will not like that.”

  “I’m not sure, but I suspect it’ll not make any difference to me what he likes.”

  “If you are kind to me he will drive you away,” she went on, with agitation.

  “Well, as he’s your husband he may prevent me from being kind, but he can’t drive me away.”

  “But suppose I ask you to go?”

  “If that’s the greatest kindness I can do you — well, I’ll go...But do you ask me?”

  “I — I don’t know. I may be forced to — not by him, but by my pride,” she said, desperately. “Oh, I’m unstrung! I don’t know what to say...After all, just the sound of a kind voice makes me a coward. O God! if people in the world only knew the value of kindness I never did know. This desert of horrors teaches the truth of life. Once I had the world at my feet!...Now I break and bow at the sympathy of a stranger!”

  “Never mind your pride,” said Adam, in his slow, cool way. “I understand. I’ve a good deal of a woman in me. Whatever brought you to Death Valley, whatever nails you here, is nothing to me. Even if I learn it, what need that be to you? If you do not want me to stay to work for you, watch over your husband — why, let me stay for my own sake.”

  She rose and faced him, with soul-searching eyes. She could not escape her nature. Emotion governed her.

  “Sir, you speak nobly,” she replied, with lips that trembled. “But I don’t understand you. Stay here — where I am — for your sake! Explain please.”

  “I have my burden. Once it was even more terrible than yours. Through that I can feel as you feel now. I have lived the loneliness — the insupportable loneliness — of the desert — the silence, the heat, the hell. But my burden still weighs on my soul. If I might somehow help your husband, who is going wrong, blindly following some road of passion — change him or stop him, why that would ease my burden. If I might save you weariness, or physical pain, or hunger, or thirst, or terror — it would be doing more for myself than for you. We are in Death Valley. You refuse to leave. We are, right here, two hundred feet below sea level. When the furnace heat comes — when the blasting midnight wind comes — it means either madness or death.”

  “Stay — Sir Knight,” she said, with a hollow, ringing gaiety. “Who shall say that chivalry is dead?...Stay and know this. I fear no man. I scorn death...But, ah, the woman of me! I hate dirt and vermin. I’m afraid of pain. I suffer agonies even before I’m hurt. I miss so unforgetably the luxuries of life. And lastly, I have a mortal terror of going mad. Spare me that and you will have my prayers in this world — and beyond...Good-night.”

  “Good-night,” replied Adam.

  She left him to the deepening gloom and the dying camp fire. Adam soon grew conscious of extreme fatigue in mind and body. Spreading his blankets on the sands, he stretched his weary, aching body without even an upward glance at the stars, and fell asleep.

  Daylight again, as if by the opening of eyelids! The rose colour was vying with the blue of the sky and a noble gold crowned the line of eastern range which Adam could see through the V-shaped split that opened into the valley.

  He pulled on his boots, and gave his face an unusual and detrimental luxury in the desert. Water was bad for exposed flesh in arid country. The usual spring and buoyancy of his physical being was lacking this day. Such overstrain as yesterday’s would require time to be remedied. So Adam moved slowly and with caution.

  First Adam went to the spring. He found a bubbling gush of velvet-looking water pouring out of a hole and running a few rods to sink into the sand. The colour of it seemed inviting — so clear and soft and somehow rich. The music of its murmur, too, was melodious. Adam was a connoisseur of waters. What desert wanderer of years was not? Before he tasted this water, despite its promise, he knew it was not good. Yet it did not have exactly an unpleasant taste. Dismukes had said this water was all right, yet he seldom stayed long enough in one locality to learn the ill-effects of the water. Adam knew he too could live on this water. But he was thinking of the delicate woman lost here in Death Valley with an idiot or a knave of a husband.

  The spring was located some two hundred yards or more from the shack and just out of line of the rock-strewn slope. Spreading like a fan, this weathered slant of stones extended its long, curved length in the opposite direction. Adam decided to pitch his permanent camp, or at least sleeping place, here on the grass. Here he erected a brush and canvas shelter to make shade, and deposited his effects under it. That done, he returned to the shack to cook breakfast.

  There appeared to be no life in the rude little misshapen hut. Had the man who built it ever been a boy? There were men so utterly helpless and useless out in the wilds, where existence depended upon labour of hands, that they seemed foreign to the descendants of Americans. Adam could not but wonder about the man lying in there, though he tried hard to confine his reflections to the woman. He did not like the situation. Of what avail the strong arm, the desert-taught fierceness to survive? If this man and woman had ever possessed instincts to live, to fight, to reproduce their kind, to be of use in the world, they had subverted them to the debasements of sophisticated and selfish existence. The woman loomed big to Adam, and he believed she had been dragged down by a weak and vicious man.

  Leisurely, Adam attended to the preparation of breakfast, prolonging tasks that always passed swiftly through his hands.

  “Good morning, Sir Wansfell,” called a voice with something of mockery in it, yet rich and wistful — a low-pitched contralto voice full of music and pathos and a pervading bitterness.

  It stirred Adam’s blood, so sluggish this morning. It seemed to carry an echo from his distant past. Turning, he saw the woman, clad in grey, with girdle of cord twisted around her slender waist. Soft a
nd clean and fleecy, that grey garment, so out of place there, so utterly incongruous against the background of crude shack and wild slope, somehow fitted her voice as it did her fragile shape, somehow set her infinitely apart from the women Adam had met in his desert wanderings. She came from the great world outside, a delicate spark from the solid flint of class, a thoroughbred whom years before the desert might have saved.

  “Good morning, Mrs. Virey,” returned Adam. “How are you — and did your husband awake?”

  “I slept better than for long,” she replied, “and I think I know why...Yes, Virey came to. He’s conscious, and asked for water. But he’s weak — strange. I’d like you to look at him presently.”

  “Yes, I will.”

  “And how are you after your tremendous exertions of yesterday?” she inquired.

  “Not so spry,” said Adam, with a smile. “But I’ll be myself in a day or so. I believe the air down in the valley affected me a little. My lungs are sore...I think it would be more comfortable for you if we had breakfast in your kitchen. The sun is hot.”

  “Indeed yes. So you mean to — to do this — this camp work for me — in spite of—”

  “Yes. I always oppose women,” he said. “And that is about once every two or three years. You see, women are scarce on the desert.”

  “Last night I was upset. I am sorry that I was ungracious. I thank you, and I am only too glad to accept your kind service,” she said, earnestly.

  “That is well. Now, will you help me carry in the breakfast?”

  Unreality was not unusual to Adam. The desert had as many unrealities, illusions, and spectres as it had natural and tangible things. But while he sat opposite to this fascinating woman, whose garments exuded some subtle fragrance of perfume, whose shadowed, beautiful face shone like a cameo against the drab wall of the brush shack, he was hard put to it to convince himself of actuality. She ate daintily, but she was hungry. The grey gown fell in graceful folds around the low stone seat. The rude table between them was a box, narrow and uneven.