Love's Indecision

by Flynn Eire

  "I know I'm remembering things that have happened to me," I explained, trying to find the words. "But it's more like it's really happening to me then, for the first time, as I'm remembering it. And as if I'm getting hit upside the head with a baseball bat at the same time."

  Nate searched my face for a minute, running his hand over the uninjured side of my face. Then he did one of the hottest things ever. He leaned down and licked my claw wounds, along with the blood on my face. I moaned and held onto his arms as I squirmed in ecstasy. Not only was his saliva healing me, it was amazingly erotic.

  "I want you to claim me as I did you, Matteo," he whispered when he was done. Nate looked deep into my eyes when he said it, then tilted his head to expose his neck to me. My fangs were instantly out and my cock hard.

  "That's what I wanted to talk to you about," I said gently, taking his head in my hands. "I didn't want to bring someone else to our bed without completing our mating."

  "Great minds think alike," Nate smiled, and gave me a peck on the lips. "I feel the same way. We might end up playing around with someone else, but you're my mate. You're the mate I want for all eternity and nothing will ever change that." He tilted his head again for me, but then looked back at me.

  "What's wrong Nate?"

  "When I heard you were hurt, that Mr. Aretos tried to kill you again and I wasn't here. I-I freaked, Matteo," he explained as a single tear escaped his eyes. "The thought of never holding you again, not being able to apologize, was too much for me. I can't lose you, Matteo. I won't risk this, not for anyone else or any threesome. I love you. You're never allowed to die and leave me."

  I chuckled at what he said at the end there, and pulled him down to me. "I can't promise I'll never die, but I'm not going anywhere, Nate. And I'm fine with playing around, as long as it's always together, and not just an excuse to cheat."

  "I don't want to cheat, or be with anyone else," Nate said adamantly. "I just want to try new things, but with you."

  "Then let me claim you, my mate," I whispered before licking the side of his neck. Nate moved his head to give me better access and I sank my fangs into him. The blood that rushed into my mouth and over my tastebuds was heaven. It was incredibly sweet, like maraschino cherries. I almost laughed when I realized it gave a whole new meaning to having a sweet tooth.

  A moment later Nate bit me as well, causing us to both moan loudly. My cock swelled as I felt his do the same. Several more pulls on his neck, and I climaxed. I lifted my head to roar out my release at the same time Nate did. We held onto each other tightly, riding out our orgasms and the pure bliss of completing the mating bond.

  "Wow, that was intense," Nate said in my head. I pushed him up a bit so I could look into his eyes.

  "It was fucking amazing," I replied, smiling when Nate's eyes went as wide as saucers.

  "Holy shit," he whispered before leaning down and attacking my lips. We made out for several minutes before my head started to spin and I pulled away. "Dizzy?"

  "Yeah, sorry," I said as I snuggled up to his side.

  "Nothing to apologize for," he snickered and wrapped an arm around me. "I can't stop smiling. We're really mated."

  "And I've never been happier," I replied, right before I yawned.

  "Me, too," Nate said, then kissed my head. "Get some rest, my love. I don't like you being injured."

  I felt a smile play across my lips as I drifted off to sleep. It was probably bad of me to hope I didn't have any more memories float to the surface, but I did anyways. Remembering was very traumatic and took a lot of my strength, even when it happened in sleep. And right now, I just needed some rest.

  CHAPTER 8

  The week after I was shot the doctors finally said I could get back into my routine, and since I hadn't yet remembered what that was, Dimitri agreed to help me out. Though I was on light duty only, at least I could get back to training the post-trans. After an hour in my office, which I had to be told how to find, I was ready to shoot myself in the head.

  It's one thing when you have horrible handwriting you can read. But when you don't remember what your handwriting looks like, you can't make out your own chicken scratch. I guess I'd been set in my centuries-old ways, since I never seemed to put anything on the laptop I had.

  "Son of a bitch," I yelled, and threw the schedules I couldn't figure out. Leaning back in my desk chair I started rubbing my temples.

  "Come on, Matteo, let's go for a run," Dimitri said from the doorway. "It's your favorite way to clear you head."

  "Good thing one of us knows that," I grumbled as I stood and walked around my desk. Still cussing under my breath, I bent over, picked up the schedules, and put them back on my desk.

  "It'll get better, man," Dimitri patted me on the back as we left my office. I followed him out to 'our favorite track'. And I knew the pressure in my head wasn't from my injury; it was pure stress.

  When we got to the track and started jogging I felt the headache start to fade. The faster I picked up the pace, the better I felt. Dimitri grabbed my arm, slowing me down, "Light duty, Matteo. Let's not overdo it your first time out, okay?"

  "Yeah, sorry," I replied, slowing down. He was right; I felt my muscles start to burn. It was just, for the first time in days, I wasn't pissed off that I couldn't remember. I didn't feel lost and confused. Realizing that made me stop in my tracks and turn to my best friend, "What if I never remember, Dimitri? What if I'm never again the man I was?"

  "The man you are is ingrained in you, Matteo," he said after a moment. "What you've experienced in life made you the man you are. And while you might not ever remember the life that got you here, you're still here. Nothing can change that man."

  "I hope you're right, brother," I answered as we started jogging again. "Thanks for all the help." "You may not remember all the times you've been there for me, my brother, but I do."

  We kept running for another mile before I decided to broach the other subject that was weighing on me. "Have you and Alexander ever thought of bringing another person to your bed?"

  "Why? Are you offering?" he laughed. Dimitri stopped running and grabbed his side, he was laughing so hard. "You do have a nice ass."

  "Oh fuck you, I was being serious, you dick," I chuckled as I pushed him. He fell on his ass, still laughing hysterically. "I've been the only man Nate's ever been with, and he wants to experience all the facets of sex. We agreed, now that we're completely mated, to bring a third into the mix."

  "And you're cool with that?" he asked me as he stood, his eyes wide with shock.

  "I'm willing to try it," I shrugged. We were quiet a few minutes as we started jogging again. "I told him I reserve the right to change my mind if I end up not liking it. But honestly, the idea of us playing together with a third gets me hot."

  "Who's the third?"

  "That's part of the problem," I sighed. "How exactly do you approach someone about that? I mean, put up some flyers in the mess hall?"

  "No, I wouldn't do that," he laughed and punched me in the arm. "I'd talk to Rune. But I've got to warn you, he's into some kinky ass sex."

  "You hooked up with him, right?" I waited for Dimitri to nod before continuing. "What do you mean by kinky ass sex?"

  "Spankings, very rough play, lots of pain," he answered as we started to slow for a cool down. "He doesn't like to be stretched out and prepared, he likes the feeling of almost being ripped apart."

  "Yikes!" I gasped making a face to Dimitri. "I'm not sure Nate and I are up for that."

  "Probably not," he chuckled as we stopped and started stretching. "But you said Nate wanted to experience the full array of sex."

  "Good point, thanks, man," I said as we finished up. We bumped fists before it was time to take off. "Hey, keep this between us, okay?"

  "You got it, brother from another," he smirked as he jogged back towards the main gym.

  I headed back towards my room to find Nate. Since our mating we'd moved our stuff into one of the bigger rooms. Even if we hadn'
t been able to play much since I'd been shot, I liked waking up with Nate. It felt right to start the day intertwined together.

  "Hey, baby," I said to Nate as I opened the door to our room. I walked over and gave him a quick kiss on the lips.

  "Mmm, you smell like sweat, and manly Matteo," he purred as he tried to pull me onto his lap.

  "I'm glad you like," I chuckled. I dodged away from him and grabbed a towel as I walked into the bathroom. "I talked to Dimitri about us deciding to bring a third to our bed."

  "What did he say?" Nate asked apprehensively. "Does he hate me?"

  "No, not at all," I answered as I turned on the water and started to shower. "He suggested Rune. I thought we might stop by his room after I shower and change."

  "We don't have to do this," Nate said as he joined me in the shower. "I'm perfectly happy with just the two of us making love together."

  "I know," I nodded as I turned and helped suds him up as he did the same to me. If we kept this up, we'd either be overly horny by the time we got to Rune's room or we'd never even make it there. "The more I've thought about it, the more I like the idea too. So, let's try it. It might end up not being our thing, but I'm willing to try it."

  "As long as no one gets in this sweet ass but me," Nate purred as he ran his hands over my butt. Then suddenly he pulled his hands away and started washing his hair. "We'd better hurry, otherwise I'm going to end up fucking you into the wall of the shower."

  "Not that I'd object," I snickered as I finished rinsing. I hopped out of the shower and started to dry off. As I got dressed I knew that I should warn Nate about Rune's idea of sex. But at the same time, I didn't want to sound as if I was trying to talk him out of this.

  "God you're hot," Nate said as he came into the room completely naked.

  "I was thinking the same thing about you," I laughed as I threw him a shirt. "Now come on, let's go play."

  "Fuck, I'm hard enough to pound nails," he grumbled as he quickly pulled on clothes and shoes. When we were both dressed we left the room and headed for Rune's. The entire walk there Nate was either groping or kissing some part of my body.

  "You really are turned on by this, aren't you?" I asked, turning to face him a few feet from Rune's door.

  "Maybe I'm fucked in the head," he answered holding my face in his hands. "But the idea of watching someone else suck that gorgeous cock of yours just flat does it for me. I'm not sure if it's a voyeur thing, or what, but it's like my ultimate fantasy."

  "Okay, but if, at any time, either of us decides we don't want to do this, we say something. Deal?"

  "Deal," Nate whispered before kissing me. "I love you, Matteo."

  "I love you too, Nate," I said before turning and leading us the last few feet to Rune's door. I knocked quickly before my nerves gave out. Between being nervous as all hell, and Nate's large hands massaging my ass, my heart was racing so fast I thought it might jump out of my chest.

  "Hang on," Rune called out, before something crashed onto the floor on the other side of the door. There was a few scrambling around sounds that had me raising an eyebrow. The door flew open and there stood a panting Rune trying to tie his robe around him. "Hi, what's up, guys?"

  "You okay, Rune?" I asked glancing around him. It wasn't hard. Rune was a good looking guy, but he was pretty short for a warrior. I'd say he was under six feet and not even two twenty. But he was solid, ripped muscle; his muscles had muscles that were ripped. He had longish jet black hair that he always tied at the nape of his neck, and violet eyes.

  "Yeah, fine, Matteo," he replied not meeting my gaze. "What can I do for you guys?"

  "Can we come in?" Nate asked as he looked down the hall. "This isn't a conversation for others to overhear."

  "Yeah, sure," Rune answered stepping back from the door and letting us enter. He looked completely puzzled as he closed the door behind us. I went and sat at the desk chair as Nate leaned against the desk next to me. Rune walked over to the bed, sat down, and cried out. He jumped back up, still moaning, and turned bright red.

  Nate and I shared a look before moving towards Rune and standing on either side of him. I leaned in and whispered in Rune's ear, "Did we interrupt you playing with some toys, Rune?"

  "Umm, yeah, kind of," Rune mumbled. "I forgot it was in there when I sat down. You guys threw me for a loop showing up here."

  "Sorry, we didn't mean to disturb you," Nate said as he reached for the tie of Rune's robe. "We just want to join you."

  "Wait… what?" Rune asked looking at me then Nate. "I thought you guys were mated?"

  "We are," I answered holding Nate's hand still. I didn't want him touching Rune to affect the man's decision. "We want to play with a third, we thought of you. Are you interested?"

  "Both of you want to play with me?" he whispered as his eyes just about bugged out of his head. "Yeah, I'm in."

  "Good," I hissed as I let go of Nate's hand and licked the side of Rune's neck. "We want to play and explore, but we're not sure if this is what we want all the time. Are you good with a one-time deal, Rune?"

  "Yes, master," Rune moaned as Nate got his robe off. I took a step back and ripped off my clothes. "May I suck your cock, master?"

  "Get on the bed first, Rune," Nate growled as he almost shredded his clothes trying to get them off. Rune did as he was told and I moved towards the foot of the bed to feed him my dick. Nate's gasp took my attention. "What is this in your ass, Rune?"

  "A dildo," he mumbled, turning bright red again.

  "I've never seen a toy like this," Nate replied, gesturing me to come look. Intrigued I moved around Rune to see what Nate was talking about.

  "Fuck, Rune," I whispered as I saw why Nate was freaked. It wasn't a normal dildo. It was small, but had plastic hook-like catches on it. Rune hadn't gotten very far pushing it into himself, which explained why he screamed when he sat on the bed. "Rune, this would tear you up inside."

  "I like the pain," Rune answered, looking at us over his shoulder. "I was trying something new. I didn't know you'd be coming by. I get lonely."

  My heart broke for Rune, seeing this side of him. I couldn't remember much of Rune, or anyone else, yet but I was pretty sure I'd never known this about him before.

  "Can I take this out, Rune?" Nate asked as he looked at me. "I want to fuck you while you blow my mate."

  "Yes, master, anything you want," Rune replied as he lowered his upper body down to the bed. Nate moved lightening quick and pulled Rune back towards the middle of the bed. He yelped in surprise and shivered. Nate gently started to remove the torturous toy as Rune cried out and shook harder. "Oh fuck, it's so much better when you do it to me than when I did it myself."

  "I don't want to hurt you, Rune," Nate said gently, sadness written all over his face as he tried to ease the dildo out of Rune's ass.

  "I like the pain, master," Rune moaned as he tried to push back to get the dildo back in. Nate was quicker and yanked it the rest of the way out. Rune screamed loudly and I was about to ask if he was okay, but I saw the pure bliss written over the man's face. Nate threw the toy across the room like it was a snake.

  "We need to stretch you out," I said as I reached for the lube.

  "Please don't, master," Rune begged. "I'm lubed up. I want you both to hurt me. Please, be rough, hit me, spank me!"

  "It's up to you, Nate," I said as I moved to the foot of the bed. I raised Rune up on his hands and knees. Nate eyed me before turning back to the ass in front of him. He swatted Rune's ass a few times, shock all over his face as Rune writhed in pleasure. But then his expression changed to lust. Nate massaged his hand print on Rune's butt.

  "You like that, Rune?" he asked before smacking his ass a few more times.

  "Yes, master. Harder please," Rune begged, then looked up at me. "May I suck your cock, master?"

  "Open wide, Rune," I said, loving that Nate was getting all hot. When he did, I guided my cock into Rune's mouth. He greedily started sucking on me like I was his last meal.

 
; "Oh fuck that's hot," Nate groaned from the other end of Rune. "You're going to suck his cock while I pound into your ass, Rune."

  Rune's only response was to moan loudly around my dick, sending wonderful vibrations through it. I grabbed his head and started fucking his face. The noises Rune made told me he loved the rough play.

  "Nate, fuck him already," I said between my teeth. "I'm not going to last long; he's really good at this."

  Nate nodded and grabbed the bottle of lube I'd dropped, then greased up his dick. I watched as he lined up his cock with Rune's hole and shoved it in. It was hot. Nate didn't start slow, instead fucking Rune with everything he had.

  "He's so tight," Nate moaned as he slapped Rune's ass a few more times. "Yeah, Rune, suck my mate's cock."

  I bit my lip, trying not to come. Between Nate's words and Rune's hot mouth, it was hard. We worked out a good rhythm, both of us pushing into Rune at the same time. His whole body was shaking like crazy as Nate and I fucked him. I pulled out of his mouth, afraid I would come too soon.

  "Harder, master," Rune hissed as he looked back at Nate. "Use your claws on me."

  Nate didn't seem to hear. Instead he fucked Rune like a mad man while eyeing me over. "What do you want, Nate?"

  "Blow your load in his mouth," he panted as he fucked Rune into the bed. "I want to fuck him onto your dick. It's like I'm pleasing you both."

  "You are, baby," I smiled as I put my cock back into Rune's mouth. "Fuck him harder, Nate."

  Nate smiled widely, fangs and all, as he leaned forward. I met him halfway and kissed him as he kept thrusting into Rune. Nate groaned when my tongue got nicked on one of his fangs. I grabbed the back of his head and held him to me while our tongues dueled in each other's mouths. When I let him go, we were both gasping for air.

  "I'm coming, Rune," I cried out seconds before shooting my seed down his throat. The entire time I was climaxing, I watched Nate's face. The feral look on his face as he fucked and smacked Rune's ass was what kept my orgasm going. I swear I must have come more than once, it went on so long. As my spent cock slipped from Rune's mouth, I had an idea.

  Smiling at Nate, I crawled around them until I was at Nate's back. His eyes never left me until he had to turn his neck too far to see me. "What are you doing, my mate?"