Conflicted Love

by Hamford, Kacey

  “Live here? But what about the place you took me to? Oh my god, was that not your place?” She jumped off the bar stool and stood in front of me.

  “Yes, babe. That is my place. I live in both places. Whichever is easiest.”

  “Oh.” She climbed back on the stool and reached for her glass of vodka and orange. “So, who are all of these other people?”

  “Locals. Prez likes to invite them in about once a month for a party. To show everyone we’re not a bad lot.”

  “Pup!” I looked to the right when my name was called out to see Ashlyn standing there.

  “Hey.” I shot her a chin lift.

  “I’m Ashlyn.” She smiled at Stef.

  “I’m Stef. Nice to meet you.”

  “Why don’t you come over and join us?” She nodded to the table where Iron, her husband, was sitting along with Cammie, Holes and Tat.

  “We’re just going to dance,” I informed her as I shot back the rest of my drink and held my hand out to Stef. She finished her drink and slipped her tiny hand into mine. I had no idea how she managed to work on bikes all day, her skin was soft and her hands were small.

  I held her close, loving the feel of her breasts pushed close against my chest, she moved her body along with mine, her hips were grinding into me and before long I would be hauling her to my room.

  “So tell me something about yourself!” she shouted over the music.

  “Like what?”

  “Mum, dad, brothers, sisters?”

  “I’m an only child. I don’t speak to my mum and dad. Or that should be they don’t speak to me. What about you?”

  “Why don’t they speak to you?”

  “They own that big hotel, you know the one up on the cliff?” She nodded.

  “Yeah, us girls are booked in there for a spa day before Lizzy’s wedding. It looks amazing.”

  “Yeah, well, I was supposed to take over and run it. It’s not something I’ve ever wanted to do so I left and joined the CC instead. What about you?”

  “Mum and dad both died about five years ago. I have a brother, Evan. I’m living with him and his new girlfriend at the moment.”

  “Why’s that?”

  “My ex cheated on me. I had nowhere else to go. It was ok when it was just the two of us but now she’s moved in. He’s asking her to marry him.”

  “How long ago was you with this ex?”

  “About nine months ago. He’s Lizzy’s brother.” She screwed her face up at the last bit.

  “He’ll be at this wedding?” She nodded. “Don’t worry, so will I.” I winked at her.

  “What? Why will you be there?”

  “I can’t have my woman going alone now, can I?”

  “I’m not yours,” she stated. We would see about that. I crouched down and threw her over my shoulder.

  “Pup!” she exclaimed. I marched through the clubhouse, out of the bar and down the long hallway until I came to my door. I never locked it so I threw it open and stepped inside. I tossed her onto the bed and she bounced there a couple of times, looking shocked.

  “What are you doing?” she asked. Her breath was hitched; she was turned on. I locked the door behind me and prowled to the bed, climbing on so I was straddled over her.

  “You. Are. Mine,” I pronounced each word carefully so she would understand.

  “Ah, are you asking me if I’ll be your girlfriend?” She giggled.

  “I’m not asking, babe.” I slammed my lips down onto hers in a bruising kiss and moved my body so her legs were wrapped around my hips. I pushed my jean covered cock into her jean covered pussy and she gasped. I slipped my tongue into her mouth and our kiss turned frantic, our teeth clashed as we hurried to rid each other of our clothes. I hung my leather jacket, and hers, up on the back of my door before searching through my bedside table for a condom. Once I found one, I threw it on the bed by her head and she snatched it up in her hands.

  “Why does this have a sticker on it?” she asked, looking at the packaging.

  “No idea.” I started kissing a trail from her knee to her shining pussy, I kept an eye on her, she was still inspecting the condom wrapper until my tongue connected with her clit. Her eyes met mine and she dropped her arms to the side, letting the condom fall onto the bed by the side of her hip.

  “Mmmm, Pup,” she moaned. I stopped and her head shot up to look at me.

  “Tyler. My name is Tyler. You call me that when we’re alone.” She nodded as she raised her hips off the bed, telling me to carry on. “Because you’re mine,” I added. She rolled her eyes.

  “Will you just fuck me?” she demanded.

  “Yes, babe.” I climbed onto the bed and she spread her legs further apart. I grabbed the condom and bit into the wrapper. Once I was covered, I lowered myself closer to her, pushing my cock over her pussy so I was hitting her clit, over and over again.

  “Hands up, hold onto the headboard.” She angled her head to look behind her and she stretched up and gripped the headboard. As soon as her fingers curled around the wooden slats, I slammed into her.

  “Yes!” she cried. I threw both of her legs over my shoulders and braced myself on my hands that were in line with her shoulders. I slammed into her over and over again as her fingers were turning white with the grip she had on the headboard. Once I could feel her pussy start to spasm around me, I stopped all movements. Her head flew up and she let go of the headboard.

  “Why did you stop?”

  “Are you mine?” I asked.

  “What the hell, Tyler?” Shit, my cock jerked when she said my name and I know she felt it too as she moaned.

  “Are you mine?” I asked again.

  “It’s complicated,” she stated.

  “No, I like you, you like me. We have this amazing connection. Be mine?”

  “Yes.” She surprised me. I never expected her to give in so easily.

  “Are you mine?”

  “Yes. I’m yours.” She smiled. I released her legs and they wrapped around my waist. I planted my lips onto hers as I began moving again. I lowered my body flat onto hers and threaded my fingers through her hair. Her hands were holding onto my sides and occasionally I felt the bite of a nail on my skin. I kept up the rhythm of my strokes, our bodies heated, and I could feel the familiar tingle in my spine. I pounded harder; I needed her to come first.

  “Yes, yes, yes,” she chanted as her pussy clamped around my cock and pulled my release from me. I spun us so that I was on my back and she was lying over the top of me, still connected.

  “That was intense.” I panted as I ran my hands up and down her back.

  “Mmmhhhhmmmm.” She yawned.

  We lay there for a few more minutes until I desperately needed to sort the condom out.

  “I gotta sort this shit out, babe.” She didn’t answer me. I pushed her hair back from her face to see that she had fallen asleep. I manoeuvred us carefully as I pulled back the duvet and laid her in the bed. She looked good there. I kissed her forehead before I headed to the bathroom.

  Stef

  The sound of a ringing phone woke me up.

  “Hello,” came Pups voice. I opened my eyes to see that the sun was shining through the curtains. Shit, what time was it? I shot up in bed and looked for my bag. I held the duvet against my chest as I reached for it. It was lying on the floor beside the bed.

  “What you doing, babe?” I glanced over my shoulder to see Pup standing in front of me in all his naked glory.

  “I need my bag. What’s the time?”

  “You don’t need to cover yourself from me. I’m glad you were still here when I woke up.” He winked at me and I let out a little laugh.

  “Yeah, sorry about that. I’d never done the one night stand thing before, I wasn’t sure what the correct protocol was.”

  “You stay until morning, unless asked otherwise.” He leant over the bed and kissed me.

  “What’s the time?” I asked again.

  “A little after eight.”

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sp; “Shit.” I jumped out of bed and dashed into the bathroom. “Is it ok to have a shower?” I called out as I sat on the toilet to relieve my bladder.

  “Of course. I’ll meet you in the bar, we’ll have breakfast. There’s someone I want you to meet.”

  “It’ll have to wait, Ty. I’ll be late for work. I have a part being delivered this morning. They won’t leave it, I need to sign for it.”

  “It won’t take long. I promise.”

  “Ok.” I turned on the shower and jumped straight in. I yelped when the water was still cold. I couldn’t be picky, I needed to get clean and quick. I scrubbed at my body with his manly shower gel and washed my hair quickly with his shampoo. I was going to smell like him all day. Well, there was worse things I could smell of.

  I dried myself fast and dashed into the bedroom to search for my clothes. My underwear was at the bottom of the bed, my jeans were thrown onto the chest of drawers and my top was near the door. I quickly changed, threw my hair up into a bun so it wouldn’t drip down my back, slipped my boots on, grabbed my jacket and bag and hurried to the bar area in search of my man. Wow, that sounded strange.

  “T…Pup?” I called out. He was talking to a tall man with a greying beard. He looked up and raised his finger at me to tell me that he would be one minute. I sat on a stool at the bar and waited.

  “You ok?” he asked before kissing me, quickly.

  “Yeah, I really need to go.”

  “He’s here now,” Pup said as he looked towards the club doors. A blonde woman walked in carrying a baby car seat. Pup rushed over to her and took it off her. He kissed her on the cheek. I recognised her, I think she was at the party last night. Pup started walking back to me with a smile on his face.

  “Babe, I want you to meet Cooper.” Pup placed the car seat on the floor and pulled out the baby.

  “Um… Is he yours?” I asked.

  “Yeah.” He smiled, he definitely looked like a proud dad. “Is that a problem?”

  “Oh, no. I’m just surprised, that’s all.” I looked behind him to see the blonde woman had a man wrapped around her. “Is she his mum?”

  “No, that’s Cammie. She’s the VP’s Old Lady. VP’s mum was looking after him last night. She brought him back for me.”

  “Oh.”

  “He’s mine and so are you.” I was still in shock. The connection that I had with this man was completely different to how I’ve felt in the past. I thought I had finally found the one who changed my world, I just never expected to be a step-mum. I always assumed I’d be the first woman to carry my man’s baby.

  “Where’s his mum? Do you still see her? Do you have him full time?” I fired question after question at him. No longer worrying about being late for work, that could wait.

  “Ah, there’s my little man.” Another blonde woman walked around the corner, smiling brightly at Pup and Cooper. She plucked him out of his arms and held him close to her chest.

  “Why are you two not together if you have a kid?”

  “Wait, Lottie isn’t his mum. She just looks after him from time to time for me.” He walked over to Lottie and got his son back. “Do you want to hold him?”

  “Yes!” I loved babies, I had a little bit of experience with them. I knew how to hold them and change a nappy but that’s as far as it went. I held my hands out and Cooper reached for me. I sat him on my lap and he looked up at me. He was gorgeous, with his blonde hair and blue eyes.

  “His mum took off a few months ago. I haven’t heard anything from her since. It’s just the two of us.” Cooper started fussing so I stood to my feet and put him on my shoulder.

  “Do you want me to take him? He settles with me,” Lottie asked as she appeared from around the corner again.

  “No, I got him.” Just as I said that he quietened down. His thumb was in his mouth and his eyes were drifting closed. I glanced over at Pup and the smile covering his face was bright.

  “You two look good together,” he stated.

  “He’s cute.”

  “That’s because he looks like me.” He winked at me.

  “I do have to go though. It looks like your son needs to sleep.”

  “Na, he can’t have been up long. He’s just happy there.” He walked towards me. “I was happy sleeping against you too this morning.”

  “Thank you for telling me about him.” I passed him over to Pup and I swear my ovaries skipped a beat at the sight of Cooper cuddled into him.

  “I’ll come by and see you later. Maybe we can grab some food this evening?”

  “Sounds good.” I offered my lips to him and he didn’t deny me what I wanted. I kissed Cooper on top of his head before I swished out of the clubhouse and mounted my bike.

  “Yo, sis.” My head shot up from the paperwork I was going over in the office when my brother strolled in.

  “Hey, what are you doing here?” I smiled at him before setting my eyes back on the invoices that needed to be paid.

  “You didn’t come home last night. I was just coming to check up on you.” He leant against the doorway and folded his arms over his chest. My brother was six foot five, full of large muscles, tattoos and piercings. His hair was always longer on top and shaved on the sides, we had the same brown coloured hair and blue eyes.

  “I’m fine.” I reached over for my bottle of water, unscrewed the cap and took a small sip. Why did I feel like I was under interrogation with him?

  “I heard you were with a Cornish Crusaders member.”

  “Ah, so that is what this is really about?” I pushed to my feet and walked into my workshop after squeezing past his bulking frame that refused to move from my doorway.

  I knocked the kickstand back on the bike I had just finished and started pushing it outside when all of a sudden it was easier to move. I looked over my shoulder to see Evan pushing it for me. I steered it over to the side, ready for collection.

  “It doesn’t look good for me, Stef.” He sighed as he recrossed his arms over his chest.

  “It’s got nothing to do with you, who I see or sleep with,” I stated matching his position, folding my arms across my chest.

  “I’m the President of the Devil Angels. How is it going to look when my baby sister is fucking someone from the Cornish Crusaders? A rival MC.”

  “Rival?” I laughed. “You don’t have anything to do with them and besides I am not a part of your precious MC. I can see whoever the hell I want to.” I cocked my eyebrow waiting for his response.

  “If you carry on seeing him then you can…”

  “Can what?” I cut him off and placed my hands on my hips.

  “You can find somewhere else to live.” I gasped in shock. Was he really throwing me out? I glanced behind me at the worn out small sofa that was in my office.

  “That’s just great. I’m sure mum and dad would be so proud knowing that you are looking after me so well!” I shouted in his face. “I will not be blackmailed, I will live my life how I want to. I’ll come and collect my things later.”

  “Shit!” he swore as he rubbed his hand down his face. “Fine, stay where you are. But you keep this quiet and stay away from our clubhouse.”

  “That’s fine by me.”

  “Hey.” I looked over Evan’s shoulder to see Storm standing there.

  “What are you doing here? Not after my baby sister I hope,” Evan said, glaring at him.

  “I wish, Prez. She’s always denying this chemistry between us.” He chuckled. “I’m just collecting my bike.”

  “It’s all ready for you. Didn’t take as long as I thought fixing that part.” I threw his keys at him and he winked at me.

  “Ah, sweetheart, you washed her for me.” He swung his leg over the seat and smiled at me.

  “Yeah, I got a bit of oil on it so I cleaned it off.” I shrugged my shoulders. It wasn’t a big deal.

  “And you say you don’t love me, when you look after my number one woman so well.”

  “Enough!” my brother bellowed. “Send the invoi
ce to the clubhouse,” he told me and I nodded in understanding. “We will continue this talk later. When you come home.”

  “I’m not sure when that will be. I have plans tonight.”

  “I don’t wanna hear about it.” He growled. He stormed away from me, threw his helmet on and climbed on his bike. He nodded at Storm and they rode out of my garage together.

  Pup

  Today felt like the longest day in history. I was eager to go and see Stef but I thought leaving the club after only an hour after she left was a bit too much. I tried to keep myself busy with Cooper but all he wanted to do today was sleep. I kept placing the back of my hand on his head checking for a temperature. I hope he wasn’t getting sick. He never normally slept this much.

  I glanced at my phone to see that it was nearly five o’clock. Stef would be closing up the garage soon. I was about to text her and tell her that I’d meet her at my place when my bedroom door was pushed open.

  “Hi, Pup.” Lottie smiled. I didn’t miss the fact that her eyes roamed over my body and her tongue snuck out of her mouth and swiped at her bottom lip.

  “Hey.” I climbed to my feet and was about to pick a sleeping Cooper off my bed when she walked closer towards us.

  “Is he still sleeping?”

  “Yeah, he’s been in and out all day. Maybe he didn’t sleep well last night.”

  “Maybe you should take him to the hospital, just in case.” My eyes shot to hers.

  “Do you really think it could be that serious?”

  “I don’t really know.” She shrugged her shoulders. Now I was panicking. I grabbed Cooper off the bed and hurried into the bar, hoping to find Cammie, Ashlyn or Carla.

  “Where is everyone?” I asked as Lottie followed behind me.

  “It’s been quiet in here all day.”

  “Fuck!” I didn’t know what to do for the best.

  “I’ll come with you. Surely peace of mind is better. Let’s get him checked out.” I nodded in agreement and we both hurried out to my car. I strapped Cooper into his seat as Lottie climbed into the front passenger side.