by Lucia Franco
But I wasn't done.
Using my thumb to feel, I pressed into the bleeding, parted skin and felt for the top of the line I’d just made. I placed the blade right next to it and cut another angled line. Kova growled into my mouth and gripped my head in his palms. His erection pressed into my sex and I hooked my leg up to bring him closer. I wondered what it would be like for him to fuck me while I cut him. Wetness seeped from my pussy at the thought. His rich lips hadn't stopped, the thrilling silkiness of his tongue was overwhelming all my senses. Oh God. It was too erotic and my legs shook from the indulgence. I needed more. I needed to stop.
The wind howled outside as the storm grew closer. Locking my ankles around his back, I knew the next line would hurt and I wanted to trap him against me so he couldn't move. I pulled him closer and his erection pressed further into my pussy. I whimpered into his mouth. Reaching between us with my other hand, I stroked over his cock and felt his thickness. Kova growled again, then took his hand and guided mine into his shorts so I could feel his hot, thick flesh. I gripped him tight, feeling for my favorite vein.
"Kova," I whispered. My body was on another level of pleasure, like I was high even though I’d never done drugs in my life. "I need you." I found myself saying as I squeezed his dick.
"I know." He all but groaned out.
Feeling for the lines, my fingers smeared the blood and his tongue penetrated deeper, teeth nibbling and tugging. A moan erupted in my throat, my leotard wet with desire for him.
Turning my wrist, I pushed the knife into his chest one last time and made a horizontal line across the two I'd already created to form an A. I made sure I crossed over the open skin for further pain as I branded him. Kova's teeth sank into my swollen bottom lip. He thrusted his cock into my hand, releasing a wave of pleasure. I gasped a soft sigh and my body softened. I almost orgasmed from just this. I knew the last tear I made into his beautiful flesh hurt him. There was something exceedingly carnal when power was handed over and trust was given unconditionally. That's what he’d just done.
With one last caress around his kiss, Kova drew his tongue along the roof of my mouth and tugged my lip with him. Wetness seeped from me. Pulling back, our lips separated but he didn't go far. The heat of his breath drifted across my skin. The rain and wind had picked up outside while we'd created our own storm inside.
I opened my eyes and the first thing I looked for was the letter I carved into his skin. Fat, crimson droplets trickled down his chest, over his ribs. His cock was still hot in my hand, only now it was dripping with cum. My mouth watered at his tapered abdomen and the strong muscles beneath. He was a big man in pristine shape. Broad shoulders, a wide, thick waist. All I wanted to do was touch him.
My hand trembled slightly as I placed the knife on the table. I leaned in and dropped my forehead to his chest, and let out a gush of air. Kova's hand cupped the back of my neck, his other hand untied my ponytail. I touched the line of blood, spreading it over his obliques, the warmth stirring me. I lifted my head and looked at the mark I’d made. It wasn't small, about the size of the inside of my palm. One side of the letter was longer than the other. I'd done it blindly, but it didn't look bad either. There would be a scar for sure.
Something peculiar had taken over me. Something I’d never expected to do in a million years, or had ever considered doing until now.
Leaning in, I flatted my tongue and licked the blood, tracing the A and feeling the incisions I had just made. Kova's hand tightened behind me and his chest flexed as I tried to kiss the pain I had just inflicted away.
Slipping his hand under my hair, Kova twirled my locks around his palm then gripped my neck, angling my head back. His thumb pressed into the front of my neck and he tugged on my hair until our gazes met.
We'd been deprived for too long.
My lungs seized, desperate for air, and my lips parted against his. My expression mimicked his. The intoxicating stare in his eyes replaced the dark cavern of hatred, and I knew, that after tonight, after this moment, we would never, ever be the same.
"I am going to tear into you just like you did me," he said, his voice a rough whisper. And I was oddly excited.
Kova picked up the knife. He cut a tear into my leotard and sports bra, then into my shorts, and ripped everything off of me in the blink of an eye, along with his shorts. We were both naked and just as I thought he was going to slide into me, he picked me up and spun me around so I was lying face down.
"Put your knees on the table, malysh."
It was an awkward position at first, but my flexibility allowed me to lay on the table spread open with my hips pressing into the wood. My pussy and ass hung off the table, but I wasn't going to fall because Kova was right behind me stroking his cock.
Kova gripped my hips then plunged right into me in one long, hard stroke that took my breath away. My hand came up and slapped the table. The entire lower half of my body quivered in rebellion. I couldn't even take a breath before he was pulling out and surging into me so hard that I saw stars. He was warm and thick, and he let out a strangled moan like he was in utter heaven. His hand roamed circles on my ass as he rolled his hips into mine.
"Fuck! Damn it, Kova, hang on."
"This is not for you, Adrianna. This is for me. Now, take a deep breath and stay down."
He was relentless, driving into me rough and hard and fast. His heavy sack tapped my clit, teasing me each time he surged into my pussy.
"Did Hayden fuck you like this?"
Oh, he was angry. I liked angry Kova.
My eyes were closed as I focused on how good he felt. "No, he fucked me better."
Kova's hand reached up to grip the back of my neck while the other pressed down on my lower back so I couldn't move. I gasped, drawing in a long moan as he squeezed me so tight that I was going to have a bruise. I was at his mercy and I found it utterly intoxicating.
"I am going to make you regret ever fucking that little boy." I giggled softly and that only excited him further. "Arch your back," he said, and he took me deeper. The giggles subsided and soft moans rolled off my lips as pleasure took control of my body. Kova didn't hold back and took me hard, painfully hard, but I was okay with that. I wanted it this way.
Fisting my hair, he yanked me upright and the wood dug into my knees. He wrapped an arm around my waist so I couldn't move, then placed his other hand around my neck and pulled me to his chest. My heartrate kicked up a notch.
"Did he squeeze you like this?" he said through clenched teeth near my ear. My pussy tightened around his cock, loving this angry side of him. "Go ahead and lie to me," he urged me on. "I already know the truth."
"Yes," I said breathlessly. He squeezed me so tight I could barely swallow. "I couldn't walk after."
Oh God. The sounds Kova made only heightened my pleasure. I liked hearing him like this and I began riding his cock.
"Did he make you bleed with his cock the way I am?"
My eyes opened and I glanced down. There were droplets of blood on the table and the top of my pussy was smeared with blood. Kova fucking tore me.
He chuckled in my ear when I noticed. "I can make you bleed too."
Kova held me immobile and increased his thrusts. I leaned against his chest and within seconds, I was coming on his cock with his hand around my throat. I reached up and had him choke me tighter. This angle was too good and I couldn't hold on any longer. My hips whipped back and forth as I rode his dick.
"Go ahead and lie to me again, tell me you came on his cock as hard as you just did mine," he said through clenched teeth, then he was unloading his hot cum inside of me, rolling his hips hard and slow into me like a crashing wave. He moaned in my ear and I wanted to tell him to keep making the sounds because they were so erotic and by far one of the sexiest sounds I'd ever heard in my life.
"I came all night with him." I taunted, out of breath.
"Fucking liar," he responded, then forced my head to the side so he could plunge his tongue into my mouth and
I didn't argue with that. It was the truth and I knew it in my heart. He had ruined me in the best way possible.
Loosening his hold on my neck, Kova pulled out and turned me around. My legs felt like Jell-O. "Put your arms around me," he said, his voice scraping over me. Guttural.
I nodded. Kova picked me up, his hands under the back of my thighs as he carried me to my room. Our gazes never wavered, not even as he gently placed me on the bed and climbed onto the mattress. I scooted back until we were in the center and laid down. The softness against my back cooled me down as I opened my body to him. He hovered above me and placed his weight on his elbows, his heavy, wet length rested against my inner thigh. We looked at each other for a moment in silence as the whirlwind storm outside thrashed against the side of the building and my windows.
Reaching behind him, Kova grabbed the blanket and pulled it over him to encase us in a cozy tunnel. He reared his hips back and reached between us to grip his length. My gaze dropped to his lips in anticipation.
"Eyes on me, Adrianna. Now let me show you how much I love you," he said, his voice raspy.
Everything stopped.
Something inside my heart mended the tattered seams back together at the mention of those words again and the way he said them, like his life depended on them.
Nodding quietly, I widened my legs, knowing he was positioning himself. Heart racing, there was no foreplay was needed. His pleasure was still dripping out of me. Kova leaned down and whispered against my lips, his Russian like silk wrapping around my body. We both were ready and on the edge of something inconceivable to even understand.
Sliding his hands over my wrists, he laced his fingers through mine as he eased his way in. Our lips parted against each other's the same way our palms met. We both drew in an echo of breath at the feelings of our bodies uniting together again. Pure euphoria tangled us into a cluster of loops and ties. Kova's eyes darkened to a depth that sent chills down my spine and opened my heart to him.
We kept our eyes open as he slowly inched his way in, reaching a deeper intimacy. He pushed past every tender inch of my pussy, slowly, making sure we felt the other until he couldn't go any further. The pressure of him inside of me increased to an intoxicating level of bliss.
Our bodies locked together and we both inhaled. My heart pounded at our held breaths.
This was mind blowing.
This was how we were always meant to be.
One. Together. Whole.
Twenty-Six
Heat flowed between us, Kova igniting me in ways I couldn't explain. The weight of his body on mine, and the way he looked at me, was enough to make me remember where my home was, with him. It wasn't his length that tugged on every nerve in my body, it did, but his gaze was what held me immobile.
I released a breath of relief knowing this was how it should be when two people made love.
My thighs quivered, and I trembled beneath him as I readjusted to his size. Kova gazed into my eyes like he was lost inside of me. This was one of those rare moments where he was exposing himself, where he wanted me to look into his eyes and see what he felt. Because we both knew what he felt was wrong, and it pained him to say he loved me. When it came to Kova and our situation, it was all about touch, about actions when we were alone and in our own world, about looking deeper and feeling our emotions.
"Sometimes words are empty," he said. "Let me show you how I really feel about you."
Dragging his teeth over his bottom lip, Kova brushed his nose over mine, his mouth dancing seductively over my lips but never completely closing the distance. He looked down, then reared his hips back and created a desperate ache between my legs nice and slow, his gaze never flickering away from mine. A breathless rush of air escaped me and my back arched as he slid all the way in again. My fingers tightened around his, knuckles digging into his as he held them cushioned to the bed. Nipples pressing into his chest, Kova pulled out all the way to the tip and lingered. Without saying a word, I begged him with my eyes for more. He dropped a kiss to my lips, then he was sliding back in.
It was all too much to handle after not having him inside of me for so long. A sigh escaped my lips and I clenched around him. I sighed again and his jaw flexed in gratification. Pleasure blossomed as his sensual thrusts created a maelstrom within us. I hitched up my leg to hook around his back, trying to push him in faster, dying for more, but he stopped me.
He shook his head. "Let me take you slow this time, let me feel you," he said, and I nodded, licking my lips. "I have missed your body as much as I have missed you."
He was an earthquake shattering me with his passion.
Kova thrust in deep and my back arched, a pleasure-filled moan rolled off my lips. He decorated my jaw with rough kisses. His teeth nipping my skin only heightened the pleasure as he thrust into me with a sweet slowness that almost killed me. Sweat beaded on his chest, small drops of blood dripped from his wound, and I welcomed all of it onto me. It was raw and gritty and dirty, and I loved that he loved it with me. That we thought nothing of it. We accepted each other's lusts and fed our dark desires without question. He knew what I liked, and he gave it to me. Just like I did with him.
"Straighten your legs." Kova extended my arms above my head, his hands still in mine, and I looked at him in confusion. "Trust me, malysh."
So I did.
My body was stretched out beneath his, my nipples pressed to his chest. He made me feel so sexy like this, like I was all he'd ever need with the way he held me and looked at me.
With one of his knees on the side of my hip and the other leg straight next to mine, the pressure grew unbearably intoxicating as he plunged into my pussy with a degree of shameless finesse. The drag and pull of wetness echoed around us and it only added to the moment.
"Fuck me," he groaned from the tightness.
The pressure was building. It was so good and so addicting that I reached forward with my mouth and devoured him. I was so completely restrained and in a daze from the chemistry of our bodies fusing together that something unleashed inside my heart.
Kova kissed me back with the same ferocity. My toes curled as he pulled out then pushed back in with an unrestrained smoothness about him. My hips bucked and I whimpered as the pleasure reached new heights.
"I'm so close, Kova, please…" I begged, my heart racing.
The way my hips pushed forward and how my legs were closed brought the sweetest friction to my clit when he thrust in. My inner thighs shook, I couldn’t wait any longer.
"So, let go."
"What about you?"
He laughed next to my ear. "Adrianna, I am only getting started. I told you, I am going to spend hours inside your body," he said, and pushed in until he hit my clit. "You are going to have to beg me to stop, and even then, I still might keep going."
My lips parted and he kissed me.
"Relax for me, malysh, and make love with me."
I nodded, my mind and body opening up completely to him.
"Think about what I am doing to you, how I feel in your tight, little pussy, and know that no one will ever make you feel the way I do."
He was right.
"Kiss me," I whispered, and he did.
Kova's body made love to mine, his lips matching the tenacity of his hips, so nice and slow until I was quivering and on the verge of release.
"Oh, just like that," I moaned, my eyes closing.
"Look at me. I want to see your face when you come around my cock."
That was all it took. I opened my eyes and searched for his, my orgasm taking complete hold of me while my body rippled with pleasure. I gasped, taking little breaths of air as euphoria took hold of my body. My hands squeezed his, and he returned the gesture. I was coming so hard I was on the verge of tears.
"Yes, like that, Adrianna. Just…like…that…" He drew out like he was proud and rocked into me. "I wish you could see your face when you come. How your eyes get glossy, feel how your pussy pulsates around my cock. You squeeze me so fucking hard I just want to tear into you harder."
My thighs were sticky with my pleasure, but I didn't care. Kova loved it, and so did I.
"Do it. Give me everything and don't hold back," I said.
Desire subsided and Kova loosened his grip on my hands and sat back on his knees to straddle me, still nestled deep inside. Breathless, I didn't move and stared at my ceiling in a state of astonishment. How could sex be this good? I was dazed and confused by how something like this could be felt. It wasn't normal. It couldn’t be.
Palms skimming my stomach to my breasts, Kova cupped and tugged on my nipples. A zing shot to my core and I drew in a breath. I glanced at him and my eyes immediately dropped to the A on his chest. The blood had stopped and I could see the swollen outline of the letter. His eyes followed my gaze. The corners of his mouth curved into a sexy-as-fuck smile and he pinched my nipples harder as he looked at the mark—my mark—that would scar him forever. His cock jumped inside me and I exhaled from the tenderness.
Looking down at me, Kova's eyes were glittering with depraved thoughts, and it sent a shiver down to my toes. I bit the side of my lip and awareness sparked through him.
"You were wet when you cut into me. It made you feel good."
I nodded subtly. It was partially true. There were things that made me curious, I just never spoke about them because I thought it made me weird.
"I was also so over everything that I wanted to inflict pain on you because I wanted you to feel the pain that's consumed me for months. What I felt inside was because of you, and I wanted you to experience it. I wanted you to feel it more. But then the kidney diagnosis happened, and I feel like I'm constantly being lied to for my protection. I feel like I have to have this tight hold on my emotions for everybody else's sake and I just fucking snapped. Cutting into you felt like I was releasing all this pent-up emotion, like I was hitting this crazy high and it was all coming out of me. No one to fight me, no one to control me. No more lies. I was in control for once, and I was free of this fucking burden that couldn’t hold me down anymore." I licked my lips. "I'm ashamed I used you like that. I'm so sorry."
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