by J. M. Walker
“It is but if you stay here, naked, it’ll motivate me to be quick.”
She laughed.
I bent over her, placing a soft kiss on her pretty little clit.
A soft gasp escaped her. “You need to go.”
I chuckled. “I’ll go and when I come back, we can try this position.” I gave her clit one final kiss before placing a peck on her mouth. “Then I can watch my cock fucking your throat.”
Her pupils dilated. “God, you say the sweetest things.”
“Don’t get dressed.” I stepped away from her before she distracted me even more. I headed to the door and glanced back at her.
Lily rolled back onto her stomach, her curly light brown hair falling around her face. She gave me a soft smile. The glow in her cheeks was because of me. The marks on her skin? All me. She unleashed something inside of me that I enjoyed, and I couldn’t wait to continue exploring it with her.
Lucas
WITH MY TOUCH EMBEDDED on Lily’s skin and my cum deep inside her, I left her naked on my bed and went to the business part of the building.
When I unlocked the place, I flicked on the lights. A moment of dread washed over me. It was an odd feeling. And one I didn’t enjoy either.
I headed to the front. The sun was setting but it was early enough that the street lights weren’t on yet. It had been a long fucking day, but the night would end well at least. My face broke out into a grin. I could still feel Lily’s touch all over me, smell her, taste her. Hear her.
My body stirred. Clearing my throat, I gave myself a shake and checked my emails. There weren’t too many, so I sent off the ones I needed to. I was about to close up when I saw Mel standing at the door.
My stomach twisted.
She gave me a small wave, pointing at the doorknob.
I huffed, going to the door and unlocking it. “What are you doing here?” I demanded, not letting her enter.
“Did you get the package?” she asked, her eyes roaming down the length of me.
“I did and they’re going to be destroyed.” I went to shut the door when she slapped a hand against it.
“Aren’t you going to let me in?”
“No.” My jaw clenched so damn hard, a searing pain shot up the side of my face. “You should leave.”
“Are you alone?” She looked past me. “Where’s your little girlfriend?”
In my bed. Where she belongs. “She’s around. What do you want, Mel?”
“To talk.” She pushed up against me. “Please, Lucas. I didn’t get to see you last night.”
“You need to leave,” I repeated, stepping away from her. I wasn’t sure what she was getting at, but she shouldn’t be here.
“Please, Lucas.” Mel looked down, her nostrils flaring.
I shifted on my feet, not liking that she was looking at me like I was a piece of meat. I had been fantasizing about Lily, my cock now semi-hard because of it and Mel noticed. Fuck.
“I just want to talk.” Her gaze popped back to mine. “I promise.”
I searched her face. A moment of pity washed over me, so I stepped back, letting her enter. But I didn’t let her near me and headed to the back. “What are you doing here?” I asked again.
“You left abruptly at the coffee shop yesterday morning.” Mel followed me. “I wanted to talk to you again. But I didn’t want to do it with Lily around.”
“What?” I spun on her. “So we could talk about those videos? No thanks.”
“It was my childhood too, Lucas.” She frowned. “I’m a victim just like you are.”
I scoffed. “Right, well, those videos proved that you liked it a lot more than you ever let on.”
“Fuck you.” She closed the distance between us and shoved me back.
“Stop.” I gripped her shoulders, pushing her against the nearest wall. “What the hell do you want?”
“You, Lucas.” She reached for me, but I grabbed her hands, pulling them above her head. Her pupils dilated. Shit. She arched against the wall. “So, did you show her that side of you, the side you’ve been trying to ignore? That delicious side? I remember the first time I helped you cut yourself. Hottest and dirtiest sex I ever had.”
My jaw clenched, my stomach twisting over the shit I used to do.
“I want you,” she repeated.
“What the fuck is wrong with you? I’m with Lily.” I released her roughly and stomped to the back of the shop. I didn’t want her following me to the apartment. I had to check inventory anyway, but I hadn’t planned on doing that tonight.
“Lucas.”
I ignored her and headed into the storage room. The door closed behind me followed by a click. I spun around. “What the hell?”
Mel pulled her dress to her hips. “I know you want me. I can see it on your face, Lucas. I’m not stupid. And neither is Lily. She knows she can’t compete with me. I also see that delicious bulge in your pants. Did you fuck her? Did you leave your cum dripping from her soaked pussy?” Mel licked her lips and pulled the dress up and over her head, leaving her naked.
“Put your dress back on.” I turned away, averting my eyes.
“Lucas.” Mel came up behind me, placing her hands on my back and pressing her body up against me. I could feel the heat coming off of her and smell that damn rose perfume.
“Stop,” I said but my voice wasn’t as firm as I would have liked.
“Fuck her, Lucas. I know you want it. We all know you want it.”
I couldn’t do this. I tried shoving Mel off of me, but she only latched on, digging her nails into my skin.
“I know you want me.” Mel pushed her hands beneath my shirt, lifted it to my shoulders, and placed kisses on my back. “Did you tell Lily how you got these scars? How you begged for them and the pain made you come so fucking hard?”
“Stop, please stop.” Fuck, I felt like a little boy again. I was trapped with nowhere to go.
“Say it, Lucas. Say that you want me. Say that Lily can never satisfy you like I can.” Mel ran her hands over my abs before pushing them into the waist of my sweatpants.
I jumped, taking a couple of steps back until we hit the wall.
Mel gasped, her hand wrapping around my dick.
“Stop,” I pleaded.
“Take it, Lucas. Let me show you what you’ve been missing. Lily can’t give this to you. But I can.”
Soft hands wrapped around me, stroking, tugging, pulling the pleasure I had never felt before right from my very body. I groaned, arching into the rough touch.
“That’s it, Lucas. Take everything you want from me.” Hot lips trailed over my chest. “I know you want me. You will always want me.”
“More,” I pleaded.
Bright blue eyes met mine. “Mama told me you would like it like this.” Teeth grazed up the length of my cock, the sweet scent of roses billowing around us.
I hissed, the pain roaring through me. “More.”
“That’s right, Lucas. My love. I’ll give you more. Always more. Always me. Mama wouldn’t want it any other way.”
“No.” I snapped out of it, shaking my head and pushing out of Mel’s hold. I backed away from her, palming my erection.
“Lucas, you clearly want me or else you wouldn’t be hard right now.” She sidled up to me, cupping me over my pants. “Come on, baby.” She kissed my chin. “Give it to me like you used to. Fuck me. You can use every inch of my body. It’s yours. All of it is yours.”
“Stop.” My body shook.
Intense pain surrounded me. The agony was hot, brutal but so damn satisfying all at once. I was confused. Turned on. Disgusted with the way I enjoyed it. But I couldn’t control it. I couldn’t control any of it.
“Take it, Lucas. Mama and Bobby need the money. We look good on camera.”
A hot mouth trailed down my stomach to my dick. I had tried so damn hard not to enjoy it. Not to feel any pleasure. But I couldn’t stop it.
Lily.
Something in my mind snapped. I could still feel the
pleasure coursing through me. It turned hotter. Brighter.
A gagging sound erupted into my ears.
I glanced down, expecting to see Lily when my gaze landed on Mel. My dick was deep in her mouth.
“No.” I shoved her off of me, her teeth scraping along my shaft at the rough move. I hissed, the pain slicing into my heart. “You…” I growled. Rage coursed through me. I had never hit a woman before. Not by choice. But this…my hands clenched into fists. “I remember. Fuck, I remember everything. How you used that damn rose perfume to get into my head. How you’re still fucking using it. That’s why you wear it. I also remember how you seduced me. How you seduced all of us. All because your mom and Bobby put you up to it.” I backed up until I hit the shelf, items falling off of it and landing on the floor. I stuffed my cock back into my pants. I needed a shower. I needed to wash her off of me. She wasn’t Lily. She wasn’t my Lily. But she had me in her mouth. Fuck me. “You knew…you know I’m fucked up. You knew saying that shit would break me. That rose perfume would…” My chest rose and fell. I was on the verge of losing my shit. This was going to break Lily’s heart. I was going to lose her. Hell, I didn’t deserve her. This was no excuse. It wasn’t. “Get out. Get out of my fucking sight.”
Mel sauntered toward me. “I remember how you got off watching me. It would make me come even harder when your eyes were on me.”
I gripped my shirt, my heart thundering behind the walls of my ribcage.
“It was the only way I could get your beautiful cock inside of me,” she went on. “Even though it was just my mouth.” She shrugged. “You still taste as good as I remember too. I especially like that pretty little octopus. And what happened when we were kids.” She shrugged like it had been no big deal. “You wouldn’t have done it any other way. So they made you rape me. But I loved it, Lucas.” In a quick move, she stood right in front of me with her hands on my chest. “So good. Best cock I’ve ever felt. Mama and Bobby loved watching you fuck me.” She kissed my chin. “I remember the first time you came inside me. I thought for sure you would have gotten me pregnant. All that cum.” She moaned.
“Stop.” I shook my head as the memories came rushing back. My mind had tried protecting me but now, I remembered. I remembered it all. I shoved her back. “This isn’t right.”
“But we have more movies to make.” Mel reached up and cupped her breasts, pinching her nipples. “Please, Lucas.”
“No.” I pushed past her and unlocked the door when a hand slapped against it.
“You’re mine, Lucas. You’ve always been mine. It’s why you couldn’t have a relationship with anyone. I know it’s been me you’ve wanted this whole time.” She cupped me over my pants, pressing her palm into me. “You’re still nice and hard too. I told you that you would always want me.”
I spun around, forcing her back against the shelves in a rough move. “I’m going to tell you this only once. I love Lily. I belong to her and she belongs to me. I felt guilty because I haven’t kept in contact with you but now I don’t. You can go fuck yourself, Mel.” I shoved away from her and unlocked the door. Throwing it open, I stepped out of the room when I was met with Lily staring back at me.
Her eyes were wide. She glanced past me.
“Hello, Lily. He’s all yours now,” Mel said from behind me. “We just finished.”
I looked over my shoulder, my stomach sinking. Mel was leaning against the table, still completely naked. She wiped a finger over the corner of her mouth.
A sharp inhale forced my head back around.
Lily’s cheeks were red, her hands clenched into fists at her sides.
“Lily.” I took a step toward her.
She lifted her hand and slapped me. The sting of her palm erupted through me.
“I was wondering where you were. Clearly…” Her chin wobbled. She shook her head and spun on her heel.
“Lily, please wait.” I rushed to her, grabbing her arm and stopping her from leaving. “Let me explain.”
“Let go of me,” she sobbed.
“No, I—”
“Well, it’s been fun, Lucas.” Mel was finally dressed and headed past us to the door. “Until next time.” She glanced at Lily. “Keep him warm for me, okay?”
Lily screamed, diving at her.
I caught her around the middle, holding her back.
Mel only laughed and left the shop.
I placed Lily back on her feet. “Lily, I—”
“Don’t.” She went to the door, but I stepped in front of her.
“Please let me explain. Whatever you think happened, didn’t happen.” But something did happen.
“Alright, Lucas.” Lily crossed her arms under her chest, leaning against the counter. “Tell me then. Did she touch you?”
I flinched. “Lily, I—”
“Answer the damn question,” she snapped. “Did she touch you?”
“Yes,” I croaked.
“Where?”
A breath left me on a whoosh. “What?” There was no way she would want to know that.
“Where did she touch you?” Her eyes fell to my waist. “She obviously touched your cock because I can see that hard-on you’re sporting. So what did you do? Did you fuck her? Did she give you a hand job? Did she suck your cock?”
I looked away.
She laughed. “God, I’m such an idiot.”
“No.” I reached for her and before she could jump away from me, I had her in my arms. “I’m sorry. She came in here, begging me but I swear to God I didn’t want to do anything. I tried pushing her away. I promise I tried.” I rained kisses on Lily’s face. “Please, baby. You have to believe me. I didn’t know what was happening. I promise I didn’t. I…” How the hell could I explain that my body reacted because her touching me brought me back to when I was a kid? And during the memories, she started sucking my cock? It was fucked up and she sure as hell wouldn’t believe me because I wouldn’t if the roles were reversed. It didn’t make sense.
“Stop.” Lily struggled against me. “Lucas.”
“Please. I can’t lose you. Fuck.” My chest tightened. “I can’t. I refuse.”
“You should have thought of that before you let her touch you.” Her eyes burned bright with fury. “Before you let her kiss you. Before you let her put your dick in her mouth. Did you fuck her?”
“What?” My eyes widened. “No.” I shook my head. “No.” I cupped her face. “You’re the only one I want. I didn’t fuck her. I promise I didn’t fuck her.”
“But she sucked your cock,” she whispered. “Did she make you come? Or no? Is that why you’re hard? You didn’t come yet? Did you want me to do it for you? Because I can. Is that your thing? Having multiple women?”
“Stop.” I shook my head. “Stop with these questions. You know that’s not true. I want only you. What happened…what you walked in on…I don’t know how to explain it but please let me try. I need to try.”
“Did she hint for more?” Lily asked, ignoring me. “I obviously interrupted something. Tell me. You left me alone in your bed after you fucked me. Is that your thing too?”
“No, baby. No.” I pulled her away from the door, needing to bring her back to my apartment so I could sit her down and talk to her. To tell her how sorry I was that she had to walk in on that. To prove to her she was the only one that I wanted. She was my life. She was the light in the darkness that shadowed my world since I was a kid. “Please, Lily,” my voice cracked. “I need you.”
“I can’t.” A sob escaped Lily. “She was naked. I walked in and she was naked, Lucas. She sucked your cock.”
“I…”
“You looked away when I asked. I’m not stupid. She had your cock in her mouth. A part of you that’s been mine for the past few months. Or did you have other women too in that time?”
“Fuck no.” I fell to her feet, wrapping my arms around her waist. “It’s only been you. I’m sorry. She was saying things and it triggered memories. But then I thought of you and I snapped o
ut of it. But she was already…I was already in her…”
“She was sucking you off.” Lily’s breath hitched. “You cheated on me.”
“No.” I squeezed her. “I didn’t. She forced herself on me.” I felt like a little boy again, getting molested and abused repeatedly. Mel was no better than those bastards. “I’m sorry. I didn’t want that to happen. I know it doesn’t make sense.”
“Explain it to me because the images in my head aren’t helping. I can only see you two together and it makes me sick. I can see her on her knees.”
“I’m sorry. I didn’t touch her. But I remember. I need to tell you everything.”
“I can’t…I can’t compete with this. I can’t compete with her. Not when she still wants you.”
I jumped to my feet. “What are you telling me?” I whispered, brushing my face into the crook of her neck.
“I think…” Her body trembled. “I think we’re done.”
“No,” I yelled, crushing her to me. “I love you.”
“Love isn’t enough,” she cried, pushed away from me, and started pacing back and forth. “Not after what you two have been through together. I see the way she looks at you. Even if what you say is true…even if you didn’t want her, your body sure as hell does.”
“It’s not the same, Lily.” I couldn’t believe this was happening. After all of this time. After everything we had given each other. “I didn’t react to her because I wanted to. I know it doesn’t make sense. Fuck, I’ll talk to a shrink, so they can explain. I didn’t remember everything until now. It’s fucked up. I know it is but I…please let me explain.”
“Explain?” Lily stopped pacing. “Lucas, there’s nothing to explain.”
I fell back to my knees, wrapping my arms around her waist. “Please, Lily. I need you. I’ve been fucking broken until you came along. You’ve fixed me.” My throat burned, tears pricking the back of my eyes. I wasn’t an emotional man, but this was far worse than anything I had ever endured. I would take the abuse of my childhood over and over again before dealing with losing Lily.
“I love you, Lucas.” Lily crouched in front of me and cupped my face. “But I love you too much to make you stay with me when clearly you still have feelings for her.”