Finding Me: Dominant Devils Book Three

by H. M. Stewart

  “So, does this mean you’re okay with Breezy wearing my patch and my brand? You finally going to give me your fucking blessing asshole?”

  “Yeah, yeah, you got it, fucker. Just remember you hurt her I hurt you. If I ever find out you raised a hand to her, degrade her in any way or if one day you decide you want to step out on her for a piece of strange I will be the judge, jury, and executioner. I will have every right to end your ass and I won’t think twice about it either, man. Fuck me! It just finally hit me that I have two sisters I gotta fucking look after and both of them are too beautiful for the likes of you two assholes. I’m just glad my mother never decided to date again. I don’t think I’d survive it!”

  “I would expect nothing less, man. If I ever hurt her I will deliver myself to you for whatever punishment you want to deal out. Now, let’s celebrate like my girl wants us to tonight, then tomorrow we’ll work on getting that lawyer’s ass on the line and get the rest of the shit shorted, which I want to tackle first thing tomorrow. I feel like Bree has a target on her back until this inheritance shit is squared away,” I say knowing damn good and well that I will never have to deliver myself to Wall. I know in my soul that I would never do anything to fuck over Breezy.

  With the issues between Wall and I squashed, my anxiety seemed to fade for the time being. I felt somewhat at peace as I watched my girl sip her favorite wine while she gossiped and laughed with the rest of the women of the club and tried not to think about what tomorrow would bring. If there’s one thing I’ve learned over the last year, it’s that life is too fucking short. Things can change in a blink of an eye, so you might as well enjoy the good times and shake off the bad shit.

  “Well fellas, it’s been a helluva night and right now I think it’s about that time for me to take my oldlady upstairs. My boy will be up at the ass crack of dawn which doesn’t give me anywhere near enough time to get my full of his mama and catch a couple hours of sleep. Later, fuckers,” Axle said as he got up from the table. Seconds later he had a squealing Avery thrown over his shoulder as he walked out of the kitchen headed for the stairs.

  It didn’t take long after that for the rest of us to follow suit. Everyone was soon breaking off going their separate ways to get settled in for the night while I went outside to check in with the prospect. After a quick conversation with the prospect, I walked over to my bike to collect my phone I’d left in the saddle bag earlier. After checking the garage to make sure it was locked up I went back to the house in search of Bree. I wasn’t lying to her when I told her I was planning on taking things slow with her. I wasn’t about to rush her or do anything that would scare her off but if she thought she was sleeping anywhere other than in my arms she had another thing coming.

  In the thirty minutes or so that I had been outside it looked as though everyone had cleared out. The kitchen was cleaned up and the dishwasher was quietly humming leaving no sign of Breezy. My first thought was to storm down the basement steps and start ripping blankets and pillows off bodies until I found her but that would land me in some hot water with several of the brothers plus I’m sure I’d end up catching a bullet from either Athena or Madison’s gun. That wouldn’t make anybody happy or do anybody any good. Instead, I shot her a text asking if she was still up while I walked towards the living room. Hopefully, I could persuade her to bring her sexy ass up here to curl up in the oversize lounge with me again tonight. Tomorrow morning though I’d be talking to Carrin about Bree and myself moving into the bedroom Queenie had been sleeping in on the second floor. I mean no harm to the woman, but she could sleep downstairs with the rest of the unattached females, so my woman and I could actually have a damn bed to sleep on. There are so many firsts I was ready for Bree to experience and they sure as hell weren’t going to happen on an oversized chair in a living room that one of thirty people could walk in and catch us in the act. Just the thought of it was making my fucking blood boil.

  I stomped through the house making a detour to the bathroom to take a piss and brush my teeth. Before flipping the light off in the bathroom I checked my phone like some lovesick fucking punk to find that Bree hadn’t responded to my text. Knowing that no good would come of me barging in downstairs I made a beeline for the living room to try and get sleep. I wasn’t sure whether what I was feeling, pissed or hurt that Bree hadn’t thought to wait up for me, I specifically told her that we wouldn’t be sleeping apart from here on out. Maybe this was her way of taking a step back. Maybe she was planning on running away from me. Maybe she was pissed and rightly so, that I kept all this shit from her for months. I could feel fear starting to creep in my chest at the thought of my girl taking off and never to be heard from again. Panic was beginning to set in when I threw the French doors to the living room open. They both made a loud thud as they bounced off the wall when they struck startling someone who had been curled up in my chair in the dark.

  I froze at the bell-like sound of Bree’s voice as she squealed. “Oh my God! Tank, is that you?” I couldn’t form words as my body worked through all its fucked-up emotions it had put itself through over the last few minutes before finally letting relief take over. I walked over to the lamp sitting on the end table to the side of chaise lounge and flipped it on. The low light cast across my girl giving her an angelic glow. I stood there speechless as I drank in the beauty that was my Breezy.

  “Tank, are you okay? Is there something wrong,” she asked truly worried about me. I’m sure I looked like a madman wanting to devour her probably scaring her half to death.

  “I good now, babe. I just went a little nuts when you didn’t respond to my text. Where’s your phone, baby?”

  “It died earlier so after dinner I put it on the charger downstairs then when everything happened I kind of forgot about it. Is everything ok? Please tell me that there isn’t more bad news. I don’t think I can take much more. I'm barely hanging on to my sanity now as it is,” she answered me as I noticed her glassy eyes. I could tell she was trying hard to keep the tears at bay, but they weren’t far from falling down her beautiful face.

  I was still getting used to this, but my primal instincts kicked in and I rushed to lay next to her pulling her as close to me as possible. With her head on my chest, I wrapped my arms around her back and kissed her head and held her while the damn finally broke. I’m not sure how long we lay there while she shed those built up tears, but I had no intention of moving until she was done. I rubbed her back and kissed her head every so often as I whispered to her telling her that everything would be okay.

  Eventually, I felt the change as her crying stopped and her breathing slowed. She looked up at me with those big whiskey-colored eyes and I felt a pang cut rut through my rugged heart. I never wanted to see my girl hurt or upset. I took her head in my hands and pulled her close enough to kiss her soft lips before making her a vow, “baby, I promise you that better days are coming. I will do every fucking thing I can to make sure you are safe and protected. You are mine and I take care of what’s mine. You will never face anything alone ever again. I don’t want you to worry about a thing.”

  Bree

  When I came in here to fall asleep my last thoughts were of Tank. I hoped he would find his way in here to me tonight. I needed him more than ever. Everything felt right with the world when I was in his arms. When Tank busted through the doors startling me awake something in me caved. I’d been trying so hard to keep myself together. I have had so much thrown at me in such a short amount of time and even though I know he wasn’t far from me tonight, it felt like there were miles between us. Then the look on his face chilled me to the bone. My first thought was that something else was going on with the club but then once he assured me everything was fine that he was just worried because he couldn’t get in touch with me my heart melted, and my emotions took over.

  Without any words, Tank took his spot beside me on the chaise lounge, pulled me into his arms and just laid there holding me while I got it all out. It’s like he knew instantly he was what
I needed, therefore I let myself soak in the comfort he was able to bring me before my body’s needs began to take over.

  It’s true, I do need him. I need all of him, but I just didn’t know how to go about getting everything I needed. Yeah, I’ve read enough smut books and written enough of them but how do you look at the man you love, one who has a line of waiting and wanting women a mile long, and tell him you want to make love to him. Scratch that, what I was feeling wasn’t love it was pure animalistic lust. I wanted to rip his clothes off and lick every inch of the tattoos that cover his body.

  I raised my head from his chest to look him in the eyes trying to find a way to convey what I was feeling. I was so lost just staring in his exotic purple eyes I almost missed his vow of undying loyalty and protection. Then when his lips touched mine I let my body take over. The kiss started out soft and slow but the inner lust that had been building for years decided it was time to take charge. Before long I had a hand full of his hair holding his face to mine while I dug my nails into his back with my other hand. He was just as affected as me. His hands seemed to move down my back and squeezing my ass tightly. Both of us were in a frenzy like we couldn’t get close enough to each other.

  The kiss continued as I mauled his back and pulled his hair while he let go of my ass to snake his calloused hand under my tank top to play with my breast. I held the kiss for as long as I could while he pinched and tweaked my nipples before I had to pull back to moan. It felt so good. My sex was soak and wet throbbing needing more. Tank showed no mercy as he assaulted my neck and my chest with his mouth. He would nip a spot then lick and suck where he had bitten giving me a taste of both pleasure and pain. It was enough to have me panting like a dog in heat. My body was on fire with every nerve ending like a scorching inferno. I was so lost to the passion I didn’t know what to do with myself.

  I was so caught up in him I didn’t realize he had lowered the straps of my tank top exposing my overly large chest. Before I could be pulled from my lust induced haze he continued working me over palming my right breast while sucking the nipple into his mouth. It was like something I’ve never felt before. The vibrations around my areola when he spoke were too much to handle. I heard myself whine to encourage him to do as he promised. I was chasing something I just wasn’t sure how to get there but I knew I was ready to skyrocket at any moment.

  “Awe, baby, you need to cum don’t you. Part of me wants to be selfish but I can’t do that to you. Not tonight anyway. Spread those pretty legs for me, love and I’ll take care of you sweet girl.”

  I did what he asked unable to feel the slightest bit exposed with everything else he was making me feel. Tank released my nipple with a pop using his tongue to trace circles around my breastplate until he was lined up with my other nipple to suck into his mouth. Seeming pleased with himself he softly moved hands down the sides of my stomach to the waistband of my sleep shorts. With an expertise I didn’t want to waste time thinking about Tank released my nipple and began kissing his way down my stomach while his hand that was hooked in the waistband of my shorts to pull them down my legs.

  I was laying with my tank top around my waist, my legs shoulder width apart and my sleep shorts pulled down as far as my legs would allow. I was starting to lose my mojo as embarrassment was starting to creep in when Tank stopped and looked up from his knees in front of me. “You are so fucking beautiful, Breeanna. I need to taste you, baby, but I won’t if you’re not ready. Just say the word and I’ll stop.”

  If he stopped now, I’d die a million deaths. I wasn’t sure how to tell him what I wanted though. I was stuck pondering how to say what I was feeling when he started to move to get up. Panic started to take over me. I couldn’t let him stop. Lord knows I’d never get any sleep tonight without taking care of my overstimulated clit and I would much prefer Tank be the one to relive it. Before he could stand me up I placed my hand on his shoulder to stop him in his place. Tank looked a slight bit confused as I shook my head no before I moved to wiggle the rest of the way out of my shorts and pushed my top down along with them.

  Once I was sprawled out in front of him completely naked I should have felt even more insecure but one look at Tank’s appreciation was all it took to push my awkwardness aside. The look he was giving me gave me the courage to feel sexy and bold. In that moment, I felt comfortable in my own skin and wasn’t afraid to show it off. With shaky confidence from somewhere within I took my index finger and traced a path from my chest down my stomach to the inside of my thigh. “What exactly did you want to taste?”

  Tank took a deep gulp and let out a loud groan before he could answer me. Obviously, he was just as affected by me as I was him. “I want to taste all of you. I can’t wait until the day when I can lock you in a room and taste every square inch of you but tonight we don’t have time for that. I won’t chance someone coming in here and seeing you like this. We’ve already gone farther than what I wanted until I can secure us a room with a fucking lock, but you are all worked up and I’ve promised to take care of you, baby. A promise is a promise and I keep my promises. Now you’re going to lay there while I lick and suck on your pussy until you want to scream my name, but you’ve got to be quiet because I don’t need anyone coming in here. Then I’m going to wrap you in my arms and we're going to sleep until the world drags us out of this room tomorrow.”

  I couldn’t help but grin as I spread my legs for him even further. I welcomed the thought of his tongue swiping across my wet folds. Tonight would be a night of many first to come and with Tank at the helm. I couldn’t wait to experience them all. We were both staring at each other in some sort of waiting game. I was growing impatient with the thoughts of what he would be able to do to me with his tongue only making my need for this man grow. I didn’t remember saying the words but the next thing I know they were out of my lips. “What are you waiting for then?”

  That was all it took. Tank was like an animal diving in for his pray. One minute he was kneeling cautiously a foot or two in front of me and the next he had his head buried between my legs with one arm across my waist with his massive hand cupping my right breast holding me in place. The first swipe of his tongue across my clit brought all the intense feelings back to the surface. I had orgasms before, lord knows I’d given myself plenty but the build-up to this one was something I’d never be able to duplicate.

  I let all my inhabitations go, throwing my left leg over his broad shoulder and fisting both hands in his thick hair pulling his face in as close as I could get it while he licked me from front to back getting me wetter than I already was. I could feel my juices running down the inside of my leg as my orgasm continued to build. With the sinful attack Tank was inflicting on my over-sensitized clit I let my body take over chasing my climax and let myself give in to the overwhelming need to get there by any means possible.

  It was like a total out of body experience that I never wanted to end. I was so lost in reaching orgasm I found myself raising my hips as much as he would allow to grind myself against his face. The day-old stubble he was sporting was rubbing the inside of my thighs raw, but I couldn’t stop to care nor, could I control my need to shout out loud. “Oh my God Tank! Yes... Yes... Yes… Right there, don’t moooovvve...,” I managed to get out before the I let out the loudest moan I’ve ever heard as I finally reached my goal. It hit me all at once. The most incredible feeling I’d ever experienced. My body went as stiff as a board as the explosion erupted from between my legs. It sounds so cliché, but I literally was left seeing stars. For how long I don’t know. I was so lost in the moment it took a while to register that Tank was placing soft kisses on my tingling skin as he moved up my body until he was allowing me to taste myself on his lips.

  All too soon he was pulling away placing a sweet kiss on my forehead. “Sleep now, baby. Tomorrow morning I’ll be sure to try to convince Queenie that we need our own room. Hopefully, it won't take too much convincing for her to swap us sleeping situations. We need somewhere for just the two of us
so I can taste you anytime I want,” Tank mumbled have asleep already.

  I didn’t have the energy to agree with him let alone get up to dress myself after the mind shattering orgasm he gave me moments ago. Instead, I moved so that I would be in his arms all night and let him wrap us in the thick down comforter I had managed to swipe from downstairs. With my head on his chest, I allowed myself to settle down listening to the rise and fall of my man’s chest. It was my own lullaby that carried me through the thoughts of all my dreams finally coming true. I finally had everything I’d ever wanted. I would make sure to thank the gods I ended up in this town. If the lord didn’t work in mysterious ways I would have never made the trek through this small town. I would have never found my place in this world if Carrin hadn’t been so nice and inviting when I first met her working in the small grocery store in town.

  Right before I allowed myself to give into the much-needed sleep trying to take over, I made a promise to myself that no matter what comes from my estranged parents I would cut all ties to my old life. My life is here in Great Falls with my over-extended family I’ve found my place within the Dominant Devils MC. I would put down roots and live this life with the perfect man and the perfect family by my side until the end of time!

  Chapter 18

  Tank

  “Wake up Romeo. I’m getting ready to make the call to the lawyer’s office. I’m sure your ass will want to be in the room when I do. Wall’s already up and pacing wanting to get the ball rolling,” Happy is saying as he’s shaking me awake.

  My first instinct was to pull Bree closer to me in an effort to protect her from Happy’s peering eyes. My girl fell asleep curled up next to me naked as the day she was born. I really didn’t want to wake her buying tearing Happy a new ass because he caught sight of what’s mine. Even if it would have been purely accidental.