The Secret Book of Paradys

by Tanith Lee

  “Do you remember when he brought us here?” asked Felion of Smara. “These bird statues frightened you.”

  “That was your fault,” said Smara, “and you made it worse.”

  “So I did. But you were the only one I had power over. We were just children.”

  “I know why you wanted to come here,” she said. “But I’m not really willing. Don’t you think, after all, it would be an act of madness?”

  “Perhaps. Isn’t that good?”

  Smara looked away, down across the City. From the denser lower levels of the fog, the decayed towers of the cathedral rose. “Today it’s quite easy to see, the Temple-Church.”

  “Yes. But tomorrow it may be hidden.”

  “Don’t you think,” she said, “our uncle might have lied? We were children, as you said. I barely recollect what we saw.”

  “I’ve never forgotten. I’ve dreamed of it for years. That wall of smoking whiteness –”

  “No,” she said. “No, don’t.”

  “You must help me,” he said.

  “Why? If it is a labyrinth, it’s simple. One hand always on the left side wall, and it will bring you to the center. And the right side wall to return.”

  “Then you don’t want to come with me to see –”

  “Maybe it goes nowhere. Why should it go anywhere? He was mad, too.”

  Felion gazed up at the bird things. He said slowly, “He named us as his heirs. That was straightforward enough. So we inherit this pile of stone, and we inherit the labyrinth, if it exists – and it does. And then there’s that rambling letter he wrote to us. The rest of the inheritance.”

  “Suppose,” she said, “you and I are insane, like all of them. But we haven’t realized.”

  He shrugged. She did not look alarmed – even, possibly, hopeful.

  “We’ve done our best to act out madness,” he said. “What else can we do?” He took her hand again. “Let’s go in. Let’s see what the house is like, at least.”

  They went over the terrace to the big door, and Felion spoke to it the numbers written in their uncle’s parting letter. The door opened, and a long dark hall stretched out, lined with marble abstracts, ending in a broad stair. High up, a round window let in the sinister light. Mist hung on the air.

  They walked in, and for two hours they went over the mansion their uncle had willed to them. It was like everywhere else, no better, no worse, one with the other grand and rotting buildings of the City, bulging with furniture, art objects, defaced books, and technological gadgets, which, usually, had ceased to function.

  Finally they came down into the basement, and there they found the narrow door that neither of them, in fact, had forgotten.

  “Shall we see if it’s still there? Perhaps it’s vanished.”

  He told off the other set of numbers to the door, and when it swung away, he moved down the sloping floor beyond. After a moment, Smara followed him.

  At the bottom, in blackness but for the glow of Smara’s floating lamp, was the odd little railway track and the carriage that ran along it. But the car refused to work. So then they walked along the track, between the blank walls, and so out into a kind of cavern, which must lie somewhere inside the hill, behind the hundred steps, and under the foundations of deserted houses.

  At the far end of the cavern rose a white gleaming wetness.

  It was another wall, but it seemed made, of all things, from ice. An arched entry led into it. Inside, only more of the whiteness was to be seen.

  “Of course,” he said, “it would have scared you. You were afraid of winter, even though there never is a winter anymore.”

  “It was the picture you showed me on that screen. The snowfields, and the frozen water.”

  “But this,” he said, “how can it be ice?”

  “It could be anything,” she said quietly. “He made it.”

  Their gnarled uncle had claimed to be a scientist, a physicist and mathematician. That one day in childhood when he had brought them to his house, he had explained to them so many things that they had understood nothing at all. And then he showed them this.

  It was a labyrinth, he said, built by him, that formed a connection between two worlds: the world of Paradise and the world of another city, similar but also different. In this other city the atmosphere was clear, a sun and a moon and stars shone down. Technologically, its society was not so advanced, but neither had it atrophied. And while an aspect of madness prevailed there, it was not the rooted insanity of Paradise.

  “I believe,” said Felion, “that he did what he said. He reached the second city and he lived there. And as he approached death, he decided to offer us, too, the chance of freedom.”

  “How spiteful of him,” she said, “to make us wait so long.”

  “But time is changeable in the labyrinth, didn’t he say so? We could penetrate this world at any point in time, past, future – I don’t grasp the ethic of it. It must be random, uncontrollable.”

  “Or a lie,” she said again.

  “But he was gone for years,” said Felion. “Where did he go?”

  “Oh, he concealed himself.”

  The white wall remained there before them, empty, menacing; unavoidable?

  Smara moved away, and began to return along the track in the floor. Presently Felion went after her.

  They negotiated the slope and emerged from the door, which shut, back into the basement.

  “Did you,” she said, “kill this week?”

  “Oh, twice,” he said. “An old woman on the river bank, and a painter near the cathedral. I saved you his brushes.”

  “I haven’t killed,” she said. “So I must. I’ll do it tonight.”

  “Shall I come with you?” he asked, solicitously, gently.

  “I prefer to work alone when I can. But thank you. Shall we meet at the bar beside the third broken bridge? I’ll kill someone with rings, and bring you one, Felion.”

  ONE

  Paradis

  There was a little girl

  Who had a little curl

  Right in the middle of her forehead;

  And when she was good

  She was very, very good,

  And when she was bad she was horrid.

  – Longfellow

  After the storm the wrecked ship lay on the beach, against the bright broken gray of the sea. From the ship’s side spilled her cargo of smashed glass and oranges, like blood from a wound. Her sail hung, a snapped wing. In the sky, great white clouds massed.

  Leocadia stepped back from the painting and put down her brush. She rubbed her hands on a rag.

  Was the picture finished? Yes. Surely. And yet …

  Perhaps there should be a figure, hanged, depending from the ruined mast, with long black curling hair.

  If she painted that into the picture, it would help them, would it not? Of course, they would say, because she is insane, she paints herself hanged from the ship’s mast.

  Leocadia shook back her long black curling hair, which fell almost to her waist. Her features were sharply clear as porcelain, and out of her feline face looked two black eyes. She had been admired before, and she had lost count of her lovers, of both sexes, only recalling a few with nostalgia or irritation.

  There had always been enough money to do as she wished. To drink and fornicate and paint. She had never envisaged anything else, except perhaps one day a novel she would write, a lover who might truly pleasure or pain her, the possibility that alcohol might undo her. But not yet. She was thirty. Her parents, who had died when she was five, in a car accident on one of the vast new City highways, would normally have lived long. Life expectancy was quite high, and her family, especially its women, survived. There had been the two grandmothers – thin, healthy, wicked old women, vaguely resembling each other – one with hair that, at a hundred and three, was still thick with jet black waves. But the grandmothers were gone now, and the uncle, her guardian, had died in the winter (no one was invited to the funeral) at ninety yea
rs of age. He was incredibly, frightfully, frighteningly rich. That had never mattered. Then it turned out that it did.

  Leocadia went into the little alcove, and opened the refrigerator. She took out a bottle of white transparent wine and uncorked it. The cold box was full of the things she liked, salads and cheeses, smoked fish, drink. She wanted for nothing. (They saw to that – was it their guilt?) Nothing but that amorphous element, her freedom.

  “Imprisoned, poor thing.” Leocadia spoke to the wine in the bottle. “Let me set you at liberty.”

  Her cousin, Nanice, had arrived at ten, on that morning in the past. She had not been alone. The man might have been taken for an escort, a boyfriend. Nanice was ugly, but she too had money. And anyway, the man was ugly also. They stood, uglily, on the steps below the old house which had, nevertheless, been fitted with an automatic door. The door relayed their images to the bedroom, where Leocadia was lying in the sheets with Asra.

  Leocadia slept with women more from a wish for power than from lust. She loved their lips and breasts, but mostly she liked their helpless pleasure, and that they would tend to defer to her. Asra, though, was pert.

  “Good God, who are those awful creatures?” said Asra.

  “I don’t know.” And Leocadia had touched the intercom. “Who are you?” she asked.

  “I am your cousin, Nanice le Vey. And this is Monsieur Saume. May we come in?”

  “Lock the doors, load the cannon!” cried Asra.

  “It’s a little early,” said Leocadia. She had felt nothing but mildly annoyed. No premonition.

  “It’s after ten,” Nanice had said with strange smugness. “And we’ve come such a long way.”

  “Why?” said Leocadia.

  “Do you mean to be uncivil?”

  “Probably.”

  “If we must, we’ll wait elsewhere, and return later.”

  “I repeat, why?”

  Nanice preened herself, the redundant gesture of a well-but-ill-dressed, unattractive person.

  “It’s about Uncle Michelot.”

  “He’s dead.”

  Nanice frowned. “Yes, I know the poor old gentleman is deceased.”

  The images from the door were incoming only, and Leocadia rose naked from her bed. Yet Nanice seemed to sense this, and she frowned more heavily.

  “I will let you in,” said Leocadia. “Wait in the salon downstairs. The service will bring you anything you want.”

  It came to Leocadia that the salon, which was often quite tidy, dusted by the house service, and the floor polished, accented by fresh flowers, was on that day disheveled. The previous evening she had allowed Asra to have a sort of party, and the service had not yet been summoned to clear up the mess. The ashtrays overflowed with the stubs of cigarishis, the pictures were crooked, bottles and books lay everywhere, the light was still on, and someone, probably Robert, had been sick in a vase.

  Leocadia laughed. She visualized the stiff visitors in the midst of chaos as she went to the shower. Asra lay in bed, complaining: She hated people, they had had enough of people the night before. Leocadia, who had been stupid enough to have relatives, must make them go away.

  Leocadia went down half an hour later to the salon. She wore a cream silk housedress, her hair was wet, and she was barefoot. In one hand she bore a tangerine, which she was eating, flesh and peel and pips together, and in the other a tall glass of white vodka.

  The visitors were perched in the midst of chaos, as anticipated. Monsieur Saume stood, his hat in his hand, and Nanice teetered on a chair as if afraid it must be dirtying her skirt.

  The room smelled thickly of smoke and drugs and perfume, thankfully not of vomit.

  Leocadia pressed a button and the windows opened.

  Outside, the spring day was warm yet brisk, and the gray streets of old Paradis curved and climbed among the ancient plane trees.

  “So,” said Nanice, “this is how you live.”

  She looked happy, and quickly smoothed her expression back to one of discomfiture.

  Leocadia curled her toes about a black bottle lying on the rug, and picked up the glass with her foot.

  “Yes, luckily you came at a quiet time.”

  “Quiet! My dear Leocadia – what are you doing to yourself!” exclaimed Nanice. Her protestation was so insincere, that even Monsieur Saume seemed embarrassed.

  “I am,” said Leocadia, “existing.”

  “And there is,” said Nanice to Monsieur Saume, “a young woman in the bedroom, as you heard. And in that glass – don’t think it’s water.”

  “Would you like a vodka?” asked Leocadia. “I suppose you’d prefer something less pure; tea or coffee, I expect.”

  “No, nothing, thank you,” said Nanice.

  “Then perhaps you’d tell me, at last, why you are here.”

  Nanice lowered her eyes.

  Her falseness was so utter, so unflawed, that Leocadia was fascinated.

  “You have no guardian, now Uncle Michelot has died. I know,” said Nanice, “you haven’t seen him, been near him, for years –”

  “No one has,” said Leocadia. “He was a recluse. He disliked intrusion. One wonders why.”

  “Oh, I tried to see him,” said Nanice. “One could try. Cousin Brand and I were constantly making approaches. But as you say, either he was a very private man, or else …” Nanice looked momentarily laughably cunning, as if she could hardly credit how clever she was being. “Or else someone put him against us. Against all of us.”

  Leocadia shrugged. From her uncle and former guardian she had received adequate funds, and once a year, on her name day, she had been sent some gift, always simple, never very expensive, but infallibly strange. The news of his death had jarred Leocadia. She had scanned the letter bordered in black, slightly puzzled by its wording, which seemed to say, euphemistically, that he had gone to better things. The letter told her, too, that Michelot had made provision for her, and she was glad of that. She had never known him, beyond a glimpse or two in childhood. He had chuckled, apparently, when she was expelled from her school, and provided her with private tuition. He seemed to understand her well enough, and did not insult her with feigned affection.

  Nanice, of course, would have wanted much more. Family gatherings of hugs and kisses, rich presents, and now, obviously, some remuneration that was, presumably, absent?

  “He left you out of his will?” asked Leocadia, pouring more vodka and ice into her glass from the entering service tray, and from a silver pot a cup of delicate, slaty tea.

  “His – oh, Leocadia. You know quite well that he left out all of us. This wasn’t what I came here to discuss, but if you insist. All twenty-three of his nearest and dearest were discounted. His kindred. All but you, and – well, this is very odd – two other cousins no one has heard of and who cannot be traced. They are mentioned as your inheritators. But frankly, we think he made them up.”

  “Oh dear,” said Leocadia. “Is that why Monsieur Saume is with you? In case I’ve been invented too?”

  Nanice looked abruptly flustered.

  “Monsieur Saume is – my companion.”

  “And he has no tongue,” said Leocadia. “What a shame. A man’s tongue has so many wonderful uses.”

  Nanice stared. Then she colored. Monsieur Saume did not alter. He had not moved at all, like a skillful lizard on a rock when predators are nearby.

  Leocadia took a sip of tea, then a sip of vodka, and let the bottle drop from her toes.

  “I still don’t see what you want from me. Are you asking me to make you some sort of bequest? I will if you like, but your own lawyers must see to it. Such matters are very boring. I have things I like to do instead.”

  “Paint horrible nightmarish pictures and sleep with lesbians!” cried Nanice in an explosion of true venom. “And drink your brains to slop. Oh, I know. We’ve been watching you –”

  “Mademoiselle le Vey,” said Monsieur Saume.

  Leocadia was surprised. At the final response of the si
lent Saume. And at the idea that someone had been watching her. It was true, Leocadia was used to being stared at: She was both striking and eccentric and did not much care what she did before others. But to be the object of a spy?

  “Why have you watched me?”

  Nanice compressed her little mouth into a littler line, like a zip.

  It was Monsieur Saume who said, “There has been some concern, mademoiselle.”

  Leocadia raised her eyebrows.

  “Well, it can stop now. As you see. Here I am.”

  “It can hardly stop,” said Nanice. The zip wriggled vindictively. Again, Nanice seemed happy.

  “But I,” said Leocadia, “say it must stop.”

  And as others had done, confronted by Leocadia’s anger, Nanice looked alarmed.

  “Monsieur Saume,” she cried, “you see she’s quite unstable, like her paintings we showed you –”

  There had been a recent exhibition of Leocadia’s work at the First Gallery on Clock Tower Hill. Some pieces had been sold for quite extravagant amounts of cash. Did Nanice resent this, too?

  Refilling her glass of white wine now, in the alcove of the refrigerator, Leocadia understood quite well that Nanice had wanted Monsieur Saume and others like him to note the content of the pictures, not their cost. The centaurs with the heads of swordfish, the horses in ballgowns, the women in the arms of women, men in the arms of men, winged cats and burning mansions.

  But then, that day in the salon of the old house near the antique City wall, Leocadia had lost patience, and so rendered Nanice invaluable assistance.

  “I’m afraid,” said Leocadia, “you must get out. You’re wasting my time. If I lay eyes on you again, Nanice le Vey, I’ll have you thrown, down, off something, into the river. Do I make myself clear?”

  Nanice sprang up. And her look now was of real terror mixed with great satisfaction. As she moved toward the door she knocked into the vase Robert had used, which broke on the floor, splattering her with sick and dead ferns.