‘Gabe,’ I gasped as I gripped his shoulders, my nails biting into his flesh. It felt so much more sensitive than with my vibrators, so much bigger too, I wasn’t sure he was going to be able to get into me. As he continued to ravage my mouth, his right hand grabbed my buttock and pulled me in closer to him. I felt myself give way inside and I screamed his name out loud as he forced up through my tight canal.
‘O my god Mia,’ he groaned as he made it all the way in. ‘You’re so tight, you fit me like a glove. You feel so much better than I ever imagined.’
It seemed to spur him on to go quicker and harder and I could hear myself shouting his name and various obscenities over and over between my panting. I bit his lip as I wanted to inflict an element of pain on him too. When I tasted his blood and sucked on his lip, it only seemed to encourage him to be wilder. He continued to thrust, harder and harder, faster and faster, circling his hips as he pushed. I reciprocated, it was like dancing, I was just following the rhythm. I felt pleasure and pain all at the same time, he was filling me completely, length and girth and I felt like I was going to split open. One minute I wanted to yell at him to stop, the next I wanted him to push even harder. Every nerve he touched was firing off signals to my brain, I was on overload. This was it, I was doing it, I was actually having sex. Not just sex, this was hot, passionate, wild and frenzied sex.
‘Shit,’ I yelled as he pulled my bottom in to angle himself even deeper. Sweat was clinging to our bodies and my hands kept sliding off his shoulders, so I dug my nails in as I raked his back frantically trying to keep a grip on something, or to at least try to slow him down.
‘O god you’re so good,’ he gasped as his left hand pumped my breast and pulled firmly on my nipple. ‘Come for me Mia, I need to feel you come.’
He thought I was good? Seriously? Suddenly I didn’t feel the pain anymore, I was hit by the high of it and I was so wet. Every pleasurable sense was now heightened, my skin was on fire and I felt a volcano inside me rumbling.
‘O god Gabe, don’t stop, I want you,’ I groaned.
His mouth sought mine out again and he pushed a hand behind my head to keep our lips locked for longer. The sensation of his thickness rubbing inside me was like nothing I’d ever experienced before, my vibrators were so much thinner and shorter. I’d never have imagined something so big could’ve fit in me, let alone feel so good. I could feel an orgasm approaching, but it felt different to any I’d ever had before, I’d never come before without clitoral stimulation. I also felt the vague sensation of needing to pee, so I quickly clenched my pelvic muscles as tightly as I could in a panic.
‘Fucking hell Mia,’ Gabe yelled as he threw his head back. He came back to kiss my ear as he moaned. ‘O my god baby that was amazing, do that again.’
So I did, I clenched and released, milking him for all he was worth as he bit and sucked on my neck and my orgasm started.
‘Gabe, I’m coming,’ I sobbed, tears of sheer elation and exhaustion started to stream down my face.
‘I’m right there with you,’ he groaned as both of his hands gripped my hips.
He pulled and pushed as his thrusts grew faster and even more intense, our hips moved in unison, back and forth and around and around. I felt exhausted and as I hit my peak, I sobbed his name as my whole body convulsed, my toes curled in my boots and I felt tingling up my spine and into my head. I could feel wetness running down my thighs as each shockwave ran through me, his body responded and he gave one final thrust, which felt as if it were going to shatter my insides.
I felt him shudder as he yelled my name and I felt him flexing inside me. His body juddered a few times and then went from tense to relaxed against me. Our heads fell against each other’s shoulders, as his body held me up against the wall, his hands moving from my hips up my back to hold my shoulder blades and pull me closer to him. He was still inside me and I didn’t want to move, I wanted to stay like this totally exhausted and filled with him for as long as I could.
I heard us panting in unison, he recovered quicker and lay a trail of kisses up the side of my neck and along my jaw. After he finally kissed my lips he cupped my chin, looking into my eyes and I could see my face reflected in them. I looked flushed, my hair was all matted and I had panda eyes from smudged mascara, kohl and tears.
‘I knew you’d look even more beautiful after we did that,’ he whispered as he placed another gentle kiss on my lips. ‘Are you ok? You were crying you came so hard.’ He lowered his hips and started to slide out of me.
‘That was seriously intense,’ I smiled, then winced. Even though he’d carefully withdrawn, the pain returned and coldness entered where his warmth had been only seconds before. So that was sex? I liked it, I more than liked it, but I didn’t like this horrible empty feeling after and the lack of body contact. I watched as Gabe removed and tied off his condom. He looked puzzled and looked over at me as I felt more dampness coating my thighs and went to wipe myself and he stepped back to me and caught my hand.
‘God you didn’t say it was your time of the month,’ he frowned.
‘It’s not,’ I said puzzled. ‘Not for another week.’
‘Shit I knew you were tight. I should’ve been more gentle, you’re bleeding.’
‘No you were fine, more than fine, you were amazing, it was so amazing.’ I felt my eyes well up and I chewed on my top lip trying to hold back the tears, but I was too exhausted and emotional. They began to roll down my face as my legs started to tremble.
‘What’s wrong? Baby what’s wrong?’ he asked. He moved into me and started to gently wipe the tears away from my cheeks, but it only made more flow down. He clasped my face and looked at me in surprise and I watched his face change as the realisation hit him. ‘O god, tell me that wasn’t your first time?’ he groaned. ‘Mia, please tell me it wasn’t your first time?’
‘It’s no big deal,’ I said, trying to smile through my tears as I tucked my hair behind my ears.
‘It is a big fucking deal,’ he shouted as he stood back and ran his hands through his hair, his face paling. ‘Jesus Mia. I thought … I mean the things you said, the things you did. I just naturally assumed you were experienced too. Christ you must think I’m such an arsehole, taking you outside, the toilets, the booth and how I just fucked you now.’ He looked at me with such hurt in his eyes it made me feel even worse.
‘I thought it would put you off if you knew how inexperienced I was,’ I said as my eyes welled up again. I hung my head, too ashamed to look him back in the eyes.
‘Baby please don’t cry. I’m sorry I yelled, I’m just in shock because I hurt you. I’d never have intentionally hurt you Mia, you have to believe me.’ He pulled me into him and wrapped his arms around me and I buried my face into his chest as he stroked my hair over and over. ‘How could you think you’d have put me off Mia? Don’t you know that men love being a woman’s first? God if you’d have told me it would’ve been so different. I would have wooed you and been all romantic.’
‘Wooed me. Seriously? How old are you?’ I mumbled.
‘Mia it’s not funny. I would’ve waited as long as it took until you were ready. When you were, we would’ve taken our time. I would’ve got you relaxed and we could’ve taken it nice and slowly and I would have been so gentle with you. At the risk of sounding like a girl, I’d have made love to you. Not what I just did, I just fucked you, that was some hard fucking, which I’d never have done if I’d known. God the things I did to you in public in the club … I’m so sorry Mia.’
My stomach filled with butterflies and turned over and over as I looked up at him. I’d never heard anyone so sincere, he really was upset and suddenly I felt bad for him.
‘No Gabe, please don’t apologise. I should be the one who’s saying I’m sorry. Now I feel like a shit for deceiving you. You didn’t force me to do anything I wasn’t ready to do, I could’ve said no at any time. I told you I wanted sex with you and you did as I asked and it was amazing. Right now though I’m feeling
a little weak and shaky and I’m worried about bleeding on my nice new cream carpet.’
He smiled and took my hand. ‘Is this your bathroom?’ He nodded at the connecting door.
‘Yes.’
He led me in and sat me down on the toilet, washed his hands and then came and unzipped my boots and pulled them off one by one. He cleaned the inside of my thighs with some wet toilet wipes, despite my protests and embarrassment, then grabbed my fluffy white dressing gown off the back of the door and wrapped it around me, kissing my forehead. He turned and put the plug in the bath and started both taps.
‘Where’s your bubble bath?’
‘In that cabinet next to the bath,’ I replied. I watched as he stood naked, filling the tub. His dick was still semi rigid and bobbed about as he walked across the room. I took a moment to drink in the sight of gorgeous Gabe, naked in my bathroom and sighed.
He turned and smiled. ‘What is it?’
‘You just have the most perfect body I’ve ever seen,’ I whispered.
‘So do you,’ he replied as he tilted his head and smiled at me. Me? A perfect body? Was he visually impaired?
‘I’m hardly rock hard with defined abs,’ I mumbled.
‘That’s a man’s look, I hate women all sculpted, it’s not natural. You’re toned, curvaceous and amazing. How are you feeling now?’
‘Fine, a bit sore and hungry, but I’m ok thank you.’ Why was sitting talking to him now, feeling more intimate than the actual sex?
‘Well I’ll get you in the bath to relax and then I’ll cook you something.’
‘Cook? You’ll be lucky. I think we have cereal and popcorn and maybe some milk and apple juice.’
‘Seriously? Popcorn and apple juice it’ll have to be then. Right I think this bath’s ready.’ He held out his hand and I reached out to grab it as he pulled me up from the toilet and led me to the bath. He took the dressing gown off my shoulders and held my hand as I stepped in, one foot after another and lowered myself down and he leaned over and kissed me.
‘Right, where’s the kitchen?’
‘Opposite, the door on your far left.’ As I watched his pert bottom leave the bathroom, I marvelled at how comfortable he was wandering around the house and in front of me naked. I leaned back and gently parted my legs, feeling a slight sting as the hot water hit me. I could hear him rummaging in the cupboards and the beeping of the microwave. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the warmth of the water and the bubbles crackling and exploding on my skin. I was totally drained, but in a good way. I smiled to myself, I’d just lost my virginity and found out sex was seriously good. I now felt so relaxed and sleepy.
I heard him pad into the bathroom behind me and opened my eyes. He placed a tall glass of apple juice on the cabinet at the end of the bath and told me to inch forwards and climbed in behind me. His solid thighs went either side of my hips, gripping me and he pulled me back onto his chest, placing his left arm under mine and around to clutch my stomach, his fingers circling my navel. His right hand came around and balanced a bowl of popcorn between my bent knees and stomach.
‘I can’t believe this is the best food you have in the house,’ he uttered as he grabbed a handful and munched.
‘Lexi and I live on the stuff, well that and takeaway pizza, Chinese, Thai and curry and it never did either of us any harm.’
We munched our way through the bowl, without any more words for a while. He nuzzled his face into my hair and kissed the side of my head. It felt quite natural being with him, just sitting here eating, our bodies touching and enjoying the silence. He leaned over the edge of the bath and put the empty bowl on the floor, grabbed the soap and lathered up his hands and put them both on my shoulders. He started to massage my neck and shoulder blades and my body started to soften under his fingers, damn he was good. Was there anything he wasn’t good at I wondered?
‘You know you really shocked me with your virgin revelation tonight, I’d never have known.’
‘I thought it must have been obvious. It took me ages to pluck up the courage to touch your … well… touch you down there.’
‘What? You’re not telling me that you’ve never given a hand or blow job before either?’ he exclaimed sounding shocked.
‘The odd hand job over their pants, but no I’ve never done either of those things or let guys do that to me either. I’ve kissed plenty of guys though.’
‘Kissing aside, I’m seriously impressed. Not only was that the best blow job I’ve ever had, you win a best actress award.’
‘Really it was good? You’re not just saying that to make me feel better?’ I asked as I twisted my head to look at him.
‘It was that good Mia, it was amazing. A little hint for future, me telling you how good you are, groaning and then coming in your mouth is a guaranteed sign you’re doing things well. How did you even know what to do?’
‘I was given some tips by Lexi and I’ve watched and read a bit of porn and done internet research.’
‘You watch porn? O my god. You’re like the perfect woman. Next you’ll be telling me you love sport,’ he laughed and kissed me again, running his finger along my jaw.
‘Now there I draw the line. I wouldn’t mind seeing you swimming though if that’s ok? I bet you look great in your tiny trunks.’
‘Of course it’s ok. If you were lying waiting for me at the other end of the pool bikini clad, I may just break a world record.’
He finished massaging my neck and shoulders and his hands moved under my arms and began to soap my stomach and waist, moving up to my breasts and I felt my nipples respond and wriggled back into him.
‘Not again,’ he stated firmly.
‘Why not?’
‘Because I hurt you. You need time to recover before we do that again.’
‘So we’re doing that again?’ I asked shyly.
‘Try stopping me, I intend to take you up on your rule of frequent no strings fucking at every opportunity once you’re better.’
‘It didn’t feel like no strings when you meet Milo earlier,’ I said and felt his body tense behind me.
‘Someone I’m seeing having male friends is new territory to me. I won’t lie I don’t like it, I know what he’s after, but I’m going to have to trust you and learn to deal with it.’
‘At least I’m not parading around in a tiny outfit for them all to ogle. It’s bad enough knowing other woman are ravaging you with their eyes when you’re fully clothed, let alone in your trunks,’ I pouted.
‘Ravaging me with their eyes?’ he laughed. ‘Well they can do that all they like as I only have eyes for you, even more so now as I know how far you went tonight to please me.’
‘Don’t make out like I was totally selfless Gabe. I wanted pleasing too.’
‘Did I please you?’ he asked quietly. I was surprised to detect an element of nervousness in his voice.
‘Yes, you were … it was … I loved it Gabe.’ I blushed and felt his body relax as he kissed my temple. He gently put his hand between my legs and soaped me clean, pulling me back with his other hand on my stomach as I tried to push against his fingers.
‘I told you no Mia, you need a break before we go there again. You’re insatiable.’
‘I’ve a lot of time and orgasms to make up for.’
‘Believe me, I promise I’m going to give you as many orgasms as you want Mia, but not tonight. Come on the water’s getting cold.’
He stepped up and out and helped me up, wrapping a big white bath towel around me, mummifying me in it and pulling me into his arms. We stood for a while, breathing in each other’s clean scent, before he released me and we dried ourselves off. I removed my makeup and grabbed my toothbrush and offered him one of my new spare ones and we stood naked, side by side brushing our teeth and grinning at each other though mouthfuls of foaming white.
He grabbed me and swung me up into his arms again making me giggle, he made it seem so effortless. He carried me back to the bedroom and pulled the duvet back and dep
osit me gently in it. Once I was lying down he pulled the duvet back over me and kissed my forehead.
‘You’re not staying?’ I asked surprised. I don’t know why, but I just thought he would. It seemed a bit rude to have sex, to be that intimate with someone and then just leave.
‘I’m worried that if I sleep next to you I’ll be ready for more and I don’t want to hurt you again. I could sleep on your couch.’
‘Do you have no willpower?’
‘Apparently not when it comes to you. Anyway sleeping over and cuddling is hardly no strings Mia.’
‘If it was a one night stand you’d at least have stayed the night in my bed and possibly tried it on again with your morning hard on before making a run for it. I’ve seen it happen with Lexi lots of times,’ I pouted.
‘Fine, but you don’t know how difficult this will be for me, so you’ll owe me one,’ he said as he climbed in behind me. My breathing quickened as I felt his body brush against mine.
‘Come here,’ he ordered and I turned to face him. He put his arm under me and pulled my head to his chest and I could feel my heart pounding. I hadn’t even been this close to Kai when we fell asleep together, let alone naked. Gabe nosed my hair and kissed my forehead and I tentatively stretched my left arm and leg over him and heard him make a contented sigh and felt his dick perk up again. I looked up at him through my lashes.
‘No. God damn it, stop looking at me like that Mia.’
I nuzzled back into his chest and felt myself glowing all over, I felt warm and comfortable and safe. I was sleeping naked, naked with a seriously hot guy who’d just taken my virginity. He wasn’t going anywhere for now and I was still in control. Something inside nagged at me though. He seemed to really like me, was he falling for me? Just like Kai and the others? The minute they all seemed in too deep I panicked and ran, I made sure I left them before they left me.
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