Twisted Palace

by Erin Watt

  I swallow around the knot in my throat. Her words are so full of pain, and I don’t know how to take it away.

  “I thought,” she continues between gulps of air, “sometimes I thought that my mom was wrong to haul me around the country, running from one bad relationship to another. I thought maybe it would’ve been better if I’d grown up with Steve. An O’Halloran, not a Harper.”

  Oh hell. I haul her into my lap, placing her wet face in my neck.

  “I know, baby. I love my mom, but I think bad thoughts about her, too, sometimes. I get that she couldn’t live with herself, but she should’ve tried. Because we needed her.” I stroke Ella’s hair and press a kiss on her temple. “I don’t think being angry or resentful that our mothers let us down is disloyal.”

  Her small body heaves. “I wanted him to love me.”

  “Oh, baby, something’s wrong with Steve. He’s not capable of loving anyone but himself. That’s his flaw, not yours.”

  “I know. It just hurts.”

  The driver’s door opens, and Dad climbs in. “Everything okay back there?” he asks quietly.

  His eyes meet mine in the rearview mirror. I remain silent, because I know it’s a question for Ella.

  She shudders and sighs and then lifts her head. “Yeah, I’m a mess, but I’m going to be okay.”

  She slides off my lap but keeps her head on my shoulder. Dad backs out of the parking lot and starts the drive home.

  “I told Val once that you and I are mirrors,” Ella whispers to me. “That we fit in some weird way.”

  I know exactly what she means. The complicated feelings we have for our mothers, for their weakness and frailty, for their hidden strengths and the love they showed us, for the selfishness that affected us…all these things are part of what twisted us up inside, but somehow those tangled strands fused until we were whole again.

  Ella makes me whole. I make her whole.

  I used to be scared of the future. I didn’t know where I’d end up, didn’t know if the anger and bitterness inside me would ever truly go away, if I could ever feel worthy or find someone who’d be able to see through the asshole I pretend to be to the rest of the world.

  But I’m not scared anymore, and I did find someone who sees me. Who really, truly sees me. And I see her, too. Ella Harper is all I’m ever going to see, because she’s my future. She’s my steel and my fire and my salvation.

  She’s everything.

  37

  Ella

  One Week Later

  “What’s this?” I ask when I get out of the bathroom dressed in my favorite hanging-out clothes—a T-shirt of Reed’s and a pair of shorts.

  Today’s dance team practice ran long, so I told Reed to go on home without me. Once I got back, I made him wait until I showered, even though he claims he doesn’t care if I’m sweaty.

  Now, I walk into my room and find an assortment of colorful brochures on my bed. Most of them show pictures of teens clutching schoolbooks against their chests.

  “Pick one,” Reed says. His eyes are fixed on the TV.

  As I get closer, I realize they’re college brochures—about ten of them. “One what?”

  “Pick where we’re going to college.”

  “We?” Curious, I flip one open. UNC, the brochure declares, has been granting degrees since the eighteenth century.

  “Duh.” He rolls over on his side, crumpling half the glossy pamphlets under his fit body.

  “We’re choosing together?” I say in surprise.

  “Yup. You said you wanted to dance, so there’s a couple here that offer a good arts degree.” He rummages through the pile and pulls out a red-and-white brochure. “So UNC-Greensboro offers a dance degree and so does UNC in Charlotte. They’re both accredited by the National Association of Schools of Dance.”

  A familiar heat starts to course through my body. “Did you research all this stuff?”

  “Sure did.”

  I suck in my lower lip so I don’t break out in tears. This has to be one of the nicest, most thoughtful things anyone’s ever done for me. I don’t do a good enough job of hiding my emotions, because Reed vaults over the bed and drags me against him.

  His eyes search mine. “Are you upset about this?”

  “No. This is so sweet,” I blubber.

  Smiling, he sits on the edge of the bed and positions me between his legs. He looks half embarrassed, half proud. “I figured it was the least I could do. What were you planning to do before Dad kidnapped you?”

  “Ha, so you admit he kidnapped me!”

  He grins. “I just said that.”

  “Fine. I was going to go to community college and get an associates in business. And then take accounting classes for two years and hopefully find a steady job counting numbers all day. I planned to wear a lot of khaki, eat in the cafeteria, and maybe have a dog to come home to.”

  His smile grows broader. “Well, now you can go to an arts college and live off your trust fund.”

  “What about your business degree?”

  He shrugs. “I can get that anywhere. It’s not like Dad’s not gonna hire me. He’s dying for us to get into the family business. Gid has zero interest. East likes fast cars. The twins are more like—” He breaks off before he says Steve’s name. “The twins like the planes and aren’t interested in running the business.”

  I pull out of his embrace and go to the dresser, where I pull out the flier I found on the Astor Park bulletin board tonight—Hailey had pointed it out. I return to Reed and trade his UNC-Greensboro brochure for the flier.

  “What’s this?” He turns it over.

  “It’s an amateur boxing circuit. I know you like to hit things, but you probably shouldn’t go to the docks anymore. This will let you hit and get hit and it’s perfectly legal. I’m not saying you should do it for the rest of your life, but—”

  “I like it,” Reed declares.

  “Yeah?”

  “I can do this, go to classes, and come home to you, right?”

  I melt against him. “Right.” A grin lifts my lips. “Oh, and Val said to tell you to take Wade along. She thinks it’ll be good for him to get punched in his pretty face every now and then.”

  Reed snickers. “I thought they were together now!”

  “They are.” I laugh as I think about our best friends. They’ve been an official couple for a week, and already Val is laying down the law. “But she’s still making him pay for fooling around with someone else.”

  He rolls his eyes. “Chicks are nuts.”

  “We are not.” I pinch his side in warning. “Oh, and by the way, I decided I’m going to take dance lessons. It’s the one thing Jordan does that I’m really envious of. And I know I’m not going to be as good as her with a year’s worth of dance lessons, but I still think it would be cool.”

  “Dad would love that.”

  Reed pulls me on top of him, and I rub against his deliciously hard body. Our lips meet, softly and sweetly. His hands creep under the fabric of my shorts to press me tighter against him. We kiss until we’re breathless and then I roll away, because if we keep this up, we’ll be undressing each other in no time. Dinner’s soon, and we’ve all made a conscious effort to start having meals together as a family.

  Plus, Gideon’s coming tonight and I have a gift for him.

  “How’re you doing with the whole…?” Reed trails off. As usual, he doesn’t mention Steve in anything other than vague terms.

  “I’m good,” I assure him. “And you shouldn’t be afraid to say Steve’s name in front of me. Just don’t call him my father, because he’s not. He never was.”

  “No,” Reed agrees. “He was never your dad. There’s not much of him in you.”

  “I hope not.”

  Except, as much as I want to deny it, Steve is my dad, and that trust fund Reed referenced earlier? It’s all of Steve’s money that he signed over to me, with Callum serving as the trustee. I’ve already reduced that trust by about half, but it was for
a good cause.

  I think Gideon is going to be very, very happy tonight when he finds out about the deal I made with Dinah. In exchange for half of Steve’s money, she burned all the blackmail evidence she had against him and Savannah. I know it’s gone for good, because I stood at the fireplace with her while she lit the match and torched the USB drive, the printed photos, and the legal papers which she haughtily informed me would never have been filed.

  It was the same fireplace where Brooke and her baby died, but I try not to think about that too much. Brooke is gone. So is Callum’s unborn child. Nothing is going to bring them back, though, and all we can do now is put the whole tragic ordeal behind us.

  I reach out to hold Reed’s hand. “Are you okay? Are you feeling better about everything?”

  “Yeah,” he admits. “I’m definitely relieved that I’m not going to prison, but I’m still pissed at your—at Steve. And I’m angry at my mother, too. But…I’m trying to let it go.”

  I completely understand. “What about Easton? Does he seem weird to you lately?” Easton has been strangely subdued this past week.

  “I don’t know. I think he might be all twisted up over a girl.”

  I flip over on my side. “Seriously?”

  The side of Reed’s mouth quirks up. “Seriously.”

  “Wow.” I shake my head in astonishment. “Hell’s frozen over.”

  “Yup.”

  Before I have a chance to grill him more, Callum yells from the foyer. “Dinner’s ready.”

  Reed pulls me to my feet. “C’mon, let’s go downstairs. The family’s waiting.”

  I love that word, and I love the boy who’s taking my hand and leading me out the door so we can join our family.

  My family.

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  Acknowledgments

  When we started writing Paper Princess in the fall of 2015, we wrote it for each other. We traded the chapters back and forth via email. The words flew onto the page.

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  About the Author

  Erin Watt is the brainchild of two bestselling authors linked together through their love of great books and an addiction to writing. They share one creative imagination. Their greatest love (after their families and pets, of course)? Coming up with fun--and sometimes crazy--ideas. Their greatest fear? Breaking up. You can contact them at their shared inbox: authorerinwatt@gmail.com

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