Gone Missing

by Linda Castillo

  I’m about to turn back, when I notice a single skid mark from a short, hard stop. It’s not unusual to see rubber marks on any roadway. People brake for animals. Teenagers, armed with new driver’s licenses, perform peel-outs to flaunt their horse power and show off for their friends.

  These particular skid marks are fresh. My heart jigs when I spot a thin brown cigarette lying in the gravel. It’s smoked halfway down and it’s been run over at least once. Pulling a glove from a compartment on my belt, I slip it over my right hand. I’m an instant away from picking it up when I discern the scent of cloves. And I have proof—at least in my own mind—that at some point Sadie was here.

  I glance over my shoulder, see the sheriff wading through knee-high grass fifty yards back. “Rasmussen! I think I found something! Bring the camera!”

  Nodding, he starts toward his vehicle.

  I return my attention to the skid mark. Cursing the swiftly falling darkness, I follow the direction of the skid to a disturbance in the gravel and a place where the grass has been flattened by a tire. It’s as if someone made a U-turn in the middle of the road. There’s no identifiable tread. Five feet from the skid mark, I find the one thing I didn’t want to find: a dark, irregularly shaped stain. I know immediately it’s blood.

  “Goddamn it,” I mutter, staving off a crushing sense of helplessness.

  “Looks like blood.”

  I turn at the sound of Rasmussen’s voice.

  He pulls a Mini Maglite from his belt and sets the beam on the stain. “Might not be hers.” He looks around, his eyes going to the wooded area at the bridge. “Could be from an animal that got hit. Raccoon or possum that came up from that creek.”

  “Maybe.” But I don’t think that’s the case. More than likely, if an animal had been struck by a car, the carcass would be lying nearby. I motion toward the cigarette butt a few feet away. “Sadie Miller smoked clove cigarettes.”

  We kneel next to the stain. There’s not enough blood to form a pool like the one in Buck Creek. This one is elongated and looks more like a smear, or a scrape.

  Wishing for a magnifying glass, I lean close. I see what looks like bits of flesh that have been abraded by the rough surface. My eyes land on something in the center of the stain, sending a scatter of goose bumps over my arms. “A hair,” I hear myself say.

  “Human?”

  “I don’t know. It’s long. Same color and length as Sadie’s.” I straighten, look at him. “I’m going to call Tomasetti and get a CSU out here.”

  He looks around. “Kate, I hate to say this, because this could turn out to be nothing. But it almost looks like a hit-and-run involving a pedestrian.”

  A dozen arguments spring to mind. We’re overacting. Reading things into this that aren’t there. Chances are, a deer or dog or a fucking raccoon got hit. But considering everything we know, his theory is solid. Too damn solid.

  “He ran her down,” I whisper. “And he took her.”

  He tilts his head to catch my eye, then holds my gaze. “I know you have a connection to this girl. If you want me to—”

  “I can handle it.” I know he’s thinking about the Slabaugh case and the fact that I used deadly force. I guard my secrets well, but he knows I’m still dealing with the aftereffects.

  He nods, but his eyes are knowing. “I’ll get a roadblock set up and get some photos.”

  I unclip my phone, surprised that my hands are shaking. Impatient with myself, I punch speed dial to get Tomasetti. He answers with his usual growl and I fill him in on Mandy Reigelsberger’s sighting of Sadie Miller and the scene Rasmussen and I discovered.

  “You sure the hair is human?” he asks.

  “I’ve never met a raccoon with long hair.” Neither of us laughs. “I was wondering if you could send a CSU.”

  “I can have someone there within the hour.”

  “I owe you one.”

  “I’ll remind you of that next time I see you.”

  I almost ask him when that will be, but I don’t want to sound needy. Maybe because, at the moment, I am. “Anything on your end?”

  “We have a witness who claims Gilfillan with the Twelve Passages Church had contact with Annie King, targeted her for recruiting. Goddard brought him in for questioning.

  In terms of the case, unearthing that kind of connection is huge. “You don’t sound too excited.”

  “Witness is a flaky son of a bitch. Known meth user. Disgruntled because he was kicked out of the church.”

  “So he’s got an ax to grind.”

  “Maybe.” But his voice is uncertain. “Or maybe Mr. Meth is telling the truth and Annie King didn’t want to be recruited and things went sour. I’m working on a search warrant now.”

  I think about Gilfillan in terms of Sadie’s disappearance. “Does he have an alibi for last night?”

  “He claims he was home. Alone.”

  The need to be there, to talk to Gilfillan myself, burns through me. Is it possible the self-proclaimed pastor is preying on Amish youths who are confused about the religious path they want to follow?

  “Keep me posted,” I say.

  “You know I will.”

  CHAPTER 16

  One of the most difficult aspects of a long-term investigation—especially a case in which someone’s life is in jeopardy—is knowing when to call it a night. I know it’s a self-defeating mind-set; everyone needs sleep. But I invariably feel as if I’m turning my back on the victim when I go home. The truth of the matter is, I don’t know how to stop being a cop. How can I go home to eat or sleep or sit on my sofa and watch TV when a young girl is depending on me to find her?

  The answer is a simple matter of human endurance. No one can work around the clock indefinitely. If people try, there will come a point when they’ll become in effective, or, worse, a detriment to the investigation. They reach a point where exhaustion and emotions cloud the decision-making process, reaction time, and good old-fashioned common sense. I’m loathe to admit it, but I’ve been there. I’m not the least bit proud of the way I handled some aspects of cases past. The only positive gleaned is that I learned my limits.

  It’s nearly 1:00 A.M. when I unlock the door of my house and step inside. The aromas of stale air and the overripe bananas I left on the kitchen counter greet me.

  Flipping on the light, I carry my overnight bag to the bedroom and drop it on the floor outside my closet. Physical exhaustion presses into me as I peel off my clothes and toss them into the hamper. But while my body is crying for sleep, my mind is wound tight, and I know sleep will not come easily.

  In the bathroom, I crank the water as hot as I can stand it and step under the spray. I soap up twice, knowing I’m trying to wash away more than just the dirt of the day. I haven’t let myself think of Sadie in emotional terms. I haven’t let myself think about how this could turn out or what she might be going through at this very moment.

  Now that I’m alone with my thoughts, all of those gnarly beasts come calling. I can’t help but compare Sadie’s disappearance to the murder of Annie King. The possibility that the outcome will be the same terrifies me. Another young life snuffed out long before its time. Another family shattered. And all I can think is that I can’t let that happen.

  In the bedroom, I pull on an old T-shirt from my Academy days and a pair of sweatpants. Padding barefoot to my office, I flip on my computer. While it boots, I pull out my Rand McNally road atlas and turn to a map of northern Ohio. Tearing out two pages, I take both to the bulletin board I keep on the wall adjacent to the desk and pin them up side by side. With a black marker, I circle the location of each disappearance. Monongahela Falls. Sharon, Pennsylvania. Rocky Fork. Buck Creek. Painters Mill. I draw a larger circle encompassing all the towns.

  Leaning over my desk, I open the pencil drawer and pull out a red Sharpie, snap off the lid, and go over to the map. I circle Buck Creek, where Stacy Karns, Gideon Stoltzfus, and Justin Treece are located. I circle Salt Lick, where Frank Gilfillan and the Twelve Pass
ages Church are located. I draw a larger circle to encompass each location and go back to my desk.

  I stare at the map. The two large circles overlap each other and include much of the same area. All of the towns, the locations of the victims and suspects, are roughly within a one-hundred-mile radius. In rural terms, that’s less than a two-hour drive. Chances are, the killer resides somewhere within that circle.

  “Why do you do it?” I whisper.

  I turn to the whiteboard and write, Why? with a double underscore. Then “No ransom demand. Sexual in nature? Fetish related?” I think of Annie and Sadie and write, “Vulnerable? Runaways?” Then I add, “Blood found at scenes.”

  “Where are they?” I’m thinking aloud now, letting my mind run with random thoughts and undeveloped theories. “Why did we find Annie King’s body and not the bodies of the others?”

  I divide the board in half with a bold line. Below the delineation, I write, “Suspects: Stacy Karns, Frank Gilfillan, Gideon Stoltzfus, Justin Treece.” Finally, I write, “Unknown perpetrator.”

  “We don’t know you yet,” I say.

  I circle “Unknown perpetrator.” Next to it, I write, “Motive?” And then add, “Why?”

  “Why do you take them?” I say aloud.

  And I know that once we know why, we will find the who.

  The sound of pounding drags me from a deep and dreamless sleep. A hard rush of adrenaline sends me bolt upright. For an instant, I’m disoriented, uncertain about the source of the noise. Then I realize someone’s at the door. My mind registers that the doorbell didn’t ring. Back door, I think, and something else niggles at my brain. A glance at the alarm clock on my night table reminds me that 3:00 A.M. visitors are almost always the bearers of bad news.

  Jerking the robe from the chair next to my bed, I work it over my shoulders and tighten the belt. I open the top drawer of the night table and snag my .38, cock it. Holding the weapon low at my side, I pad silently to the kitchen, sidle to the back door, and peer through the curtains.

  John Tomasetti stands on the porch with his hands in his pockets, looking out over the backyard as if his being here in the middle of the night is the most natural thing in the world.

  I turn the bolt lock and swing open the door. “Don’t tell me,” I begin. “You were in the neighborhood.”

  He turns to me, hands still in his pockets, his face deadpan, and for a split second I’m terrified he’s come here with some dire news about the case. “Actually, I drove a hundred miles, against my better judgment and without telling my superiors, to sleep with you.”

  I laugh, but it’s a nervous sound. “Well, that’s pretty subtle.”

  “That’s me. Mr. Subtle.” His lips don’t move, but I see the smile in his eyes. “Pink robe goes nicely with that thirty-eight.”

  Feeling only slightly self-conscious, I glance down at my threadbare robe, then open the door the rest of the way. “Tomasetti, you are so full of shit.”

  “Yeah, but you’re still glad to see me.”

  The truth of the matter is that he looks damn good standing there in that crisp shirt and those charcoal-colored trousers. Not a good key indicator for a prudent outcome to all this.

  I motion him inside. “Is everything okay?”

  “Definitely looking up.”

  His presence fills the kitchen the instant he steps inside. It’s as if the air itself becomes charged with some electrical energy I feel all the way to my core.

  “I’m sorry I woke you,” he says. “I know sleep is tough to come by right now.”

  “Sleep is always hard to come by when we’re together.”

  “I was talking about the case.”

  “That, too.” Before I turn away from him, I see his eyes sweep the length of me. Trying not to let that rattle me, I set my gun on the kitchen table and flip on the light.

  “Anything new on the case?” I ask.

  Shaking his head, he crosses to the table, works his jacket off, and drapes it over a chair back. I watch as he slides his Glock from his shoulder holster, unfastens the buckle, then sets both on the table. “We got the search warrant for Stacy Karns’s house. By the time the judge signed off, it was too late to get out there. Sheriff’s office wanted to wait until morning to execute it.” He turns to me. “I’ll need to get out of here early.”

  “It’s already early,” I say.

  “I’ve got a couple of hours to kill.”

  “You’re such a sweet talker.”

  “That’s what all the female chiefs of police tell me.”

  I’ve known Tomasetti for about a year and a half now. After a shaky start and a little bit of head butting, we became friends—something that doesn’t occur naturally for either of us. Maybe because we have so much in common. Or maybe because not all of the things we share are good.

  Trust is hard to come by for people like us. But he’s the closest thing to a best friend I’ve ever had. We’ve never discussed it; the truth of the matter is, neither of us is very good at the whole male-female relationship thing. We’re even worse at communicating, especially when it comes to talking about our feelings. This is new ground, I suppose, but I like it. He keeps coming back for more. I keep letting him.

  I go to the living room and switch on the stereo. I’ve always loved music, even when I was Amish and it was one of many forbidden fruits. Once, I stole a CD player from an English girl’s car when I sneaked out to the mall. It was filled with a mishmash of genres—rock, mostly—and I couldn’t get enough. I listened to those songs over and over until my datt caught me and made me return it. As an adult, there’s not nearly enough music in my life. I choose Frank Sinatra’s Fly Me to the Moon and my nerves begin to smooth out.

  I find Tomasetti standing at the doorway of my office, looking at the map and whiteboard I worked on earlier. He gives me a long look when I come up beside him. “You’ve been busy,” he says.

  “Couldn’t sleep.”

  He turns his attention back to the whiteboard. “Maybe you’re right. Maybe we don’t know the suspect.”

  We study the whiteboard for a full minute, neither of us speaking. “I think we’re missing something,” he says finally.

  “Like what?”

  “I don’t know yet.” He walks over to the map and reads aloud what I’ve written. “Once we figure out the motive, we’ll figure out the who.” He turns to me. “The overriding question being: Why the Amish?”

  “Not just the Amish,” I remind him. “Young Amish who have considered leaving that way of life.”

  He nods. “Who would be off ended by that? I mean, off ended so profoundly that he’d go to extreme measures?”

  “Someone who is devout.” I toss out the first thing that comes to mind, playing off his question, brainstorming. “Someone who disapproves of the way these young people are living their lives. Someone who believes they should be punished.” I look at Tomasetti. “Frank Gilfillan and the Twelve Passages Church.”

  “Is he trying to punish them? Recruit them? Or redeem them?”

  “Maybe all three.”

  “So the fact that these Amish teens are confused about their religious beliefs makes them vulnerable. That’s a benefit to Gilfillan. That’s how he finds them.”

  “Maybe Annie King refused to be recruited,” I venture.

  “That could fit,” Tomasetti says.

  “I’m starting to like Gilfillan for this.” I find myself wanting to return to Buck Creek with him in the morning, so I can be there when they execute the warrant. But I can’t leave with Sadie missing. Not when the last missing girl turned up dead.

  An image of Sadie flashes in my mind’s eye. I see her as she was that day on the bridge in her skimpy tank top, with her long brown arms and reckless, engaging smile. Sadie with a can of beer in one hand, a cigarette in the other. Sadie rolling around on the ground and throwing punches with the abandon of a born street fighter.

  “Tomasetti, I don’t want to lose this girl,” I say quietly.

>   “I know.”

  “Sadie is . . .” I don’t know how to finish the sentence. I almost said “special,” but I know in my heart she’s no more special than the others. All of them are someone’s daughter or son or brother or sister. All of them are loved.

  “We’ll get him,” he says.

  “She’s hard to handle. She won’t acquiesce.” I stare at the whiteboard, but I no longer see the words. “She might not have much time.”

  “Kate, we’re doing everything we can.”

  That’s one of the things I admire about Tomasetti; he’ll never prop me up with false hope. He’ll never make promises he can’t keep, no matter how desperately I need to hear them.

  He crosses to me. “I know what you’re thinking.”

  I smile, but it feels crooked on my face. “That I wish I wasn’t on the wagon?”

  He’s standing so close, I can smell the remnants of his aftershave, feel the heat radiating from his body against mine. I see the five o’clock shadow on his jaw, the capillaries in eyes that are red from lack of sleep and too many hours on the road.

  He frowns, but not in a serious way. “You’re beating yourself up because you’re not out there looking for her.”

  The urge to argue is strong. But I don’t. Mainly because he’s right. “Do you want me to lie down on the sofa so you can ask me how I feel about that?”

  “I know this is going to be a stunning revelation for you, Kate, but you and I need sleep and downtime, just like everyone else.”

  “You’re not trying to tell me we’re human, are you?”

  He offers a wan smile, but his eyes remain serious. “I wish I could tell you we’re going to go out there tomorrow and find her and bring her home. That we’re going to get this guy. We both know it doesn’t always work out that way.”

  When I look away, he puts his fingertips under my chin and guides my gaze back to his. “The one thing I can tell you is that we’re doing our best. That’s all anyone can do. That’s got to be enough.”

  I don’t intend to reach for him. But one moment, I’m standing there, feeling shredded and unbearably guilty. The next, my arms are around Tomasetti’s shoulders and his mouth is fastened to mine. The power of the kiss makes my head spin. My body surges to life with an intensity that shocks me. I’m caught in a flash flood and tumbling out of control. . . .