Loving Desire

by Renee Young

  “Fuck, Liv.” He grunted as he reached the back of my throat. I hollowed out my cheeks as I slid him back out, before thrust back on him with no hesitation. My speed caught him off guard as he’d let out another groan. “Can I..” He trailed off. I pulled him completely out.

  “Fuck my mouth.” I demanded. His hands went to the back of my head to hold me in place as he began to thrust his hips.

  He was a wash off heavy breathing and grunting, and his sounds were making it hard for me to hold off. I pushed a little on his hips to signal him to stop and he listened before helping me stand back up. “I want to taste you now.” He said and I raised a brow at him. The only reason I didn’t argue with him was because I wanted that too.

  I let him push me to the wall. He kneeled before and the sight of this gorgeous, alpha male on his knees for me, had me gripping his shoulders a little harder so I could actually stand. He wrapped his hand around the back of my knee and pulled it over his shoulder. His lips met my inner thigh as he trailed up to where I craved him the most. Each kiss had me whimpering. His hand that wasn’t gripping my thigh wrapped up and around my hip. His long arms gave him quite the reach. With one finger he teased the skin just above my clit before he looked into my eyes with a little smirk before he finally touched me when I wanted him.

  His tongue swirled around my clit and my knee holding me up nearly gave out. My hand went out to grip his hair and my head fell back as he continued his magic. I wasn’t even aware of his hand moving. Not until I felt a finger at my entrance. He coated his finger in my juices before thrusting it in.

  “Shit.” I cursed with a moan. “Oh fuck!” I yanked on his hair as he continued his work. His fingers danced in perfect rhythm with his tongue and it wasn’t long before I felt the familiar tightness. “Shit don’t stop!” I demanded. “I’m gonna come. Don’t fucking stop.” He continued his exact pace and I continued to build. With a nip of his teeth on my clit I burst, moaning nonsense as my legs began to quiver. He had to hold me up so I didn’t fall to the ground in a heap of satisfaction. “You may get exactly what you wanted.” I muttered. “My legs are useless right now.” I let out a little laugh and I didn’t miss the smug, proud look he wore.

  “What do you want me to do Liv?” He asked, still trying to give me the control.

  “Fuck me, Sawyer. I don’t care how at this point. I just want to feel you stretching me.” I told him and he scooped me into his arms before walking us over to the bed. He grabbed a condom from his bedside table and I watched as he tore the package open with his teeth before sliding it over his length.

  “Are you ready for me Olivia?” He questioned, looking directly in my eyes as he said my name.

  “Yes.” I answered and I felt him tease the opening of my pussy. The head of his cock pressed in ever so slightly. He continued to move into me, giving me a chance to accomodate for the intrusion.

  “You’re so fucking tight, Liv. So perfect around my cock.” He breathed into my ear. I moaned in response. Words were no longer in my brain. Just feeling. And fuck did he feel good filling up my pussy. He thrust out and then back in with a quick rhythm. My moans matched his grunts and his quick breathing was in tune with my own panting. “You feel so fucking good Olivia. So fucking good gripping my cock with your perfect little pussy.” He spoke close to me again.

  My nails were digging into his back, likely leaving marks on his perfect body. Proof that I'd been there. My back arched, pushing my breasts even harder into him. His lips moved down my neck and over my chest before he took my nipple into his mouth. I let out another moan as that feeling alone could have me coming in just moments.

  “You gonna come for me again, baby?” He asked, pulling away from my boob. “Gonna come all over me while I pound that pretty little pussy of yours.” His dirty talk alone could probably have me bursting without a single touch from him. I clenched around him as I came close to my second release. “That’s it Liv. Come for me. Come all over me.” His voice lowered even more as he continued to thrust in and out of me.

  “Shit shit shit!” I practically screamed. “I’m gonna come!” I informed him, like he didn’t know.” Before long I tightened around him as I hit an orgasm more intense than anything I’d ever felt. He slowed his pace to allow me to ride it out.

  I wasn’t done though, and clearly he wasn’t either. I tapped on his chest to signal for him to get off me and I flipped over onto my stomach. I lifted up onto my knees, keeping my shoulders pressed into the mattress. Hy hands went out above my head and I instantly gripped the sheet as I felt him enter me yet again. He did so with a deep groan at the new pleasure this position brought. His hands held tightly onto my hips as he continued to push in and out of me.

  “You like it like this, don’t you Livvy. Your beautiful fucking ass up in the air for me. Shit Liv.” He cursed, all I could do was try not to scream. “You feel so fucking good.” He muttered again. One of his hands slid up my back before weaving into my hair. He gave it a nice tug, pulling my head back a little and creating a deeper arch in my back. His other hand left it’s place on my hip before meeting my ass with a smack. I jolted at the sensation and let out another moan. He did it again and my pussy clenched around him. “Shit.” He cursed again. “Fuck Liv, you’re gonna make me come.” I reached a hand back and pushed on him. I wanted to control when he came.

  “On your back.” I demanded and he listened. I climbed on him, positioning my knees on either side of him before sliding back onto him. I did it slowly. I wanted him to calm down just a little. “I bet you won’t last another fifteen seconds once I start moving.” I whispered in his ear, making no motion to move. He looked at me skeptically. “When I make you come, I want everyone to hear it. Just like they heard when you made me come. They heard what your huge cock made of me.” It was my turn to be a little dirty with my words. “Tell me you want to come. Tell me you want me to make you come.” I demanded, still not moving.

  “Make me come Liv. Fucking make me come.” He breathed out and I smirked.

  I secured my hands on the bed above his shoulders before clenching his cock tight with my pussy. With a small rotation of my hips and exactly two pumps he was releasing into the condom with a loud groan. “Fucking hell! Shit shit. Fuck, I’m coming.” I watched as his face pinched with his orgasm. His fingers were digging into my hips hard enough that I would for sure have bruises tomorrow. I stopped moving for a moment to let him ride it out. He kept having waves of aftershocks anytime I’d shift even a little bit, but eventually he calmed down and I was able to roll off of him. I was a little sensitive as he slid out of me, but I tried not to show it. I laid beside him and he pulled me so I was laying on his chest.

  “What the hell was that?” He asked in what appeared to be astonishment. His breath was still labored, as was mine.

  “My special trick.” I shrugged.

  “Next time I get to be in charge.” He decided after we’d caught our breaths.

  “Next time?” I questioned, looking at him with a raised brow.

  “There’s no fucking way that was a one time thing, Liv. That was too good to never happen again.” He informed me. He wasn’t wrong.

  “I don’t like sharing, Sawyer.” I said with another shrug.

  “Are you saying you want a relationship?” He asked, pulling away just enough to look at me.

  “No, I don’t necessarily need a relationship. I don’t need a commitment, I just need exclusivity. If I’m your fuck buddy, I’m your only fuck buddy.” I told him.

  “Fucking deal.” He responded with no hesitation.

  Chapter 13

  A large part of me expected Sawyer to have changed his mind the next morning. We had been a little drunk when he’d agreed to my terms, so I wouldn’t have blamed him. Or held it against him. Unexpectedly I awoke before the man who occupied the space beside me, so I used the free time to really look at him.

  I took in his brown hair, that now was rightly mussed. My eyes travelled down his serene fac
e, over his closed eyes and his nose. Past his lips that were slightly parted. My gaze moved further down over his chin that was covered in dark hair, matching his head, before I noticed a twitch of his lips. The fucker was awake. He totally knew I was checking him out.

  “Okay, you can open your eyes now.” I said with playful annoyance in my tone.

  “Well good morning, beautiful.” He smiled wide and shot me a wink before pulling me closer to him. I didn’t miss the fact that we were both bare in his bed. His hard chest against my own while my leg wrapped around his hips. I could feel his hardness pressing against my core. The slightest movement could have caused him to slip right in as it would have been sufficiently lubricated due to the quite vivid dream I had had about him.

  “Good morning, Sawyer.” I responded to his greeting in a breathy voice. There was no hiding my arousal in my voice. His hand trailed down my exposed back until he met my hip where he squeezed and with a little jolt he pressed into me.

  “See what you do to me.” He growled in my ear. The feeling of him stretching me along with his words and breath on my neck had my head falling back with a soft moan. “My turn to take control, love.”

  With that he flipped us so I was on my back and he hovered above me. He used one hand to grab both of mine and hold them above my head on the mattress. “I want to hear how good I make you feel just like last night. I’m gonna have you screaming for me.” He told me as he thrust into me. Hard. I gasped at the welcome intrusion and my back arched, pushing my tits towards him. I had to bite my lip to stop myself from telling him what to do. “Fuck, you feel so good wrapped around my cock. So fucking hot and wet.” He groaned as he began to move in and out. Each thrust was slow and deliberate. I could feel each vein, each perfect imperfection, just added to the pleasure.

  His speed had me screaming, yearning for more. I needed more. More pressure, more friction. He was teasing-testing me. He wanted to see how long I could handle the build. “Fuck!” I cursed as she shoved himself into me. His hips perfectly stretched my thighs apart for him. “Shit.” I couldn’t stop from shouting when he did it again. Each time he hit the spot that had me quivering.

  “You like my cock, don’t you baby? You like how I fill you up.” He rotated his hips just a little, creating a new sensation before he pulled out of me completely. “Roll over.” He demanded and I did what he said, propping myself up on my hands and knees, presenting my ass for him.

  I waited, expecting to feel him push into me again, but I was surprised when I felt pressure on my clit. I looked back to find his face at the junction between my thighs. His tongue moved over the sensitive bud quickly and expertly. I used one hand to keep me propped up, but the other reached back behind me and laced through his hair, keeping his head in place. “Fuck, just like that.” I moaned.

  “You taste so fucking good Liv. So sweet.” He muttered as he continued his assault. “You’re gonna come all over my tongue.” He demanded and I had no problem following his command a moment later when he pushed two fingers into my pussy.

  “Fuck fuck fuck!” I shouted as I came all over him like he’d wanted. He didn’t hesitate to lap up every bit of the liquid that rushed from me.

  I didn’t even have time to recover before he was inside me again. Thrust after thrust, groan after groan, this man was fucking his way into my life, and he was doing it well. He knew exactly where to touch, what to say. He got me off better than any guy I’d been with before him. I chose not to think about how many girls he’d been with to learn his skill. Fuck I didn’t care. They got him ready for me, and if I could I’d write them all a thank you note.

  “Shit, Livvy I’m gonna come!” He announced not too long later. “Fuck you look so good wrapped around my cock, feel so good.” He began to mutter as his thrust quickened. “Shit fuck!” I let out a moan with him as he jerked a bit and filled me with his hot come.

  Soon after, his movements stopped and he collapsed over her. My ass stayed in the air and he had yet to remove himself from me, when I realized we’d forgotten something. “Uh, hey Sawyer?” I got his attention.

  “Mmm?” His response sounded. His breathing was still heavy and it was getting a little difficult to continue to hold us both up.

  “Two things; can we move now?” I asked and he moved off of me and I flopped onto his bed on my back now. “Second, you sorta forgot something didn’t ya?” I flicked my eyes down to his now sated manhood.

  “Shit.” He groaned, following my gaze. “Are you on the pill?” He asked me.

  “I’m allergic to birth control. I’ve tried about eight different ones and each one had me in the hospital.” I answered honestly.

  “Morning after?” He looked at me, hopeful.

  “Only if you want me to stop breathing.” I groaned. “It’s really hard to get pregnant. It’s only twenty percent likely and that’s if the timing was right.” I tried to soothe. We’d been stupid. Too full of lust to think it through clearly. I should have said something, but really it didn’t even cross my mind. I was usually so fucking careful. “Shit.” I used his word.

  “Well let’s talk about it, Liv. What if you do end up being pregnant?” He turned on his side to look at me and I shifted to do the same.

  “I would not terminate.” I told him, not leaving any room for argument. “I don’t think I could give up my baby either.” I shrugged.

  “Okay, so we have a baby then.” He said. He was being awfully calm about this whole thing.

  “I wouldn’t force you to be around or anything Sawyer. Sure, I’d appreciate help, but I know that a baby is a massive commitment. I could do it on my own. I should have mentioned the birth control thing to you before we slept together.” I tried to pick my words carefully. I didn’t want him to think I was trapping him or anything if it turned out I was pregnant.

  “I would never make you do this alone Liv. You and I made a choice to have sex together. I’m the one who rushed us this morning without thinking about putting on a condom. You and I would be in this together. One hundred percent. I am not some teenage boy who would shirk off his responsibilities or anything. That would be our baby. Sure, it wouldn’t be the most ideal situation, but I could think of worse things.” He shrugged and gave me a small smile. “Besides, I’m convinced that you and I would just so happen to create the cutest baby to ever exist.” His smile grew to a little smirk.

  “This is crazy.” I laughed. “I’ve never had such a mature conversation in my life.” I admitted. “I need you to watch what you say and how you treat me. I might just fall in love with you.” I said, half joking.

  “Maybe I want you to fall in love with me.” He looked into my eyes, and his smirk dropped into a serious expression. My stomach turned and I opened my mouth to say something that I hadn’t yet come up with when there was loud banging on the bedroom door.

  “We know you’re awake, the entire house heard you fucking!” My best friend’s voice shouted through the door. I jumped a little at the aggressive shift back into reality.

  “We should get out there.” I whispered, still not sure how to handle what he’d said.

  “Probably. Just remember that whatever happens it’s you and me, got it?” I nodded and we both rolled away from each other to get out of the bed. Sawyer led me to his bathroom, inside the room, to get cleaned up and once that was done he gave me a large t-shirt and a pair of sweats to wear so I didn’t have to redress in my dirty clothes from yesterday.

  “Time to face reality. Think anyone is hungover?” I joked as we walked towards his door.

  “Maybe Tasha.” He joined in and I nodded, hoping she’d be fine. I walked in front of Sawyer in the hallway and I could feel his eyes on my booty, so I made sure to put more emphasis on the way my hips were swaying.

  “If you don’t stop, I might just have to take you right back into that room.” I heard him growl behind me and my lips upturned into a small smirk.

  “But you have so many guests, Sawyer. You wouldn’t want to be a b
ad host, now would you.” I teased and he let out a groan. I could practically hear him debating on whether he should show good hospitality or run back to his bedroom with me and have his way, yet again. “I’m guessing you’ll need someone to stay and help you clean up when everyone is gone yeah?” I offered.

  “Yep, I think it may be an all day job.” I could hear the cockiness in his voice.

  “Fuck, finally! I was wondering if you guys would ever come out of that room.” Jamie’s voice interrupted our playful banter. “Also, super gross hearing your cousin fuck in case you were wondering.” He gave us a pointed look.

  “Yeah it ain’t so cool hearing your brother either.” Ethan added. I honestly just felt proud. I couldn’t even find it in me to feel embarrassed.

  “So who’s gonna run and grab breakfast?” Sawyer asked, not even acknowledging the comments.

  “Becky and Matt are already on it.” Nova answered. I looked around the kitchen and sure enough everyone was there beside the two of them.

  The rest of the morning we spent talking about how fun the night before had been. Everyone seemed to have enjoyed themselves. They were very big fans of our games, and we had all agreed to do it again sometime soon. When Beck and Matt came back with some fast food breakfast we all gathered around the table. It was nice, being in a big group like this. I didn’t feel the overwhelming loneliness that usually settled within me. I was content.

  Having Sawyer beside me, after the night and morning we’d had, was satisfying. I didn’t feel like he’d up and run away if he’d learned about my demons. Even if we were in just a sexual relationship, it still felt nice to have some semblance of companionship.

  His comment earlier played through my mind. Had he really meant that? Was he actually hoping I’d fall in love with him, and if he was, was he planning on falling in love with me as well? This man was dangerous. I could already tell he had the power to destroy me. I’d already broke one rule by sleeping with him before I’d had his assurance that I’d be the only one.