The Complete Mackenzies Collection

by Linda Howard

  “I didn’t know. I’d never thought about it before.” She made a shooing motion with her hand. “Go on, get out of here. You destroy my concentration. I couldn’t work all day yesterday after what you did, so I’m not letting you near me this morning.”

  As soon as the words were out of her mouth she realized she should have known better. The light of battle gleamed coolly in his eyes as he walked toward her. She had inadvertently issued a challenge, and his dominant nature compelled him to call her on it.

  She was still sitting down, and he leaned over her, bracing his hands on the arms of the chair and capturing her before she could scramble away. He kissed her, slanting his hard mouth over hers and using his tongue with devastating thoroughness. Her toes curled in her shoes; she surrendered without even the pretense of struggle, accepting his intrusion and welcoming it with unguarded eagerness.

  He shuddered and instantly straightened, his face hard with lust. “What are you wearing tonight?”

  She struggled to gather her senses, so easily scattered by his touch. “I don’t know. Does it matter?”

  She had never before seen his eyes so blue and intense. “No. You’ll be naked five minutes after we check into the hotel.”

  The image was shattering. Helplessly she closed her eyes, her mouth going dry. When she opened them again, he was gone.

  If she affected him even half as much as he affected her, he wouldn’t be able to fly the damn plane. The fear rose nauseatingly in her throat again, surging back at full force. It took all of her willpower to force it away, but she managed it, because she knew that when it came down to it, that cold-blooded control of his would shut out every thought that didn’t pertain to flying, the real love of his life. The truth hurt, but she took comfort in it, too, for as unpalatable as it was it would keep him safe, and that was all she asked.

  Cal had been making a point of arriving in the mornings before Adrian, but she had disrupted his schedule that morning and was still alone when Adrian came in. He gave her an almost automatic look of dislike, poured a cup of coffee and sat down without speaking. Adrian didn’t bother her much, anyway, but that morning she was so on edge that she scarcely even noticed he was there. She sat at her desk, torn between fear and anticipation. Part of her mind persisted in dwelling on the dangers of test flights, while the other part kept sliding away to sensual images of the coming night. She couldn’t believe she was actually looking forward to it, but not even the realistic expectation of discomfort, at the least, was enough to quell her fever. She wanted Joe, needed him desperately, with an instinct so primal that the threat of pain was swept aside like a toothpick in a flood.

  But first she had to live through the flights today.

  “Dreaming about lover boy?” Adrian asked nastily.

  She blinked at the interruption. “What? Oh—yes. I was. Sorry. Did you ask me something?”

  “Only about your love life. I’m a little surprised, though. I didn’t think it was men you liked, or have you decided to try some variety?”

  Inexperience was not the same thing at all as ignorance, and she knew exactly what he was hinting at. She gave him a cold look, suddenly relishing the idea of a good, clean battle, free of entangling emotions. “Did you know I was always so much younger than the boys in my class that I was almost through college before I was mature enough for any of them to notice me?”

  The question startled him; the puzzlement showed on his good-looking face. “So?”

  “So they came after me hot and heavy, expecting me to know the score, but I didn’t know anything at all about men and dating. I’d never been around kids my own age. I’d never been kissed, never been to a prom, never learned the things other girls learned at parties and on double dates. When those guys came on so strong it scared the hell out of me, so I said and did whatever it took to run them off. Are you getting the picture?”

  He didn’t, not at first. His incomprehension was plain. But then understanding broke through his hostility, and he stared at her in shocked disbelief. “Are you saying you were afraid of me?”

  “Well, what else could I be?” she flashed. “You were grabbing at me and wouldn’t take no for an answer.”

  “For God’s sake, I’m not a rapist!” he snapped.

  “How was I supposed to know?” She stood up and shook her fist at him. “If you hadn’t been so damn sure of yourself and thought no woman could resist you, you might have noticed that I was scared!”

  “You didn’t act scared!”

  “So I get belligerent when I feel threatened.” She was standing over him now, glaring and all but breathing fire. “For your information, Colonel Mackenzie is the first man to notice how uneasy I was, and he doesn’t attack me like a hungry octopus.” No, all he did was make love to her with that infuriating control of his, reducing her to mush while he remained perfectly clearheaded. That, however, wasn’t any of Adrian’s business. “I’m tired of your snide remarks, do you understand? Put a sock in it, as of right now, or I’ll stuff one in for you.”

  The shock left his face, and he glared back at her with a return of hostility. “Am I supposed to feel guilty because you’re a social misfit? You’re not the only one with problems, lady. I’d just gone through a god-awful divorce, my wife had dumped me for a weasel who made twice as much money as I did and I needed a little ego building myself. So don’t blame me for not noticing your delicate psyche and pandering to it, because you sure as hell didn’t notice mine!”

  “Then we’re even,” she charged. “So get off my back!”

  “With pleasure!”

  She stomped back to her chair and flung herself into it. After glaring at the spec sheet for about thirty seconds she muttered, “I’m sorry about your wife.”

  “Ex-wife.”

  “She probably isn’t happy.”

  Adrian leaned back in his chair, scowling at her. “I’m sorry I scared you. I didn’t mean to.”

  It was an effort, but she growled, “That’s okay.”

  He mumbled something and turned to his own work.

  She had sought relief and distraction in anger, and it had succeeded while it lasted, but now that the confrontation was over her edginess came creeping back. Still, it looked like the air might have cleared some between Adrian and herself, or at least settled down, so it had been beneficial in that way.

  Yates and Cal came trooping in, Cal still looking rumpled and sleepy, but he gave Caroline a grin and a wink. Then they all went over to the control room for the day’s flights. The pilots were still there, four of them suited up in full harness, with straps and hoses and oxygen masks, and wearing speed jeans. Joe and Captain Bowie Wade were flying the Night Wings; Daffy Deale and Mad Cat Myrick were flying chase in the F-22s. Joe was totally absorbed in the job at hand, as she had known he would be, and the knot of fear in her throat relaxed some to actually be able to see it.

  She tried not to let herself stare at him but the impulse was irresistible. He was a lodestone to her eyes, and she was fascinated by him. It wasn’t just his tall, superbly muscled body or the chiseled perfection of his face, but the aura surrounding him. Joe Mackenzie was a warrior—cool, nerveless, lethal in his controlled savagery. The blood of countless generations of warriors ran in his veins; his instincts were those honed in past wars, in numberless bloody battles. The other pilots had some of the same instincts, the same aura, but in him those things had been condensed and purified, meeting in a perfect combination of body, intellect and ability. The others knew it; it was obvious in the way they looked at him, the respect they automatically gave him. It wasn’t just that he was a colonel and in charge of the project, though his rank garnered its own respect, but what they gave him as a man and a pilot they would have given him even had they all outranked him. Some men stood out from the crowd, and Joe Mackenzie was one of them. He could never have been a businessman, a lawyer or a doctor. He was what he was, and he had sought the profession that would let him do what he was so perfectly suited to do.


  He was a warrior.

  He was the man she loved.

  Somehow she had lost the ability to breathe, and it didn’t matter. She felt dazed, mired in unreality. There couldn’t be any more fooling herself. She had admitted her vulnerability to him, but never the immediacy of it. She had warned herself against the danger of letting herself fall in love with him, fretted that she might be losing her heart, but it had all been an emotional smoke screen to keep her from admitting that it was already too late. She’d had no more control over it than she had over her own body whenever he touched her, which should have been enough warning by itself. Her only excuse for her own blindness was that she’d never been in love before and simply hadn’t recognized it.

  She couldn’t look at him as he and the three other pilots left the control room. If he’d glanced at her, everything that she was feeling would have been plain on her face, and she didn’t want him to see it, to maybe think about it at the wrong time. She felt absurdly naked, stripped of all her emotional protection, every nerve ending exposed and agitated by the merest stirring of air.

  All four birds lifted off, and technicians crowded the terminals, intently studying the information already pouring back in from the sensors embedded in the skins of the Night Wings.

  Within half an hour they were in position over the test site, where drones would provide them with moving targets at which to aim their lasers. Caroline always anticipated trouble, because in her experience no new system worked in practice exactly the way it worked in theory, but the tests had gone well so far, and she was optimistic that there wouldn’t be any major problems. That day, however, seemed to prove her right in her anticipation of trouble and wrong in her hope that it would be minor. The targeting systems refused to lock on the drones, though they had done so the day before. Two different aircraft were up there today, however, and a totally disgusted project manager ordered the day’s tests scrapped and the birds back to the base for a thorough check of the targeting systems.

  Joe didn’t lose his temper, but his displeasure was plain when he strode back into the control room, his hair matted with sweat from the helmet.

  “The birds are in the hangar,” he said with icy control, including Caroline in his ire as part of the laser team. “The same two are going back up Monday morning. You still have most of today to find the problem and fix it.” He turned and strode off, and Cal whistled softly between his teeth.

  Yates sighed. “Okay, people, let’s get into our coveralls and get out to the hangars. We have work to do.”

  Caroline was already mentally sorting through the options. Laser targeting wasn’t new; just the way they were applying it was. The problem could be the sensors in the pilots’ helmets, those in the missile optics, even the switch that activated the targeting. What was disturbing was that it had happened to both aircraft at the same time, possibly indicating a basic problem in manufacturing or even design. She glanced at Cal and saw that he was frowning deeply, for he would be thinking that for both aircraft to experience the same difficulty at the same time could indicate trouble with the programming of the on-board computers. They were worrying about the problem from different angles, but both of them had realized the implications.

  This had just been a peachy-keen day from the very beginning. If the night with Joe followed the same pattern, she would probably find out she was frigid.

  They worked through lunch, running computer analyses of the sensors to try to pinpoint the trouble, but nothing showed up. Everything seemed to be working perfectly. They ran the same tests on the three birds that hadn’t had any trouble and compared the results, again coming up with nothing. Everything matched. According to the computer, there was no reason why the lasers shouldn’t have locked on to the moving targets.

  It was late afternoon, and the heat had built to an uncomfortable level inside the hangar despite the best efforts of the huge air conditioners, when Cal reran the tests on the firing mechanisms of one of the malfunctioning units, and on one that was working. For whatever reason, maybe just the gremlins that invariably plagued every project, this time the computer showed a break in the electrical current in the trigger mechanisms. They were all aggravated because the problem had turned out to be so relatively simple after they had driven themselves crazy for hours and forgone lunch when it was something that could be repaired in less than an hour.

  She was in a wonderful mood for a romantic assignation: tired, hungry, hot and ill-tempered. She made a point of scowling down at the ID tag clipped to her pocket before she left the building and headed for her quarters.

  A long, cold shower made her feel better, though she was still scowling as she literally threw some clothes and toiletry items into an overnight bag. If he wasn’t such a martinet, they wouldn’t have felt so driven to solve the problem. She could have eaten lunch. She wouldn’t now feel so frazzled and out of sorts. It would serve him right if she refused to go.

  The only thing was, she wasn’t that big a fool. She wanted to be with him more than she wanted to eat, more than she wanted anything.

  It was only six o’clock when the knock came on the door. She was dressed, but her hair was still wet, and she was still hungry. She threw the door open. “We worked through lunch,” she charged ominously. “We got finished—” she turned to check the clock “—thirty-five minutes ago. It was nothing—just a break in the current in the switches—but it took us forever to find it, because we were hungry and couldn’t concentrate.”

  Joe lounged in the open doorway and surveyed her thoughtfully. “Do you always get ill-tempered when you’re hungry?”

  “Well, of course. Doesn’t everyone?”

  “Um, no. Most people don’t.”

  “Oh.”

  He held out his hand to her. “Come on, then, and I’ll feed you.”

  “My hair isn’t dry.”

  “It’ll dry fast enough in this heat. Are you packed?”

  She fetched the overnight bag and did her quick, automatic tour to make certain everything was turned off. Joe took the bag from her hand and ushered her out, closing the door behind him. She stood there and stared meaningfully at the doorknob until he sighed and tried to turn it, to show her it was locked. Satisfied, she walked to the truck. He stowed the bag, then lifted her onto the seat. She had chosen to wear a halter-top sun-dress with a full skirt, deciding that it no longer mattered if he could slide his hand under it, since she had given him permission to do much more than that, but she nearly had heart failure when that warm, hard hand slipped up under the material and squeezed her bare thigh.

  All thoughts of food fled her mind. She stared at him, hunger of another sort building, her need revealed in her suddenly darkened eyes and quickened breath. Joe lightly stroked her inner thigh with his fingertips, then forced himself to withdraw his hand. “Maybe I’ll feed you first,” he muttered.

  Chapter 7

  They could have eaten sawdust for all the attention she paid to their meal. All she remembered afterward was that the restaurant was cool and dim, and the dry wine had a crisp, pleasant bite to it. He sat across from her, big and masculine, and with that dangerous glitter in his blue-diamond eyes. He was thinking about the coming night, too, and his sexual intent was plain for her to see. He meant for her to know what he was thinking; he made his possessiveness obvious in the way he looked at her, his gaze lingering on her breasts, his voice low and deep with the gentling, persuasive note of seduction.

  They lingered over the meal, and the waiting abraded her nerves like coarsely woven wool. Her clothing irritated her; her breasts ached. She blurted out, “Why are we waiting?”

  He had been leisurely studying her erect nipples thrusting against her bodice, and his gaze slowly lifted to her face, scorching her with blue fire. “For you to settle down and relax,” he murmured. “For night to fall, so you can have complete darkness, if it would make you feel more secure.”

  “I don’t care.” She stood up, her face as fierce and proud as a
Valkyrie, her hair as pale as that of those virgin warriors. “You’ll have to find some other way to relax me.”

  Slowly he stood, too, his face hard with the force of his surging lust. Silence strained between them as he paid the bill and they went back out to the truck. The heat was still almost suffocating, the sun a huge red ball low on the horizon, bathing everything with a crimson glow. His fierce, ancient bloodlines were obvious in the primal light falling across the stark lines of his face, giving the lie to the facade of civilization he wore in the form of a white dress shirt and black slacks. He should have been wearing buckskin pants and moccasins, his torso bare, his thick black hair falling free to those wide, powerful shoulders.

  She remembered her terror of the morning, that he could be hurt or killed during a flight, and knew she would try never to tell him.

  He checked them in at one of the Hilton hotels and, still silently, they rode the elevator upward, with the bellboy carrying their two small bags.

  He had taken a one-bedroom suite, and the bellboy performed his customary routine, carrying the bags into the bedroom, showing them how to operate things they already knew how to operate, busily drawing open the curtains to let in the fierce red light of sundown. Joe pressed a five-dollar bill into his hand, and the bellhop took off.

  She was still standing in the bedroom, her feet rooted to the carpet while she very determinedly did not stare at the king-size bed, and she listened to Joe lock and chain the door. He walked into the bedroom and very calmly pulled the curtains again, plunging the room into a gloom relieved only by what light spilled through the open doorway. The very air felt charged with tension. He opened his black leather bag and took out a box of condoms, placing it on the bedside table.

  “A whole box?” she asked in a husky voice that didn’t sound like her own.

  He came to stand behind her and deftly undid her dress. As it loosened and fell off her shoulders he said, “I’ll go down to the gift shop and buy some more when we run out.”