by Mia Moon
“Of course, we’re here,” Josh said from the hallway.
He and Alex entered, coming from the kitchen. Nathan was right behind them, looking concerned. Clearly, he suspected this wasn’t a happy reunion.
Stepping away to avoid more hugs, I placed the sofa and coffee table between us. "Hey, guys… Could we, I mean, could you sit? So we can talk?"
Alex leaped over the back of the couch and landed in a flop, grinning at me. Josh rolled his eyes and he and Nathan rounded the sides to sit flanking Alex. Ken crossed his arms and leaned against the side of the couch, finally guessing my tone, it seemed.
They all seemed so muscular, so big, as if they took up all the air in the room.
So handsome.
So intently focused on me.
“I like you all. So much. More than you know.” I put my hand on my chest, as if to contain my heart from beating its way out of my ribcage. “A lot. It’s been strange, getting to know you and realizing that together we make a weird fit. Like puzzle pieces for a puzzle I thought would be much, much smaller. And for all that could be excellent between the, um five of us, I’m… I’m scared. I could be hurt by four of you.”
I paused, already catching the hurt in Nathan’s blue eyes. Ken’s expression was neutral, as was Josh’s. Alex looked confused.
“We wouldn’t hurt you,” Alex said softly. “Ever.”
The rest of the guys murmured an agreement.
Licking my lips, I tried again. “It might be too much. I don’t want to hurt you, and I wish I could say we could make it work but I don’t see how. I never thought I’d find someone who meshed with me the way you guys do, and it’s amazing how through all the differences there’s this thread of something more, that could connect us all.”
“You’re not gonna try?” Josh asked.
I frowned. “I don’t know if I should. I didn’t think it was right to not talk to you in person though.”
“It wouldn’t be easy, but don’t you think it would be worth it?” Ken asked. His eyes pierced through me, shredding me with guilt.
“But it’s only hard for me. You guys would have it easy. You each just have to take care of me, worry about me. I would have to balance you all. What if I can’t give you what you need? What you want?”
Alex leaned forward where he sat. “You feel like it isn’t fair?”
"I…" Words, faltering, I clamped my mouth shut. My heart broke, standing and witnessing their disappointed looks, the pain in their faces. Josh wouldn't even look at me, but his hurt seemed to radiate from his form in waves.
I felt tears rising, but I didn’t want them to see. My coat was trapped under Nathan’s arm. I didn’t remember where I’d put my keys. In a panic, I dashed from their sight and into the first room I came across.
I sat on Ken’s bed and my pain escaped, dripping over my cheeks through hot tears.
Chapter Ten
Ken slipped through the door and pulled it gently shut behind him. I didn’t meet his gaze, only recognized him by the blue sweats he wore. He sat beside me, looping an arm around me and pulling me close. I heard his heartbeat as he held me against his strong chest. It felt so good, so right, to be in his arms.
“Hey. Hey. It’s okay. We can take it slow. Any way you want.”
“I’m sorry,” I whispered.
"Don't be," he replied. His voice was low and had an edge I didn't recognize as if the words didn't want to come out. "I always knew this could happen. We all did."
“I wish I was the right one.” I buried my face in his shirt and inhaled his scent. He was a salve to my pain, and I didn’t know how I’d move on. “I tried to make it work in my head, I did.”
The door opened again, and Nathan strode in, leaving the door cracked open behind him.
“We’re having a talk,” Ken said quietly.
Nathan took my arm and I looked up at him, surprised at how gentle his touch. His eyes were edged with darkness, but he didn’t seem angry. It was a look of fierce determination.
“Hey,” he whispered, tugging me me from Nathan. He kissed my forehead then eased me back on the mattress.
“Too much?” he asked.
“No.” Suddenly things were becoming clearer.
Climbing over me, he growled, “We’ve talked enough.”
I stared at him, lost. If he didn’t want to talk, then what?
He slanted his mouth over mine, stealing my breath and thoughts with a passionate kiss. His tongue wrestled mine, taking me back to the night we’d nearly lost control on my couch.
My hands clawed his back, wanting more.
I. Wanted. More.
Of all of them.
He pulled back and stared into my eyes. “Too much?”
I shook my head.
“When I kiss you, what are you thinking?”
I blinked, trying to wrap my head around the question. “Of you.”
“You aren’t thinking about Ken?”
Glancing over, it dawned on me that Ken was watching us. His expression was as shocked as mine, but he didn’t look bothered.
“Ummm… no. Just you.”
“Who kissed you first, of all of us?”
“Ken.”
Nathan swept his thumb over my bottom lip, making me turn back to him. “When I kiss you, do you compare us?”
I scoffed. “Of course not.”
"Then what's the problem?" he asked. "We want you. You can balance us. I don't want to hear your excuses as if you're weak or incapable. You're a fighter."
“I’m not,” I stammered. “I’m—”
“You’re a woman who moved across the country for what she considered a risky job. You work in a field dominated by men, and you do it so well you’re your own boss and you haven’t realized it.” He arched a brow. “You live in the shadiest part of downtown, in a city you barely know. There is nothing that you can’t handle about us, Violet.”
My lips parted to argue but I didn’t get that far. Ken sucked my bottom lip into his mouth and made my knees weak. Releasing it, a wicked grin formed on his lips.
“What if…?”
“What if what, Violet?” It was Ken’s voice.
“What if I did end up wanting you all at once? I mean, physically. What would happen then?”
“Then we’ll give you what you want. What you need.” Ken’s voice was raw, rough. Less thinking and talking, Violet. More doing. More exploring. Both the world and your own heart. If you’re going to focus on the potential problems, you have to consider the good parts too.”
“Like living with four men and two bathrooms?” I whispered, trying to make a joke.
“Like how it’s our job to keep you happy and satisfied. How we’re here to protect you and support you.” he replied. “And to give you more pleasure than you can stand.”
His mouth traveled down my neck as I gasped, startled by how a few words tore down my walls. He pressed his knee between my thighs and I parted my legs, allowing him to nestle himself there, pressing his bulge to my leggings.
“It’s not just about that,” I protested.
“But there will be plenty of it,” Ken insisted, rejoining the conversation.
I reached out to him, and he took my hand and curled it against his jaw. Nathan slid down my body, kissing my shoulder, my breasts, my ribcage.
Nathan knelt on the ground next to the bed and yanked my lower body to him. Legs spread, my center was before him, and he covered it with his mouth, engulfing me through my leggings.
Ken lay flat on his stomach beside me and pulled me into a kiss, capturing my moan. I had limited my fantasies of being shared. Aside from Alex and Josh, who clearly wanted it, I didn’t want to assume that any other combination of the men would want such a thing.
But clearly, they did.
“Isn’t she fucking beautiful?” Ken murmured. “All that long hair. Those curves.”
“Those pretty pink nipples,” said Nathan. “We’re going to worship the hell out of her.”
/> Oh. My. God.
Nathan's hands reached up, gripping the top of my leggings. With a swift yank, he got them mostly down, then maneuvered them off completely, discarding my boots while he was at it.
Ken gripped my breast over my shirt, sucking my tongue while my eyes rolled back, and I sank into a bliss I’d never experienced. Never dared dream of.
Ken made a soft ‘hmmm’ against my mouth before pulling back.
“I’ve wanted to see you naked for a long time,” he whispered. “I’ve imagined these breasts in my hands. I’ve dreamt of sucking on your nipples.” He looked down my body, at where my panties remained in place while Nathan stroked my thighs teasingly.
“She’s already wet, Ken. I can see how soaked her panties are.”
“I’ll bet we can make her wetter. I’ve jerked off thinking about sinking into that sweet pussy.”
I closed my eyes, cheeks burning hot. “Ken…” I didn’t know what else to say, but my mouth moved anyways. “I love you.”
“I love you too,” Ken said caressing my cheek.
My heart fluttered. I’d waited forever, and here it was. Here we were. I didn’t believe it, not really.
Nathan hooked a finger around the lace band of my panties and I opened my eyes carefully. I lifted myself enough to see him. Did it bother him that I hadn’t said it to him yet? I felt it, but did it hold meaning this close to me saying it to Ken?
The smile on his face suggested his mind was elsewhere.
Ken swept his hand through my hair and kissed my temple. Nathan pulled the band and let it go with a snap.
“How attached are you to these?” he asked.
“Why? Do you not like them?” I gasped, confused. “They’re nothing special, I guess.”
He nodded, then with a quick yank, ripped them from my body, stinging me for a second. I felt the cool air on my bare pussy, and Nathan’s hungry gaze, too. A fresh rush of wetness pooled in my pussy.
“Fuck,” I breathed.
Ken laughed under his breath and Nathan gripped my hips as he pulled me against his face. I fell apart as he explored my folds with his tongue, devouring me while I trembled. He’d just started but already I was close. I’d never been so soaking wet.
One hand slipping under my shirt, Ken caressed my breast, slow and sensual to Nathan’s tongue assault. “I won’t rip your shirt, I promise,” he teased. “But I’d like to get you out of it right now.”
I nodded, though I felt boneless. I shifted as needed so that Ken could pull the shirt over my head, then he expertly undid the snap to my bra and tossed it aside. He pinched my nipples and groaned, the sound of his voice working magic on my body. I was spread and open for them both, strung taut and ready to explode.
My legs quivered as Nathan’s tongue dipped in and out of my wet slit, and I couldn’t tell who affected me more but didn’t care, knew it didn’t matter. I wanted them both, loved them both.
Needed them both.
Needed them all.
“Don’t stop,” I whimpered. “Please?”
Ken sucked one of my pebbled nipples into his mouth and nibbled while Nathan’s tongue circled up to tease my clit. It was more than I could take, and I cried out as my pent-up energy exploded, blasting waves of mind-numbing pleasure through my body. I writhed as every inch of flesh became hyper-sensitive and overcome with ecstasy.
I’d never had an orgasm this powerful, and for a moment I thought I’d pass out from the intensity. I was panting, like an animal.
Ken kissed my lips then disappeared from my side. The sound of my pounding heart still echoed in my ears, but I tried to sit up. Ken had stripped and stood between my legs.
“You want this, don’t you?” he asked.
My head was too foggy to nod. Looking over his perfect muscled body and his cock, I swallowed.
“So much,” I managed to whisper. “Please. Now.”
Nathan knelt by my head, naked. How they’d managed to undress so quickly I had no idea, but then again time felt to be moving oddly while the tendrils of my orgasm still held me back.
I reached out and took his thick length in my hand. It was almost scary how badly I’d longed for him. I stroked him and imagined what it would be like when he was finally in me. But first…
Ken donned a condom and slid his tip along my entrance. I was wet and relaxed, and so, so ready. I held my breath as smiled and opened my legs wider, encouraging him. He moved against me and groaned as he sank into me, stretching and filling me in the most delicious way.
I squeezed Nathan’s thick cock in my hand as Ken pushed deeper and deeper until he was balls-deep. Years of waiting and we were finally together, as I'd always dreamed we would. Just like his touch, his kiss, being with him like this was infinitely better in reality than my fantasies could ever imagine.
He pumped in and out, slow and deliberate, while he found his pace. I stroked Nathan to match, syncing our rhythm. It felt so perfect, being with the two of them. Too soon I found myself nearing the edge. I closed my eyes and focused on the sensations. Ken’s grip on my waist as he pushed into me, Nathan’s soft skin sliding against my palm.
I opened my mouth and my eyes, meeting Nathan’s hungry gaze. “Let me taste you,” I whispered, turning my head to eagerly welcome Nathan’s length across my lips. His groan washed over me as he carefully slid over my tongue, pacing himself. I loved the salty taste of him and I traced my tongue over each veined ridge of his shaft, exploring him the way he’d done me.
His caution lifted somewhat, and he plunged further into my mouth, and though my eyes watered, I deep-throated him. Still, I felt his hesitation as he eased back. I could handle him, I knew. Perhaps he didn’t know, but he wasn’t going to hurt me.
I trusted him, just like I trusted Ken, who fucked me with just the right amount of intensity, balancing a steady pounding with tenderness.
I whimpered around his length and urged him forward. He slid between my lips with the same depth and eagerness as Ken between my legs. As if realizing what was happening for the first time, my heart skipped a beat and my body shuddered.
Nathan tangled his hand in my hair, sweeping it tenderly from my face. I opened my eyes and he was watching me intently. In his eyes, I was precious, I could tell. We could have all the fun in the world, and it wasn’t just that. He cared for me.
A single tear fluttered on my lashes as I absorbed this knowledge. With that, my second orgasm pulled me under, liquifying my bones and stealing the light from the room. All I saw were spots, all I felt was radiating pleasure.
I was incandescent.
I moaned against Nathan’s cock, the sound muffled. My climax crested again and again while Ken and Nathan continued to impale me with their cocks, continued to share their bodies with me.
Nathan spilled onto my tongue, and I swallowed eagerly. He sat back, and I gasped, sucking in air.
When my eyes finally opened I found Alex and Josh standing in the doorway. I smiled to them as Ken continued to fuck me slow and strong..
“What are you waiting for?” I asked.
I rode Josh's lap, drowsy with sex as I stared, half-lidded into his face. My muscles ached, but I wasn't done yet. I leaned back, pressing myself against Ken's chest. He thrust into my ass, his pace synced with Josh. They'd made a joke about teamwork, and how all their drills had paid off.
Silly men, but I loved them. Josh lay back now, and Ken held me up as they made love to me together, filling me completely in a way I would never have considered if it weren't them.
Whimpering with pleasure, I looked to the side where Alex stood by the bed. I was stroking him, keeping him hard and ready. I’d have him soon enough. I could tell Ken was at his limit.
I smiled and moaned, aiming the sound at Ken.
“I love watching you fuck,” he growled in my ear. “Such a good girl, fucking us all at once. You want me to cum?”
“Please,” I begged.
He buried himself deep, thrusting harder and quicker than b
efore. Then I felt it, him twitching and throbbing within me. I shuddered as he came, biting my shoulder and groaning as if the weight of the world was suddenly gone from him.
After a few more thrusts he pulled away, crawling to my side. He took my chin in his fingertips and kissed me so hungrily I thought I saw stars.
Josh groaned too. He swore under his breath as I leaned forward to kiss him. Josh’s kisses were like gentle teases, but he liked to bite. He trapped my upper lip between his teeth nibbled me before letting me go.
He brushed my hair from my face and whispered into my ear, “God, you’re incredible.”
It was unexpected, but it made me shiver. I nuzzled his neck. "I love you, too." I said this without thinking. “I love all of you.”
I climbed off Josh and watched the three men relaxing against the head of the bed. They still looked far from sated, and I suspected they were holding back on my account.
Their lives demanded endurance, and I knew it wasn’t just on the ice that they could go for hours. I dropped to my hands and knees and Alex entered me from behind, knowing what I wanted without me having to ask.
As he slid into me I eyed each of my other men. They’d discarded their condoms and now watched me, pretending to be done, as if I’d let them off that easily. Nathan’s hand went to his cock, and he began stroking.
The other two followed, and I watched, rapt, as they all jacked themselves, slow and sensually. It was the most erotic thing I’d ever seen, all erect cocks and hard muscles.
I knew that sex wouldn’t always be like this, all of us together. But since it was reality today, I wanted to let them know they weren’t the only ones with stamina or enough lust to burn down the house.
“I want to suck you,” I said to them.
“Who?” Nathan asked.
“All of you,” I said in my most sultry voice. I wondered what it would be like to have all three of their cock heads at my mouth, and I grinned.
It was like watching a switch flip in each of their expressions. They went from appearing content to looking starved. They huddled close and knelt before me, each presenting himself.
Alex’s fingertips gripped into my hips and he hammered deeper into me, clearly enjoying the show.