Losing Faith

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by Scotty Cade


  “Never.”

  “What do I do?”

  Cullen pulled Abel close to him, took Abel’s right hand in his left, and wrapped his right arm around Abel’s waist. “Just follow my lead and get lost in the music.”

  Abel rested his head on Cullen’s shoulder and closed his eyes. He felt Cullen’s muscles moving, contracting and releasing, guiding him, and after a few minutes, he was following Cullen effortlessly as Cullen turned him and swayed. Before long he was lost in the music. Lost in the man that was Cullen Kiley.

  “I love this,” Abel whispered. “I get to hold you and be close to you just like when we’re in bed. Shoot, it’s almost as good as having sex.”

  “Seriously?”

  “I said almost. Now shut up and spin me again.”

  “You sure are a bossy back lead.”

  Epilogue

  CULLEN LOOKED up to the sky and let the warm spring sun beat down on his face. He and Abel had been back in P-town just over a month, and today was Easter Sunday, his first official Sunday leading the mass at the Church of Saint Mary of the Harbor.

  Since their return Abel had already met with the Bishop and the Diocesan on Ministry to start the process of becoming an ordained Episcopal priest and was scheduled to begin his continuing education in two weeks. Until then, he would act as a deacon of the church and learn as much as he could before his formal education began.

  This, of course, was only the first step for Abel. He was learning to truly accept himself and his ability to serve God in a welcoming and nonjudgmental environment. Cullen could already see subtle changes in Abel’s self-esteem and the way he was beginning to come to terms with and move past his childhood and his issues of abandonment and self-worth.

  With each passing day, Cullen fell a little more in love with the man who’d saved him and wholeheartedly supported him in whatever direction he chose to take with his calling. But more importantly, Abel seemed extremely happy to be embarking on this journey with Cullen beside him. They had become a true team in every way.

  Cullen was a nervous wreck pacing outside on the church steps, wondering if his parishioners would truly embrace him and welcome him back or simply go through the motions.

  It had taken him and Abel weeks to write his first sermon, and it centered on the hypocrisy of the clergy. But more so about his hypocrisy—the loss of love, grieving, giving up on life and God, and then when he least expected it, finding love again and being, in a sense, reborn.

  It was literally his and Abel’s story in a sermon format, and there were just as many of Abel’s words in the lesson as his. He loved it even more because of that. Cullen hoped the sermon would help explain some of the reason he’d had to leave the church so abruptly.

  Some parishioners knew, of course, but others had no clue, nor did the newer church members, so it was make-or-break time. But all Cullen could do was be honest and heartfelt, and in doing that he would have to wear his heart on his sleeve and give them everything he had to give. If they didn’t accept him back, he would move to another church, knowing he’d given it all he had.

  Cullen heard the processional music and took his position at the rear of the church behind the acolyte carrying the cross. He followed his cue and made his way slowly down the aisle, listening to the magnificence of the pipe organ, nodding and smiling to familiar faces, but mostly just taking it all in.

  The church was decorated with thousands of spring flowers, so colorful it almost hurt the eyes, and the sun was beaming through the stained-glass windows behind the altar, sending rays of additional colors streaming through the entire church. In that very moment, he wondered how he could have ever left something so beautiful. Something he loved so much.

  When the procession stopped, Cullen knelt to give thanks and then proceeded to his position behind the altar. He stopped and glanced out over the church and the congregation. Abel was proudly seated in the first row, next to Elaina, and Cullen’s eyes suddenly filled with tears. Through his tears he saw the shadow of Cole sitting on the other side of Abel, smiling broadly. Before he could find the words to speak, the entire church rose to their feet and started clapping.

  Cullen wiped the tears away with his robe. He went to Abel, offered him his hand, and led him to the front of the church. The two men stood with the entire congregation applauding them. When the applause was over, Cullen pulled Abel into a tight embrace and whispered into his ear.

  “Now we are home.”

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  The heist quickly becomes a politically driven high profile case, and Detective Bissonet is furious when he’s ordered to work along side Investigator Cruz to assure a timely arrest. The heat index soars to new levels when the two investigators discover they have a lot more in common than originally thought.

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  SCOTTY CADE left Corporate America and twenty-five years of marketing and public relations in 2004 to buy an inn & restaurant on the island of Martha’s Vineyard with Kell, his husband of over twenty years.

  He started writing stories as soon as he could read, but only in the last five years for publication. When not at the inn, you can find him on the bow of his boat writing romance novels with his Shetland sheepdog, Mavis, at his side. Being from the South and a lover of commitment and fidelity, all of his characters find their way to long, healthy relationships, however long it takes them to get there. He believes that, in the end, the boy should always get the boy.

  Scotty and Kell are avid boaters and live aboard their boat, spending the summers on Martha’s Vineyard and winters in various locations down south.

  Website: www.scottycade.com

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  E-mail: [email protected]

  By Scotty Cade

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  Forever for Now

  Knobs

  Losing Faith

  The Mystery of Ruby Lode

  Sunrise Over Savannah • Chasing the Horizon

  An Unconventional Courtship • An Unconventional Union

  BISSONET & CRUZ INVESTIGATIONS

  The Royal Street Heist

  Veiled Loyalties

  FINAL ENCORE

  Before the Final Encore

  Final Encore

  After the Final Encore

  LOVE SERIES

  Wings of Love

  Bounty of Love

  Treasure of Love

  With Z.B. Marshall: Foundation of Love

  Published by DREAMSPINNER PRESS

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  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of author imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

  Losing Faith

  © 2016 Scotty Cade.

  Cover Art

  © 2016 Reese Dante.

  http://www.reesedante.com

  Cover content is for illustrative purposes only and any person depicted on the cover is a model.

  Photos of Southport, North Carolina, by Scotty Cade.

  All rights reserved. This book is licensed to the original purchaser only. Duplication or distribution via any means is illegal and a violation of international copyright law, subject to criminal prosecution and upon conviction, fines, and/or imprisonment. Any eBook format cannot be legally loaned or given to others. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without the written permission of the Publisher, except where permitted by law. To request permission and all other inquiries, contact Dreamspinner Press, 5032 Capital Circle SW, Suite 2, PMB# 279, Tallahassee, FL 32305-7886, USA, or www.dreamspinnerpress.com.

  ISBN: 978-1-63477-210-5

  Digital ISBN: 978-1-63477-211-2

  Library of Congress Control Number: 2016901592

  Published June 2016

  v. 1.0

  Printed in the United States of America

  Table of Contents

  Blurb

  Dedication

  Preface

  Southport, North Carolina

  Epigraph

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Epilogue

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  About the Author

  By Scotty Cade

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