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Manwhore +1

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by Katy Evans


  As new as we are. Him and me.

  When we hang up, I go to the bathroom and slip them out of the box, then I brush my hair aside to expose my throat. I put on the R first, and then I take the M gently out of the box and latch it around the back of my neck. The letters nestle perfectly together near that crook between my collarbones. Strange, how breathless I feel when the M falls into place. I feel like he’s kissing that spot again. Permanently.

  Letting my hair fall down my back again, I stare at the girl in the mirror—she’s not lost. She looks confident and a little flushed, a little breathless and a lot happy. The necklaces—sparkly, shiny-new and double—rest at her throat, and you can see in her gray eyes—gray eyes that almost look silver, because they’re gleaming to compete with the gold at her throat—that she happens to think that R + M have never looked so damn good together.

  On Thursday I have an interview at Wired and I arrive a little late at Edge. As seems to be the new norm, my link to Malcolm is nothing anyone wants to touch. The interview didn’t go that well at all. There’s always someone in the company who knows Saint, is friends with Saint, or maybe even hates Saint—and they don’t want the infamous girlfriend in their newsroom.

  They seem to prefer the news to come out of their newsrooms, not actually be sitting in their newsrooms.

  We spend a dream weekend together. On Friday, Gina offers to sleep over at Wynn’s on Saturday and Sunday—Gina has gotten a makeup-artist complex (thank you, free samples that she gets at work), and Wynn has offered to be her test subject all weekend while her boyfriend, Emmett, visits his family—so I invite Sin over to make both my bed and me squeal.

  I wake up with him two nights in a row, the second one with little sores on my body, in places he used to exhaustion. I don’t even mind the fact that neither of us is getting much sleep because my bed and I have never known such a good time.

  “God, it’s morning already?” I groan, still refusing to move.

  He disappears into the bathroom, and I pull the sheets back up to my chin, and I wonder, did I leave my sink clean or did I leave it messy? I think of Sin’s beautiful apartment—perfectly organized—and stress a little about what he may think of my girl chaos.

  Then I realize if it’s messy, he’s already seen it yesterday. Relaxing back in bed, I hear him turn on my shower. He’s a far earlier riser than I am; he also gets to M4 usually before most of his employees do. I’m not yet late for work so I stay in bed and enjoy all my sore spots as he comes out with one of my towels hanging low on his hips.

  I watch him slip his arms into his button-up shirt and then fasten it with sure, easy flicks of his fingers.

  “Leaving for work,” I say dejectedly.

  “You could come with me?” His brows raise in humor, and there’s the devil’s twinkle in his eye. “I sense you want to come. Again.”

  “Malcolm.” I can’t believe this man. “I’m liquid, and look at you. You look ready to tackle a dragon. I’m tired thanks to you. And you want me to come to M4 with you? What? To work for you? Think of what your investors will think if you hire your girlfriend.”

  “They revere me. They’ll know I believe she’s a word goddess and they’ll trust my judgment.”

  “No. I mean yes, I’m all that, but no, I’m not going to work for you.”

  He looks down at me with undisguised delight. “You’re a cocky one, aren’t you?”

  “Me? Cocky? Malcolm Kyle Preston Logan Saint . . . did you just hear yourself talk about how revered you are?”

  “No, Rachel,” he purrs arrogantly as he buckles his designer belt around his lean waist, “I was too busy looking at the way you’re looking at me now.”

  He comes over to drop on the side of the bed, edges my little R necklace aside along with the M, then he leans his dark head in, and his lips replace the necklaces as he presses them hotly into my skin.

  Gone mush, I wrap my arms around his shoulders and tell him, in his ear, “I really, really like the things you do to me, Sin.”

  His voice husks out when he sets a kiss on my chin, and then, satisfyingly, gives me one on the mouth. “Not as much as I like doing them to you.”

  He reaches for the tie I had taken off him and left on my nightstand as he comes to his feet. “I won’t pressure you. This is the last time I put this out there. Take as long as you’d like to reply. Look as long as you want, Rachel. You have a job at Interface.”

  Considering how difficult it’s been to get an actual callback, mainly because of my relationship to him, his words give me a brain orgasm—some much-needed relief on that front.

  “I’m truly grateful for it, Saint. But the media has a picnic with me as the main course already. I’d never get respect if my boyfriend got me my job.”

  “I didn’t get it, your skills got it, I simply want the best. I want what I want. Come to Interface with me.”

  He knots his tie and slips into his jacket, looking at me expectantly.

  “I would,” I quietly say, if I didn’t care so much. “But no. It has to stay separate.”

  He waits a moment without a word, and then urges, “Let me make some calls for you, little one.”

  “Sin!” I laugh, then sober up. My heart is near exploding right now. “Thank you. But I have to be sure I’m being hired for the right reasons.”

  “You will be.”

  “With a call from you, I’d be hired if I were a duck!”

  “God, you’re stubborn, Livingston.”

  “You’re worse, Saint.”

  When he finally nods in understanding, I think I love him just a little more than I did just a second ago. He’s a man used to getting his way, so my position can’t be easy for him. Having his kind of power but wielding it carefully because he respects my wishes to stay independent means so much.

  “And you, Mr. Saint,” I get to my feet and smooth a hand over his tie, going up on tiptoes to kiss his hard jaw, “go get the moon.”

  After this weekend, I’m officially the president of Saintaholics by the time I’m finally at work. Helen asks me to go with her to the offices of the Clarks, the family who has owned Edge since its inception.

  We head up the elevators, down a carpeted expanse, and into an office that is as quiet as a church and the complete opposite of the bustling newsroom below.

  Seated at a long table are the Clarks. Mr. Clark is in a light blue suit and a black shirt, and is topped by a full head of white hair. Mrs. Clark is in a light yellow sundress, her dyed black hair wrapped in a tidy little bun.

  They usher us to take a seat and I tensely follow to sit down next to Helen, right across from the Clarks.

  “Rachel, we’ve been extremely appreciative of your loyalty to Edge since bringing you on board. Your contributions have been and continue to be invaluable,” Mr. Clark says.

  “Thank you so much, Mr. and Mrs. Clark.”

  “The reason we asked to see you today is because, as you may have been hearing, we have a very interested buyer for the company and we’re keen on selling, for personal reasons. However, this buyer is very explicit that his interest in Edge is exclusively tied to whether you remain with it. We’ve asked for his assurance that our loyal employees will be kept on when his management takes over, and he won’t make that guarantee unless you guarantee to stay.”

  “I’m sorry, Mr. and Mrs. Clark, I wasn’t planning on staying. Also for personal reasons.”

  “I see.” Mr. Clark rubs his chin, exchanging a worried glance with his wife.

  When nobody speaks, some kind of switch goes off in my chest, triggering a bomb countdown. Tick, tock, tick, tock . . .

  I ask, suddenly concerned, “Are you implying some of my colleagues will be let go if I don’t stay?”

  I’m gripping the armrests as I wait for an answer.

  Tick, tock, tick, tock . . .

  “Well, yes. Everyone would likely be let go,” Mrs. Clark responds, looking pained as I stiffen in my seat. “We’ve tried to secure some positions
but the buyer has been very firm. Rachel, please consider staying at Edge. We can tell the new owner would be very interested in growing your career, and your colleagues would be able to remain.”

  And kaboom.

  Ka-fucking-boom.

  “Mrs. Clark!” I gasp from the blow, then shake my head, stupefied. “I have a very powerful reason for leaving. I beg you not to allow my colleagues to be fired. Some of them have been here through every lean time, working hard to see the magazine through. Everyone depends on their salaries.”

  Xavier Clark cocks his head at my plea. “It’s not me doing or not doing anything. It’s the buyer’s demands. I would urge you to consider staying at Edge, then, Miss Livingston.”

  He pauses and takes a long look at me.

  “I personally will offer you a year’s salary as a bonus if you do. You have to understand,” he leans forward, suddenly looking older, tired. “This is our one chance to see a dime back of the life savings we’ve put into the business. This is a new start for Edge, and could be a solid future for both you and your colleagues. Think about it.”

  “Mr. and Mrs. Clark, what’s going on here is absolute . . .” I struggle to find a word, but I’m so outraged, I can only think of a thousand colorful ones to describe this. “This is blackmail.”

  Mr. Clark reels back a little, stiffly. “No, Rachel. This is business,” he says. “And I hope we have a businesswoman in you.” He nods to Helen, and we stand up when he does. “This must be settled by next Monday for our buyer. Try to help Miss Livingston see the win-win in this circumstance—for her and everyone else—Helen?” he asks.

  “I’m sorry, Rachel,” Helen says when we’re out of earshot. For the first time her features are genuinely etched with concern as we walk back to the elevators. “I was afraid this was coming.”

  I fist my hands at my sides, outraged, impotent, and so damned angry I want to yell even though I try to keep my voice down. “I made a promise that I’m keeping, Helen.”

  “Oh, pfft. Don’t be so innocent. People break promises every day, Rachel.”

  “Not this promise—not me.”

  We step off the elevators. My insides are roiling with anxiety and frustration as I go and sit down at my computer and watch Helen head into her office.

  The newsroom makes its usual noise, the keyboards, the chatter, the phones, every one of my colleagues working as usual, and I wonder how many will be here by the time Noel Saint is through. Nobody here knows they’re hanging on to a lifeline—one I’m holding right now.

  Instinctively I pull out my phone and look for my lifeline.

  I look at the name in my most recent text—SIN—and I want to tell him. I desperately want to tell him that I’m still leaving, that I’m keeping my promise, that I love having his trust again, but that my friends are at stake. But if I tell him about this, what will he do?

  Tonight we’re supposed to go to a fund-raiser. We’re supposed to spend the weekend together after. I could tell him, but I’m not sure that it wouldn’t be falling into some sort of trap Noel Saint has set up to goad Malcolm into retaliating.

  I lower my phone and find myself looking at Edge with new eyes.

  Edge, which gave me my start. Gave me some kind of voice, a chance to reach people, a story that I wanted that broke my heart, but that led me to love. After everything, for the first time I’m truly realizing that Edge and I are done.

  I won’t stay here, a sitting duck. I won’t be a pawn. I won’t be bullied. I love my colleagues and this place, but I can’t be responsible for absolutely everything. The Clarks are selling for personal reasons, and I have to act in my own best interests too.

  I won’t break my fucking boyfriend’s heart again. I do have truth and loyalty, and a pair of green eyes owns both.

  I find myself walking to Helen’s door that afternoon, knocking three times,

  “Yes, Rachel?”

  I hand out the paper in my hand.

  “And that’s . . . ?”

  “My two weeks’ notice.”

  SIN AT THE DOOR

  When I text, Hey Sin. I’m having a tough week. Is it ok if I skip the benefit? he calls me in record time.

  “Hey. You all right?” Behind his voice, there are noises and clinking forks in the background. I probably caught him at a business lunch.

  “I’m okay. But tonight . . . I want to stay in. Come by later or tomorrow?”

  “I’ll come by tonight. You all right?”

  It’s the second time he’s asked. He’s too sharp not to know.

  “I will be,” I promise. “I can’t wait to see you.”

  “Hang tight, I’ll be by later.”

  “I’ll leave a key under the mat.”

  I’m not expecting him until after midnight, so while I wait, I lie around in his dress shirt and my white purple-lettered “Peace” socks, eating popcorn with Gina, exhausted after telling her about my day and trying to tune out with a little bit of TV, when Saint arrives only a little past 8 p.m. He seems to have come straight from work, still in his business suit, exuding testosterone, and I notice the first thing he notices are the R and M necklaces on my throat.

  He looks bigger right now. Harder. And like something I want to hold on to so much, I feel dizzy.

  Dizzy and . . . safe.

  For the first time today, I feel safe.

  “Sin . . . I . . .” I signal down at myself, and as I do, his eyes move over me and heat up every inch they cover. “I’m not dressed, I was staying in.”

  “I’m staying in with you.” He shuts the door. “Hey, Gina.”

  “Oh, groan. Are you guys gonna . . .” Gina sets down the popcorn bowl on the table and trails off delicately, looking from one, to the other, for an answer.

  Neither Malcolm nor I bite.

  Then, plainly, she growls, “Do I have to leave?”

  Yes! my body screams. But I can’t make her leave for us to fool around; that’s just bad friend etiquette. “It’s fine, Gina.”

  “I’ll be in my room. Bye, Saint.” She heads over and shuts the door, and I glare at him playfully.

  “I told you to go to the benefit and come after,” I chide.

  “Ahh. See . . . I’m good at giving orders, but unfortunately I don’t follow them well.”

  He takes off his jacket, jerks off his tie, unbuttons the two shirt buttons near his throat, then settles down on my couch and I’m not sure if I’m the one who presses up into him or he’s the one who grabs me close, but we kiss a little, softly but with tongue.

  “What’s going on?” he murmurs when he eases back to investigate my features with that keen gaze of his.

  I caress the arm he’s got curled around me with my fingers, and the muscles of his forearm buzz with strength beneath the sleeve.

  “I gave my two weeks’ notice today at Edge.”

  A part of me listens to my own voice as if from a tunnel.

  I’m jobless.

  I know that Malcolm can help me and has offered his support but I desperately want to do this on my own.

  Especially now.

  Already my relationship with Saint is complicated enough. First, his natural playboy tendencies, my own inexperience in regards to relationships, the social media hanging on our every move, and even, maybe, what happened between us. Working for him, I’d be completely dependent on him and I’m too scared. I’m more scared of that than of being jobless right this moment.

  He watches me with clear, observant green eyes as the words sink in. “You gave your two weeks’ notice. Did you get a call back?”

  “I’d have told you if I had,” I assure him.

  For a moment he only studies me. He looks at my face unhurriedly, feature by feature, the tensing of his jaw the only sign of frustration. “You gave your two weeks’ notice without having anything lined up?” He tips my face back and regards me in puzzlement. “Are you coming with me?”

  “Yes, I don’t have anything yet. And . . . no. Please understand.”
/>   His eyebrows are still slanted low over his nose. I’m sure he’s wondering why I jumped the gun and quit all of a sudden, so I search for the right words, but there’s just no other way to say it than plainly.

  “Today Mr. Clark offered me a bonus to stay along with a guarantee that my friends would be able to stay as well.”

  His voice is feather soft. “He threatened you?”

  His thumb caresses my chin where he holds my face securely upward to meet his gaze. A ruthless gleam appears in his eyes, the kind of gleam that makes him exactly who he is. Ruthless, unstoppable. I’m afraid to see it right now, when all I want is peace.

  “No, no, it was nice.” Curling my hand around the hand holding me, I give it a reassuring squeeze. “They were grateful and wanted me to stay, but . . . your father wants me to stay. He wants to assure the Clarks if I stay, he won’t can my colleagues. Malcolm, I wasn’t going to let him get to you.”

  There’s a darkness roiling in the depths of his gaze. He stands and eases his hands into his pockets. The move is casual, but the energy surrounding Saint all of a sudden is so intimidating I don’t know what to say.

  A long silence stretches.

  “Sin, I can start up freelancing . . .” I point at my laptop, trying to sound positive. “I’ve spent all day scouring my favorite magazines to figure out what it is I like about them and I made a list. I like those who deal with people. Not things or cars. Not with the trendiest clothes. What gets me are the pieces that talk about a living thing, our strengths and weaknesses, our wins and its losses. That’s what I could have done with Edge—pieces for the modern reader.” I look at him. “I research how other freelancers have started. Usually with capital, and it takes years to build a steady income. I could maybe do it.”

  He walks to my living-room window. He stares out for a long moment. His back literally looks like a rock wall. “You can do anything you want to.”

  I don’t want him to feel like I’m throwing his generous offer in his face, but I’m a little panicked wondering if he does.

 

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