by Lynn, Sandi
“The Presidential Suite, really, just for one night?”
I saw this as an opportunity to play her game.
“I will have nothing but the best room for my beautiful wife. Isn’t my wife beautiful?” I asked the bellhop with a wide grin.
“Yes, sir, she’s very beautiful.”
“Darling, husband, make sure you tip this nice young man well.” she grinned.
I pulled the cash from my pocket and started looking for a twenty-dollar bill to give the young man. Ellery came up behind me and grabbed a one hundred-dollar bill and handed it to him.
“Do you have a wife or girlfriend?” she asked.
“Yes, I do. Thank you, ma’am, and thank you for your generosity.”
“Go buy her something beautiful. Perhaps a nice necklace.”
I looked at her and clenched my jaw. I was in utter disbelief that she gave him a one hundred- dollar tip.
“Thank you, ma’am. Sir, thank you,” he said excitedly as he walked out shutting the door behind him.
“Really, a one hundred-dollar tip?” I asked her.
“Well, it’s what you tipped the cab driver.”
“Cab driver, what are you talking about?” I asked in confusion.
“The night I brought you home. I had to pay the driver, and I didn’t have enough money, so I went in your wallet and gave him a hundred. That was before you told me that you were going to fuck me really hard.”
My jaw dropped and horror swept over my face. “I said that to you?”
“Yeah, but you were drunk, so I forgave you.” She smiled.
“A one hundred-dollar tip, Ellery?” I kept saying as I started walking towards her.
“Connor, relax, it’s only money, and you said yourself that you have plenty of it,” she said as she ran behind a chair.
I started to chase after her around the suite. She was screaming as I kept saying over and over, “A hundred dollars?”
She ran into the bedroom, and I chased after her. I caught her and threw her on the bed. We both were smiling as I straddled her and had her arms pinned above her head. We were both out of breath as I stared into her beautiful, ice blue eyes. The feelings I had at that moment overtook me. I’d never felt so strongly for someone before. All I knew is that I wanted her. I needed to feel her. Her lips were begging to be kissed as mine were begging me to oblige. My heart was racing, and my body ached for her. As I held her wrists, I lowered my head, and gently brushed my lips against hers. I stopped and held her gaze; it wasn’t enough, I needed more. I let go of her wrists and softly stroked her cheek with the back of my hand. She brought her hands to my head and lightly ran her fingers through my hair. I was highly aroused, and there was no hiding it. I could feel the rapid beating of her heart, and it was at that moment that I knew she felt the same way about me as I did about her. I brought my lips to hers once more and fell onto her as she parted her lips, allowing our tongues to meet for the first time. Kissing her was intoxicating. It was everything I knew it would be. I took my time exploring her mouth and licking her soft lips. I wanted her to feel me and feel the love I was giving her. I gently held the sides of her face with my hands and started tracing her jaw line with my tongue. Suddenly, the images of Amanda, lying dead on the floor and covered in blood, flooded my mind as did all the other women I’ve used and had sex with. What the hell was I doing? How could I cross the line like that? I wanted her so badly, but I couldn’t risk losing our friendship. She was too important to me. I abruptly broke our kiss, pulled back, and sat on the edge of the bed, running my hands through my hair.
“I’m sorry, Ellery. I can’t.”
She sat up on the bed behind me. I couldn’t bring myself to look at her and see the hurt and rejection she must have felt. I was appalled by the words she spat at me.
“Why not, Connor? Is it because I’m not one of your whores?”
She knew about the other women and never let on that she did. I got up from the bed and walked across the room.
“You’re not a whore, Ellery, and I just can’t.”
“Please just tell me what’s wrong and why you don’t want me,” she pleaded.
It was breaking my heart to have to stand here and do this to her.
“I do want you, Ellery, and that’s the problem; I want you too fucking much.”
“How’s that a problem?!” she yelled.
I turned and looked at her with rage in my eyes. Maybe if I told her about the real me, she wouldn’t want me, and this would all be over.
“You don’t want to know the real me. I’m not a good person. I use women for sex. I can’t have real relationships. I don’t want to.”
“We don’t have to have a relationship. We can just be friends with benefits,” she said.
I couldn’t believe she would stoop to such a level that she would sleep with me with no strings attached. I would never do that to her, and I would never use her that way. She took a step closer to me and whispered as she placed her hand on my cheek.
“Connor, please. I need you.” A single tear fell from her eye.
“Don’t, Elle, don’t do this to me, to us. I can’t sleep with you.”
She turned and walked out of the bedroom, telling me to fuck off. The tone of her voice was angry and hurt. I followed her out of the room as she was about to walk out the door. She put her hand on the doorknob and started to turn it. There was no way I was letting her walk out of this room and possibly out of my life.
“Don’t you dare walk out that door, Ellery!” I yelled.
She stood there for a moment with her head down and then started to open it. I came up behind her and put my hand on the door, slamming it shut. I grabbed her arms, turned her around, and pushed her up against the door. I needed to make her see the kind of man I really was. She looked at me with fear in her eyes, and it killed me that she saw me that way. However, she needed to understand how much I loved her and how I couldn’t allow myself to hurt her by messing up our friendship.
“I fuck women for the pleasure. That’s it. There’s no emotion for me when I fuck them. There never has been!” I yelled as a single tear fell from her eye.
“I seduce them, use them, fuck them, and leave them. Is that what you want? Is that how you want me to treat you? You’re different, Ellery, and you scare me. You make me feel things I’ve never felt before. You’re all I think about, both day and night. I feel empty inside when you’re not around. Don’t you understand? It isn’t supposed to be this way, and if I sleep with you, this will all be ruined.”
Suddenly, the fear was gone from her eyes, and it was replaced by empathy. I couldn’t look at her anymore because of the tears, and it was tearing me apart doing this to her.
“What happened to you that made you this way?” she asked in a soft whisper.
I continued to look down, still pinning her body against the door. It was my fault that we were in this position, and it was time that she knew the truth. If she wanted to leave after I told her, then I’d let her go, and I’d never see her again. Dr. Peters was right; there could no longer be any secrets between us. Our friendship had come too far.
“I had a girlfriend when I was eighteen. She started to become obsessive and wanted to spend every waking minute with me. It became too much to try to keep her happy and it led me to feel like I was suffocating, so I broke up with her.” I paused and looked up at her as my eyes began to fill with tears.
“She committed suicide two days later. She left a note, explaining that if she couldn’t have me, then she didn’t want to live and told everyone to blame me for her suicide.” I let go of her arms, taking her wrists, and turning them over.
“You see, this is why I feel sad when I see these on you. It’s a reminder of what I did, and how I killed her.” She gasped at my words as she broke my grip and cupped my face in her hands.
“You did nothing wrong, Connor. It wasn’t your fault that she killed herself. It was her weakness and inability to cope. You cannot blame yourself.”
> “I swore then I would never fall in love or get emotionally involved with another woman, but with you, it’s too late. I’m already emotionally attached, and I’m doing everything I can to stop myself, but I can’t.” I turned away from her; my breathing was rapid. This was her opportunity to leave, and I was willing to let her go so she can be happy, but she didn’t leave.
Ellery walked up behind me and wrapped her arms around my waist. “I’m emotionally attached, and everything inside me said to stay away, but I see a side of you that I don’t think you let other people see; a sweet, tender, and caring man who would give his world for someone that he cares about.”
I let out a breath. She wasn’t leaving. She was staying. She understood and didn’t care because she just wanted to be with me, and I wanted to be with her. My secret was out, and she didn’t run. I turned around and looked at her. I saw the sadness in her eyes, and I wanted to take it away. She shouldn’t be sad. She should be happy.
I pressed my lips against hers and kissed her passionately. Our tongues danced together as I picked her up and carried her to the bedroom. My heart was racing, and my body ached for her, to touch her, and be inside her. I sat her gently on the bed as I lifted up her shirt and took it off. I took off my shirt and unbuttoned my pants, never taking my eyes off her. I never wanted to take my eyes off her again. She stood up, took off her jeans, and threw them on the floor. She laid down on the bed in just her black lace bra and matching thong. I stood there in awe of this amazing woman as I looked over her every curve. I never wanted anyone or anything so bad in my entire life.
“You are so fucking beautiful,” I whispered as I ran my hand up and down her perfectly sculpted stomach.
I climbed on top of her as she wrapped her arms around my neck. My lips met hers for a brief second until my tongue began to explore her neck. She moaned and tilted her head back to give me full access. She arched her back as I took down her bra straps and exposed her breasts. A groan escaped me as I lightly sucked each hardened nipple and ran my tongue in circles down her perfect body. She pressed her hips against me, letting me know she wanted more. I wanted to devour her. I felt like I was going to lose my mind because I wanted her and needed her so badly.
As I was licking and stroking every inch of her perfect body, she took her hand and pushed it down the front of my underwear. I moaned out of excitement. Her hand was soft as she wrapped her long fingers around my cock and stroked it up and down. I lightly traced the edge of her panties as my fingers made their way to her swollen and aching clit. Her breathing was rapid as she softly moaned and said my name. I circled my fingers around her tender spot before gently inserting them inside.
“You’re so wet, Ellery. God, I want you,” I moaned as our lips joined together.
She continuously moaned as I moved my fingers inside her in a delicate in and out motion. She was ready to come, and I could feel her wanting to explode. She started to scream my name as I softly circled her clit with my thumb, releasing all of her sweet passion to me. I’ve never been more turned on in my life, and I needed to be inside her.
I tore off my jeans and underwear and threw them across the room.
“I promise I’ll be gentle with you. If I get too rough, please promise me that you’ll stop me,” I told her. I was scared that I was going to lose all control with her and hurt her. She nodded her head as I climbed on top and gently inserted myself inside her.
I stared into her eyes with each slow and steady thrust.
“What are you doing to me, Ellery?”
The corners of her mouth curved up as she pulled me down to her, and we passionately kissed. Once I was fully inside her, my movements became faster. She panted with each thrust. Her hands traveled down my backside as she dug her nails into my back, exciting me more than I already was. I wanted this moment to last forever. I wanted to stay like this for eternity and never pull out of her. She felt so warm and so good. This moment was right for both of us. She needed me just as bad as I needed her. I brought my mouth to her breasts, sucking and lightly biting each nipple. I could feel her swell and preparing for her next orgasm, making my moans become louder and my thrusts more forceful. I took her leg and brought it up to my waist, making penetration deeper and more intense.
“Come for me, Ellery. Come, baby,” I whispered in her ear.
Her breathing became fierce as she screamed my name, and her body shook in ecstasy.
“Christ, Ellery, you feel so good.” I moaned as I yelled her name while filling her insides with my come. It was the most incredible and pleasurable feeling, and even though I’d had sex a million times, this was different; this was a new experience.
I looked at her, panting and out of breath as she stroked my face with her hand and pulled me down onto her. I wrapped my hands around her head and buried myself in her neck. Our rapid heartbeats began to slow down, as did our breathing. I gently pulled out of her and fell to my side. I took my hand and softly pushed her hair away from her face so I could see all of her beauty.
“You’re amazing.” I smiled.
“You’re amazing.” The corners of her mouth curved upward.
We laid there and talked about how beautiful our love making was and how I felt different. Ellery explained to me that it was because I made love to her with passion and emotion. She was right. I poured every emotion I had into her. I fell for Ellery Lane the moment I saw her standing in my kitchen, and now I fell in love with her. For the first time in my life, I fell in love with someone, and it scared me. I pulled her closer and held her tight until we started round two.
Chapter 12
I wrapped my arms around her as she slept. I held on tight because I never wanted to let her go. I lay and stared at her as she slept, her perfect mouth slightly open as she took in tiny breaths. She was peaceful now, and I needed to make sure that she stayed that way. I couldn’t help but softly run my finger along her jaw line. I made my way to her mouth and gently traced the outline of her perfectly shaped lips; lips that were soft, alluring, and begging to be kissed. I couldn’t stop staring at the woman to whom I’d given my whole heart. She stirred among the sheets and opened her eyes. I smiled as she looked at me.
“Good morning.”
“Good morning, baby.” I grinned as I lightly kissed her forehead. “I hope I didn’t wake you.”
“No, you didn’t wake me. But may I ask why you’re staring at me?”
“I’m staring because I never want to take my eyes off you. You’re someone who deserves my full attention at all times,” I replied as I softly ran my hand down her cheek.
She tightened her grip around my waist as she laid her head on my chest.
“I feel safe when I’m with you, Connor. I’ve never felt safer in my whole life,” she whispered as she pressed her lips against my flesh.
I closed my eyes for a moment because she took my breath away. I’d never felt so needed, and no one has ever needed me the way Ellery did. I needed her like I needed air to breathe. I need her like I need a heartbeat to keep me alive.
She moved up closer to me, and then covered her mouth with her hand. She was embarrassed about morning breath, but I didn’t care. I rolled her over on her back and started kissing her. She stopped me and looked at the clock, saying that if we didn’t get out of bed, we were going to be late. So, I had a better idea. I slid out of bed, and she bit down on her bottom lip as she stared at me, fully naked and standing in front of her. I smiled as I held out my hand to her.
“It looks like we’ll have to shower together to save time,” I said.
She quickly took my hand, and I led her to the bathroom. I turned on the water and kept it between hot and warm, but not too hot because I didn’t want Ellery passing out again. I was going to make sure that never happened again. She stepped in first, and I followed. We stood there as the water ran down our bodies, soaking our skin. I took the soft sponge and the bottle of shower gel that was compliments of the hotel and opened it. I took in the vanilla scent a
nd held it up to Ellery so she could smell it. She smiled as she took the shower gel from my hand and poured it on the sponge I was holding. I started to wash her slowly, starting with her breasts as I moved the sponge in soft circles around her nipples. She moaned as she took my cock and stroked it up and down, moving her hands in a steady motion. A groan came from the back of my throat as I continued washing every inch of her torso. She had me so excited and hard that I needed her right then and there.
“Connor, I need you now, please,” she begged me.
I turned her around, and pinned her arms against the shower wall, and took her slowly from behind, kissing her neck as I moved in and out of her. I let go of her arms and cupped each breast in my hands, rubbing and feeling them as she sexily moaned. Nothing was sexier than seeing her against the shower wall. I could barely control myself.
She moaned with each deep thrust.
“Come with me, Connor,” she begged.
Hearing her say those words were all I needed. I pushed myself harder into her as I filled her up with my warmth. Her body shook as I held her tight, and we both sank to the shower floor, holding each other in pure bliss.
Once we were able to get ourselves out of the shower, I stayed in the bathroom to shave, and Ellery went into the bedroom to get dressed. I walked into the room and found Ellery sitting on the edge of the bed. It looked like something was bothering her. I stood over her and ran my hand through her wet hair.
“What’s wrong, baby?” I asked her.
She looked up and smiled at me. “Nothing’s wrong. I’m just sitting here, wishing that we could stay another night in this beautiful hotel room.”
I smiled and held my hand out to help her from the bed.
“Don’t you worry. There will be plenty of beautiful hotel rooms in our future.”
I meant every word I said to her. I envisioned a future with Ellery. I never thought it would be possible to love someone so much. I’d kept my heart closed off for so many years, but now I knew it was because she was the one who was meant to open it. She looked at me and tears began to fill her eyes.