Repented
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She balled up the wrapper of her straw and flicked it at me. This is just one of the reasons that we did work. Everything was carefree when she wasn't driving herself nuts over analyzing every little thing. Our sense of humors were very similar, and we just clicked.
Sliding my hand across the top of her leg, I gripped her inner thigh. She let out a small gasp. Right then, I wanted to wrap my fingers in her hair and pull her lips to mine. I wanted to taste her favorite vanilla mint chapstick. I wanted her to use me for pleasure. There didn't need to be any love. We could use our connection and chemistry to make magic in the sheets. Who needs love anyway?
I silently thanked all that was holy that she couldn't read my thoughts. What a disaster that would be. My mom always said I'm one of those people that she can never have on speaker phone if there's anyone else in the house. You never know what's going to come out. My brother, Andy and my dad are the same way. Must be genetic.
Putting the window down, I pushed the code into the keypad, and the gates swung open. Passing the main house, I parked in front of the guest house and cut the engine. The snow was starting to fall harder now and at least it would give me an excuse to keep her here without letting on to any drama, for now.
I grabbed her suitcase from the backseat and led her inside. She'd only been here twice before she left. Kevin and I keep it laid back, and since Bri and Madison are cousins, there shouldn't be any issue with all of us being under the same roof for a few days. We could be like one big happy family.
BRI
Last weekend, Austin and I spent at a lodge in the mountains about three hours from here. We spent our days snow tubing. The first night we watched a movie in front of the cabins roaring fire. The chemistry between us was crackling as much as the logs in the fire were. By the end of the movie, I was on top of him in the midst of a heavy make out session. We left it at that.
The next night was much of the same, but I wasn't normally the girl that jumped into bed with anyone. He had me so turned on just being in proximity that when he went to take my shirt off, I didn't stop him. His was already missing from his shower. He was commanding, yet gentle and I was soaked with anticipation. I needed relief. There was no way I was going to ask him for it. I would wait until I was sure that he was sleeping and take care of it myself without him being the wiser. That was until his thumb lightly grazed by clit. I let out a deep breath that I didn't even realize I was holding.
"Let me take care of you," he whispered into my ear in his deep, husky voice.
Austin just did it for me. Looks, personality, sense of humor. He was the whole package. I knew he was far from perfect, but for me, for now, he was what I wanted. Giving him a slight nod, he flipped me, so I was lying underneath him. He lowered my pajama pants down my hips, exposing me. He appraised the goods as he continued circling my clit with his thumb.
"You are fucking, perfect."
Using his other hand, he slid one finger, followed by another into my heat. His pace started out slow and deliberate. Keeping eye contact with me, he pulled them out and brought them to his mouth, sucking them. There was something so incredibly intimate about that moment. It was intense and left me wanting more. I lie there paralyzed. I had only ever had sex with my last boyfriend. Since then, I didn't have time for that sort of thing and one-night stands held no appeal to me.
Lowering his face, his facial hair tickled my sensitive flesh. His tongue darted out and ran up my slit pausing right before pausing at my clit. He blew lightly, sending a shiver through me. Then he was in his zone. His fingers entered my core at the same time his tongue pressed against me, sending me into overdrive. There was so much sensation at once. Part of me wanted to be embarrassed, but it felt right. I was so turned on that it didn't take long before I was lifting my ass and grinding against his beard getting off.
Immediately after, I felt slightly self-conscious. He sat up looking like he'd just won an award. My arousal was still evident on his face. I moved trying to return the favor, especially since I felt like it was the right thing to do. He had just given me the best orgasm I'd ever had, and now he wouldn't let me touch him.
"Not yet. I'm good with that for now. Thank you for letting me take care of you." He stood and walked into the bathroom to wash his face with a huge smile. I pulled my pajama pants back up and searched for my tank top. I was hoping that this wasn't going to change things or make them awkward. This was a huge step for me.
Over the next week, we had spent a lot of time together. We had breakfast a few times and dinner twice. We were building a solid friendship, and I liked it. I just wasn't sure where it was heading. I had to go back to Michigan for the week to wrap up a few final things with Gramps estate. There were still a few loose ends I had to tie up, and I was glad to have it finally behind me. Now that I was back in Smithville, I just made plans with Austin to be fuck buddies...
What am I thinking?
CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
IGNITE THE NIGHT
It felt good to be back in Ohio. I was grateful for Austin not only picking me up from the airport, but for having the good mind to bring me food. It wasn't even a long flight, it's more just the getting to the airport, going through security and waiting. It exhausts you and makes you hungry. I was feeling tired, but I also wanted Austin. Bad. He pretty much moved into my brain and was a constant thought. I was ready to put the past behind and move on. I felt safe with Austin. He made it feel okay to put my guard down. That wasn't something I was used to, but with him it felt right.
I wasn't ready to get into a relationship at the moment, but there was no reason we couldn't have a friends with benefits deal. It would be good for both of us and no hard feelings. I'd just have to keep my heart in check.
Walking into the vast living room, he headed straight to his bedroom, which was downstairs. I momentarily wondered where Kevin and Madison were as I followed behind him. That thought was quickly erased when Austin closed the door and pinned me up against the wall. His mouth commanded mine. His hands were in my hair and on the back of my neck. I pushed him backward toward the bed. If it was happening, I was going to be the one in control.
I couldn't fight it anymore. I was done trying to. It was all I could think about while I was gone. Right now, I wanted him so bad it was hard to breathe. His touch set me on fire. The gaze that he held with mine was electric.
"Bri-," Austin started to stay before I cut him off with my kiss.
"Shhhh," I whispered. "Just let it flow."
Lowering my face, I kissed his lips. I loved how his body felt pressed against mine. I pulled back long enough to get rid of my clothes. His clothes were flying all over the room before sitting on his heels in the middle of the bed, his arousal standing. Licking my lips, I lowered my head taking him into my mouth. My heart was pounding as I took him deep in my throat. His hands ran through my hair, stopping at the back of my neck.
Leading me at his pace, I was thankful for his guidance. Wrapping my hand around the base of his thick cock, I began pumping. I picked up my pace, feeling him stiffen. He flipped me onto my back and situated his face between my legs. His tongue prodding at my entrance. I knew I was soaked. Austin just had that effect on me. He moaned as he devoured me like his favorite meal. His facial hair was adding to the stimulation. His large hands were digging into my hips as he brought me closer to the edge.
Fuck, he was a champ.
It was time; I couldn't take it anymore. I needed to feel him. Pulling away, I grabbed a condom from the end table. Luckily, Zach had left an entire drawer full of Magnums. I undid the wrapper and palmed his cock, before sliding it down his impressive throbbing magnificence. Pushing him down on his back, I straddled his waist and slid his thick cock along my soaked slit, lining him up with my entrance before lowering myself on to him. The feeling of him stretching me as he filled me was better than anything I could have ever imagined. Slowly, I took him inch by inch until I was balls deep.
"Fuck!" I moaned, loving the feeling.
"You look so good on me." He moaned. "So hot. So wet. God, I want you to fuck me."
As I started riding him, his thumbs dug into my hips. I felt the relief as soon as he started touching my clit. The build from earlier was back, and it didn't take long before I shattered around him. I felt like I was floating in the clouds. His hands moved up to my shoulder blades, as he turned me, so I was now on my back. He lifted my legs, so one foot was on each side of his head and started pounding into me. I wasn't sure I could have another orgasm so soon, but it was going to happen. The way he moved. The way he looked at me. The way he commanded my body. It was all too much.
"One more, baby. Please," he begged.
My nails dug into his arms as I came. Hard. His thrusts were more persistent as he followed. He dropped his body down, except he didn't feel heavy. It felt nice. His face cradled in my neck, his beard tickling my neck, as his breathing began to slow. For the first time in a long time, I felt completely content. There was nothing that could ruin this moment.
Except, I spoke too soon when the door opened. Madison's face had appeared for a split second before the door slammed shut followed by a string of expletives and an apology. I tried to move out from under him, but he wasn't having it.
He lifted his head and looked at me with an expression I couldn't quite peg. It almost looked a little sad. "Don't let me be lonely. I don't care what this is, or where it's going. I just want to be in the present with you. I want to let it transform into whatever it's meant to be, but right now I just want you here with me."
"Let's face it it's either forever, or it's not. There is no in between, but for now let's just enjoy whatever this is. Titles are lame anyway. You like me; I like you. Easy." I smiled and tried my best to be reassuring.
He snuggled back into my neck. "Where have you been?" He laughed.
"It doesn't matter where we've been, what matters now is that we're here now. But, we need to get up and see what's going on with Madison." His demeanor changed. Again, I turned to look at him. "Why do I get the feeling that there's something going on that I'm not privy to?"
He pulled away and sat up. His hand ran through his beard. "Something may have happened while you were gone..." he hesitated. "I didn't want to tell you and have you come back. We had it under control. There was nothing you could have done anyway. However, I am going to want you to stay here until we figure out our next move." I resisted the urge to throat punch him. He looked so sad and worried, but I was still pissed I didn't have a clue what was going on. "We'll get cleaned up and then fill you in on everything."
He leaned in to kiss me, but I pushed him off and went to my suitcase. I was mad at him. I tried not to be, but I was. My family and friends had the tendency to treat me with kid gloves. After everything I've been through in my life up to this point has made me emotionally capable of handling most anything. Not that it wasn't nice to have support and people in your corner encouraging or helping you, but I wasn't a baby calf.
After grabbing a pair of comfy sweats and a t-shirt, I quickly threw them on. Opening the door with more force than necessary, I went into the living room, not bothering to wait for Austin. I wanted answers. Now.
MADISON
Kevin and I were sitting on the couch, holding hands and watching TV. We had a great morning visiting my parents. Kevin and my dad were forming a bond, which made me extremely happy. I was slowly starting to crawl out of the black hole that enveloped me. So far Damon had gone back into the shadows, I knew it probably wasn't going to be forever, but I could at least try and put it behind me for now. I wasn't looking forward to having to tell Bri what happened. She hated Damon. Hate wasn't even a strong enough word for how she felt. If she could get away with stabbing him, there's no doubt she would.
Tonight, we were supposed to go over to Aubrey's for girl's night in. I for one was looking forward to drinks, snacks and girl talk. I loved Kevin, but ever since he started worrying about my safety he started to hover. I appreciated him looking out for me, but I needed some space.
A few minutes later, Bri came out of the room with a grin on her face. Her cheeks flushed. She knew they were busted. Honestly, I was just happy she was getting some. She needed it.
As I smiled at her, her eyes cut to me. "We need to talk. Now," she demanded. "What the fuck happened while I was gone and why didn't you tell me?"
Rolling my eyes, I got to my feet and walked into the kitchen. Taking a seat on one of the bar stools at the island, I waited for her to sit next to me. I put my hand on top of hers. It was more for my own safety since she was going to flip.
"I need you to promise to keep your cool." She nodded. I proceeded with caution. "Apparently Damon had a camera set up in my bedroom. The guys did a sweep of the rest of the house was clean, but he sent some photos to my work. Kevin and Dad paid him a visit, and we haven't seen or heard from him since. It's not a big deal, okay? It's under control; there's no reason to flip."
It was wishful thinking; she blew up. I got the why didn't you call? The what the fuck, Mads! The, I'm gonna fucking kill him, but not before I feed his balls to him. Before she could really lose it, Austin came out and stood behind her. He wrapped his arms around her, and she just stopped. After losing as much as she did, I understood her concern. The room was filled with uncomfortable silence.
Kevin cleared his throat. "You better go get ready. You have be at Aubrey's in half an hour." He announced, pointing at the clock.
Bri looked at me again. "Girls night. It should be fun."
She grumbled under her breath but made her way back into Austin's room.
Austin shook his head."She has got to be one of the most challenging women I've ever met."
At six, we crossed the yard and headed to Aubrey's. She welcomed us in and led us into the kitchen. The counter was covered in shot glasses, bottles of wine, liquor, and appetizers. Piper was already sitting there with a drink in her hand. Joss was next to her. Joss smiled warmly and gave a little wave.
"Hello ladies," Piper stood and hugged each of us. She took my hand and examined my wrist. "It's healing nicely. If we need to touch up any of it, just stop in."
"Thanks." I liked them a lot, and it was nice to have a chance to get to know them a little better.
Aubrey handed us each a glass and demanded we try it. It was Jack Daniel's Fire and Apple Orchard. It was phenomenal. I wasn't a big drinker, usually only socially, but I could get hooked on this.
A few minutes later, Aubrey's grandma came in. I was told by Kevin what to expect. He said she had no filter. She had on a navy blue tracksuit and a shirt that said, I don't suffer from insanity I enjoy every minute of it. I liked her already.
"So which one of you is who?" Granny Jean asked, looking between Bri and me.
"I'm Madison, Kevin's girlfriend, and this is my cousin, Bri."
She appraised each of us up and down, nodded and went to grab a drink.
"You know I've been around a time or two and these boys have become my pseudo grandsons. Lucky me, I know." She laughed. "They're good boys with big hearts, and I may be old, but if you hurt them I'll hunt you down and make you hurt too." She hmphed and took back a shot, slamming the glass down onto the marble countertop.
"Granny!" Aubrey scolded.
Granny Jean rolled her eyes at her. "Just saying."
Soon Kelsey and Peyton showed up. We moved into the living room. Kelsey was Tyler's long time girlfriend. Apparently there was some drama involving Derek. Kevin didn't get into any real specifics, but I knew enough to avoid the subject. Tyler was the drummer in Guilty Tendencies. I had only met him twice, very briefly while they were taking breaks from the studio. He and Kelsey were renting an apartment above a deli in town and k
ept to themselves from what I knew.
Peyton worked with Piper at TruInk and was dating Zach. They were very hot and cold. I felt like I needed index cards to keep it all straight. It almost felt like I was an outsider, so I was thankful to have Bri here with me. They treated me great, but they all had deeper bonds and connections. I suppose that would come with time in. For now, I was thankful to be a part of the inner circle.
Peyton started griping about Zach. Apparently they were on the outs again. It wasn't easy dating a musician. Kevin schooled me from the beginning, but I also had a career that I was planning to start. I was going to need to devote a lot of time to moving up the ladder.
"He's just so...frustrating," Peyton said through gritted teeth. "I swear finding a decent guy is impossible."
"Because sweetie, those men already have boyfriends." Granny Jean laughed.
I nearly choked on my drink. I wanted to adopt her.
The rest of the night was filled with laughter and easy conversation. Feeling slightly tipsy, I knew that tonight with the help of the whiskey I was going to need to fill Kevin in on the rest of the missing pieces.
Around midnight, Bri and I trudged our asses across the lawn back to the guest house. Kevin and Austin were sitting on the couches with their guitars in hand. It sounded amazing.
"I texted you two hours ago," Austin said to Bri.
"It was girl's night and I didn't want to be rude. The only people I talk to are Mads and you. If you paid attention, you would have noticed my phone was charging in your room."
"But what if I needed you?" He looked dead serious asking the question. If he didn't back off a little, he was going to make her shut down. I shot him a look hoping he'd catch on and drop it.