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House Rules

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by Jodi Picoult


  It is hard to see your eighteen-year-old son clutching a stuffed toy. But that's what autism is, a slippery slope. One minute, you convince yourself that you are so far up that hill you can't see the bottom anymore, and the next, it's covered with black ice, and you are falling fast.

  *

  Auntie Em's column, Thursday, January 14, Teen Edition: The best parenting advice I ever got was from a labor nurse who told me the following:

  1. After your baby gets here, the dog will just be a dog.

  2. The terrible twos last through age three.

  3. Never ask your child an open-ended question, such as --Do you want to go to bed now?||

  You won't want to hear the answer, believe me. --Do you want me to carry you upstairs, or do you want to walk upstairs to go to bed?|| That way, you get the outcome you want and they feel empowered.

  Now that my children are older, not much has changed.

  Except we do not have a dog.

  The terrible twos last through age eighteen.

  And questions still shouldn't be open-ended, because you won't get an answer to

  --Where were you last night till two A.M.?|| or --How did you get a D on your math test?||

  There are two deductions you can glean from this. That parenting isn't a noun but a verb--an ongoing process instead of an accomplishment. And that no matter how many years you put into the job, the learning curve is, well, fairly flat.

  I leave Jacob's room, intending to watch the evening news. But when I reach the living room, Theo is tuned to some god-awful MTV show about spoiled girls who are shipped off to third-world countries by their parents to learn humility. --Don't you have homework to do?|| I ask.

  --Done.||

  --I want to watch the news.||

  --I was here first.||

  I stare as a girl shovels elephant dung into a large plastic bag in Burma. --Eeew,|| she squeals, and I glance at Theo. --Please tell me you'd rather open your mind to current affairs than watch this.||

  --But I'm supposed to tell the truth,|| Theo says, grinning. --House rules.||

  --Okay, let's try this: if I watch this program with you, I might be suitably moved to send you to Burma to broaden your horizons by cleaning up elephant dung.||

  He tosses me the remote control. --That is such blackmail.||

  --And yet it worked,|| I say, flipping the channel to a local broadcast. A man is shouting into a microphone. --All I know,|| he cries, --is that it's a crime for a local police department to sit on the disappearance of a young girl, instead of actively pursuing an investigation.||

  A white banner flashes beneath the face: STATE SENATOR CLAUDE OGILVY.

  --Hey,|| Theo says. --Isn't that the name--||

  --Ssh ...||

  The reporter's face fills the screen. --Townsend Police Chief Fred Huckins says that the disappearance of Jess Ogilvy is a priority and urges anyone with information to contact the department at 802-555-4490.||

  Then a picture of Jacob's social skills tutor appears, with the phone number below it.

  Theo

  --Live from Townsend,|| the reporter wraps up, --I'm Lucy McNeil.||

  I look at my mother. --That's Jess,|| I say, the obvious.

  --Oh my God,|| she murmurs. --That poor girl.||

  I don't understand. I totally don't understand.

  My mother grabs my arm. --This information doesn't leave this room,|| she says.

  --You think Jacob isn't going to find out? He reads the papers. He's online.||

  She pinches the bridge of her nose. --He's so fragile right now, Theo. I can't throw this at him yet. Just give me a little while so I can figure out how.||

  I take the remote out of her hand and turn the TV off. Then, muttering some excuse about an essay, I run upstairs to my room and lock the door.

  I walk in circles, my arms braced behind my head, like I'm cooling off after running a marathon. I run through everything I heard that senator say, and the reporter. The police chief, for God's sake, who said the disappearance is a priority.

  Whatever the fuck that means.

  I wonder if it will turn out to be a big hoax, like that college girl who vanished and later said she was abducted and it turned out that she was making the whole story up to get attention. I kind of hope that's what happens, because the alternative is something I don't want to think about.

  Here's all I really need to know:

  Jess Ogilvy is missing, and I was one of the last people to see her.

  Rich

  On the answering machine at the Robertsons' house, there are six messages. One is from Mark Maguire, asking Jess to call him when she gets back. One is from a dry cleaner, letting her know that her skirt is ready. One is identified by caller ID as E. Hunt. The message says, --Hi, Jess, this is Jacob's mom. Can you give me a call?|| The other three messages are hang-ups, and all three came from the number registered to Jess Ogilvy's mobile phone.

  That tells me either she's a battered woman in hiding, trying to get the nerve to call her boyfriend and failing, or her boyfriend is covering his ass after accidentally killing her.

  I spend Friday crossing off the names in Jess Ogilvy's Day-Timer. My first call is to the two girls whose names pop up the most often in the history of months past. Alicia and Cara are grad students, like Jess. Alicia has cornrowed hair that hangs to her waist, and Cara is a tiny blonde wearing camouflage cargo pants and black work boots. Over coffee at the student center, they admit they haven't seen Jess since Tuesday.

  --She missed an exam with the Gorgon,|| Cara says. --Nobody misses an exam with the Gorgon.||

  --The Gorgon?||

  --Professor Gorgona,|| she explains. --It's a seminar course on special education.||

  GORGONA, I write in my notes. --Has Jess ever gone away for a few days before?||

  --Yeah--once,|| Alicia says. --She went to Cape Cod for a long weekend and didn't tell us beforehand.||

  --She went with Mark, though,|| Cara adds, and she wrinkles her nose.

  --I take it you aren't a fan of Mark Maguire?||

  --Is anyone?|| Alicia says. --He doesn't treat her right.||

  --What do you mean by that?||

  --If he says jump, she doesn't even ask How high?' She goes out and buys a pogo stick.||

  --We haven't seen a lot of her since they started hooking up,|| Cara says. --Mark likes to keep her all to himself.||

  So do most abusive partners, I think.

  --Detective Matson?|| Alicia asks. --She's going to be okay, right?||

  A week ago, Jess Ogilvy was probably sitting here where I am, drinking coffee with her friends and freaking out about the Gorgon's upcoming exam.

  --I hope so,|| I say.

  People don't just disappear. There's always a reason, or an enemy with a grudge. There's always a loose thread that starts to unravel.

  The problem is that Jess Ogilvy is, apparently, a saint.

  --I was surprised when she missed the exam,|| Professor Gorgona says. A slight woman with a white bun and a trace of a foreign accent, she doesn't seem nearly as threatening as Alicia and Cara made her out to be. --She's my star student, really. She's getting her master's and writing an honors thesis at the same time. Graduated with a 4.0

  from Bates and worked with Teach for America for two years before she decided to make a career out of it.||

  --Is there anyone who might be jealous of the fact that she does so well in class?|| I ask.

  --Not that I've noticed,|| the professor says.

  --Did she confide in you about any personal problems?||

  --I'm not exactly the warm and fuzzy type,|| the professor says wryly. --Our communication was strictly adviser-advisee in an academic sense. The only extracurricular activities I even know she participated in are education-related: she organizes the Special Olympics here in town, and she tutors an autistic boy.|| Suddenly the professor frowns.

  --Has anyone contacted him? He'll have a hard time coping if Jess doesn't show up for her scheduled appoint
ment. Changes in routine are very traumatic for kids like Jacob.||

  --Jacob?|| I repeat, and I open the Day-Timer.

  This is the boy whose mother left a message on the answering machine at the professor's house. The boy whose name is entered into Jess's schedule on the day she disappeared.

  --Professor,|| I say, --you wouldn't happen to know where he lives?||

  Jacob Hunt and his family reside in a part of Townsend that's a little more run-down than the rest of it--the part you have to work harder to find behind the picture-postcard town green and the stately New England antique homes. Their house is just beyond the condos that are filled with the recently separated and newly divorced, past the train tracks for an Amtrak route that's long defunct.

  The woman who opens the door has a blue stain on her shirt and dark hair wound into a messy knot and the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen. They're pale, like a lioness's, nearly golden, but they also look like they've done their share of crying, and we all know that a sky with clouds in it is much more interesting than one that doesn't have any. I'd place her in her early forties. She's holding a spoon, which is dribbling its contents onto the floor. --I don't want any,|| she says, starting to close the door.

  --I'm not selling anything,|| I say. --You're, um, dripping.||

  She glances down, and then sticks the spoon into her mouth.

  That's when I remember why I'm here. I hold up my badge. --I'm Detective Rich Matson. Are you Jacob's mother?||

  --Oh, God,|| she says. --I thought he'd already called you to apologize.||

  --Apologize?||

  --It's really not his fault,|| she interjects. --Granted, I should have known that he was sneaking out, but with him, this hobby is almost a pathology. And if there's any way I can convince you to keep this quiet--not a bribe, of course, just maybe a handshake agreement

  ... You see, if it becomes public knowledge, then my career could really take a hit, and I'm a single mom who's barely scraping by as is ...||

  She is babbling, and I have no idea what the hell she is talking about. Although I did hear the word single. --I'm sorry, Ms. Hunt--||

  --Emma.||

  --Emma, then. I ... have no idea what you're talking about. I came because your son is tutored by Jess Ogilvy--||

  --Oh,|| she says, sobering. --I heard about Jess on the news. Her poor parents must be frantic. Are there any leads yet?||

  --That's why I'm here to speak to your son.||

  Those eyes of hers darken. --You can't possibly think Jacob had anything to do with her disappearance?||

  --No, but he was the last appointment in her date book before she disappeared.||

  She folds her arms. --Detective Matson, my son has Asperger's syndrome.||

  --Okay.|| And I'm red-green color-blind. Whatever.

  --It's high-functioning autism. He doesn't even know Jess is missing yet. He's had a hard time lately, and the news could be devastating to him.||

  --I can be sensitive about the subject.||

  She measures me for a moment with her gaze. Then, turning, she heads into the house, expecting me to follow. --Jacob,|| she calls as we reach the kitchen.

  I stand in the entryway, waiting for a child to appear. After all, Jess Ogilvy is a teacher and Professor Gorgona referred to a boy she worked with. Instead, a behemoth teenager who's taller than I am, and probably stronger, shuffles into the room. This is who Jess Ogilvy tutored? I stare at him for a second, trying to place the reason he looks so familiar out of context, and suddenly it comes to me: hypothermic man. This kid identified the cause of death before the medical examiner did.

  --You?|| I say. -- You're Jacob Hunt?||

  Now his mother's rushed apologies make sense. She probably thought I'd come to slap a fine on the kid, or arrest him for interfering with a crime scene.

  --Jacob,|| she says drily, --I think you're already acquainted with Detective Matson.||

  --Hi, Jacob.|| I hold out a hand. --Nice to officially meet you.||

  He doesn't shake it. He doesn't even look me in the eye. --I saw the article in the paper,|| he says, his voice flat and robotic. --It was buried in the back. If you ask me, someone dying of hypothermia is worthy of at least page two.|| He takes a step forward.

  --Did the full autopsy results come back? It would be interesting to know if the alcohol lowered the freezing point for the body, or if there's not a significant change.||

  --So, Jake,|| I say.

  --Jacob. My name is Jacob, not Jake.||

  --Right, Jacob. I was hoping to ask you a few questions?||

  --If they're about forensics,|| he says, growing animated, --then I am more than happy to help. Have you heard about the research coming out of Purdue, on desorption electrospray ionization? They found that the sweat from finger pores slightly corrodes metal surfaces--anything from a bullet to a piece of a bomb. If you spray the fingerprints with positively charged water, the droplets dissolve chemicals in the fingerprints and transfer minute amounts that can be analyzed by mass spectrometer. Can you imagine how handy it would be to not only get fingerprint images but also identify the chemicals in them? You could not only place a suspect at a crime scene but also get proof that he handled explosives.||

  I look at Emma Hunt, begging for help. --Jacob, Detective Matson needs to talk to you about something else. You want to sit down for a minute?||

  --A minute. Because it's almost four-thirty.||

  And what, I wonder, happens at 4:30? His mother doesn't react at all to his comment. I feel a little like Alice in Wonderland, in the Disney video that Sasha likes to watch on her weekends with me, and everyone is in on the Unbirthday routine but me. Last time we'd watched it, I realized that being a parent wasn't all that different. We're always bluffing, pretending we know best, when most of the time we're just praying we won't screw up too badly.

  --Well, then,|| I say to Jacob. --I guess I'd better start.||

  Emma

  The only reason I let Rich Matson into my house is because I'm still not entirely sure that he doesn't want to punish Jacob for showing up at his crime scene last weekend, and I will do whatever I have to do to make that whole nightmare go away.

  --Jacob,|| I say, --Detective Matson needs to talk to you about something else. You want to sit down for a minute?||

  We are racing against a clock, not that Matson would understand. --A minute.

  Because it's almost four-thirty,|| Jacob tells me.

  I don't know how anyone could look at Jacob and think he'd be a viable witness.

  Sure, his mind is a steel trap. But half the time, there's no lock to get inside it.

  The detective sits at the kitchen table. I turn down the flame on the stove and then join him. Jacob is struggling to look in Matson's direction, but his eyelids keep fluttering, as if he's staring into the sun, and finally he gives up and lets his gaze slide away.

  --You have a friend named Jess, right?|| the detective asks.

  --Yes.||

  --What do you and Jess do together?||

  --We practice social skills. Conversations. Good-byes. Things like that.|| He hesitates. --She's my best friend.||

  This doesn't surprise me. Jacob's definition of a friend isn't legitimate. To him, a friend might be the kid whose locker is next to his in school, who therefore has an interaction at least once a day to say, Could you move over? A friend is someone who he's never met but who doesn't actively taunt him in school. Jess may be paid by me to meet with Jacob, but that doesn't take away from the fact that she honestly cares about him and connects with him.

  The detective looks at Jacob, who, of course, is not looking at him. I watch people falter over that normal courtesy of communication all the time--after a while, it feels like staring, so they look away from Jacob, mirroring his behavior. Sure enough, after a moment, Matson stares down at the table as if there's something fascinating in the wood grain. --Right now, Jacob, Jess is missing. And it's my job to find her.||

  I suck in my breath. -- That's what
you call sensitive?||

  But Jacob doesn't seem to be surprised, which makes me wonder if he's seen the news, or read about the disappearance in the papers or online. --Jess is gone,|| he repeats.

  The detective leans forward. --Were you supposed to meet with her last Tuesday?||

  --Yes,|| Jacob says. --At two thirty-five.||

  --And did you?||

  --No.||

  Suddenly, Jacob's breakdown makes perfect sense. To travel to Jess's unfamiliar new residence--which already would have set off his alarm bells--and then to never have Jess show up ... Well, talk about a perfect storm for an AS kid. --Oh, Jacob. Was that why you had a meltdown?||

  --Meltdown?|| Matson echoes.

  I glance at him briefly. --When Jacob's routine is disrupted, he gets very agitated.

  This was a double whammy, and by the time he came home--|| I break off, suddenly remembering something else. --You walked home from Jess's place? Alone?||

  It isn't that he wouldn't know the way--Jacob is a veritable human GPS; he can take one look at a map and have it memorized. But knowing geography and knowing how to follow directions are two very different things. Getting from point A to point B to point C inevitably trips him up.

  --Yes,|| Jacob says. --It wasn't so bad.||

  It was nearly eight miles. In the freezing cold. I suppose I should consider us lucky: on top of everything else, Jacob could have wound up with pneumonia.

  --How long did you wait for her?||

  Jacob looks up at the clock. He starts rubbing the tips of his fingers against his thumbs, back and forth. --I have to go now.||

  I notice the detective staring at Jacob as he fidgets, and I know damn well what he's thinking. --I bet when you see someone who doesn't make eye contact and who can't sit still, you immediately assume guilt,|| I say. --Me, I assume he's on the spectrum.||

  --It's four-thirty.|| Jacob's voice is louder, more urgent.

 

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