by B. K. Leigh
“You’re so fucking perfect Raegan.” His hands travel all around on their own accord causing goosebumps to stand all over my skin. His body heats me up as the cool air wraps around my naked skin. My hands explore his ripped abs and sculpted back. Years of working out definitely paid off. He falls back on his knees tearing the black cotton T-Shirt from his body. His black intricate tattoo is on full display as it wraps up his left bicep and curls around his left breast. It’s a bunch of different designs wrapped in one and I swear I can see a few letters mixed in.
Our bodies are skin to skin as we touch, lick, suck and explore. The room is filled with muffled mewls and moans. Hot heavy breaths come out in lust filled pants. I know enough to know that I want him. In this moment I want all of him, mind body and soul. I trace a finger under the waist of his jeans, slowly making my way further under until I’m met with his thick hard shaft. He lets out a small groan and grabs my hand.
“Raegan, we don’t have to go there.” I know he’s dead serious. If I decided I wanted to stop he would stop as if nothing even happened, but I don’t want that.
“I want to.” I say. My eyes are latched on to him conveying the truth. I want him. Need him in more ways than none.
“Are you sure? You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do.” My hands clasp his cheeks, pulling his head to where it’s just a couple of inches away from mine.
“I know what I want Knox. I want you, I’ve always wanted you.” When you know, you know. His lips crash against mine and his tongue dives into my mouth tangling and twisting with mine. His jeans come off next and mine seem to follow, leaving me in nothing but my underwear. His eyes become hooded and clouded with lust and longing. His kisses leave my neck and trail down to my collar bone, chest and stomach stopping just above my sweet spot below. I wait in anticipation as his fingers hook the fabric and peel them slowly down my legs. Embarrassed by the amount of wetness I feel my cheeks redden.
“I love you Raegan Allen Taylor, I love you so much it fucking hurts.” I feel his words straight down to my soul. His hot and heavy breath falls against my skin and my body continues to come alive.
“I-I love you too Knox.” The words sound foreign on my lips, but feel completely right with Knox. He freezes above me, running his eyes up and down my body. I squirm under is penetrating stare. “Don’t stop Knox.” My demand seems to break the spell because he’s on me in an instant. His thick shaft rubs against the inside of my thighs, sliding between my slick folds. I latch on to his biceps as he takes his dick in one hand and guides it to my entrance.
“This might hurt Rae.” In his eyes a war seems to be raging but it soon fades away.
“I know Knox, but I want this. I want this with you.” My hips swing upwards to find the contact they need and finally he gets the hint to continue forward.
“Breathe Raegan.” He reminds me, and I do as he says. He leans down further and slowly begins push it in. The pressure seems to build higher and higher with every centimeter he seems to get.
“Please just get it over with.” I plead as I feel him brace up against my barrier. He lets out a soft chuckle making me feel better about my awkward outburst. In one final thrust he rips through my innocence. It’s a searing hot pain, and I feel as if I’ve been ripped to shreds. My insides burn and tear as he thrusts forward once again.
“You alright Rae?” he asks, searching my eyes for any sort of pain.
“I’m fine, just please keep going.” I manage to get out. I mask my emotions. Afraid to let Knox know about the pain my core seems to be in. He picks up pace and continues thrusting and after what seems to be forever the pain slowly turns to pleasure. My sounds of discomfort turn into moans of pleasure.
“Fuck, you’re so tight baby.” his voice comes out strangled. I can tell he’s trying to hold back as best he can, trying not to hurt me. The feeling I have is as If I’m climbing higher and higher up a mountain. The higher I get the better it feels. His thrusts grow faster and so does the pressure growing and spreading throughout my center. My whole body feels as if it’s completely on fire in the best of ways.
“Oh god…Knox.” My voice is a jumbled mess of words and moans. “Oh fuck!”
“Fuck baby you’re going to make me cum.” One more thrust and he hits a spot so hard I see stars. My body convulses beneath him and suddenly I’m free falling through this high, one, two, three pumps later Knox is following right behind me. I feel his seed flood my insides, coating me with thick white ropes of cum. My legs shake uncontrollably as I ride out the waves of ecstasy flowing throughout my entire body.
Our bodies are tangled and laced with a thick sheen of sweat. He wipes a strand of hair away from my forehead and kisses me right in the middle. It’s tender and sweet and only seems to convey the love he has for me. I don’t know what to say as we lay there spent in silence. And when he pulls out of me I’m filled with an overwhelming empty feeling. I can feel the loss of him and all the fluid between us drains out onto the sheets beneath.
“You’re so beautiful Raegan Allen Taylor.” He nuzzles my nose with his own. Just that small movement alone reassures me that what we just did was right. When Knox leaves my body and bed a small bubble of panic forms inside of me.
“Where are you going?” I ask as his naked butt retreats down the hallway.
“Just wanted to get you cleaned up.” He says as he walks back over to me. He presses a small wet cloth between my legs, gently rubbing and wiping. The area is tender and sore as his figure work against it. The gesture is so intimate, my cheeks light up on fire. “Do you want to take a shower?” he asks.
“No I just want you to lay with me.” I need him to hold me, to show me it was more to him then just getting off. Somehow I know this was just the sealing of our fate. It’s always been Knox for me. I knew it when I was ten and I know it now. He’s my person and always will be. When he finally climbs in bed behind me I let out a relaxed sigh. I start to drift off to sleep, the heat of his body seeping into mine and making me feel at peace. Just as my eyes finally close I swear I hear him whisper he loves me. Soon sleep takes over. I drift away feeling protected, cherished and loved all at once.
Chapter 11
Raegan
“Do you regret it?” Knox asks as we lay in his bed. I have one leg draped over his muscular thigh and a lazy arm tracing circles along his sculpted abs. Ever since our first time it’s been crazy. Every time we’re alone we can’t seem to keep our hands off each other. Sometimes it feels nice to just talk.
“No, not at all do you?” I rest my chin on his chest and stare up into his bright emerald eyes. There always bright and relaxed after we make love.
“I’d never regret you Raegan.” He runs a hand through my tangled mess of hair.
“Was I your first?” the words fall out of my mouth like bad word vomit. It makes me seem insecure. “You don’t have to answer that.” I try to take back my words but it’s already too late.
“If you didn’t want to know you wouldn’t ask, but no… you weren’t.” he takes in a deep inhale of breath. “I was very angry when I lived with my dad, I had so much regrets and unsolved business here I acted out. I would go to parties, and get into fights, and one night I met a girl and things just happened.” He sounds so guilty as the words spill from his mouth. I try not to let my heart crack at the thought of Knox with another girl, but no matter how hard I try it doesn’t seem to work. And even though it hurts I continue to dig deeper. “What happened, why did you guys break up?” I want to know. I want to know about the other girls Knox loved. I know it seems completely crazy but I can’t help but wonder all about them.
“She wasn’t my girlfriend Raegan. It was only a onetime thing. A temporary lapse in judgment and something I regret. I always imagined all my firsts would be with you, even when I thought I’d never see you again I still pictured you. It’s always been you.” I stay quiet as his words settle in. It would be unfair for me to assume he was a saint when he was gone. He’s an e
ighteen year old man, I should be happy it’s not as bad as it could have been, but my heart still hurts.
“Say something Rae you’re too quiet.”
“I don’t know, I guess it just hurt to hear that.” I say honestly. My voice squeaks as emotion clogs my throat.
“Hey,” he pulls me up until I’m straddling his lap and takes my face between his hands. “I know it hurts, it hurts me too knowing I couldn’t share that first time experience with you, but there will be so many other firsts for us. House’s, weddings and babies, I want it all with you and only you. You’re all I ever wanted and all I’ll ever need.” His words seem to ease my heart, and I relax into him. His hands move from my waist to my breasts and give them a gentle squeeze, igniting the fire from within me.
“Knox!” his name rolls off my tongue as a whimper and a plea all at once. His thumbs come out to caress my already sensitive breasts. A moan of pleasure bubbles out from deep within my throat, only seeming to urge him on further. As his hands move from my breasts to my waist I intentionally grind against him, feeling his hardness press firmly against me.
His large frame comes up and pushes me onto my back, as he climbs on top of me. He’s gentle and soft. The way his body fits against mine is as if we were made for each other. It feels good to be completely enclosed by him. To give him all of the control.
“Lay back for me baby.” his words are horse and laced with lust. I do as he says and move further up the bed towards the head bored. I watch with hooded lids as he ravishes my body from head to toe, stopping directly above by throbbing sex. I blush at the thought of him being so close. I feel his hands start to pry my thighs farther apart and protest the best I can.
“Knox! What are you doing?” I ask watching him. His shoulders seem to have doubled in size. His dark hair is disheveled from a long day of lounging in bed and his eyes are stormy green. He looks like a god hovering above me.
“I’ve been dying to taste you Rae, I fucking need too. Ever since I saw you that first day. I need you to relax baby, I need you to feel.” He manages to press my thighs further apart and I decide to do as he say’s and relax.
I’m taken back when I feel the heat of his breath drift against my sensitive folds. I squirm under his watchful gaze. I feel like I’m under a microscope, like he can see all of my imperfections. At the first lap of his tongue I nearly jump out of my own skin. It feels hot and wet and incredibly good. The sensation is completely new and exciting as it sets my blood on fire. I can’t seem to sit still as I feel his tongue lap at me in places unimaginable.
“Knox! That…” I take a deep breath and thread my fingers through his rough hair, not able to finish my sentence. Lick, lap, slurp, and repeat, over and over again. I feel my body start to climb the high as his tongue hits the sensitive bundle of nerves below. He bites and nibbles sending my body into thousand spasms. I practically explode when he removes one of the hands holding my thighs and starts to rub small circles over my clit, while his tongue laps up the rest of my folds.
“That’s it Rae, that’s my girl.” His fingers and tongue continue his assault as the dirty words continue to fall from his lips. “Give it to me Raegan.” He demands, “Give me the sweet honey I’ve been starving for.” It only takes a few moments before I’m a shaking, convulsing mess. The ride down from the high wasn’t nearly as amazing as the way up, but my body still feels just as amazing.
“Fuck Raegan, you taste fucking amazing.” He licks me clean as I watch in amazement with hooded lids. Knox climbs up my spent body with my juices coating his chin. He comes in for a big wet sloppy kiss. I can still taste myself on him. Just knowing what he just did you my body has me all hot and bothered once again.
“I want inside you.” He practically demands, sliding down his basketball shorts and seating himself at my entrance. He enters me in one thrust, even the wetness from what we just did doesn’t help the friction I feel from being too tight. Knox is huge. Sometimes I feel like he’ll break me completely, other times it takes only minutes to turn me into a quivering shaking mess.
“You’re so tight baby.” I blush at his words. His rhythm is slow and leisurely, and right now I want fast and hard. “Always so tight for me.”
“Knox…faster.” I whimper when I feel him pick up the pace. The size of him hammering against my sensitive sex has my hormones on overdrive. Over and over again his thrusts assault me.
“I love you Raegan, I love you, I love you, I love you.” He repeats those three words like a mantra coming from deep within his soul. He’s still going even when we’ve both reached the ultimate high and are falling back down to the ground in a million different pieces. I feel his body slow down as our orgasms take over and together we fall into complete bliss.
“I love you Knox.” I whisper against his lips as we both come to a still. It takes a minute to get my breathing under control and when I do I’m finally able to concentrate on the Greek god lying on top of me. A bead of sweat coats his thick brow and rolls lazily down the side of his face. I trace my finger after it as it leisurely drips off his chin and falls on my chest. When he finally pulls out of me, I feel the loss completely. He takes all of the warmth and leaves me with nothing but coldness. We lay in bed for a good while just enjoying each other’s company and talking about anything and everything under the sun. Which is why I take it as my only opportunity to tell him about my plans for getting my first job.
“Will you take me to Barney’s Bean’s later?” I ask. I saw a hiring sign on the front window on my way to school yesterday and really want to apply. I don’t want to have to depend on Knox or anyone but myself, and getting a job will be the first step towards that goal.
“That old coffee shop on the corner, why would you want to go there?” his eyebrows shoot up in question.
“I want to apply, there’s a now hiring sign in the window.” I look away, avoiding his penetrating gaze.
“You never told me you were looking for a job Rae, Mr. Dugal would give you a place at the shop if you asked.” It’s nice to know I have that option, but I know I want to do this on my own.
“We can’t be together all the time Knox.” I laugh as he nuzzles my neck and gently push him away.
“Why not?” he whines playfully. “I think it’s kind of fun.” He playfully wiggles his eyebrows.
“Every time we get near each other we go wild. We’re like freakin’ bunny rabbits lately.” I say laughing. “I don’t think Mr. Dugal would appreciate two horny teenagers constantly going at it.” I chastise him. His thumb starts to rub against my nipple, then he pulls away like a sullen puppy.
“Fine…but Mr. Dugal’s daughter just so happens to be the assistant manager at Barney’s, you want me to talk to her for you?”
“You would do that?” I ask incredulously.
“You should know by now I’d do anything for you Raegan.” He plants a soft kiss on my forehead and leaves the comfort of his nice warm bed in exchange for a pair of boxer briefs and a tight black T-shirt. His biceps flex as his ab muscles ripple and pull. He slides the cotton fabric up and over his muscular thighs, obstructing my view of his manhood. “You should probably get up and get dressed Rae. I love you naked, but it’s going to be getting dark soon.” If only we lived somewhere where it was winter eight months out of the year. Winters in Massachusetts seem to last forever. I’d have more time if we had more daylight.
“I seriously need to move somewhere warmer.” I roll my eyes and climb out of his bed and pick up the nearest shirt to me.
“I think we’re lucky, we get all the seasons and all sorts of weather conditions.” He shrugs his shoulders.
“I don’t know if having one month of warm weather and two months of straight rain is fair enough to say we’re lucky Knox.” I search around his room for my panties and leggings. Piece by piece each and every article of clothing I came in with is found again. We continue getting ready and check on his mother on our way out. It’s freezing cold as usual and the sun looks as if it
’s already setting for two o’clock on a Saturday afternoon. My stomach dips as I look at my house as we back down the driveway. Seeing Kurt’s pickup in the middle of the yard is never a good sign. I just hope to god I can get inside unscathed this time.
Chapter 12
Raegan
It’s been a couple weeks since I got the job at the coffee house. Technically I’m a barista, but Alice has me doing a little bit of everything. She swears I’m like a breath of fresh air, since her last hire didn’t work out to well.
From the couple times I’ve met Mr. Dugal I would have never guessed the two were related. Alice is blond and vibrant. A permanent smile is pressed against her lips and her eyes are always shining. Compared to her bald and angry most of the time father the two are complete polar opposites.
Barney’s Beans has turned out to be one of the best decisions I’ve made. I spend more and more time away from my mother and Kurt, with this new job and Knox. The bruises on my arms and body are fading away. The angry purple and blue marks are turning yellow and disappearing altogether. It’s nice, maybe too nice. There’s no way my missing presence has gone unknown in Kurt William’s household. I’m just waiting for the ball to drop.
“Can you grab the dark roast beans from the back Raegan?” Alice says over her shoulder. Her hands are full with a customer’s order, one pouring a fresh brew of coffee and the other cashing them out.
“Yeah sure.” I head on back into the office. It’s small for a business. The oversized closet works both as a storage room and a workspace for Alice. When Knox told me she was the assistant manager I was impressed. When I found out she was actually the manager and owner I was astounded. I have never met someone so young and driven in life. She’s exactly how I want to be. She went to college, has a home and a life she can be proud of. That’s all I’ve ever wanted, to be something my mother and Kurt have never been. And she’s only twenty five.